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Bob Jones sends police to intimidate disabled artist

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

Protest at Jones building, beggar in plastic bag

So for sending the following letter and putting up this piece of art outside Bob Jones office I get a police visit with wilful trespass notice to my home to humiliate me.  Same Bob Jones who recently signed a public letter of NZ leaders demanding the right to freedom of speech – which appears he only wants applied to himself for saying hideously immoral and ignorant things about poorest disabled NZers – not to poor disabled artists and Civil Society Actors who challenge him.

Considering police are not allowed at my home according to Inspector Donna Coward as she knows all the visits last year had completely terrorised me and due to my stress disorder I shook for 2 hours after they were here.  Was disturbed by the fact he had more power than Inspector Coward on this occasion.  Will take great pleasure in doing several more of these artworks with his face on and putting them around other places in Wellington.  Sent him a photo of the picture, just so he knows what it looks like.  Will be sending a link to this website about what Jones did to all the other NZers who signed the letter – just so they know what he did.

He knows I’m poor so threatens me with a $2000 fine – as I had no intention of going to his office and would rather put another of these artworks at a different, much more public location, he hasn’t achieved the level of intimidation and oppression he had hoped for.  He has however proven he is weak, arrogant and an oppressor of freedom of speech of the most vulnerable he chooses to publicly denigrate.

Below is letter I hand delivered after reading this shitty news article

25 January 2017

 Mr R Jones
Lambton Quay

 Dear Mr Jones,

 I was extremely shocked about your recent comments regarding beggars being criminalised.  You don’t appear to understand the situation for these people and an intelligent man should not cherish ignorance when dealing with such an important issue in such a public way.

 Did you realise that all of these people are disabled and cannot get reliable work because of their impairments – or safe/stable homes to live in?  In a radicalised capitalist society people who cannot work at maximum capacity are not employed or have intermittent employment which mostly pays minimum wage.  Many of these people are intelligent, unlike what you believe, meet me and you will find out, because I am one of them. 

 Do you accept there are disabled people in New Zealand?  Do you believe these people are receiving professional treatment care rehabilitation and welfare so they can live with dignity and do valuable work – I can assure you they are not. 

 I know too much about this subject to put it in this letter, what I do ask is an opportunity to discuss what I know – especially in the area of mental health – where extensive professional rehabilitation/care is not happening due to government corruption.  I haven’t met a street person yet who doesn’t have a history of abuse and I am yet to meet someone on long term unemployment that doesn’t have a disability or is caring for someone with one.  Also never met a disabled person who doesn’t want a decent job they capable of doing either. 

 I think you would find more interesting and challenging conversation if you interacted with some people outside your usual circles. In one of my politics lectures at Victoria 2002 (you were a guest speaker) you bemoaned the fact, that parties you attended with politicians and media had become very boring- I could never be accused of being boring, uninformed & not having a broad perspective. 

 I am assuming you believe in word of law and if people are entitled to care under ACC, mental health & welfare laws then they should be receiving it, especially if this care got them back to work & off the streets.

 You can see more about the laws being violated, solutions that should be in place (please refer to my rehabilitation model Fence At The Top Of The Cliff) and my own situation on my website – or twitter @jrmurphypoetry – I am also on facebook and youtube.  My phone number is 027 3040!!!.  I work full time as a Civil Society Activist in the area of mental health because of my desperation to return to work.  I don’t watch movies or read books all day and I don’t do drugs or drink to cope with the boredom, discrimination and persecution.

 I look forward to your reply and intend to start art installations outside your building about this issue if I don’t hear from you.

Civil Society Activist


Wairarapa No 1 for Suicide in NZ and I know why

I been thinking about the biggest reason for Wairarapa driving so many to suicide and its the HEALTH AND DISABILITY COMMISSION.  Me and many other people I know have made complaints to them but you are never believed – because the discrimination and persecution of suicidal people is across all PLAYERS in their sick game, they just back each other up.

It is a fact Health and Disability Commission DO NOT get involved in any ‘ACCESS’ to services issues.  Phone and ask them if you want proof.  Tell them you or someone you know can’t get access to mental health services and they will tell you they can’t get involved.

In the Wairarapa I have been blacklisted by all those PLAYERS, as they are closely aligned and have regular meetings where they gossip about people challenging their incompetence, negligence and discrimination.  Over the past week protesting in Masterton I have met several people who are in the same situation – so although some people might get care – there are groups of people purposely denied services.

The head of the DHB and CEO tell board members that all complaints are dealt with by the Health and Disability Commission so they need not worry – but of course this is a lie.

I have made so many complaints to the DHB they blocked me from emailing years ago, I was telling the truth of course, but because Andrew Curtis-Cody is an intelligent psychopath who is an expert in manipulating people I was never believed.

I spent four years with a Health & Disability Advocate Louise Grant trying to get services, sending letters back and forth to Andrew Curtis-Cody, everything failed, I was refused care.  Louise agreed with me that I was being treated very badly and not professionally but under the government rules she is not allowed to take matters any further.  If the health professional refuses to admit what they have done then she can do nothing.  She is also NOT ALLOWED to forward the complaint to the Health and Disability Commission – so I had my HDC advocate completely supporting how badly I was being treated but the Commission refusing to get involved or find in my favour in any of the disputes (about 5 I think).

On one of my many police incarcerations for MY OWN WELFARE (all of which I was taken home distraught with no services) I had mental health staff around the ankles in the police station begging them for services, I was told to get up and not embarrass myself – that I knew there was no services and I shouldn’t go on like that.  So when I see that disgusting PR person Anna Cardno saying people should contact suicide services I am extremely angry – because I know there are no services – not for the likes of me anyway – and a group of other people who know their rights and ask for help.

