I’m very upset after writing that last report, will post this, got some more to go with it and then will have to go for a walk. Might not be able to come back to computer, my heart is breaking over knowing just how cruel and corrupt our government truly are. It makes me wonder how long this elitist shit manipulating and terrorising us peasants has been going on. They definitely good at covering it up THAT’S FOR SURE.
Kia kaha and aroha to all those other people being denied professional health care, have suffered abuse/trauma, now being deprived of basic necessities of a human being and told THEY ARE THE ONES WHO INSANE!
18 April 2019
Medical Council of NZ
NZ Privacy Commissioner
This is a complaint (and report) to the Medical Council of New Zealand, the Privacy Commissioner and others who it may concern. Due to impairments related to my disability (Complex PTSD as a result of overwhelming trauma and criminal negligence) I can only do this once so please do not take this as a sign of disrespect for your processes. It is also going to be difficult for me to keep order in my paragraphs etc. There may be some grammatical errors or spelling mistakes and I apologise in advance for them. I won’t be capable of reading this once it is finished and will have to self-harm etc while writing it in order to get it completed. It has already taken me several days to sit down and write it I am so terrified of the impact it is going to have on me, each similar complaint or report I write gets a little more difficult every time – and there have been many over the past 17 years, when I believed in an honest and ethical legislature, executive and judiciary (politicians, public servants and judges).
“All societies in decay make war on artists and intellectuals
because they offer up ideas which are uncomfortable
and provide a narrative that doesn’t fit the spectacle.”
With my interest in writing, poetry, Rule of Law, justice and accumulation of knowledge I think if born a man of priviledge in 106BC would have been much like him and definitely his friend and supporter. Also given our births are only one day apart, him 3rd and me 2nd January.
It is with deep despair and incredible concern I am writing this with the knowledge head of psychiatry at CCDHB is grossly corrupt, deceitful, incompetent, unprofessional and criminally negligent. To help me put this report together I will use his report as a basis, a copy of this is enclosed/attached.
I have just looked at Section 38 of the Criminal Procedure (Mentally Impaired Persons) Act. It was very distressing and quite obviously prepared at the height of extremist neo-liberal economic policies that were intended to persecute people with mental health issues as a result of trauma and neglect. Now it is 2019 and neo-liberalism has been completely discredited and acknowledged as causing significant harm to our planet and society this law will be seen by many as a human, disabled rights and Bill of Rights abomination.
I note from the legislation the assessment required Justin Barry-Walsh to contact my family and whanau to establish what was happening, he did not. I suggested in our meeting he do just that, my daughter P. and my friend S. would be the best people at the moment (although I don’t tell P. the most serious issues I have to protect her and I have not known S. a long time and she has trauma issues herself). Sadly all my working friends and family have withdrawn from being around me as they cannot cope with my situation. Sarah Greenall was a long time friend Dr Alan Doris talked to for his assessments, she violently assaulted me, ripped my clothing and subjected me to a tirade of abuse in December last year. She also was not able to deal with my increasingly distressing living situation and succumbed to her wealthy and powerful friends and clients opinions of me based on the fact I am unemployed rotting on invalids benefit – when I appear NORMAL.
I also suggested to Justin several public servants I had worked with over time who would be able to advise him of the deterioration in my behaviour. People I knew to be professional and have integrity, who would be objective. He looked like he was writing the names of these people down, particularly Tina Hemi, my WINZ Case manager who had only recently attempted to get ACC to reinstate my health care after waiting nine years since I won two reviews. I also showed him a letter and advised him to call Susie Barnes, a previous lawyer of mine, he only looked at the letter. Susie and I have a process whereby anybody phoning her regarding me and she will text me to get my permission. She is not able to represent me due to her lack of resources and expertise in constitutional law.
I also suggested he talk to Jason, a security guard at Masterton Court who has seen my behaviour deteriorate and within my dysfunction is very adept at getting me through those really terrifying times (I have met several court security staff who have an amazing talent for doing that). Judge Morris who ordered the assessment would herself be a person to talk to as she has known me since my legal protests started becoming before the court in around 2010, after ACC illegally withdrew all my entitlements to professional health care and Independence Allowance of $18/wk and refused to reinstate them even after I won two reviews – and I almost died.
Although the legislation is incredibly specific (in my opinion to manipulate and corrupt the process for people like myself) about what it is to cover in my situation, I can confirm it was about me being able to represent myself as Legal Aid were illegally/unjustly refusing me a lawyer. Justin was well aware the report WAS NOT about whether I was unfit to stand trial, but whether I could represent myself, I told him that at the beginning. That is what the court transcript and documents will show during the earlier appearance where the judge ordered the assessment. Copies of the court transcripts are available (please advise me if you would like me to request them).
