Shopping Makes Me Very Sad – JR Murphy

I used to like grocery shopping
It was the only time I allowed myself to be ok about spending
I used to like grocery shopping
Now it makes me very very sad

As I walk around the isles
I try not to look at the food I’m not allowed
As I walk around the isles
All I want to do is cry, breakdown and howl

I can only buy the cheapest
Can’t afford the things I used to purchase
I can only buy the cheapest
Makes me feel really cheap and worthless

I try not to look around
Pick things up and put them back
I try not to look around
In the meat section I choose one thing for the week

Every item I pick up reminds me
Of the politicians and health services that put me here
Every item I pick up reminds me
All my family vote National and don’t want me near

Those things I choose
Mean I can’t pay to get my car repaired
Those things I choose
Mean I can’t get to Wellington begging to be heard

I buy butter to do some baking
It reminds me the CEO of Fonterra $2,500/hour he gets
I buy butter to do some baking
It reminds me the government wants to stop me selling
a few scones at the market

My trolley isn’t very full
One layer on the bottom, just covering
My trolley isn’t very full
Others have a pile of nice things they’ll be eating

I used to like grocery shopping
Now it just reminds me how callous and mean our country has become
I used to like grocery shopping
Now it just makes me very very sad

End

For a while I was so broke I was having panic attacks and crying in the supermarket, I had to get in boarders who ended up victimizing my daughter and I.  While wealthy family ignored what was happening to me, blaming me for my situation.

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