The hatred of suicidal people is across the entire spectrum of PLAYERS in this region (it is an industry here).  Many police are the first line of vitriol, insults and discrimination – they love stripping you naked just to degrade you even further – mental health services love it too.  Most Police are violent and treat you like a violent criminal, you are handcuffed which really hurts – I suggest people on the Board ask to try some handcuffs to prove how much they hurt – especially when officers put them on really tight to punish you.


The vast majority of mental health workers in this region (that includes all those working in violence, addiction, suicide and mental health and especially Wairarapa doctors) are lazy incompetent unprofessional bigots.  They load people up on medication so they will sleep all day, they load people up on medication so they don’t have to ensure they have a safe place to live, enough food to eat and the basic necessities of life.  This medicating of people who become suicidal is of course directly related to the take-over of mental health care by corrupt immoral super rich drug companies.  Companies who people like Paul Collins and Isbister have shares in, more drugged up people more profit for them.

A counsellor once told me 20% of families are awesome with suicidal and abused people and will help them overcome their suffering.  80% are not – and many of this group will be the reason the person is suicidal – not that anybody wants to admit that and I am usually extremely abused for saying it – but I will anyway.  Then there are the families who just don’t know what to do, they rely on health professionals for information and yet are expected to heal the suicidal person themselves.  I compare it to a family being expected to perform an extensive operation on someone they love when they are not surgeons.

The government dumping of social problems like suicide, addiction and violence back on the communities who are victims of their horrendous abusive neo-liberal terrorist policies makes me sick to my stomach.  That so many people aren’t aware what is happening makes me very sad, I try and tell people, have for years but nobody will listen – nobody who votes National or Act or leads our communities wants to admit what is really going on.


WE NEED A POLICE INVESTIGATION AND PUBLIC INQUIRY INTO MENTAL HEALTH AND RELATED SERVICES IN THE WAIRARAPA.  We need an anonymous 0800 number set up so people who have been terrorised, degraded and abused by mental health PLAYERS can phone and be heard, have their complaints taken seriously.  Once the Wairarapa DHB and NZ find out what how bad the co-ordinated systemic abuse and discrimination is here I know people will be found criminally negligent under law.

So many appalling doctors, so many nasty police, so many mentally deranged people working in powerful positions in mental health services inflicting serious harm instead of helping those who beg for help.

Following this investigation professional rehabilitation services and facilities should be set up to provide professional care to suicidal, mentally injured and ill people.  This must address the serious housing issues and lack of APPROPRIATE residential care in the Wairarapa.  Neo-liberals always go on about jobs, we could be a centre for care of traumatised people, instead we drive these people out of the region because Wairarapa don’t like dealing with any RUBBISH they have.


The government is using these consultations to pick out those suggestions they know will degrade and persecute suicidal people even more – not help them.  I had an excellent counsellor in Masterton who told me the situation here is appalling for so many people – especially women.  Why aren’t these health professionals being listened to?  Why are they trying to keep people alive when they know their situation is completely hopeless and NOBODY could deal with what some people in our society deal with – especially those with histories of abuse.

When will the Whare Tapa Wha model be implemented, when will professional rehabilitation models be implemented and funded so they actually work?  When will all the promises government talks about actually transfer into professional health care and welfare?


Because I am currently up on seven police charges (having been acquitted of 7 last year and had charges dropped on six others), misuse of a telephone for begging for help I am entitled to and not getting, 3 for graffiti for using a chalk pen to protest about discrimination on Carterton police station window, High Court and Appeal Court in Wellington, plus 3 of wilful trespass for speaking truth to power and protesting in/outside buildings who directly responsible for my situation.

I know I have repeated some things here, sorry about that, I just need to get these things out of my head because I can’t believe this is what is happening to me and so many others.  I just want the abuse, discrimination and blatant unprofessional incompetent treatment of suicidal people to stop.


Open Letter to Wairarapa DHB members & community

Havn’t checked following for spelling or anything, so first draft, but needed to get it posted for my sanity.  Now off to protest in Masterton for two hours about what these people are doing to so many of us.


 Sent to every Board Member and Wairarapa DHB CEO, HDC, HRC, HRRT, Ombudsman, Auditor-General, United Nations Human Rights Agency – also published on WordPress, facebook, twitter and youtube.

 For the first time in 15 years of begging for health care and justice I am entitled to under ACC, health, disability, criminal, imperial, human rights and bill of rights laws I attended a DHB meeting.  It was as I had expected, a completely out of touch group of affluent people controlled by two corrupt immoral neo-liberal super rich government installed elitists.

 I became extremely distraught to the point of dry reaching when I was listening to Baily-Gibson talking about REAL PEOPLE STORIES of failures in our health system.  Not stories from the Wairarapa of course – not the story I sent him on his email system (that I don’t have a copy of) in November last year about abuse and criminal negligence in mental health services in the Wairarapa.

 Several people I have spoken to said Baily-Gibson is mentally disturbed, tells his patients when they come in how he has no time for any negativity, they must be positive about their situation – this is before they even speak.  I can imagine listening to people’s problems for decades would drive you mad. 

 I challenge Dr Baily-Gibson to print out my complaint about mental health services and present it to the DHB.  As a government employee he is subject to the Privacy Act and under the Privacy Act should release this email to me and the Board.