Because the summary of facts leaves out the reasons I protested in a way those harming me didn’t like, that I was completely justified in doing, it was not an accurate account of what happened. During our meeting I told him I threw washable red poster paint (I usually work with chalk so I don’t break the law) on the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station because police violently assaulted me, lied about it and got away with it even though I had proof. The court process I went through in 2017 with lawyer Susie Barnes was a perversion of justice however I am not able to get a lawyer after months of trying (please contact Ann Rice at the Law Society) and no longer well enough to start appeal proceedings as I have done in the past – and won. In response to the injustice I was subjected to and the rage I felt listening to those two police officers lie in court and the IPCA ignore my valid complaint I acted out on a protest mission I had been considering for many months after the assault and threats of worse harm (rape implied)– but too terrified to carry out.
I cannot be sure I talked about the other charges as I know I became extremely distressed on recounting the ongoing police violence and ignoring of my valid complaints about it to the appropriate authorities. Decent police officers have done their best to try and make me feel OK and show me not all of them are like those who attacked and threatened me. They have told me they don’t agree with what is happening to me.
The charge for wilful damage, I threw washable red poster pain on the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station that said SPEAK OUT AGAINST VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN. A sign that still triggers me into flashbacks of the physical and psychological violence I was subjected to. They (the govt) play that message on TV screens and posters at Masterton hospital A & E as well as WINZ I found out yesterday. It took me every bit of courage I possessed to do that protest I was so terrified of more violence. I also left a sculpture of my art that included a poem and philosophical quote. I walked out of the police station and using chalk spray did a swastika on the wall. I got into my car and drove an hour to Lower Hutt where I chalked on the court building (this is where Judge PJ Butler found me guilty of some minor crime for chalk graffiti I think and defended the two police officers who hurt me). I chalked Judge PJ Butler with a large swastika – to represent fascism and violence I was being subjected to as a vulnerable targeted minority.
I left there and drove to Wellington Central Police Station where I handed myself in, because I have a lot to do with Wellington police after my years of protests and mostly they are decent police officers who try to apply Bill of Rights. It was very distressing as I had to tell them why and I know police don’t like hearing stories like mine about other officers.
The other charges included me not attending court and twice I had to spend a night in Wellington police cells and be transported in a very small metal box back to Wairarapa. I refused to attend court because until I received the ACC health services I was entitled to after winning the reviews in 2010 and 11 – mental health services were continuing to refuse me all services and I was terrified of them for good reason. I also refused on the basis I was being denied a lawyer and I desperately needed one. Legal Aid Services delayed appointing a lawyer, then appointed one who didn’t even work in Wairarapa and they didn’t tell him. It was only me phoning the day before I was supposed to appear that he knew I existed. Then they appointed a lawyer that had a conflict of interest as he was the lawyer of a mentally ill dangerous gang member I had unfortunately become associated with (I thought he was a musician I didn’t know his background to start with, but once you are embroiled with these people there is no going back).
I was too terrified to go into a Wairarapa police station or at the time the court (that was more my mental health issues and being phobic about being in the court building after several traumatic events there).
THIS IS SOUNDING ALL CONFUSING AND I’M BECOMING REALLY UNWELL BRINGING UP THESE TRAUMAS, that is what happens with Compounding Complex PTSD. If you bring up too many injustices/traumas your brain starts to shut down in order to protect you. I refuse to stop, I am in bed it is 2.30 in the afternoon and I am not moving from here until this is done, complete or not.
Justin Barry-Walsh was deceitful when he asked me if he could call Stephen Enright, the context was about how insulting, offensive, bigoted and ridiculous Mr Enright was in the 10 years I had been dealing with him. Stephen Enright is the person the Minister of Health puts people like me on to when we are being illegally denied professional mental health care as required under multiple laws. The Director of Mental Health and Addiction Services is quite obviously instrumental in our appalling abusive mental health system and corresponding world leading suicide, violence, self-harm and eating disorder rates. Also in Wairarapa we are No 1 for suicide in NZ, along with compulsory treatment orders and psychotropic drug use.
I never read the report Justin did in 2014, a friend at the time read a few pieces out to me which sounded very supportive and professional, so I thought I could trust him this time – I was wrong. I didn’t agree with the report of Dr Holmes, again parts read out to me, because she had a drug focus rather than an Occupational Therapy focus on me overcoming the phobias I had created after being raped sodomised, the person found not guilty even when he admitted it in court and then being left without professional health care or support as a single parent of two girls aged 5 and 6 at the time (now 23 and 24).
