You’ve Driven Me To Swear

You’ve driven me to swear
Driven me and others to despair
You allowed the govt to not care
Torture degrade, create hate and fear

You’ve driven me to hate
Left me writhing at hell’s gate
Told me there I must wait
Want heaven’s door to be my fate

You’ve driven me insane
In your class war fucking game
They do the wrong, I take the blame
You’re heads you should hang in shame

You’ve driven me to drink
To numb the pain so I don’t think
About right-wing policies that truly stink
And their increasing NAZI link

You’ve driven me to yell
Denied the facts, why I’m not well
Burn here in the fires of hell
Fuelled by corruption of what I tell

You’ve driven me to scream
Give up my lifelong hopes and dream
I want to die you are so mean
Keep asking where my health care been


Judith Collins MP – I see….. a poverty of government responsibility in New Zealand

This is a my response to Judith Collins and I have also sent this to Eric Frykberg at Radio New Zealand.  I will keep you informed if I hear anything from Radio NZ or a response from Judith Collins.

Sent: Thursday, 13 October 2016 5:56 a.m.
Subject: Mentally injured abuse victims refused prof care & rehabilitation by ACC for 30 years

Dear Ms Collins,

I was horrified to read your news item about how you consider crime to be the fault of useless parents and I felt the need to point out that it is the past 30 years of neo-liberal governments that have caused 80% of this.

You were Minister of ACC, you know who I am because I wrote to you many times, I have protested many times about mentally injured abused men women and children not getting the professional treatment care and rehabilitation (safe homes and jobs) they are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

If these parents you say are irresponsible had received the professional health care I have described above, and required under law then they wouldn’t be as dysfunctional as they currently are.  If these people had not been forced to live in poverty for years, degraded and discriminated against by politicians, media and uninformed ignorant citizens then they wouldn’t be dysfunctional.

If mental health services had not been corrupted, shut down and moved to a drug based regime to advance drug companies then they would not be dysfunctional – they would get the child care and other extensive health, rehabilitation and social supports they are entitled to under New Zealand and United Nations laws.

That you would come out with such a statement I find extremely disturbing – blaming the very people you, those you work with and those who support you discriminate against and persecute to the point of violence addiction and suicide suggests you have some sort of mental health issue.   I call people like yourself radicalised for good reason – it is a fact that neo-liberals who imposed immoral degrading reforms since the 1980s created our current violent and dysfunctional society.  Please go to the internet and look up anything about the impacts of neo-liberalism and inequality on developed societies – its all there – there are some excellent TED Talks by world experts.

New Zealand is mentioned many times because of the significant increase in inequality over such a short time and the corresponding social issues that resulted, like crime, homelessness, family violence, sexual violence, addiction, mental illness and suicide.

You said in this article you were being un-PC, this isn’t true, you were being ignorant, bigoted and radical.  The media will only let NICE people respond to your vicious hatred and radical opinions, mostly because our media have been an integral part of the moral degradation of our society into this violent state.

You are immoral, you advance rich people and businesses, disadvantage middle classes and persecute disabled poor.  You terrorise vulnerable minorities of disabled (many abused) men women and children with laws you call reforms, you take their money and their dignity, then you make comments to the media that blame these people for your radical behaviour.

Now the damage National Party have done over the past nine years is causing so much damage in society people like yourself are in complete denial, still trying to pretend this isn’t your fault, when of course we all know it is.  I am just thankful the mainstream media have started to tell the truth about the true drivers of crime, which of course are corrupt, cruel, immoral, bigoted politicians and community leaders.

I would suggest you read my website ( and see all the laws your government violate in order to advance your violent radical ideas.  It also has all the health care and welfare provisions the government are legally supposed to provide but do not.  They would rather borrow money and spend $millions on interest to foreign banks – so they can buy rich people’s votes by cutting rich people’s taxes.  You are a seriously disturbed human being, and with your knowledge of the law I find what you do and what you say even more mentally deranged than other members of your party.

Did you realise Ms Collins that the first law is Westminster Statute the 1st, which says Common right be done to all rich as poor.  Why do you think they made that law?  You do realise moving from a country of equality to one of inequality that advances rich and persecutes poor violates this law.  Next law is Magna Carta, which says you cannot destroy anyone and everyone has access to right and justice.  I am sure you would know from recently Law Society reports and people like Justice Winkleman that thousands of disabled mentally injured and ill people are not getting access to justice (ie they cannot get lawyers – me included).  You would also know all the laws your party has made that stops poor people from having access to lawyers, legal aid and justice.

You would know that your party drove disabled people to look for work, when they are responsible under United Nations to provide jobs for disabled people.  Because of course you would understand in a radicalised capitalist/neo-liberal economic society no employer takes on people who are not 100% fit and able to produce at the maximum output.

Please also consider the information on my website ( as a plea for help to stop police persecuting and harming me for legally protesting about corruption, incompetence and abuse in mental health services – particularly in the Wairarapa where I live.  I have made multiple complaints of crimes under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of the Crimes Act and been told they would not act on these serious complaints of criminal negligence.  You are the minister, please do something about this gross miscarriage of justice.

If you require me to sign a privacy waiver, please advise me as soon as possible.  I am sure as a lawyer and politician you would not like to see a disabled citizen being persecuted, discriminated against and having their human, civil and political rights violated.  Word of law is vitally important to keep peace in a civilised society, without that we are seeing the dysfunction you are describing and blaming on the victims of prolonged terrorism rather than taking responsibility for what you and those like you have done.

Kia kaha to us all – time to admit your mistakes and rectify the terrible dysfunction you have caused in our society.


Civil Society Actor



A new era in mental health care – Regional Rehabilitation Facilities – New Zealand

Another idea to submit for funding for the Innovation Fund – we desperately need this – we are entitled to it.  Could also work in with the Regional Rehabilitation Centres.



Attached please find a rehabilitation model and business plan for Mental Injury Services which outlines where I believe mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims and traumatised people should be going (also for some mentally ill people).  Mental injury being different in nature to mental illness because mental injury is a ‘normal’ person that has been subjected to overwhelming trauma and needs help to recover.  Mental illness is more permanent and requires ongoing care and support.


To provide the professional treatment care habilitation and rehabilitation people with mental injury or illness require there needs to be regional mental health facilities.  Shutting down the extensive mental health facilities in the 1990s (based on improving someone’s human rights – when it actually adversely affected these disabled people more)  is incomprehensible and allowing it to continue is reprehensible.  On the news tonight yet another mentally ill man living in the community has killed, this time his mother, an elderly couple and badly injured his father.  There should be better secure facilities for dangerously mentally ill people, the mental health facilities I am advocating for here do not include these people – this is a Fence At the Top of the Cliff – not ambulance at the bottom.  Until people could prove they are safe they would not have access to these facilities.


It is too distressing for me to go into the extensive reasons New Zealand (and many other countries) desperately need facilities and safe housing for people with mental health issues.  Facilities to help them heal and those to help them keep busy and feel valued. 


The extensive use of pharmaceuticals to try and control people, who more importantly need the basic needs met (please refer Maslow’s Heirachy of Needs), is part of the failure of mental health services and a gross miscarriage of justice.  The use of pharmaceuticals was a result of neo-liberal theories that it was cheaper to give a person a drug and put them in the community than actually providing professional treatment care and rehabilitation.  News reports have stated the government undertook to make the mental health services drug based to save money – it hasn’t.  Many of these drugs are highly experimental and have been linked to increases in psychopathy, suicide, mass murders and psychosis.  All the things they are supposed stop, they actually create.


I envisage these mental health centres be based on professional rehabilitation practices with client based approach and practical therapies like gardening – opportunities to participate in growing food etc.  Working in the earth is very good therapy and can be used to reduce stress if the person goes back in the community.  Group therapy is important as people will need to be able to communicate and support each other in the community, learning skills here will help in society.  It will help people who have been mentally injured pass on what they learn and experience to others. 