 The early comment, which I am sure was for my benefit, about complaints being dealt with by the HDC was the first insult.  I have made multiple complaints to this organisation with no result, I am never believed and health professionals always are. 

 I spent four years with a HDC advocate Louise Grant trying to get mental health care, please refer to the series of letters from Andrew Curtis-Cody over the matter.  I received no help and most letters that he wrote didn’t make sense – this hideous mentally disturbed psychopath that runs mental health services in Wairarapa can write nonsense in a letter and he is believed.  I write law and proven health models etc and I’m discredited, degraded, denied health care and persecuted by police for telling the truth.  (Another reason my response to what was being said was so extreme – I have never had a tick that bad before.)

 Even though the HDC advocate said I was being discriminated against and treated badly the Health and Disability Commission refused to investigate the matter.   I gave up making complaints to HDC years ago – they are the most corrupt justice agency in New Zealand.  I have done several protests inside and outside their building over the years and wrote two poems you can google that will tell you the story – HDC Threw Me In A Bin and 

 I am sure you will find Paul Collins knows the people who head HDC, it’s the same group of radicalised terrorist neo-liberals that ensure the persecution of all mentally ill people.  Please refer to my recent submission on the Suicide Prevention Strategy, that outlines why it is imperative for neo-liberals to deny professional mental health care and safe homes for disabled – especially violently abused men women and children.

 Of course I am speaking from the darklands and place of those who are denied services – there are a small few who are given help, in fact they appear to be lavished with it.  The more majority are rejected and driven even madder or to suicide, as in Wairarapa, the more health care is lavished on others – especially those with physical illness as a result of disease.  The extreme harm caused by government and leaders advancing rich and persecuting poor under neo-liberal terrorism of past 30 years is never dealt with or discussed.


 I could see most of the people on the board were uncomfortable by my presence, I hate crying and getting upset like that.  It was all I could for just over an hour to hold myself together and cry without sobbing and not tick without making a noise, at what I was listening to and witnessing.  The woman showed the biggest lack of empathy, I find that a lot, men are often supportive when I am so upset but woman DESPISE ME.  I know a lot about psychology and I know that is because women cannot accept government services they are told help people are actually terrorising and hurting people – they can’t accept it when it doesn’t happen to them.


I challenge all the elected board members to meet with me for an hour and listen to the songs and poetry I have written about just how abusive mental health services, NZ government, justice agencies and doctors truly are in this country.  Recorded of course.


NOTE: I will never ever go into a meeting with any health or justice agency without it being recorded – EVER.  That’s because people in these meetings lie and then deny it.  Just like the CEO yesterday was lying.

WAIRARAPA CEO  – Asti, Albie????

The body language of this hideous woman made me feel validated by what I was doing.  This woman sent me an extremely nasty letter when she first arrived in the job, when I asked for compensation after being terrorised by being dragged through court for months for legally protesting.  I was trespassed from Masterton Hospital for a legal protest I did, I almost threw myself in front of traffic when trying to cross the road to court, was highly suicidal and an old counsellor I had the number of will confirm it.  I phoned her while sitting waiting at court because I was so terrified I would do it when trying to cross the road back to my car.


I won the case, was forced to represent myself, not very well because I had been forced to pay back legal aid from a previous case and was so poor at the time (due to my abusive living situation) I couldn’t get a lawyer.  It was later discovered by Legal Aid Services that I shouldn’t have had to pay back any money, they refused to reimburse the $200 I had paid over the previous months of course.


It was the DHB that forced police to prosecute me, they are the ones who demanded it.  I recall when I did it how insulting and offensive staff at Masterton Hospital were for my singing, painting and signs.  I have photos of the people who abused me if the Board want to see them – I don’t want to go into how bad it was in this document as I recall every trauma I become highly suicidal and very unwell.  If I was in a safe environment with mental health support I would but I am not.


One of the most insulting things was a woman leaning out of a second story window at the CSS building, yelling down at someone watching me singing and protesting.  JUST IGNORE IT!  This is the culture of hatred and discrimination me and 100s of other Wairarapa people disabled by mental health issues (often as a result of abuse) are subjected to on a regular basis.  It is this culture, that permeates the entire sector/industry and is reason Wairarapa now has the highest rate of suicide in New Zealand.


It was of course more proof to me women are at the heart of hatred against disabled distraught women who being terrorised by poverty, violence, discrimination, lack of health care for poor, etc created by neo-liberals who run our country.




As all of us in the darklands knows this isn’t a race issue at all – this is a class issue.  Reason Maori so high in statistics is they make up bigger proportion of working and disabled poor.  Baily-Gibson making comment about how most doctors are racists was biggest factor in setting off my tick dry reaching.  Doctors aren’t racist they’re bigots who hate the poor, unemployed and least fortunate govt purposely create – there isn’t a word for hating poor people who are suffering that I have found – I hope to create one in the future. 


In New Zealand 30 yrs of propaganda has ensured 95% of people despise anybody who is unemployed, irrelevant of the reason.  I know and could tell you multiple stories, even from my own family, about this.  I won’t, unless it is in person, because it will traumatise me too much and I won’t be able to go on.  Except for one story.


I was living in Wainuiomata a few years ago, moved over to try and get mental heatlh care and help out a very poor friend (who ended up becoming violent and stealing a lot of money from me).  I had a counsellor, was getting $200 less a week than I am getting now – rotting on invalids benefit – because in Wainuiomata they like to withhold as much money from disabled people as they can.  During my visit with the counsellor I was extremely distressed about the poverty and what was happening with abusive flatmate.  I was having to rely on a very public food bank being run from a community centre – was very humiliating.  Plus person I was living with was eating my food – she had anorexia and most just smoked cigarettes & drunk coffee, but when I moved in I was helping her and so she took advantage.  I had no help myself to stop it.