It is a fundamental spiritual, cultural and ethical belief of mine (also based on my extensive study of traumatic stress disorders and basic human needs as defined by Abraham Maslow in his hierarchy of needs) I do not want experimental psychotropic drugs used in my rehabilitation and treatment. Under Bill of Rights, civil and human rights I am allowed to manifest my beliefs in society and have them respected. I am mentally injured, not mentally ill, my brain is reacting quite normally to an inhuman situation of overwhelming trauma followed by criminal negligence over a long period of time (ie govt persecution).
There is absolutely no way I gave Justin or Stephen Enright authority to discuss my health issues in any way and I definitely did not give him authority to consult with Wairarapa Mental Health Services. These are the people who, apart from ACC refusing to reinstate my care after winning two reviews, refuse me all public mental health services advertised and given to many other people – just not me. They are the ones in my local community who discredit, defame and denigrate me to police, leaders and other members of the community, ACC and mental health denying me professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe stable culturally appropriate housing is why I protest (under ACC law they are required to insure their disabled clients are in housing – they don’t of course).
The reports I offered him were two from Dr Alan Doris, who has now left the country (no doubt due to govt corruption in the mental health sector). I don’t want to go into what happened with Alan, he was such an amazing man and although I thought he was my psychiatrist at one point, that was never the case. ACC were refusing to provide me a psychiatrist I just didn’t understand their corrupted and cruel assessment and neglect regime.
I also showed him the outcomes of my winning ACC reviews, which has professional health information from Adapt Therapy and my amazing, awesome, professional Occupational Therapist at the time Glenda vanderven-Long – she is still practicing. He glanced at them but didn’t want copies. I had a satchel of documents he browsed through, a copy of all the documents is attached. The only thing he took away from our meeting was a piece of art/poetry I had recently done called I Don’t Want To Live. He didn’t seem interested in anything I had to show him, though I remember him taking a few notes.
I showed him the Guide to a Civil Society produced by the UN and told him I adhere to it – including the part that says I am allowed to be insulting in the face of ignorance, corruption and bigotry. I showed him my dozens of photocopied pages from the book Traumatic Stress – The effects of overwhelming experience on mind body and society by Bessel van der Kolk and others. Also the book Multidisciplinary Approach to Rehabilitation by Shrawan Kumar and Person to Person, another book from my health rehabilitation and disability studies at Massey several years ago. I showed him my copies of the Code of Claimant Rights, ACC Act 2001 and Human Rights Act 1993 and those parts I had highlighted that were being ignored. I showed him the contract I was forced to sign under duress by Carterton Medical Centre – I had a skin cancer at the time and they refused to treat me until I signed it. Also letters to Bell Gully complaining about Simon Watt and a document I accidentally obtained while being transferred by police to Masterton that says some extremely degrading, insulting and derogatory things about my mental health on it.
He refers to none of these documents, Dr Doris’ reports or the ACC Fairway review decisions in his report. He consults instead with the people who are illegally denying me professional health care, the very people I am protesting about.
I don’t want to go back and I don’t know if I have said I emailed Tina Hemi a few days after seeing Justin and gave her authority to speak to him, but nobody else, she never heard from him and he sent me a very creepy email saying he would talk to her, but it was after he had written the report so it would have been completely irrelevant. I have included the 2/3 emails I have sent to Justin and his replies, which now look extremely patronising and insulting. Please including these emails as part of this complaint.
Paragraph 3 Justin Barry-Walsh DID NOT explain he worked in any small pilot programme with police or Parliamentary services IF HE HAD I WOULD HAVE WALKED STRAIGHT OUT THE DOOR. I was at law school before I was raped in 2002, I know enough about the basics of law to know it was a severe conflict of interest for him to even be assessing me considering his role discrediting people with mental health issues demanding justice and professional mental health care they are entitled to under multiple laws and official documents that the government are failing to provide. Hence our world leading rates of suicide, that everybody who can’t get professional health care knows mental health and ACC do to us but nobody can do anything about unless they have a very good lawyer – which I do not.
Judge Morris was horrified by the conflict of interest blatantly shown in Justin’s report, she has ordered a second assessment with hopefully a less corrupted neo-liberal controlled psychiatrist. I have asked for someone recommended by Mason Dury as I am a proponent of his Whare Tapa Wha model as it relates to my rehabilitation and treatment. The judge has recommended this. The Medical Council website says doctors must refuse to do assessments for third parties if they have such a conflict of interest – Justin obviously believes himself above these requirements.
I am incredibly insulted and at the same time disgusted and horrified that I have been labelled as fixated for protesting that ACC are refusing to reinstate my care as required by two reviews. All New Zealanders would understand anybody such as myself challenging abusive, experimental, unprofessional and criminally negligent mental health services has far more credibility than those who provide and defend the current regime.