Art is another huge part of healing and therapy in the area of mental health with traumatised people having highly active right brains.  People should be able to explore their creativity and see it come to fruition if possible.  The cultural value for society is extensive and could lead to further work and recognition outside the mental health facility.  Talent could be identified and advanced with advocacy.  I envisage cultural events like plays, exhibitions etc that would entertain international visitors along with making souvenirs perhaps. 


I envisage six week ‘retreats’ for mentally injured people with rehabilitation in the community prior to the retreats and following them, until the person is well enough to live independently, if that is possible.


ACC to build regional mental health facilities to cater to the people I have described above.  Put the $billions they have invested in foreign markets, businesses that destroy the planet, security providers, into building these facilities.  Make them of a very high quality using sustainable building practices, similar to the Regional Rehabilitation Centres.  The mental health facilities will have accommodation for clients and support staff – mental health challenges happen 24 hours a day seven days a week.

The Innovation of Collaboration – Regional Rehabilitation Centres in New Zealand

Am currently writing my submission for government innovation funding and felt I needed to put it on my website.  I’m only half way through editing and will post the finalised version soon.  Information on this website will make up part of my submission – have to keep focused on moving forward and doing what I know is right – as the current situation with police, ACC and others is dragging me into the darklands of hell on a regular basis.

Kia kaha to us all – NECESSITY IS THE MOTHER OF INVENTION – nobody can say I don’t have solutions to the issues I repeatedly complain about.


The potential to positively transform New Zealand’s economic performance, the sustainability and integrity of our environment, help strengthen our society and give effect to the Treaty of Waitangi



It is a fundamental flaw in neo-liberal capitalism that 80% of the people who are disabled in some way and cannot provide for themselves or not work at 100% capacity are consigned to lives of poverty and unfulfilled aspirations.  In my opinion it is the most serious sign of an uncivilised society to not provide for those less fortunate – allowing strong to attack weak is against multiple laws (including religious ones). 


My submission combines the medical sciences (particularly Occupational Therapy) with law and the untapped creativity and unrealised productivity of the 100,000s of disabled people living in New Zealand.  It also addresses issues successive governments and researchers have identified about unemployment, violence, addiction and suicide/mental health issues.


The three main areas of innovation I am applying for involve Disability Services, NZs Disabled Creative workforce and Mental Health – these would also be eligible for research funding as I envisage all three to be teaching and data gathering environments.


I am particularly guided in my innovations by government disability documents, signed United Nations documents, along with ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and Bill of Rights legislation.  Necessity being the mother of invention when your area of expertise is stress disorders, poverty, disability, law and living the current nightmare of social dysfunction created by radicalised capitalism (ie neo-liberalism).

Scientifically it is recognised that traumatised people have high blood flow to the right brain, the creative brain – a physiological change in how the brain functions that ensured the success of our species when confronted with life-threatening situations.  This is a state many disabled and mentally injured people now experience in our neo-liberal society.


Although my ideas fit within parts of the application for funding under this mechanism, there seems to be other parts which are barriers to the fulfilment of my ideas because I am not part of an organisation.  I would suggest this isolation, my 14 years of full time study in this area and my extensive breadth of knowledge and personal experience are what make me an innovator (with necessity being the mother of invention).  I see my ideas as an ‘innovation of collaboration’ by turning laws, research and rhetoric into practical useful resources and services for all citizens.


This is indeed an investment that focuses on long-term transformative impact for those affected by disability, poverty, violence, addiction, mental injury and mental illness.  This is a Top of The Cliff innovation in the area of mental health and welfare – not the current Bottom Of The Cliff mentality lead by people obsessed with neo-liberal economic theories of providing services to those who cost the most – eg those who end up in the justice system and causing harm in society.  In the area of disability caused by accident, including sexual and physical abuse, ACC are supposed to be the experts and have the resources to contribute significantly to ensure these innovations are realised quickly, professionally and regionally.  It would be fundamentally wrong and flawed to exclude people who were disabled by illness or born with disability – they have a right to work (and self-actualise) as do injured people – it would just require funding to come from a different avenue. 


I envisage some of the $4billion annual savings by ACC could be INVESTED in these centres and in the disabled people of New Zealand so they can contribute and have the opportunity to fulfil their potention.


I will also take this opportunity to suggest how these centres can be put into operation extremely quickly (which would also work for social housing).  As I walk around Wellington and travel the roads I see huge resources going into public and private works, resources that could be diverted for a very short time (say 2 weeks) to focus on these regional disability centres (and maybe the same done for mental health facilities – which I think are more appropriately set in more rural/quiet areas).  This would include site works – similar to what is happening on our roads and building works, like those used to refurbish Ministry of Health building, Ministry of Education and Victoria University.  Whatever resources are used, business people and tradespeople should have the opportunity to participate as an integral part of strengthening our society.


I believe suitable land should be taken under the Public Works Act and particularly from owners who are hampering development for personal gain.


My inspiration is watching television home renovation programmes and watching Mormon churches being built in very short time frames by large numbers of people.  I expect many people involved in such a project who I am sure would become proud of the part they play – especially when the rewards of such work become realised (I predict significant almost instantaneous decreases in violence, addiction and suicide statistics).


Such a large project would of course take some organisation, however it would be easily done as we have many people in New Zealand who have had experience.


It may of course be more cost effective and appropriate to purchase an existing building for conversion in some cases – as I see these rehabilitation centres being near the heart of our communities rather than on the fringes, while, as I said above, the mental health rehabilitation centres being in quieter more healing environments.





It has been proven to me repeatedly and based on professional research that Non-Government Organisations do not work in mental health environments – which I see each of these areas being.    It has also been proven that basing mental health care on the current drug based experimental system, which fails to provide the necessaries of life (as outlined by Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs) is also a failure.


At a recent event organised by the Human Rights Commission the Special Rapporteur for Disability advised that as Governments had signed the Convention on the Rights of People with Disabilities in 2008 and other United Nations documents, it was their responsibility to provide the services/resources required to fulfil its obligations, not ‘the community’.  Four years ago I was also part of an event that discussed fiscal responsibility in the area of crime, where a speaker (Mike Bazette) referred to extensive studies in UK that pointed to NGOs being unreliable and untrustworthy to deal with with disabled people who had high needs/challenging behavioural issues (ie they said one thing and did another).  As a result those clients who society wanted to get more services actually got less, which caused significant increases in crime, violence, addiction and social dysfunction.  I can confirm this is happening in New Zealand currently, also with the government demanding public mental health services operate under commercial models, it is happening in this system.


It is a neo-liberal philosophy to introduce as much private enterprise into all aspects of our society, including health care, to this end governments have made it more and more difficult for people to access health care so they are driven by necessity and desperation to pay for it themselves (eg Capri Hospital & increasing need for health insurance).  If they cannot pay for it themselves they are subject to ongoing persecution and inhuman living environments.  Recent advertising by Capri targeted middle class and affluent parents of young people who had drug addiction – offering far superior services to what the public system would.


In more recent times neo-liberalism has been exposed as an extremely socially destructive economic philosophy with all the outcomes contributing to inequality (concentrations of power and money in small groups with unprecedented political influence), poverty, violence, addiction, suicide, unemployment and under-employment. 


A series of documentaries called The Hard Stuff by Nigel Latta touched on some of the issues this radicalised form of capitalism has created in NZ and other modern societies.  So have documentaries by Bryan Bruce.  A premise of neo-liberalism is everybody is responsible for themselves which contradicts human nature and us as social animals living in large organised ‘civilised’ societies, reliant on each other for physical and psychological good health.


Every region in New Zealand should have a habilitation/rehabilitation centre where people with disabilities of all types can go and work, within the capabilities, doing worthwhile rewarding work that fulfils their self-actualising, psychosocial and physical needs.