 So the counsellor is sitting across from me, seeing my extreme distress, knowing I was highly suicidal, self-harming, bulimic etc and says “I hate to ask this Jayne but do you have any Maori ancestry, if you do I can get you some help.”  I felt all the blood drain from my face and my heart sink even further into the depths of hell.  So there is help for Maori and now the government and DHB are going to provide even more – while any other race of people is denied care.  Also people who are criminals are given help, lots of money being put into their care – while their victims suffer and die.


 I just shared on my social media some of Paul Collins past, how any of the Board members can have any respect for such a person is beyond me.  The man is obviously seriously disturbed, he has been instrumental in the demise of our socialist caring Kiwi culture, he is driven purely by greed and power, money and accolades.  He is in fact the lowest form of life currently residing in New Zealand and should not be listened to at all.  The Board should rise up against him and everything he represents.  When National are driven out in September he will still be on the Board, still ensuring the persecution of 100s of Wairarapa disabled abused poor men women and children.

 Those on the Board who have any idea of what is going on in mental health care and for poor people should come out publicly against him and the National party appointed CEO – who is just as bad.  I watched the Board meeting, it was quite obvious these two people think themselves way above the other people there – you can tell they are part of the same neo-liberal elite who destroying people like myself and out entire society – from the poor up.


 Exposing of neo-liberal terrorist CULT ideologies is all over international news media, please can those on the Board do some research.  Chris Hedges has an excellent series on neo-liberalism in America, you will see the similarities to what has been done to New Zealand by this global terrorists (and yes they are terrorists of poor).

 Please refer to my website where I have outlined multiple violations of NZ and international law in regard to treatment care rehabilitation and justice for mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill in our society. 

 It is particularly bad in Wairarapa due to our 20 year housing crisis – that local media refused to make public.  Where state housing was sold off and privatised, making this region the poorest for disabled people paying market rents and getting little relief from WINZ.  Trust House continue to buy pubs and fund extravagant sports/arts/business projects instead of buying houses for disabled and poor.

 It is illegal for a disabled person not to have access to state housing – I have never had state housing.  What Wairarapa leaders have done of course is an attempt at gentrifying and driving out all disabled, dysfunctional and poor since the 1984 neo-liberal reign of terror started.   They have done an excellent job, if I have to shift out of my current rental I don’t know where I will go – everybody I know in rentals are terrified about the future.  Which of course makes them drink & smoke even more to cope – or commit suicide.  Like Joes son, Ben, Chelsea, Jarrad, Glen………… and all those other people we all know when you live in the darklands.

 It makes my heart hurt when I think of all the people my 22 & 23 yr old children have known who killed themselves.  I’m 52, that didn’t happen when I was young – did it happen to anybody on the DHB?  These people have no hope, there is no hope, I know that, this advancing of rich and persecution of poor for profit is never going to stop – I’ve spent 15 years trying to get professional health care and justice for myself and others – I’m persecuted and terrorised by police for it.

 Police of course mostly being put in the middle of hatred of rich for poor who need mental health care and justice.  Most police are very nice to me because they are at the cliff face of what I am talking about regarding mental health (now it has been successfully criminalised by neo-liberal terrorists).  But some police officers hate and victimise me, makes them feel better I suppose, makes them feel better about how many disabled mentally ill people who either harm themselves or others they are told to persecute by our government.


 I am a Civil Society Actor / Activist as defined by the United Nations – I can’t get any health care or justice I am entitled to and UN refuses to protect me from police/justice agencies because they are ONLY a marketing organisation.  However I know the process, I can read, I don’t spend my days reading novels, watching movies, smoking and drinking, I spend it educating and empowering myself.  I know the laws I talk about, I can read, I was studying law before being hurt in a crime, I know my rights and I know my disorder – VERY WELL.

 I have reports from top NZ psychiatrists that say I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional – unlike the people like Paul Collins and DHB CEO, who I know would not come through a mental health assessment with the same outcome as me.

 That I even have reports that say this shows just how corrupt neo-liberalism is.  All I have ever asked for is the ACC and professional mental health care I am entitled to under multiple New Zealand laws so I could return to study/work.  So could again have my own home, which I lost due to my mental injury, but know I never will.  All I have to look forward to is years of discrimination and victimisation by a series of flatmates in unstable unsafe living situations – because there are no state houses for human sewage like me.

 Please google my song HUMAN SEWAGE – I will change it from Bob Francis (who I despise) to Paul Collins.  The first line of the song is I AM HUMAN SEWAGE THE DHB DECIDED SO, PAUL COLLINS SAID DO NOTHING, PRETEND WE DO NOT KNOW.   Which is all the DHB has ever said.


 The reason suicide prevention has become so abusive towards people who are suicidal is because of families.  Many of them were instrumental in the suicide and neglect of the person and yet they get a voice in suicide prevention.  There is the odd affluent person who RECOVERS from suicide who gets a say as well, while the vast majority of us continue to be denied professional health care/models and persecuted by police.

 I am so traumatised by repeated police visits last year I have nightmares about them coming to get me.  There was supposed to be a deal with Ins Donna Coward that police aren’t allowed to come to my home but that is ignored by officers and I had another visit on Saturday after a six month reprieve.  I shook for 2 hours after it – its why I react so badly to nice police officers that DHB get in to terrorise me further just by wearing the uniform.