I have protested many times outside Parliament and used every democratic process possible to firstly get the professional health care described in ACC legislation, academic literature, disability, health, constitutional and other laws, as well as UN treaties. My protests have improved services for some parts of the population, particularly violent criminal mentally ill people, addicts and those with minor mental health issues. People who get services, mostly further harm me and get away with it because they are ‘mentally ill’.
Paragraph 4, Justin’s report is extremely bizarre in its conflicting assessments of me, he says I am an intelligent and articulate woman, yet gives absolutely no indication as to why he says I am not fit to stand trial on these minor criminal charges – but extremely important Bill of Rights decisions. He in no way describes my extremely dysfunctional behaviour on the day he assessed me. I have these worsening reactions to people in power over me and me receiving health care and justice. The years of assessments, very good and very bad, while nothing ever comes from them (except in 2009 when a report by Alan Doris culminated in ACC starting a prof rehab plan, which was supposed to be for 2 ½ years but was illegally stopped by an ACC GP with no mental health training after six months). I don’t even have a GP at the moment and have other health issues not being addressed, I desperately need health care, everybody else gets it, why not me. I truly believe there are people within our government that are denying me health care and ignoring police violence in order to drive me to suicide.
Justin has trivialised the extreme state of distress I was in, the almost continuous crying, at times doubled over dry reaching and dribbling, rocking in emotional pain. He makes no comparison whatsoever to the state I was in 2014 during his assessment and the significant deterioration of my behaviour since then. It is distressing for me just to think about how bad things have become and wish I had acted on my suicidal ideation years ago.
Having read many books on traumatic stress disorders and psychology my mannerisms were described as tics, involuntary repetitive movements. These are extremely distressing for me, especially if they happen in front of people. I don’t have a PERCEPTION of injustice and mistreatment of myself and others, I know we are being treated unjustly and mistreated. Having met a lot of people while publicly protesting and of course on social media, I know what is happening to those with stress disorders denied professional rehabilitation. I don’t work, I have made this my job and our society get excellent value for money at $450 per week for my 15 years of expertise and cliff face experience. Even more so now my rent is $320 per week.
He says my anger was never directed at him and it wasn’t, I didn’t realise he was instrumental in discrediting me and insuring me and others didn’t get public mental health care – after ACC illegally refused. I can assure you it would be now. I will include my first response to Justin’s report which I received at 4.30pm the day before I was due in court. It was addressed to the judge and hand written, I hadn’t fully considered the implications of the report at that stage, I have now, and I am infuriated by it.
I discovered recently the Forensic Mental Health Unit at Porirua is named EARTH MOTHER, no wait GARDEN OF EDEN, no wait VIRGIN MARY, no wait PAPATUANUKU. I find this highly offensive and will be taking steps to address this extremely offensive use of a word that has significant spiritual meaning to me as a Pakeha on an organisation neo-liberals set up after driving as many mentally ill out of hospitals to be harmed and harm our communities. There is significant evidence available to prove as our corrupt government emptied out mental health facilities our prisons filled up. In fact I met a police jailer once that had been working as a corrections officer when this was happening and he confirmed that is exactly what happened. It is obvious also in our courts, which now have permanent, poorly trained mental health workers in attendance at all times and programmes in jail for mentally ill people. Under World Health Organisation guidelines people with mental health issues are not supposed to be put in jail or go through the police or justice system. Sadly neo-liberals have worked out the huge amounts of money in violence and justice industry they can make by persecuting people with mental health issues. Especially those they purposely impoverish and deny professional health care to.
My strong sense of justice is as a result of my personality and all other intelligent people interested in the art and history of Rule of Law, government etc. Any judge would have to have the same interest in justice, or they wouldn’t do it for a job. Governments and laws were created to deal with injustices between citizens, because injustices cause dissension, envy hate and of course violence and bitterness.
There were political themes, I am becoming more and more aware of political religions defining how people behave and what they think. I don’t ascribe to any of them, my only interest is truth and justice. I also do not define myself under any spiritual religion, I know about Christianity, Spiritualism and a little about Buddhism and Islam and I do believe in non-violence in the face of persecution. That is validated by these spiritual religions and many activists experiences, including John Lennon who has a great quote about those in power harming you until you become violent or suicide – then they know how to handle you. While you stay non-violent they don’t know what to do, which my case illustrates perfectly.
The neo-liberal reforms started in the 1980s continue to be implemented to this day, they didn’t stop after the 1990s. I have recently seen official documents cutting even more services from our health sector, by cutting supervisory staff, therefore further cutting services and putting public mental health staff under even more pressure. This is to drive people into private health insurance and private health providers, to replicate the neo-liberalism of Americans. As this American medical model takes firmer hold and becomes more corrupted we have become like America and have mass shootings by violent extremists. I witnessed an American race consultant on The Project entertainment news show positively happy when the presenters asked why did we have a terrorist shooting event in New Zealand. His comment was, it happens all the time in America, the link between NZ rejecting our own ‘Kiwi culture’ for American/global neo-liberalism seemed completely lost on those TV personalities and the American.