I envisage these centres to consist of a large warehouses capable of building homes for disabled people.  Housing being the greatest area of need and unmet government responsibility at the moment, building houses is the most practical thing to do, especially with disabled people being the most adversely affected by the current severe housing shortages.


“In times of high unemployment it is disabled people who suffer most.”

Person to Person, Lindsay Gething, 3rd ed 2006


These centres would also be training places for Occupational Safety and Health professionals, health workers, Occupation Therapists, etc and research and development in the area of disability support services/devices.  Work would be done by teams, based on the capabilities and talents of the disabled person working with others however no mentally injured sex offenders working with mentally injured abuse victims, or potentially dangerous people working with vulnerable.  Developing teams and schedules would be done with mental health professionals to ensure supportive safe environments.


These Centres would be available to all physically and psychologically disabled people.  Will run using professionals in health and habilitation and rehabilitation processes and models.  It will also follow legal requirements. 


I have spoken to several people with disabilities who are unable to work and they were extremely enthusiastic about the idea of being able to work in a group doing something within their capabilities and valuable to society.  A man I know with a bad back, he injured when a child, was very keen to be part of a centre like this.  He and I have talked about the isolation of being unemployed and being despised for it, it seemed especially difficult for a man.  Because he can do some things on good days he couldn’t work for a traditional employer because of his need to not sit too long or stand too long – or not be able to work at all on bad days.  Sadly people saw him selling scrap metal and judged him for being a bludger on welfare.


I can picture these rehab centres with 2 or 3 houses at various stages of completion, surrounded by equipment that would enable people with physical disabilities to work.  Equipment that perhaps could be developed and improved with onsite collaboration between disabled people and engineers.  Surrounded by specially designed scaffolding.  There would be rooms for health care/rehabilitation professionals, rooms for massage, physiotherapy and rest for clients. 


Healthy food would be provided so people didn’t have to do their own meals and some of those people who prepared it should also be disabled, perhaps adding variety to their weeks work and could get training as well.  There should be gardens attached to the rehabilitation centre to provide vegetables and fruit as growing food is an important life skill when you don’t have a lot of money and extremely good therapy. 


There must be a good transport network for people attending these rehabilitation centres, they should be picked up at their door and taken home, if they need that. 


Given New Zealands need for an increased labour force during fruit picking season that teams of disabled people with specialist equipment for these jobs are sent to work in orchards, market gardens, etc.  Remuneration for their work would be paid to the Rehabilitation Centre and distributed in a fair manner.  Disabled should could also be considered a flexible labour force and centres should allow for this.


Disabled people working at rehabilitation centres must be paid a reasonable wage (provided a reasonable income) with perhaps 2-3 different pay grades.  Every person who contributes to building a house in some way should be eligible to own one of those houses when available (or perhaps be eligible for a state house loan).  It is a cultural and human right to own your own home and disabled people who are unable to work should not be excluded from this.  There are multiple economic and social advantages to society for a disabled vulnerable person to have their own safe home to live in, especially as they age.   This would also be adhering to the Disability Action Plan and Strategy and Declaration on Disabled Rights, also Human Rights and economic rights.

These rehabilitation centres would be a hub of employment for support workers, educators, tradespeople and health professionals.  Also places where able bodied and disabled people undertook formal training that was absent from the local community or not.


This regional rehabilitation centre idea came to me during a recent meeting on disability rights (at Te Papa with Catarina Aguila), a tall/large tetraplegic man in a wheelchair spoke about not having access to most disabled areas because his wheelchair was so large.  He was obvious an intelligent man around 30 and deeply distressed by his physical impairments.  I thought about what he could do in this facility and pictured him organising building materials and managing work plans for upcoming construction, on the phone a lot or a specialised computer as he had very limited use of his hands.


Many years ago I read a book called Think and Grow Rich (rich in all areas of life) and it talked a lot about being rich in potential and just finding out what that potential was, irrelevant of perceived limitations.  For example a man taught his partially deaf son that his disability was going to be an advantage when he was a man not a hindrance.  The boy ended up being a very successful sales rep and developer for a hearing aid manufacturer.


People at these rehabilitation centres should also have access to business, research and development funding and resources, so we can tap into people’s creativity.  I believe giving disabled people the opportunity to reach their potential (also self-actualise) would be a competitive advantage internationally.


The psycho-social benefits of these regional rehabilitation centres cannot be under-estimated with the WHO and UN identifying the increasing problems with social cohesion in developed countries.  These centres will strengthen our society.


I have never ever met a person who doesn’t want to work, especially a disabled person, but nobody should be expected to work in physical pain and no intelligent person should be expected to do particularly mundane work for long periods of time.  These centres should be about balance and those things identified as necessaries of a good life in Maslow’s Heirachy of Needs.


I believe through these rehabilitation centres people with ‘talents’ could be identified and placed in jobs in public and private enterprise – or contracted to them perhaps.  I know personally in mental health there are some very intelligent people – in fact intelligence can worsen mental health issues in many cases.  Many of these people are also highly creative, innovation and creativity being something Nigel Latta identified in his recent documentary as important to the development of a high wage economy and lowering of unemployment and poverty.


It is imperative and sensible for the homes (or other things) manufactured/created in these centres use sustainable, environmentally friendly products as a priority.   That they also support NZ manufacturers to avoid miles travelled where possible.  They should have their own electricity generation options, like solar, window power, dynamos, etc.


The nature of the centres will allow for experimentation and labour intensive manufacturing/construction, areas the private sector avoids.  I envisages houses being made with extra wide doorways, large bathrooms, etc.  Also manufacturing of special features in the centre.  Designed and built with specific disabled people in mind, working with the person and Occupational Therapists.


Support of disabled workers to be run through multi-disciplinary teams, as outlined in Shrawan Kumar’s book Multi-disciplinary Approach to Rehabilitation.




Attached please find a rehabilitation model and business plan for Mental Injury Services which outlines where I believe mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims, traumatised people should be going (also for some mentally ill people).  Mental injury being different in nature to mental illness because mental injury is a ‘normal’ person that has been subjected to overwhelming trauma and needs help to recover.  Mental illness is more permanent and requires ongoing care and support.


To provide the professional treatment care and rehabilitation people with mental injury or illness require there needs to be regional mental health facilities.  Shutting down mental health facilities based on improving someone’s human rights – when it actually adversely affected these disabled people more is incomprehensible – and allowing it to continue reprehensible.  On the news tonight yet another mentally ill man living in the community has killed, this time his mother and badly injured his father. 


It is too distressing for me to go into the extensive reasons New Zealand (and many other countries) desperately need facilities and safe housing for people with mental health issues.  Facilities to help them heal and those to help them keep busy and feel valued.  The extensive use of pharmaceuticals to try and control people who more importantly need the basic needs met (please refer Maslow’s Heirachy of Needs) is a gross miscarriage of justice.  The use of pharmaceuticals was a result of neo-liberal theories that it was cheaper to give a person a drug and put them in the community than actually providing professional treatment care and rehabilitation.  News reports have stated the government undertook to make the mental health services drug based to save money – it hasn’t.  Many of these drugs are highly experimental and have been linked to increases in psychopathy, suicide, mass murders and psychosis.  All the things they are supposed stop, they actually create.


I envisage these mental health centres be based on holistic practices with opportunities to participate in growing food etc – working in the earth is very good therapy and can be used once the person is back in the community.  Group therapy is important as people will need to be able to communicate and support each other in the community, learning skills here could help in society.  Help people who have been mentally injured pass on what they learn and know to others.  Art is another huge part of healing and therapy in the area of mental health with traumatised people having highly active right brains.  People should be able to explore their creativity and see it come to fruition if possible.  The cultural value for society is extensive and could lead to further work and recognition outside the mental health facility.  Talent could be identified and advanced with advocacy.