 Please again read my website and it will explain some of what has happened to me by nasty element in Wairarapa police.  I don’t hate the police of course, but I do want them to act on my repeated complaints of harm under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.   Only reason they don’t of course is because they are corrupt at their highest levels, ask Paul Collins what he has to do with highly paid corrupt officials like Mike Bush?

 I can’t go on, what is the point, I write so many letters, so many submissions to select committees, so many emails begging for help I am entitled to, participate in so many meetings and NOTHING EVER CHANGES – THINGS ONLY EVER GET WORSE.  Which is why I am currently protesting the way I am – I know nothing ever works – its set up to fail, especially the justice system, especially the protection of disabled human sewage like me.

 All Andrew Curtis-Cody and other NGOs and groups who have discriminated against me and hurt me say is LOTS OF PEOPLE HAVE TRIED TO HELP YOU JAYNE – YOU JUST DONT’ WANT IT.   This is not true and a police investigation would prove it, I have had several health professional that know I am not being given services I am entitled to and worked very hard when I did have some in 2009.  But of course National terrorists got in, installed John Judge and Paula Rebstock in ACC and I had all my care illegally removed, I have won two reviews to have it reinstated and am still refused on a weekly basis.  I can’t get a lawyer to make them and ACC not subject to HDC or anything.

One last thing is the comments I have had from people while protesting recently about how doctors and other health professionals in mental health (and police) have told them after a suicide attempt that they should do a better job next time.  Dr Cherry told me when I first became suicidal years ago, after being denied care following rape, that if I was going to suicide to make sure I did a good job because doctors didn’t like cleaning up the mess that often resulted when they failed.  I assured him at the time I would.


I made a complaint about this to Carterton Medical I was ignored.  Currently I have a contract I was forced to sign by CMC saying I am not allowed to say I am suicidal.  I was forced to sign it under duress as I had a skin cancer at the time and they would not treat me unless I did.  My previous doctor Dr had left and the one I was supposed to have had an appalling reputation in community.  I had to have a Carterton doctor because I was so broke I couldn’t leave town.  I made a complaint to the HDC and HDC advocate, CDC refused to discuss the issues or acknowledge I am actually terrified of Dr Hunefelt.  I tried to talk about my mental health once, I became extremely distressed, she changed the subject at the end of what I said – as though I hadn’t even spoken.


I live terrified as I have other health issues and have constant kidney infections I try and deal with myself because I can’t see her.  So much for Anna Cardno’s marketing about talking about suicide and getting help – doctors are worse than community – or maybe that’s what Libertarian Anna wanted, that community deals with suicidal people government create?


I wish I could tell you all more, but this is getting disjointed and I want to talk to people to their face – so they can see my pain and hear what I know say and do.  I am not mentally ill so I don’t know what is happening to me isn’t discrimination and a gross miscarriage of justice.  I am not mentally ill and delusional about being persecuted.  I am mentally injured by severe trauma and years of neglect and trauma on trauma being left to fend for myself in this cruel and bigoted community.


FACT – you all need to stop pretending its not happening – I know its difficult, hell it makes me suicidal knowing what is truly going on in this country.  Knowing rich elites purposely withhold services to disabled and poor in order to advance rich and business.  Its difficult but if people like those on the Board of DHB don’t do it then things are going to continue.  We are already more violent and kill my young through suicide than any other neo-liberal OECD country.  That is because we harm those who less fortunate more than another other country.  Our leaders have NO COMPASSION, NO EMPATHY AND KEEP THEMSELVES IGNORANT.


I truly believe the reason NZ has highest rate of bowel cancer in the world is we don’t deal with SHT – I know a lot about the brain and its power over behaviour and the physical body.


Kia kaha to us all









Wairarapa Now No 1 in NZ for SUICIDE thanks to the following people

From: Jayne
Sent: Monday, 19 June 2017 4:48 a.m.
Subject: Wairarapa now No. 1 In New Zealand thanks to your efforts


How proud you must be that Wairarapa is now No. 1 in New Zealand FOR SUICIDE.

Makes me highly suicidal reading this in the newspaper and knowing just what I have done over the past decade to fight for professional health care I am entitled to from ACC and mental health services.  To know the entire mental health system from doctors, NGOs, community leaders, police to head of mental health are all part of this nightmare of hell I protest about.

How proud you and your staff must be for the part you play in taking Wairarapa to No. 1.  For being part of persecuting me for begging for help I am entitled to, by prosecuting me for Misuse of a Telephone and graffiti and wilful trespass for legally protesting in a non-violent way because I’m not getting it and neither are hundreds of other people in this region.  For the worst of your officers, who have done their best to terrorise, discredit and degrade me and so  many others – the ones you refuse to let me confront about it.

How proud you must be that everything I am saying is true about not being able to get mental health services and yet you refuse to protect me by using your power under Crimes Act to stop it.

How many more funerals will I have to attend and sad people will I have to comfort who have had people they love suicide?  All the time knowing how I become so suicidal at times I sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards stopping myself from walking to the knife draw and ending it because I KNOW THERE IS NO HOPE OF HEALTH CARE OR JUSTICE I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ LAW.