Paragraph 5 – I display a keen awareness of inequalities because I am a lay expert in the area of psychology, human behaviour, sociology and of course traumatic stress disorders and I live in the neo-liberal darklands of this hell hole country. After I was raped and couldn’t get the help I needed and learnt was entitled to I started to study, to try and understand what was happening to me and others and how to fix it. Sadly fixing it is not on the minds of those who deny us professional rehabilitation models and health care, they have done all they can to cause harm and create jobs and profits for very bad people.
I said at the beginning of my interview with Justin that I would be digressive and ‘all over the place’ that was part of my disorder when extremely stressed. It is like I have to open up that part of my personality that takes on all the trauma, it has been given names like the wounded child and it definitely is part of my split in personality after years of persecution and neglect. I told him if he wanted me to get me on track for questions he had he should just interject when what I was saying wasn’t relevant and ask them. He has lied about letting me talk and that being respectful. He didn’t say much, that is true, but he had every opportunity to and to ask relevant questions, I was there a long time. It took me days to recover my body goes into such ‘convulsions’ I am exhausted physically and mentally. I call it my tourettes moments, after watching several programmes on tourettes and recognising my worsening behaviour was very similar to these people – just mine was onset by prolonged trauma/persecution, not mental illness.
I do have trouble sleeping but because I don’t work I can usually catch up on sleep if I really need it. My ability to sleep through the night is also reliant on the level of fear and stress I am under at the time, eg after police assault or persecution when I wake to go to the toilet I completely wake up and can’t get back to sleep. If I have had a dangerous flatmate or person in my life that will keep me traumatised and terrified for weeks/months. It also depends on my bladder and kidney issues which are associated with my monthly menstrual cycle. I have so many bladder and kidney infections now, after being unable to have tests due to my appalling mental health and lack of mental health services around five years ago. I have requested a copy of my medical files to prove the doctor ordered them, I don’t’ want to say what happened, I am sure it is one of the documents I will give you about the nurse who ignored me saying I couldn’t go and needed mental health services. She responded with if you don’t want to go there is nothing I can do.
Paragraph 6 – I didn’t express regret at ACC and mental health denying me care and illegally stopping all my care in 2009 I expressed outrage and terror, which is why my behaviour was so dysfunctional. These people have destroyed my life and denied me right and justice, these are basic rights under Westminster Law. These people have destroyed the lives of 100,000s New Zealanders and everybody knows it. I am subjected to discrimination and stigma mostly perpetrated by cruel immoral corrupt mental health service providers, New Zealand media and politicians. Using words like ‘my sense’ of is extremely insulting and further discredits anything I say.
I do have suicidal ideation – or more correctly I am suicidal – and I definitely know after 17 years since I was mentally injured that there is no hope for the future while cruel corrupt neo-liberal economic terrorists rule our country and most of our planet. My issues with anxiety, trauma and phobias are caused by being denied mental health services, they are amplified by being left to live in harmful dangerous inhuman living situations and not protected. As required under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act 1961, I tell police about those who violate those two laws, but they refuse to do anything, refuse to even reply. The fact they do that implies they are also corrupt and covering up for the government who currently use mass immigration of wealthy foreigners to prop up the economy and drive disabled and poor locals from their homes etc.
I have done some study into the history of welfare and homes for us all, it has been our culture since Gov George Grey and Richard Seddon over 100 years ago. All that gone since neo-liberal economic extremists took over our country and government. Grossly illegal but nobody is allowed to challenge it in court of course, I would if I was well enough and I would if I could get a suitably resourced and qualified lawyer.
I am a good person, only time I am triggered is when I am insulted and patronised. There are many people I get on with, that my rage has increased over time is because that is what happens when you are persecuted for many years. Yes I have a good dictionary and am aware of the meaning of persecuted, it is not something that happens only in other countries, it happens in New Zealand. It appears to me NZ is just very very good at marketing media propaganda and cover it up. I deal with that when protesting because people don’t believe me when I tell them what is happening to me and others and could happen to them.
Paragraph 7 – Justin wouldn’t understand the difference between mental illness and mental injury as he hasn’t read the ACC legislation which defines mental injury. I have a perfectly normal functioning brain as I said before, it is the environment and trauma it has suffered that makes it the way it is. It was him that said Dr Holmes said I had Complex PTSD, I agreed with him as I have did many months of study trying to find out what was happening to me before I read Bessel vanderkolk and he listed almost everything I was experiencing. Since then I have read many more books on the topic and keep abreast of latest research and treatments.