I envisage six week ‘retreats’ for mentally injured people with rehabilitation in the community prior to the retreats and following them, until the person is well enough to live independently.



Judge B Davidson – corrupt elitist pig – New Zealand

Below is the ruling of Judge B Davidson in a private prosecution I tried to take against the government – I only chose John Key because I didn’t know who I should do it to, so I chose the boss.  This judge recently discharged a rugby player without conviction for a violent assault of four people.  Following the ruling I’ll put the details of my case and how I told the judge I couldn’t get a lawyer to help me so just did what I thought was right.  Also this judge is the one who put me on to the Imperial Laws Application Act, which proves without doubt neo-liberalism is illegal and magna carta is being violated.

I made a formal complaint about him to Office of Judicial Conduct – they ignored me.

23 June 2015   CRI 2015-035-000633





1.    Ms Routhan seeks to file five charging documents against the Prime Minister alleging offences under the Crimes of Torture Act 1989 and Crimes Act 1961 and the Magna Carta 1215.

2.     Each is supported by a brief explanatory note and a statement from her dated 19 June 2015.  As well she has lodged 179 photographs and a copy of a book.  The black book of poetry, apparently dedicated to ‘casualties of abuse and neglect’.

3.    For reasons which I will explain shortly it is unnecessary for me to detail those particulars, her statements, the photographs and the book content.  I have however, read it all.  In essence the material provides widespread and broad allegations of her torture and abuse at the hands of the state.  The charges are levelled at the Prime Minister for failing to provide her appropriate protection, treatment and care.

4.     Under s 26(3) I direct that the five charging documents not be accepted for filing as each is an abuse of process.

5.    In particular:

5.1    The charge document alleging an offence under s 3 of Crimes of Torture Act 1989 requires the Attorney General’s consent, under s 12 to prosecute.  No such consent has been provided.

5.2    The charging documents under Sections 150A and 151 Crimes Act 1961 do not disclose any offence with any degree of particularity at all.  The sections referred to set out the standard of care required of certain persons and the duty itself to provide necessaries and protect from injury.  Neither charging document contains any particulars of the time, date, place or occasion of breach, who by and how.  The only detail given is as to date (between January 2009 and June 2015) and place (various addresses in Wainuiomata and Wairarapa).

5.3    The charging documents under sections 39 and 40 Magna Carta 1215 rely on sections that are not part of New Zealand law.  The only clause of the Magna Carta applicable in New Zealand is section 29: Section section 3 and schedules 1 and 2 Imperial Laws Application Act 1988.



The following are the statements I made attached to each form for filing these private prosecutions – I tell him I don’t know what I’m doing and can’t get a lawyer that I am entitled to.

19 June 2015

 Statement by JER Carterton

 I have been chalking section 40 of the Magna Carta around Wellington streets since 2009 when ACC illegally withdrew all my health care.  There is a copy of what it says on my wall.  “To no-one will we sell, to no-one will we delay or deny right or justice.”

 If I could afford a lawyer I would have one to ensure I was getting the professional health care I know I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.  I would also ensure I was getting the right and justice I am seeking in regard to my health care and ability to represent myself.  It is imperative a judge adjudicates on the issues I have with the government (through ACC, mental health services and welfare agencies) and the corruption of neo-liberal political theories disabled poor people are currently suffering under in New Zealand.

 People are very angry, I am very angry watching what I know to be cruel, immoral, inhuman treatment of thousands of abused, mentally injured (like myself) and mentally ill people in New Zealand.  Every police officer I have ever discussed this with agrees what is happening is wrong.  When I am before a court for protesting (wilful trespass) about this issue every person, including the judge have their heads about as low as they can and most cannot look at me.  They know what I am saying is right.

 It is not right that the government can cut health and welfare services to mentally injured and mentally ill people, who are then ending up in the justice system as a matter of neo-liberal process.  I don’t end up in the court system for violence or crimes against innocent people, I am there for passionately protesting about what is happening to me and others as I know it to be so wrong.

 I can read law, I was studying to be a lawyer in 2001 before I was raped and mentally injured.  I know what I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.  I know this but I have never been able to take my claims of criminal negligence and injustice to a court because of impairments related to my disability and a lack of money.  As I have been forced to live on welfare for the past 13 years.

 I have done EVERYTHING in my power to have these injustices dealt with to no avail.  I have proof of complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights Commission and Review Tribunal – I was not believed. 

 The lawyers who took me years to find are John Miller and another woman I cannot remember her name now.  John Miller had my case for a year then told me it was too complicated and he could not act for me (he took the $1000 legal aid though).  The other woman had my case through ACC, after I had won my first review to get my care from 2009 back and ACC refused I went on a 46 day hunger strike.

 My lawyer at the time begged me to stop as she could not get the case heard before I would have died.  I stopped and became severely suicidal waiting for her to take my case to the District Court we had agreed.  I waited for weeks in the most terrible torment, trying to stay alive and not let my dysfunction impact on my children.  She had even given me a date she would be taking it to court, when this date passed and I heard nothing I phoned her and she told me she had lied and taken my case to a second review hearing.  I sacked her on the spot – if your lawyer is prepared to lie to you when you are that ill then she is incompetent and corrupt.

 I won the second review, though was unable to participate in it as I was very unwell.  That was around four years ago now and it wasn’t until two months ago that ACC phoned me and said they were going to reinstate my care similar to what it had been in 2009.  I am supposed to be seeing a psychiatrist next week for yet another assessment, which they refused to waive, in order to have my care reinstated.  I have seen Dr Alan Doris before and he has been extremely critical of ACC for the way they dumped me from care in 2009.  The report is in my boxes of files somewhere but I cannot find it or look for it as I become highly suicidal and want to self-harm.

 This letter to accompany the charging documents under Section 40 of the Magna Carta 1215 is to also show that I desperately need a lawyer in order to get protection and justice.  I have phoned so many lawyers and been told they were not trained in the area of law I was discussing, were too busy, my case was too complicated and others would not do it because I would have been needing legal aid.  Please refer to my poems about John Miller Law and Something’s Wrong Tony Ellis.

 Please refer to my book of poetry The Black Book (ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5) and photographs submitted to the court in relation to the five charges.  I am not in a position to replicate this information five times.

 My only criminal charge is of the Law Society in Wellington when I went there and refused to leave until they provided me with professional representation and protection of a lawyer to force ACC and mental health to provide me the care I knew I was entitled to, and protect me from the police who were being used to intimidate and bully me. 

 I will be in court again on 8 July in Masterton for wilful trespass of Masterton Hospital for a protest I did on the law outside the DHB offices earlier this year. 

 Having exhausted all formal avenues for justice over the past 13 years since I was raped, activism and protesting are all that is left for me.  Speaking truth to power was my new year’s resolution (after I was violently arrested Xmas Eve, when sick with the flu and distraught about my unstable living situation).

 In this submitting these Charging Documents I knowing they don’t have all the stories of what has happened to me and I cannot repeat them again as my disorder Complex Post Traumatic Stress disorder is also compounding.  What this means is if I recollect too many traumatic experiences at one time I become severely traumatised and cannot function, will be prone to self-harm and could commit suicide.  (Although with prayer and will I have managed to stay alive this long – not that it is a real life – being constantly bombarded with thoughts of suicide and death at the hands of yourself is no different to being threatened with death by another person on a daily basis – the impact on the psych is the same.)

Because of the impairments related to my disability (which under law must be accommodated if possible) it would not be right or just to refuse to allow this charge against John Key Prime Minister to go through to the next stage in front of a judge to decide. 

In that time I hope either the courts will appoint me a lawyer or I will have the strength I need to gather together the further evidence to prove my case of injustice and being denied right and justice because I do not have the money to pay for legal representation.

I have become emotional and can’t stop crying, so I will have to end here and pray with all my heart that what I have said and given you to-date will be sufficient to succeed through to a court hearing.