I will be sending a similar email to the multiple people and agencies I have told about abusive mental health care in Wairarapa (mostly due to psychopath Andrew Curtis-Cody) who have done absolutely nothing.  It will include:

Carterton Medical Centre, Dr Hunefelt

Masterton Medical, Dr Rob & the Dr Helman

Greytown Medical Centre

Health & Disability Commission

Nationwide Advocacy Services for HDC

Human Rights Commission

Human Rights Tribunal


MP Alastair Scott & the previous National MP

MP Ron Marks

MP Georgina Beyer

MP Marama Fox

Wairarapa Labour party

Wariarapa National party

Wairarapa Green party

NZ First party

Multiple lawyers

Te Hauora


Wairarapa DHB – who had me prosecuted for wilful trespass for legally protesting

Wairarapa DHB members for past decade, who have phoned and abused me for telling the truth, cause they refused to accept it

SF Wairarapa

Ombudsman’s office

Wairarapa Times Age

Wairarapa News

Wairarapa radio stations

Gary McPhee – Carterton mayor

John Booth – Carterton mayor

Adrienne Staples – Sth Wairarapa mayor

Lyn Patterson – Masterton Mayor

Bob Francis – Masterton mayor

Previous Inspector of Masterton Police

Police Headquarters – Mike Bush

Ministry of Health – John Crawshaw & Mr Enfield

All Ministers of Health for past 14 years

All Ministers of mental health for past 14 years

Gillian Moulton, DHB complaints

King Street Artworks – for trespassing me for writing poetry about how bad mental health services are

etc etc etc

I can’t name any more I’m starting to get triggered as I recall all the revolting rejections and abuse I have received for telling the truth about what is going on in this revolting region.  So much of this caused by the attempted gentrification and driving out of disabled poor abuse victims and mentally ill by removing so much housing by rich powerful elites (eg Trust House).

I am human sewage the DHB decided so, Bob Francis said do nothing, pretend we do not know.  Google my song Human Sewage – I can’t sing it now without breaking down since Sgt Hoera assaulted me – but that is of no consequence to you or those who control you is it!

I will be posting this email to my website as well – just so you know and please read other postings  Did you watch Sunday programme last night – police painted as good guys of course – unlike the nasty element in Wairarapa police.

I hate you!

Jayne Routhan

Civil Society Actor




Wairarapa Suicide Prevention Campaign – LIES and MARKETING

Abuse, discrimination, psychological torture is just a phone call away at Wairarapa DHBs SUICIDE SHOW.

Anybody reading this DO NOT BELIEVE anything you see in our news media about how great mental health services are and how much help there is that is written by anybody within our DHB or current mental health providers – THEY LIE.  They’ve been saying the same thing for years and things only get worse because what I am saying is TRUE and what they are saying is A LIE.  (There is a small group of people who do get services, the least mentally ill/suicidal 50% and the top 3% while those of us in the 50-97% group GET SHAFTED, DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, HARMED, ABUSED, DISCREDITED AND TREATED LIKE HUMAN SEWAGE.

Someone has just shown me the Wairarapa News and my suicidality is off the scale after reading that pile of lies – after all the years I have begged for help and been refused.  Even police are told by mental health services that “lots of people have tried to help you Jayne, you just don’t want help.”  THAT IS NOT TRUE!!!!  But then that lie was started by Salvation Army staff ……… and that’s another story 🙁  Wish I could show you my police file, they stopped putting all the times they were called out for welfare visits in it because it would embarrass the government.  My only criminal conviction is Wilful Trespass of Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer to make them provide me professional health care I’m entitled to and stop the persecution for legally protesting.

Those phone numbers go nowhere, except to the drug abuse, discrimination and torture I describe above.  I’ve never been committed thank God, I know what awaits me after 15 years of begging for help after I was raped, the person was found not guilty and ACC started their psychological torture rather than providing the EXTENSIVE treatment and rehabilitation I was entitled to under the LAW – THAT I CAN READ. 10 years of protesting all over social media & getting story after story of the horrendous things that happen in the BIN.  Was told long time ago to NEVER EVER let them commit you Jayne, people who have will and intellect are the biggest target for mental health workers and professionals – only thing they want to do is BREAK YOU.  Nothing I have ever seen since being on this HIGHWAY OF HELL has suggested anything else than mental health services are abusive – especially to those who know the help they are entitled to and desperately need.  Then of course there was the NINE forced moves from homes due to landlords selling up to make a buck, or the violence of a flatmate, or poverty, or an abusive landlord.

A woman I know was put in Arohata for three months last year for being suicidal – I tried to help her but had to be very careful as suicidal people can drain me and make me even more suicidal – not to mention the ongoing untreated bulimia, inability to see a doctor to deal with my kidney problems, diabetes, etc, ticking, phobias, suicidality due to medical neglect and unsafe unstable housing, etc.

Andrew Curtis-Cody head of mental health, as I have said many times before is a mentally disturbed psychopath who is not appropriately qualified and the DHB love him because he abuses, degrades and rejects people to save money for them.

DHB had me dragged through court for months on wilful trespass charges  for legally protesting at Masterton hospital.  At the time my doctor was at Masterton Medical and I couldn’t even see her – though what was the point, when I couldn’t get ACC or mental health services I was entitled to BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH she abused me and dumped me.  i DON’T WANT TO GO ON, I CAN’T STOP CRYING ——————  I almost threw myself in front of a car crossing the road to go to court – I was forced to represent myself and won – it was an horrendous experience.  Ask anybody at Masterton court about me – they are ashamed at way I’m being treated.

I was told by Michael Bott, Human Rights Lawyer,  I was entitled to compensation from DHB for what they did dragging me through court – the letter I received from the CEO was insulting, vicious and took absolutely no responsibility for what they did to me.  I couldn’t follow it up because I didn’t have any money, but Michael did get me off 7 other charges for legally protesting and then there were the six other times police dragged me through court and dropped charges just before trial.  Was arrested with a broken leg in a wheelchair outside Bowen House/Parliament in Wellington for protesting about that.