I studied health rehabilitation and disability at Massey University a few years ago. I ended the year even more unwell than I started as I was made aware what was being taught was the opposite to what was being practiced. During my studies as a adult extramural student I got out every book in the Massey library I could find about stress disorders, abuse, etc etc. If I was told to read a chapter I read the entire book. If I found something interesting I read even more, for example the question of CULTURE came up and I have considered it for many years. As a pakeha what is my culture and I can assure you it is definitely not part of the current neo-liberal economic terrorist religion we are suffering under.
The scathing story of what a Pathways social worker did to me was more than scathing, he almost killed me and drove me into a really dangerous situation with a dangerous mentally ill man. I don’t’ want to describe it here, it is too traumatising to recount and I fear for my life/safety. The social worker did something to me on 2nd January, my birthday and around the time I was raped which is always difficult, if XXXXXX had not turned up I would have killed myself for sure. .
I don’t perceive suicide prevention marketing to be worsening the situation I KNOW IT IS! Recently an unwell suicidal young man I know went to his new American immigrant doctor in Carterton. He had had enough of their experimenting on him with meds, he has CPTSD due to abuse and poverty. The doctor told him he had a chemical imbalance in his brain – which is a myth and any health professional that says that is incompetent and a quack. She also told him he should take the meds because if he lived in America he would get nothing. As New Zealand’s youth suicide, domestic violence and self-harm statistics are worst in the world this proves what we do in New Zealand is worse than doing absolutely nothing. Please refer to Chris Hedges, international journalist and his references to ANOMIE and why people are committing suicide and homicide in this neo-liberal utopia for the rich and hell for the poor. I asked Justin if he knew what ANOMIE was, he said he did, I described the complete breakdown of social bonds I was experiencing and had no comment. Given he is head of psychiatry at CCDHB you would think he might have a little more interest – are they trying to stop suicides or not (personally I think not).
Of course unprofessional incompetent abusive mental health services cause our world leading suicide rates, of course going into mental health services you have more chance of dying and being sexually and physically abused than staying out of it. Dozens if not hundreds of people I have met who have been thrown in the bin or have had people they cared about commit suicide describe exactly that. As head of psychiatry at CCDHB I would imagine it would be impossible to admit what you and the government were doing was killing vulnerable terrorised, impoverished women, children and men (some in debt poverty). I would describe Justin as delusional and a psychopath, they are very clever, even when they feign concern it is only because it is in their best interest.
We didn’t talk much about the impetus behind each one as I become to unwell bringing up further older traumas that lead to my protests. I told him I was illegally denied Legal Aid, how I was given a lawyer who didn’t work in the region, then a lawyer who had a conflict of interest with the aforementioned dangerous mentally ill man. Then I was just denied Legal Aid and even the judge can’t make them find me a lawyer – which is illegal.
Here Justin explains why I have a legal defence and yet at the beginning of this report he suggests he doesn’t know. I did clearly articulate my defence of several of the charges based on impairments related to my disability, which include – what I call GOING TOURETTES when I am triggered / insulted/ patronised etc, as I have described before. I have little or no control over these moments and I will often apologise after them, they are something reasonably new, as is the swearing. They are described in the last report by Dr Alan Doris, but it has got worse since then.
Although I do GO TOURETTES and insult and swear at people who are responsible for harming or discriminating against people like myself I HAVE NEVER AND WILL NEVER threaten anybody with harm or resort to violence in any way. It is part of my fundamental belief system that karma will see people are punished, or God is the punisher, not me. I have never been prosecuted by police for anything like this ever, even when many public servants in health, welfare and justice have accused me of doing it. Police know me now and they know I don’t do that, I hope people experience what I am experiencing so they will learn and not be bigoted, cruel and callous.
My tourettes is an impairment related to my disability, something I have no control over, you can’t prosecute a disabled person for something they have no control over. Sadly neo-liberal controlled mental health workers, our government and judiciary have been doing that, which was what John Tully was subjected to. I also know that once people I have ‘lost it’ with understand what is happening to me after waiting nine years for ACC to reinstate my care, not having a safe stable home or enough money to live with dignity. Once they understand my living situation and the trauma after trauma they understand and don’t want me prosecuted because they know I am unwell. That’s how we all treat people who ‘lose it’ when they are going through trauma.
I did not want a lawyer to deal with the criminal charges as well as my health care, I wanted a lawyer that could deal with the Bill of Rights aspects to my justified protests, that I should never have been prosecuted for in the first place. Getting the health care I am entitled to and compensation for the years of criminal negligence and persecution is another matter. The letter Justin looked at from Susie Barnes relates to this health and human rights, Bill of Rights issue. Susie wrote that before we both knew Legal Aid Services were intending to deny me a lawyer altogether for these latest charges. If I could get the health care I am entitled to by law and been denied for the past nine years through these protests, both myself, the judge and a large number of other people would be very pleased – NONE MORE THAN ME OF COURSE.