Earlier this week the government had a function organised by Chistopher Finlayson to commemorate the Magna Carta – the very people who are abusing it are pretending they abide by it.  This is not true and this must be addressed, thousands of innocent abused and disabled people are suffering prolonged neglect and poverty.  They are being left in inappropriate, unstable, unsafe housing in the community and from a recent poll of discrimination it was found over 50% of people would not like mentally ill people living next to them.

This document and charge is related to five other charges I am bringing against John Key under various criminal laws, all filed today 19 June 2015, the 800th Anniversary of the signing of the Magna Carta.

I would like to refer you to the NZ National Anthem and the line that says we will be protected from dissension envy and hate – I can assure you this is what we have in New Zealand now after 30 years of austerity against the poor and vulnerable while advancing the wants of the rich and powerful.

I have attached a copy of a statement of account for legal aid debt from last year when Michael Bott represented me against the Law Society wilful trespass charge and two other charges (that were dropped) of ACC and Ministry of Health in Wellington.  I get $400 per week on invalid’s benefit and have to apply for this every three months or it would be $315 (it is nothing more than repeated degradation).  My rent is $250, I am unable to sustain flatmates as I am continuously victimized by people I have lived with (including two attempting suicide) and even further traumatised.  I would like to tell the court about all these experiences when it is appropriate and in a safe place.

If I do in fact get my care back, which I don’t believe I will, as ACC have lied repeatedly then I hope to be well enough to talk about what has happened to me as a disabled abuse victim begging for care, being a parent, daughter, sister, friend and citizen.  It is happening to me and it is happening to many I meet when I am protesting, the stories break my heart and motivate me to go to such extremes as taking a private prosecution just so I can get this gross miscarriage of justice exposed and stopped.

 Kia kaha to us all


19 June 2015

Statement by JER, Carterton

 I am about to start this and the emotion is overwhelming me, how the police have been used to intimidate and bully me for demanding and needing the professional health care promised under ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws is persecution and torture.

 How I am treated by the police varies greatly depending on the person,  I would like to refer to my police file at this point to highlight all the times I have been seen by police, have been detained by police and been prosecuted by police. 

 I am not able to look at my police file as it makes me very unwell, I got a copy of it a few years ago and on page 3 it said I was ‘mental’ and a danger to police safety.  I wasn’t able to read past that and have had a rocky relationship with police since ACC illegally cut all my care in 2009, after National became the government and installed neo-liberal Business Round Table advocate John Judge, then Paula Rebstock.

 Can the judge please consider my police file as being evidence to what has been happening me as I fight for the care I know I am entitled to.  Please note that all complaints to police about me being suicidal are from people who are public servants and/or agents of the government.  I would tell these people I was begging for help or justice from how bad I felt and they would phone police but never help me get care.  This is a gross miscarriage of justice and proof what is happening in the real world I live in is very different to what the government and these agencies promote.

 It makes me want to be violently ill when I think that forcing suicidal people to take their clothes off and put on the crazy suit is police policy and when I tried to challenge it as being extremely degrading and against human rights laws I was ignored.  They only got my clothes off me once, during my first protest, chalking Journalists are Maggots on the Times Age building in Masterton.  When I got down to my underwear I was told to take them off as well, I had my period and said I couldn’t – I was told I had to.  That is when my respect for the police and the government ended.  I told the officer I would fight her for my underwear as there was no way I was going to let blood run down my leg in front of so many men.  This policy is not law and therefore was not subject to scrutiny under Bill of Rights and Human Rights laws.

 Over the past 30 years as neo-liberalism has relentlessly destroyed our unique Kiwi culture these attacks and laws on suicidal people have steadily increased.  It are the policies that are driving people to suicide and then the government and authorities blame the victims for a completely human response to an inhuman living environment. 

 New Zealand is a beautiful country, there is enough resources for everybody to have the necessaries of life.  Giving massive tax cuts to the wealthiest people and organisations in this country while at the same time stopping poor people (rich people can still get this care and justice) from getting the health care and justice they are entitled to is immoral and against the law.

 Also the massive social issues that have arisen due to high unemployment and concentration of wealth into the richest 20% of society – are being somehow blamed on the victims of these social issues, like violence, mental illness, poverty, ill health etc.  It was very sad to see all the changes that have been made to the Social Welfare and Social Security Acts over the past decade, all aimed at blaming those who can’t get work.  When we all know deregulation, free trade and neo-liberalism was instrumental in hundreds of thousands of manufacturing jobs moving offshore to be done by people who are treated like slaves in poorer countries.

 I will be addressing this issue in another private charge in the near future.

 I told a judge recently, when going through the court system over my protests at Masterton Hospital that I will take no more – and I won’t.  No more are you going to treat disabled, abused, mentally injured and ill people like you are.  Everybody knows it is wrong – EVERYBODY.

 I know other people who are degraded and persecuted by police for being suicidal and I have experiences of people who attempted suicide who were living with me that I would like to be able to present to the court.  I cannot talk about them now I am too unwell.

 I would like all book of poetry The Black Book ISBN 978-0-473-31199-5 to form part of this case but I do not have the resources to do a copy for each of the five charges.  I would also like all my photographs to form part of this.

 Please help me get a lawyer, there is so much you don’t know, so many things.  These people have driven me insane, they have turned my family and community against me, just because I couldn’t get the professional health care I was entitled to.

 I can’t go on with this document.

 Kia kaha to us all.


19 June 2015

Statement by JER, Carterton

My evidence of this torture is contained in my The Black Book of poetry ISBN 978-0-473-

31199-5 and in the selection of 179 photographs I have presented showing my ongoing years of protests and the art works I have done.  If this charge goes through to the next stage I will be able to discuss in more detail what was happening in many of these photos.  There are also videos I wanted to submit as part of this complaint but was unable to download them, due to lack of knowledge.  These also would form part of my case if this goes further.

I have also included a few letters of the type I have been sending since 2002, when I was raped and started trying to get the professional health care I was entitled to and needed to heal from my mental injury, return to work and study as well as parent my two children to the best of my ability.

I have years of letters and emails to prove my case of torture, but I am only able to give you what I have now as I do not have legal representation to help me.  I hope and pray with all my heart that this evidence will be proof enough that my private prosecution case is sufficient to go to the next step and I get these injustices against me decided on by a judge.  As required under the Magna Carta 2015.

Please consider all evidence for the five charges I have levelled at the prime minister under this charge.  I do not have the resources or fortitude to provide all documents for each charge.

I find it desperately sad that I am having to take this action when I know the law and know how I should be treated and what justice I am supposed to be receiving.  I know I am extremely insignificant and you will see from some of my poetry and songs, consider myself human sewage.  My poetry repeatedly refers to being traumatised and tortured.

 Because of my stress disorder I have been discredited by other justice and health agencies.  However I do have a report (ordered by the court when mental health refused) last year by Justin Barry-Walsh that states, I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  This is what mental health and justice services had been saying for years (not Alan Doris) just those services who were rejecting me over and over again.  Mostly because of underfunding of mental health services to the point of abuse and criminal neglect.

 If Justin is right –which of course he is then I have every right and every reason to take the government and John Key to court for torturing me.  It also hurts me deeply watching other people I know being harmed in this way and so many stories when I am protesting of people suffering and killing themselves.  I cannot take a charge of murder or manslaughter because I am not dead – no matter how many times I have come so close following abuse and discrimination by mental health and justice services.  For me it has to be torture and it is.  Being told there are services, reading in the law how disabled sick people are supposed to be treated and experiencing exactly the opposite drives you insane.

 I can’t go on with this statement.

Kia kaha to us all.


19 June 2015


Statement by JER, Carterton

 Please refer to all the information I have given for the other four charges I have bought against John Key, I do not have the resources or ability to reproduce everything for each charge.

