Been having a really hard time of it, Monday morning was horrific as you will see from my YouTube channel and what I was chalking on the street.  When I go through these severe traumas (suicidal episodes alone because I am refused entitlements under law), which are as significant as your best friend trying to kill you, I often become highly creative.  That is one of the only advantages of my CPTSD, this creativity not only inspires my poetry and art it inspires me to find viable solutions to the situations those in power say they want to repair in our dysfunctional society.

Anyway, I make phone calls, that’s my thing, police must hate me cause I sure they get a few calls when I lose it at people who become insulting and patronising – note I do not threaten harm I just become insulting and swearing, ie I go tourettes (it is a recognised aspect of my disability now – it distresses and harms me too).  Anyway I phoned Lotto about their current advertising campaign about everybody caring for each other and pointed out this was not true in the darklands I live rotting on welfare thanks to ACC etc.  I became distraught, it didn’t go well, but the girl said someone would phone me back.

I got a lovely phone call from a young woman and they going to look at the advertising, considering the state of housing, violence, crime and suicide at the moment, based on my comments.  I also asked her how I could have a voice and tell her my ideas about refocusing charity on to people in need.  Look up ANY DICTIONARY – MINE IS THE OXFORD I GOT WHILE STUDYING LAW AT VICTORIA IN 2001.  Providing for people in need was the dictionary definition until our Orwellian government changed the law to change the meaning.  Which included extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  All for the middle class and rich, while people in real need of the necessities of life, like safety, a safe stable affordable home, a dignified life, valuable jobs, food (without begging for it) became more and more persecuted and impoverished.

This is what fuels our violence, self-harm, addiction and suicide statistics and I challenge anybody to a debate on that topic.  This is what makes wealthy immigrants able to buy land in New Zealand while those PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED locals cannot.  This is what creates homelessness, domestic violence and trauma in the local population.  There are very bad people involved in our government that do this purposely because of their extremist neo-liberal beliefs.

Since I spoke to her the ideas have been rushing through my head as to how it would all work.  Being built over a short time by each community, using resources diverted from commercial business and local businesses and volunteers that just want to help.  With Lotto leading the way it could be co-ordinated I know it could.  Once people got the concept.

Am referring everybody to my solutions page, please share with everybody you know.  Print out my information and take it to your local MP.  Send it to the Minister, send it to the Lotteries Grants Board and say you support my ideas.

I envisage the money from Lotto might only  need to be diverted for a limited period of time (the America’s Cup team might have to forego their millions in charity money for a while).  This would be something you could really call HOPE for 100,000s disabled and poor New Zealand victims of crime.  Homes created for these people, which is required under law, will mean other houses are left vacant for working families AND THE COSTS OF RENT WILL COME DOWN.  The I Am Hope campaign is nothing more than an insult to those who have been purposely disenfranchised and persecuted by neo-liberal extremism.  Please educate yourself about neo-liberalism, Chris Hedges and Prof David Harvey a good place to start.

The more I think about it the more excited I get, how could anybody argue with my reasoning and the benefits to our communities in so many ways.  Do we continue to lead the world in domestic/flatmate violence, youth suicide, self-harm and homelessness or do we actually show what it means to be a New Zealander, a Pakeha and Maori.  More than that to be a citizen of this planet and adhere to constitutional laws and United Nations treaties/contracts we have signed, to reject neo-liberalism as a failed economic and social experiment.

I can picture it all coming together in my head, I’ve always been very good at seeing the big picture and as I have far more of the picture as to where the problems are with THE MARKET,   charity, the law, mental health, health and government this makes me very valuable.  I reakon we could lead the world in rehabilitation of victims of crime, teach other countries what to do, including extricating themselves from the grips of cruel immoral elitist neo-liberalism.  IT IS NOT OUR CULTURE AND I WILL NEVER ACCEPT IT EVER.

If I can pull this off and convince Lotteries Grants Board, woah the positive impacts are going to be massive.  It would help those perverting the charity system at the moment, like Trust House, to save face a little, if they turned their attention to my ideas and housing – not buying more pubs.  It would stop the plethora of really really bad, offensive, unprofessional, inappropriate MAN UP – stopping (creating) violence businesses – groan.

I can picture big warehouse type facilities where houses are being built by teams of people with all types of disabilities.   Surrounded by cranes and hoists, teams of people being supervised by professionals and volunteers (like at the mens sheds). Houses would be for people with all types of economic social and cultural NEEDS and disabilities.  Must be sustainably made.  This is after the banks (giving free loans for business who participate) and private companies muck in and help build the facilities I envisage.  Once these places were set up I know we could pump out 100,000s of houses in a matter of months if the entire country got involved.  Including university students.  Got to use the fit and healthy too.  Not so much big equipment, wouldn’t be safe with so many people on site.  (Have you ever seen Mormons put up one of their churches over a few days, its cool to watch.)  An initial national combined effort, that would create the resources and infrastructure to be sustainable – COMPLETELY WITHIN THE BUDGETS and resources we currently have available.

It is imperative however we ensure (as required by international and NZ law) the cultural rights of Pakeha and Maori who want to own sufficient land to support themselves in times of hardship.  I am a firm believer in the quarter acre section for those who have been bought up in those environments.  If we grew our own vegetables and shared them, we could send more overseas.  At the moment our foreign trade in food (eg dairy, kai moana and meat) is happening at the expense of the poorest in our society, THIS MUST NOT HAPPEN, for scientific reasons.  Te Tangata Te Tangata Te Tangata – It is triggering those affected most basic instincts of survival of the fittest and tribalism – it is uncivilised and our laws were designed to stop that.

Under Libertarian beliefs they supposed to be using charity to support people in need, how did that get perverted into supporting sports, arts and business projects, cycle trails for tourists, etc.  It was the Charities Act  http://www.legislation.govt.nz/act/public/2005/0039/latest/DLM344368.html  (Note: arts for people who suffer trauma is a recognised medical therapy, extravagant arts projects like the giant screw installed across from Trust House at the roundabout in Masterton, is an insulting offensive $350,000 abomination.)

Surprise surprise, those in power went mad and started using charity to advance the rich and persecute then exploit us peasants.  Like that hasn’t happened many of times since the beginning of recorded history.  The most disturbing part now is HOW HAVE INTELLECTUALS AND JUSTICE SYSTEM LET IT GET THIS BAD, it is beyond me how an intelligent society with laws and universities who do record history let this happen.  It is terrifying to me, that someone as insignificant, powerless and disabled as me is the one saying WOAH this isn’t right and this has to stop.

Lets hope my 17 years of dogged determination, research and knowledge pays off.  Knowledge is power they reakon.  And what does not destroy you makes you stronger.  Two sayings I have on my wall.   The years of knowledge I now have and the times I have almost been destroyed by criminal neglect/negligence inciting suicide – I must be the most powerful person on the planet.

I want those who being hurt like I do and feel like I do to remember NON-VIOLENCE is the only way to defeat those in power who incite this HATE.  To all those who don’t understand what incites violence, suicide and crime I AM SURE you will understand what I am suggesting is definitely going to provide HOPE – real HOPE – real SUPPORT – real PEACE in our society.  Not just talking and marketing that changes nothing, as we have seen for the past 30 years, groan.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all – Pakeha and Maori – lets make this work – lets show the world it can work.  Capitalism and Democracy I mean, not the opposite of that, neo-liberalism – definitely not neo-liberalism – definitely definitely not.