With regard to conflating the two issues, they are in fact one issue, for 17 years since I was raped I have been unable to get a lawyer to force ACC and the NZ govt to provide me the professional treatment care rehabilitation and housing I am entitled to under law. When I started protesting about it – as I am required to do in a corrupted democracy – my civil rights started to be violated. This was a huge shock and disappointment to me, realising the police, justice system, government etc were grossly corrupted by this extremist neo-liberal economic religion everybody had decided was the only way. Which we now know is nothing more than wealthy global elites taking back power from us peasants and exploiting us to profit even more. It has destroyed the planet and caused huge disruption and violence around the world. 30 years after we were told REFORMS were going to make New Zealand even better than it was before it is quite obvious these claims were completely false and things are much worse.
Part of neo-liberalism was to set up processes to stop poor people who were having their basic human needs denied and their wealthy and assets taken from them also denied access to justice. And I can quote multiple laws implemented during the rise of neo-liberal terrorism that did this. Justin is a psychiatrist, how would he know how the justice system works in relation to a political activist seeking justice. Or has he been advised by government consultants like Bell Gully and Simon Watt who are of course grossly corrupt fraudsters – from my understand of what they do and the law.
The issues of my minor criminal charges in respect of protesting to have my care reinstated after winning two ACC reviews in 2010/11 and stop the persecution of police and public mental health services are all one issue. The issue is the government stopping me receiving the treatment care rehabilitation housing and justice I read about in ACC and other legislation. I know what the law says, I can read and comprehend English, I only finished by first year of law at Victoria but I had already represented myself in an Employment dispute as an employer and a resource consent dispute as president of an offroad racing club. I knew I was good at it and I had a real passion and understanding of law, which hasn’t changed and any lawyer who knows me will tell you that. Any psychiatrist or mental health worker who knows me will also know I am an expert in traumatic stress disorders.
In fact a local Occupational Therapist currently working with a friend of mine asked her about me recently. My friend was talking about me and the OT asked if my name was Jayne and she said yes. The OT Lauren who I do not know made a comment that I was a very intelligent woman. This has made me distressed as how intelligent can I be as I don’t have a doctor and havn’t had for over three years, I’m rotting on welfare, living in poverty, can barely feed myself, can’t belong to clubs, can’t participate in my community, can’t help my children and family who are mostly ashamed of me. I can’t get a lawyer, can’t represent myself either, etc etc – that’s not very intelligent, is it.
I am despised and treated with contempt by mental health services, I have people in the community I know tell me when mental health staff are saying really horrible things about me. Nobody will tell me who said it, but only so they don’t get themselves into trouble. Because I challenge the abusive mental health system and staff we have in Wairarapa and around New Zealand I am HATED. Because I tell the truth about how bad they are and that there propaganda is all a bunch of marketing lies I am HATED. I am discredited and despised in the community because of discrimination by social agencies, churches, council, local and national leaders. All of this is validated by extremely corrupt, grossly negligent people who are instrumental in purposely causing the social problems that plague this country today. Problems that create jobs and wealth, but that require people to stay unwell and unable to participate. There might be other people on welfare who like it and want to stay there – I have never met anybody like that in my lifetime – but I can assure you there has never been a day gone by since I was raped that I didn’t want to return to work. 17 years I have woken every single day with the desire to get the help I need so I can return to work. If I don’t work I can’t live, if I don’t work I am terrorised and despised in the community, if I don’t work I will be raped again, if I don’t work I will eventually be made homeless, if I don’t work I can’t live with dignity, if I don’t work I will kill myself.
I wasn’t trying to draw attention to the fact I am being persecuted and illegally denied the health care, welfare, home and justice I am entitled to by law. The only good thing about CPTSD is it makes you highly creative, all the blood flows to your right brain from your left (please refer to my youtube channel to see what happens, before and after a visit to WINZ – google JR Murphy Poet youtube). Unlike most people on welfare I use my time to educate and inform myself of world events, study the suicide and violence industry, study media and neo-liberalism, study people and what is happening around me in the darklands. I do art, I write, I am a poet, I write plays and songs, I can sing, not everything is about how bad my life is in this revolting neo-liberal country. I also write plays etc that involve gardens and birdlife etc. I paint and sculpt, I try to sell the things I create by I am mostly too unwell, I am not well enough to fill out forms and applications etc. I am a fragile artist as many are.