Please ensure this charge goes through to the next level so I can prove and gather together the years of evidence I have that my standard of care was unprofessional and influenced by neo-liberal political theories rather than scientific fact.

I am feeling very unwell and would like the opportunity to present my evidence in the future, when hopefully I have the support of the health providers I know I am entitled to and the legal representation the Magna Carta guarantees me.

Kia kaha to us al


19 June 2015

 Offence description:

 That John Key had legal duty to provide professional health care to me as a mentally injured disabled person and did not.  Also the standard of care did not follow international and professionally recognised models of treatment care and rehabilitation. 

 It was him as leader of National who coerced public servants and health professionals to discriminate and neglect those people who had mental health issues and were living in poverty.


19 June 2015

 Statement by JER, Carterton

 The horrendous and unsafe situations I have been subjected to while supposedly disabled and under care of the NZ government are varied and across all sectors of welfare, health and justice.  This is why I consider John Key, the Prime Minister as ultimately responsible.  It is his power and influence that has created this gross miscarriage of justice against abused and traumatised people who become dysfunctional and suicidal – due to neglect and lack of professional health care.

 Please refer to the photographs and book of poetry I have submitted under Crimes of Torture as being part of this charge.  I do not have the resources or ability to replicate this information for all five charges.  Please refer to all information I have supplied during these five charges.

 Please give me the opportunity to find justice by allowing this charge to progress – of not providing the necessaries of life and to protect from further injury.  To disclose this now would cause me considerable harm – nothing less than any violently raped or abused person would experience when challenging their abuser.

 Please get me a lawyer and refer to my rap song Wherefore Art Thou ACC about how I have won two other cases in the Environment Court and Employment court representing myself/my business (as president of Capital Offroaders and owner of Enzo’s Pizza).  It is obvious I was capable of presenting myself then, but am not now – which was caused by my disability and mental health issues.

 When the person who raped you is found not guilty by a jury of nine white haired old men, one old woman and one woman who looked intellectually handicapped, even when admitted he was asleep and had plied you with alcohol before he did it – it degrades and destroys you in ways you cannot even imagine.

 Kia kaha to us all


19 June 2015

 Offence Description

 That John Key failed to provide necessaries and protect from injury a recognised sick person.

 Especially with regard to accommodation, provision of professional health services and protection from further injury after a series of unsafe living situations.  


Offence Description – Crimes of Torture Act 1989 – Section 3

 That John Key as Prime Minister of New Zealand has committed acts of torture against disabled abused mentally injured and mentally ill people like myself by not providing professional treatment, care and rehabilitation as required under New Zealand’s ACC, health, disability, criminal, human rights and bill of rights laws.

 This particularly refers to those people removed from ACC care in 2009 (of which I was one) as a result of government pressure and the appointment of John Judge a well known proponent of neo-liberalism and member of the Business Round Table and NZ Initiative group.  They did not change the law and caused harm to hundreds of people on ACC.

 These acts of torture also were perpetrated by the Ministry of Social Development and the ongoing ‘reforms’ aimed at disabled poor people on welfare.



I have been told repeatedly by Legal Services Agency I am can get legal aid but am told by hundreds of lawyers I have rung that there is nobody doing civil legal aid currently.  When I challenged the Ministry of Justice about this through email they stopped replying to me, when I went into their office at the High Court I was told there was nothing they could do and was trespassed when I started singing and reciting poetry about this gross miscarriage of justice.

Then when I went back to try and watch Tony Ellis take a case of torture against the Attorney General and 3 DHBs – so I would know how to do the case myself - I was assaulted by security (which I made a complaint to police about) and refused entry.

Now I’m in court for using chalk pen to draw a swastika on the High Court and breach of trespass.  Also for chalking a swastika and LIES etc on Appeal Court building that has words all around it talking about human rights and justice.

Sadly NZ media know all of this and so do several MPs but they do nothing.


Human Rights in New Zealand – what is a Civil Society?

I have been avoiding beginning my response to the new book by Judy McGregor, Sylvia Bell and Margaret Wilson called Human Rights in New Zealand – Emerging Faultlines.  One of the hurdles was their book structure included in each chapter, the involvement of ‘Civil Society’.

I do not believe we have a civil society after the years of discrimination and failure of the Word of Law I have experienced.  So my first chapter will be dedicated to establishing what a Civil Society is and prove New Zealand is no longer operating in one.

It has also been necessary to start this at my local library on my website because my home computer no longer operates without an electrical cord and I become so traumatised and unwell when alone at home doing this it isn’t safe.  Being around people helps, even if they do not know what I am doing – although it does make me feel further alienated, marginalised and isolated at the same time.

You have to go to Wikipedia of course when you are looking for definitions  I was drawn to the root of the phrase – the Etymology

The term civil society goes back to Aristotle‘s phrase koinōnía politikḗ (κοινωνία πολιτική), occurring in his Politics, where it refers to a ‘community’, commensurate with the Greek city-state (polis) characterized by a shared set of norms and ethos, in which free citizens on an equal footing lived under the rule of law. The telos or end of civil society, thus defined, was common wellbeing (τὸ εὖ ζῆν tò eu zēn), in as man was defined as a ‘political (social) animal’ (ζῷον πολιτικόν zōon politikón).[5][6][7][8] Though the concept was mentioned in Roman writers, such as Cicero, it entered into Western political discourse following the translation of Aristotle’s works into Latin (societas civilis) by late medieval and early Renaissance writers such as William of Moerbeke and Leonardo Bruni, where it often referred to the ancient notion of a republic (res publica). With the rise of a distinction between monarchical autonomy and public law, the term then gained currency to denote the corporate estates (Ständestaat) of a feudal elite of land-holders as opposed to the powers exercised by the prince.[9] It had a long history in state theory, and was revived with particular force in recent times, in Eastern Europe, where dissidents such as Václav Havel employed it to denote the sphere of civic associations threatened by the intrusive holistic state-dominated regimes of Communist Eastern Europe.[10]

I am also drawn to the United Nations declarations on human disabled civil economic political etc rights, along with agreements about torture etc.  Their booklet on Civil Society and the role of Civil Society Actors has become important in establishing this definition.  I suppose it is particularly important when dealing with the violence issues I do as an activist in the area of mental health care for mentally injured abuse victims.  As expressions of violence have become so abhorant to our entire society at the same time as we create an environment that drives many traumatised people to violence.  It appears from my extensive study and observations violent people are the new JEW when comparing to the rise of the NAZIs and the resulting emergence of the United Nations as a vehicle of preventing violence and keeping the peace.

I have noted that no organisation government or non-government in fact advocate for or represent mentally injured or ill people who have violence as an impairment related to their disability.  Organisations related to mental health do not want to be associated with people who become violent as a result of their disorders.  I have heard it myself at a mental health art facility in Lower Hutt where it was expressed how many more violent and dangerous people attended the art workshop in Upper Hutt – that the people in Lower Hutt weren’t like that.

The most definitive proof of course are the numbers of mentally ill people in or going through our justice and prison system for violence offences.  It is estimated 70% of prison inmates have mental health issues and the majority of these have histories of their own abuse.

I myself have violence issues, uncontrollable rage that I manage by turning the violence on myself and vent verbally at those who are supposed to protect and care for me.  Not that I threaten them with harm myself, but I pass it over to spirit and tell them that they are going to get the violent karma they deserve with the passive/aggressive and physical violence they perpetrate against 10,000s of abused and traumatised mentally injured men women and children.  Because the government and people in the VIOLENCE/ABUSE INDUSTRY are now so corrupted/uncivilized they currently have me in court for Misuse of a Telephone for expressing my rage, hatred and desire for karma against ACC – the agency most responsible for my worsening mental health, poverty, unemployment etc.