If you could see the CONTRACT Dr Hunefelt at Carterton Medical forced me to sign, you would understand – it says I am not allowed to say I’m suicidal – THAT IS MY DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!  I can’t even see her any more, I’m terrified of her, when I talked about mental health care she just ignored what I was saying and changed the subject – mental health and ACC had told her I was a time waster, attention seeker and they were never going to give me the services I was entitled to and had in 2009.  I can’t see another doctor either, I’ve had so many bad ones, who just reject and abuse you when they know there is no help for you – they turn on you.

I have won two ACC reviews in 2010 to have my rehabilitation reinstated from 2009, ACC tell me it will be reinstated then REFUSE TO DO IT AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.  I can’t get a lawyer – ………………………………………………..

That article on suicide prevention will drive even more people to suicide because like me they all know how abusive services are.  After years of research and assessment of the situation I can assure you it is our cruel immoral government who are doing this – they sold out our mental health system to INTERNATIONAL DRUG COMPANIES – PLEASE READ MY SUICIDE PREVENTION SUBMISSION.

As for local media, I wrote Journalists are Maggots years ago to show my disgust in the lies they tell about mental health services and how services have been degraded to the point of marketing and those things they do provide are grossly inadequate, or abusive, AND DEFINITELY DON’T FOLLOW PROFESSIONAL REHABILTATION MODELS.

I have been blocked from emailing complaints to Wairarapa and Hutt Valley DHB for years – I asked Ron Mark to forward a complaint last year but he refused.  I could write a letter I suppose but I would self-harm and begging for help from these abusive, criminally negligent people, as I have done for over a decade.

They dragged me through court for protesting and local police were only too happy to oblige.

NOW I’M UP ON SEVEN CHARGES for screaming for health care I am entitled to – BECAUSE THE MEDICAL NEGLECT HAS MADE ME SUICIDAL – Misuse of a Telephone, 3 for graffiti on court buildings (USING A CHALK PEN) and police station for not being able to get police to prosecute ACC and mental health for illegally denying me care and a safe place to live – for harming me under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.  Then listening to ACC and prosecuting me for misuse of a telephone, phoning them in the middle fo the night, I only allowed to phone their answerphone.  Two years ago my ACC case manager phoned and promised me my care would be reinstated – SHE LIED.  Been promised so many times – psychological torture is illegal in New Zealand.

……………………………….  Read my blog, that will tell you what is really going on.  Me and so many others know who bad it is but our media and leaders continue to deny what is going on.

Wairarapa community is of course reaping what it sows after 20 years of driving disabled, suicidal and poor out with no social housing and abusive mental health services.  While at the same time spending gross amounts of money on extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  Trust House is full of National party voters & neo-liberal Labour people who completely agree with government not providing housing to disabled poor.

I have written many times and am in continuous contact with Wairarapa News and Wairarapa Times-Age through TWITTER, referring them to this website and telling them the truth of how bad it is for me and so many others – I AM DISCREDITED, DEGRADED AND IGNORED.

How many more people have to die before they listen to the FACTS I present – only reason I don’t act on the horrendous suicidal thoughts in my head that have me often rocking backwards and forwards on the side of my bed telling myself not to go to the knife draw and kill myself – is because I know that is what our cruel neo-liberal government want, that is what mental health and ACC want, that is what the leaders of our community want.  All this propaganda in the paper about how they care is just that propaganda!!!!!!!!!!!!  One day I hope all of you who never been suicidal get to experience the absolutely torture and terror of being suicidal of years on end is.  Along with all the you’ll be right, time waster, nutter, attention seeker, bludger comments you’ll get from your family, ‘friends’, journalists, politicians, & community leaders you’ll get.

I’m trespassed from King Street Artworks for writing poetry and doing art about how bad mental health services are.  I was trespassed for being upset about having my ‘political’ works censored from their annual exhibition because THEY WOULD LOSE THEIR FUNDING IF I WAS ALLOWED TO EXHIBIT IT.  You know a community is in serious decline when they persecute and censor their artists.  Please read through my books of poetry, that will show you what is truly happening in this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

I make complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights, HDC Advocacy Services etc etc etc – all ignored.  Apparently you can’t believe anything a ‘MENTALLY ILL’ person says.  I actually have a traumatic stress disorders called Compounding Complex PTSD.  ACC call this a mental injury and have extensive rehabilitation and services they ILLEGALLY DENY people.  My mental injury does not make me stupid or a liar – in fact I have several reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  That I had to get a report done for the courts saying I wasn’t delusional about the horrendous suffering and neglect I was being subjected to by ACC and mental health has to tell you something about how cruel immoral and corrupt our government are (National and Labour no different but the way).


Sunday – TVNZ – Trouble In Mind

Was watching TV and saw the first adverts for latest Sunday programme on TVNZ which exposes police being used as mental health services, while they blocked me from their email & social media for BEGGING them to tell my story & protect me from persecution by police while I am denied mental health/ACC care.  Earlier in the night I had been listening to the radio and adverts by Wairarapa National MP Alastair Scott saying how much he enjoyed hearing peoples issues and helping them while he refused to see me or help me with what is happening to me.  Along with repeated adverts by Stopping Violence Services who have never replied to the desperate message I have left on their answerphone.