Thankfully I have a senior psychiatrist I was allowed to see last year who understands what is happening to me and can express this as a mental health issue – not dissimilar to tourettes.  As I tick in times of severe stress and have other attributes of tourettes it is related in some way to this disorder – plus when I am ‘venting’ there is no way of stopping it, until it has run its course.  His testimony, along with Bill of Rights defence should get me acquitted of this charge and police deterred from attempting this sort of prosecution again.


New Zealand govt using Social Workers as health professional for abuse victims to save ACC $

Have just watched One News and was horrified at the Social Worker complaining she was being bullied and not getting help she needed for her PTSD.  Then the government comes on and says they’re going to train more people.

SOCIAL WORKERS ARE NOT HEALTH PROFESSIONALS AND SHOULD NOT BE DEALING WITH MENTALLY INJURED ABUSE VICTIMS THE WAY THEY ARE BEING FORCED TO BY NZ GOVERNMENT AND ACC – especially if they have serious mental health issues themselves.   Social Workers are not Occupational Therapists, not counsellors, not psychologist/psychiatrists and as part of a multi-disciplinary team  of professionals working with a mental injured abuse victim should only be there to co-ordinate housing, welfare, maybe advocacy and a few other things.

The New Zealand government are telling the public of New Zealand that what they intend to do is helping abused children and their families - what they are actually doing is avoiding paying for the extensive rehabilitation and multi-disciplinary team of health professionals ACC are supposed to be providing under law.  Under law, under all the laws I refer to on the pages of this website.

Care that I was receiving in 2009, that ACC continue to refuse to reinstate after winning two reviews and waiting seven years – now why do you think that is when I have a leading psychiatrist that supports everything I say I need.  I know what the law says, I know my disorder, I know what I need and I know ACC and the NZ government are corrupt in not providing that.

I worked as a temp for six months at ACC in 2000, while I was there I saw some horrendous things and fraud.  One department was really bad, they were data entry operators – half of them had RSI and had to have at least 2 days off a week – WHY were ACC employing people with RSI as data entry operators – it obviously aggravated their disorders – they should have been retrained and doing a different job.  Using mentally unwell people as social workers is about as bad as that.  How can a person with PTSD support people who have even more serious CPTSD.  Also that data entry department was headed by a woman who her staff loved and fawned all over – I later found out she was recording many of those having lots of days off as being at work.  Everybody just ignored it.

After receiving a disgusting email from one of the data entry operators, who thought she was sending me a joke I had to speak up and went to the Manager of Funding and Pricing where I was working.  I told him about the email and he needed to say something to these people sending such emails – he did talk to them and boy was I the most hated person in ACC, I had ratted on staff.  Thing is I didn’t want to get into trouble for having such disgusting material on my computer, I was only a temp.  Also I didn’t like the manager and her staff, they weren’t nice people and as I saw it stealing taxpayers money with their bludging.  Not sure if it is the same now but back then ACC staff had unlimited sick days – how many companies in NZ give that to their staff?

The person I was covering for had been in ACC for decades and told me ALL THE GOOD PEOPLE LEAVE – so ACC is run by the dregs of our workforce- however they get paid so much they don’t leave no matter what they are expected to do in order to save money and stop people getting entitlements.  I was also told when IRD (building around the corner) was overhauled because of the numbers of people who owed them money committing suicide, those that were doing most of the damage were moved to ACC.  Another reason ACC is so corrupt and criminally negligent, many of those people are right-wing psychopaths.  I used to hear them talk – they were all right-wing National party.  My contract was not renewed after I was seen on TV at a NZ First party conference.  Only weeks before I had been asked to stay and they would have paid for my Law studies I intended to begin the following year.  Stupid me said no – how could I work for an organisation that was morally bankrupt and treated people so badly.

Anyway a bit off topic.

Also wanted to comment that the social worker on One News tonight was severely traumatised by a young abuse victim phoning her while attempting suicide – bleeding out on the phone.  I’ve had two flatmates attempt suicide and begged for help from ACC, got nothing – I still havn’t dealt with them and will never get the image of opening the door to our garage and seeing Josh with a rope round his neck standing on a chair.  And what happened with the other flatmate I can’t even talk about it was so bad.  This social worker got help – I got nothing, not even mental health would help me.  And they wonder why I protest the way I do and flip out at them on the phone and am still suicidal, self-harming, bulimic and much much more.

After I was raped in 2002 I fought for 7 1/2 years to get the professional rehabilitation I was entitled to under the Act.  In 2009 that started and I had Dr Alan Doris psychiatrist leading my care (or I thought he was but ACC refused to let me speak to him again), I had the most amazing health professional I ever worked with Occupational Therapist Glenda as the central person in working out what my needs were and how to overcome the phobias/dysfunction that had developed because of the ‘untreated’ PTSD after the rape.  I had a mental health worker for 3 hours a week, which helped me put in place those things Glenda suggested – both these women walked beside me, they didn’t do it for me.  We had just identified why I couldn’t go for job interviews – was related to not wanting to be judged after the person who raped me was found not guilty.  We were about to start role playing being in an interview so I could overcome the fear when ACC ILLEGALLY DUMPED ME FROM ALL CARE.  I also had a doctor who was OK because he was being fed information by the OT, psychiatrist and psychologist – not providing and deciding on the care like NZ government now do.

Oh yeah I had a psychologist but the woman was useless and I found myself counselling her because her methods were so bad (I know consider them brainwashing) – a good counsellor would have been far better.  In fact just before I was dumped I had written to ACC saying to get rid of her, she wasn’t helping and cost a lot.  I also asked at that time if I could go away for six weeks to deal with the deep psychological trauma that was causing my continued suicidal thoughts.  I couldn’t do that and parent my children at the same time – I couldn’t do that in the community – Dr Doris agreed with this at a later date.  INSTEAD EVERYTHING WAS TAKEN AWAY and I felt like I had been thrown out of a six storey building.

Plus I had help in the community from a local gym who my OT talked to about how to help me – those guys were so amazing, I still appreciate what they did for me back then.  At gym I could deal a bit with my eating disorder, building my physical strength with lots of encouragement and support, being in my community with others (as I was very isolated) etc etc.

These are the things I had, when National got in 2008, they put John Judge in charge (then Paula Rebstock) and all my care was taken – they said my mental health issues were not related to the sexual abuse – even though they had been providing me on and off counselling under ACC for 7 1/2 years.

I can’t go on much more I’m getting upset.  These are the sorts of things ALL mentally injured abuse victims are entitled to – BUT BEING REFUSED.  ACC are saving their money $4billion per year I was told in order to invest in banks, shares, dams and businesses around NZ and overseas.  This is money that should be invested in our own people – especially mentally injured abuse victims.  When I think of how much most car accident victims get it makes me cry – when you compare it to that of mentally injured.

When I was dumped they said I could go to mental health services – but when I talked to them, who had let me down multiple times already they said they didn’t do any of the things I had been receiving.  There only options were medication, how can a person be receiving around 12 hours per week rehabilitation with several health professionals, based on professional advice and go to absolutely nothing?

Someone in power, in media, in parliament has to speak up and expose this gross miscarriage of justice - so many are suffering because ACC and NZ government are corrupt, criminally negligent abusers.  This is why I protest at police stations, because I know under Sections 150a 151 155 and 157 of Crimes Act ACC and mental health are breaking the law.  I also know under Crimes of Torture they are breaking the law,  these crimes have sentences that would see politicians and government employees (including Rebstock) jailed and lose their right to be an MP.  Who would disagree with me that our current government does not have anybody honourable running it – NOBODY.

Can’t go on for now – kia kaha to us all.  Will send this link to every opposition party and all media outlets so they know – I know they probably won’t do anything because I am so discredited but I can’t stop telling the truth – I can’t stop trying to get mentally injured abused men women and children the treatment care and rehabilitation they are entitled to – not only under ACC law but also health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

Kia kaha to us all

God of Nations at thy feet
In the bonds of love we meet
Here our voices we entreat
God defend our free land

From dissension envy hate
And corruption guard our state
Make our country good and great
God defend New Zealand


I am an activist not a terrorist – a Civil Society Activist in area of mental health in New Zealand

Just felt the need to post the following on my social media.

Just had a weird follow on twitter from someone with all arabic so blocked them. Also sent a very angry email to John Key early this morning about his remarks about violence towards women and children and blaming him and his policies for most of it.

A note to those who spy on me – I AM AN ACTIVIST NOT A TERRORIST – I hate the corrupt immoral mthr fkrs who stop me and other mentally injured abuse victims (traumatised people like in ChCh and mentally ill) from getting the… health care and justice we are entitled to under NZ ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws with a passion.

I will do everything within my power and that I am guided to do by spirit, to bring your reign of terror to an end you disgusting NAZIs. I believe in Rule of Law not being controlled by a majority who is manipulated and kept ill-informed by neo-liberal NAZIs.

I am a very angry good person who has been driven mad by ongoing trauma and criminal neglect. I have no intention of committing any violent act at any time – except of course against myself in the form of self-harm etc to release the rage and frustration I feel at the gross miscarriage of justice going on in mental health.

SCREW YOU MAGGOTS feeding off the puss filled sore that is neo-liberal social decay.

Suicide Prevention in New Zealand = PERSECUTION

Yes Suicide Prevention day yesterday and the media said a few things about what was happening around New Zealand and what the Minister of Health said about it.  A few people had events with the same bullshit I have been watching for years about everybody being valuable and loved and there are services out there to help you – DOUBLE BULLSHIT!

What suicide prevention actually means is how can we get police to bully and intimidate you further so you are too scared and humiliated to approach anybody for help – especially mental health services.  How can we get police to keep coming to your home so your neighbours despise you and are scared of you as well – while we refuse you the professional treatment care and rehabilitation you are entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws.

What suicide prevention means is how many psychotropic drugs can we get into you, when we refuse you professional care/rehabilitation, the necessaries of life (like a safe home) and experiment on you using radicalised neo-liberal economic theories of personal responsibility.

What suicide prevention means is how can we get complete control over you, so we can commit you, pump you fill of any drugs we like to shut you up and forever onwards have you labelled as mentally disturbed and therefore a liar and your knowledge and opinions are of no value whatsoever – because you’re a nutter.

What suicide prevention means is all those families and friends that contributed to the death of someone (and there are 20% who don’t) can come out, be sad in public and get sympathy.

What suicide prevention means is the government and radicalised neo-liberal terrorists can take absolutely no responsibility whatsoever for their illegal degrading immoral vicious attacks on the poorest people, while advancing the rich.  They can also disadvantage and screw over middle classes and put out propaganda through mainstream media to ensure most working people blame disabled poor for there being little money.

What suicide prevention means is the government don’t have to use professional rehabilitation models or follow the law.

What suicide prevention means is police and justice agencies (including Human Rights Commission) can ignore the gross miscarriage of justice being perpetrated against mentally injured abused men women and children and mentally ill.

What suicide prevention means is a whole lot of ignorant NICE (passive aggressive) people can pretend that suicide prevention has to do with talking to someone on a phone, or telling people they care and love them (not that they want them as a neighbour or friend of course, that would be far too dangerous), telling people there is a reason to live when for some there is not.

What suicide prevention means is ‘the community’ are doing everything they possibly can to stop people from committing suicide but nothing about ensuring these people have the treatment care rehabilitation and living environments that ensure they are safe and cared for that they are entitled to under New Zealand laws.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government can continue to use police to intimidate and persecute people who are driven to suicide by inhuman living situations and medical neglect.

What suicide prevention means is police are soon not going to attend all people who are suicidal a mental health team will go and tell those people there are no services, no safe places to live and no point moaning about it because we live in a society where individuals are responsible for themselves if traumatised by violence and neglect.  Of course police mostly follow Bill of Rights, where mental health services wouldn’t have a clue what that is and will persecute people as they want.

What suicide prevention means is the New Zealand government don’t want to be responsible for anybody who has been driven to suicide, they want the community to discredit, insult, degrade and persecute them until they actually do it.

What suicide prevention means is how many ways can we reject you when you beg for professional care you are entitled to by law.

What suicide prevention means is our country is refusing to accept the extreme harm neo-liberal terrorists are causing in such a beautiful country, where everybody could easily have their needs met as required in Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.

What suicide prevention means is some very overpaid mental health professionals and Public Relations experts can get paid for ignoring the fact people are not receiving professional mental health care and come up with a marketing plan to try and stop people committing suicide by brainwashing them.

What suicide prevention means is people can say they care – when really they do not – but exchanging a day shopping to go to a suicide prevention event shows you care.

What suicide prevention means is police can strip you naked, make you put on silly suit, humiliate degrade and insult you for begging for help and protesting about it.  They can demand you remove your underwear even when you have your period, they would prefer blood all over the place than protecting your dignity in any way.  (NOTE: They’ve only done this once, never again, even though they’ve threatened it – I curled up in a ball in the corner screaming at them they were perverts and no way they would get my clothes off me – if you tell them you will fight them to keep your clothes on, USUALLY they won’t do it.)

What suicide prevention means is police can hold you in the cells for six hours while mental health take their time to turn up – then do nothing and leave.


Victoria University run by right-wing extremists from law/business/politics Pipitea Campus

Last year I tried yet again to return to university (I was there prior to my mental injury in 2002 successfully studying law etc) – sadly I failed because my stress disorder got the better of me, I became highly suicidal and my living situation was making things much worse.  Very hard to make information go in and come out of your brain when you living in a life and death situation.  I love university, wish I could be back there :-(

Anyway – below is a letter to the editor of Salient which I think explains a bit why Victoria University behave in the way they do, putting money before EVERYTHING.  Also I was studying economics and can assure you they teach American neo-liberal economics as the only form of economics – in fact they pour it down your throat, I liken it to those ducks they force feed in France!  Check out the set text if you don’t believe me.  I asked questions about it of the faculty and challenged some of the revolting lecturers but was told to shut up and do my work.

” Dear Shitlient,

Congratulations and welcome to the new editor.  Do you still run letters?  I’m asking because I completely lost interest in Salient last year (election year).  The editors were too busy voting for the Green Party and showing us pictures of their dicks to bother with actually editing anything.  I would call last year’s Salient a pandering leftist shitrag but it failed even at that; leaving my arsehole raw and print-stained.

All I ask is that this year’s publication spend a bit less time catering to the smug, quinoa munching, Fair Trade yoga vegans that are so prolific at Kelburn campus and be a bit more accommodating to us future office drones at Pipitea.  And if you can’t do that, can you at least start printing Salient on softer paper perhaps.

Yours sincerely
Angry Arsehole”

I was horrified by this letter, it showed graphically just how different those at the business and law school are from EVERYBODY ELSE – especially our writers, humanities, arts etc.  The idea that these people are drones – like the drones they use in war is what I imagine.  The comment about Fair Trade and the insults about EVERYTHING that was in Salient.

Now I have watched over the past two years $millions being spent on the Pipitea campus, government money that comes from the poorest most vulnerable people in this country who cannot get safe stable homes to live in, professional health care (especially mental health), access to justice and much much more – BECAUSE THERE IS NOT ENOUGH MONEY ACCORDING TO OUR GOVERNMENT.

Recently I read a news article that says there has been a large drop in the numbers of New Zealanders who are going to University – THAT’S BECAUSE THEY CAN;T AFFORD TO!  Talked to a meter man earlier this year, while doing a protest outside Treasury, an intelligent academic young man – we talked about economics.  He said he would love to go to university but could not afford to leave his job, he had rent and bills to pay.  He did not like the government or the way NZ was being run at all.