I had to write otherwise I will kill myself tonight – I couldn’t cry like I wanted to, had to hold back the wailing cry I want to do because I know I would never stop and this would also have meant I would kill myself.  You never really get used to being suicidal due to neglect by your own government and being illegally denied the health care and justice you know you are entitled under multiple NZ laws.

As my research has uncovered the PTSD I initially had after the rape has turned to Compounding Complex PTSD due to ongoing trauma & neglect.  CPTSD is extremely common in New Zealand but being misdiagnosed and covered up by govt & health professionals, as things like depression, personality disorder, bi-polar, attention seeking, lazy etc.  It wouldn’t have got to this if I had received the care I was entitled to but left untreated and added to by ongoing trauma due to lack of safe stable housing and being left disabled and vulnerable in our revolting community has left me a shell of my former self.

Sunday hurt the most when they do stories on OTHER PEOPLE regarding mental health but NEVER ME, never what I know, the laws being violated, never the persecution I am suffering at hands of corrupt police, who will do anything to protect what the government and justice agencies are doing to all disabled mentally injured abuse/trauma victims and mentally ill.  David Rutherford (Chief Human Rights Commissioner) was right in his comments on bullying that the people those being bullied go to for help and ignore you, cause more distress than the bullies themselves.

I begged Sunday for help, begged them, told them police were being used as mental health staff years ago – I was ignored, discredited and degraded for it.  There was no way my case was important enough or of interest to New Zealand public, no way exposing the FACT that people with mental health issues were suffering a gross miscarriage of justice after neo-liberals shut down vast majority of mental health facilities – not that many of these places weren’t houses of horror and torture for many of their residents.  I seldom watch the show because it triggers all the time I have begged them for help and been rejected.

Triggered by all the times I have begged politicians for help, including all Wairarapa MPs for past 15 years, all ACC ministers, all ministers of health, all prime ministers, any MP that ever made a comment on mental health, suicide or ACC – hundreds of them.  All sent letters and emails telling them that people with mental health issues were being persecuted and denied PROFESSIONAL health care and everybody was turning a blind eye to the persecution of an entire sector of society.

When you have studied the violence trauma and neglect industry you realise them psychologically torturing and rejecting you to save money, is done because of a bizarre neo-liberal cult-like belief that you should advance rich, disadvantage middle class and persecute those weak people in society if they can’t work or need help to work.

I cry and feel a waterfall of tears right behind my eyes, I get that often now, even when walking through town to get some exercise because I have been so unwell, become ‘frozen’ with trauma, havn’t thrown up enough (I am recognised as having bulimia but nothing is ever done about it, no matter how much I beg for help) and have put on a huge amount of weight that makes me feel BAD – really really BAD in so many ways.  In 2009 when I had some care, that was illegally taken by National government John Judge and Paula Rebstock, I had a gym membership with some amazing support from the instructors, co-ordinated by my very professional Occupational Therapist Glenda.

I was supposed to get this reinstated but ACC continue to refuse 7 years down the track.  I can’t think about how suicidal and dysfunctional I was after they dumped me, the 46 day hungerstrike and the lawyer who let me down so badly, took ACC to yet another review, which I won AND STILL I GOT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.  This continual telling me I would get services then not providing them is why my mental health deteriorated and I now ‘go tourettes’ when badly triggered.

Thankfully I can keep the violence towards others under control with a lot of prayer and understanding of my disorder – I am sure soon the suicidal hell I suffer so often will take me. Why would I want to stay upon this earth if I can’t work and have to live in terror of homelessness, abusive flatmates and a cruel majority of my community in power who are unprepared to listen to what I know, say and experience.  Yes I have a lot of supporters but what can they do, they can’t get me a house, they can’t force ACC or mental health to provide me professional health care.  I don’t burden those I love or I they would be traumatised to and I’m not going to allow this to be passed to the next generation – like so many do out of ignorance and severe dysfunction.

From what I can see in the advertisement for Trouble in Mind they are going to get again cover up that under human rights and bill of rights laws our government is discriminating against and persecuting mentally injured and ill people.  As I said in my Suicide Prevention Strategy it is a neo-liberal obsession that professional treatment and rehabilitation models are kept out of mental health services so they can create as many jobs as possible from HUMAN SEWAGE like me.

I cry because I know this is done on purpose, because neo-liberal terrorists are doing it in other countries and just like other countries our corporate media – who make a lot of money out of social dysfunction – are not telling the entire story and not pointing out the gross miscarriage of justice going on here.

When I think of all the times I have begged for help with what I know – that I set up this website and all my social media for – have dedicated my life to – how many men women and children have suffered, killed themselves, become violent or addicts because of these corrupt, criminally negligent, seriously disturbed people in government who prefer to spend taxes on cuts to top tax rates, MASSIVE govt debt interest repayments, building refurbishments, Saudi farms, charity to other countries, etc  Nope getting distraught can’t keep telling this story, too many traumas come into my head and the suicidal hell becomes overwhelming.

Its late, I’m exhausted I’ll post this and maybe finish it later if I can – I hope and pray journalists at Sunday see it and contact me to tell my story, that they will ask why I am up on 7 criminal charges for screaming for help from ACC and using non-violent forms of protest to express my disgust and distress.

All those people they purposely killed, all those families they destroyed with their neo-liberal hatred, their corruption and violations of so many laws and everybody who was supposed to protect us sat back and condoned or participate in it.  Because they were told if government persecuted an entire sector of society that was OK – THAT IS NOT OK.

This is what happens when those with money and unbridled power go completely mad.