I was trespassed from public mental health facility King Street Artworks not long after ACC withdrew all my care in 2009. I became unwell and King Street decided to censor my art about what was happening to me and then trespass me – my complaints to the Human Rights Commission were ignored. It still devastates me today what they did to me in my most desperate time, King Street staff and artists who I had considered my family rejected me because they thought they would lose their funding if I was allowed to exhibit my art and tell the truth. It is a serious sign when those in positions of power are censoring artists. I am censored from all galleries public and private I have approached in the Wairarapa. Almost every one receives funding from the govt or Trust House so will do nothing to challenge these organisations. It is deeply disturbing behaviour and not legal, but when I try and approach those who supposed to insure artists are not censored they are so naïve and ignorant they just don’t believe you or even realise that is part of their job.
Paragraph 8 – He was wrong about my reasoning for why I wanted police to arrest me so I could attend court, I told police on the day. Although police had violently assaulted me with handcuffs and I was in a lot of pain (and still have ongoing problems and am not able to see a doctor). My anxiety of standing waiting for court with all those people, after I had had several melt-downs in the place was overwhelming. I knew I would not be able to stay there and if I left they would have cut my benefit. So I reasoned, managed my disability, by coming in through the cells, much quieter and I don’t have a choice, which I’m weirdly OK with.
Police thought it was a great joke, started to take me back to outside court then said they wouldn’t stay. I told them if they didn’t stay I couldn’t either, they left and went back inside. My wrist was excruciating, they had refused me a doctor and let me go after charging me with graffiti for a chalk sprayed swastika on the court doors and windows. A protest at the injustices I was being subjected to. I left the police station went round to the court fuming angry because of the pain I was in, walked down to the front of the court which was locked and about 40 people were outside waiting. Started banging with my leg on the door and telling people what had happened and they were all being screwed. Was removed by security, can’t remember what happened with court.
I can’t handle waiting I start freaking out and ticking, its is extremely humiliating and I didn’t want to be put in that situation.
Ended up at A & E the next day getting my really sore wrist x-rayed and braced up, was harrowing as I was having severe fear reactions where I curl up in a ball and put my hands over my ears. I am so overwhelmed.
Paragraph 9 – Justin DID NOT SPEND ANY TIME DISCUSSING MY TREATMENT NEEDS – THAT IS A LIE. He asked me but I couldn’t speak, after ACC dumped me off care in 2009 I almost died and it was very traumatic for me, so traumatic I freeze. I have told so many people what I want and what I had and nothing ever happens. It traumatises me even more when this happens. I have only ever been told by mental health that I don’t want services, which is a lie. The OT ACC had arranged who pulled out, after she was rude to me and then so was her boss I didn’t react very well which they reakon gave them an out. That is the third OT in nine years to reject me, I need an OT to arrange things for me. I can’t do so many things myself now.
My clear views about what I needed are based on the ACC legislation and professional health and rehabilitation models. I know what I need and I know what I am entitled to. I never told Justin what my needs were and he never offered any services, therapies or solutions from public mental health services.
Of course my behaviour has impacted on my ability to communicate with others and get services, that is an impairments related to my disability, I manage it best I can – others should be doing the same. Tina Hemi at WINZ could, Glenda and others. All staff within mental health services are really really bad, they try to have power over you and that will never work with me. This issue gets worse the longer ACC deprives me of a multi-disciplinary, Occupation Therapy approach to my rehabilitation based on professional, culturally appropriate models. Not the experimentation people with stress disorders are being subjected to at the moment – that’s killing us, that’s made us No 1 for suicide in NZ, etc.
It is not me who becomes disrespectful it is the people I am dealing with.
I havn’t smoked cannabis for a long time, people I know do, they also drink, take psych medication to keep them stable, etc etc. I live in the disabled darklands everybody’s on something, except for me. I don’t even have paracetamol in my house at the moment.
If people weren’t smoking pot to keep themselves happy and calm when there lives are a never ending struggle and drama, then maybe they would start protesting like I do and things would change. Everybody in the darklands just tries to forget what is happening to them and many are suicidal. I don’t associate with junkies, they’re dangerous, they get lots of support from the government I have noticed – doesn’t seem fair when they usually the ones hurting people like me.
I DO NOT HAVE AN ENDURING PERSONALITY CHANGE, if I had the health care I am entitled to and safe stable home to live in, with what is necessary to live a dignified life I wouldn’t still be traumatised and dependent. That includes working and not having to beg for food and other things which are part of my pakeha culture.
Mental health refused me services in 2017, the person Peter was sent to do the court assessment the judge ordered. I completely flipped out, I had been told it was Justin, I was looking at the man who had denied me care when I was told by a member of the mental health director I would definite receive it. The trauma, suffering and suicidal hell I went through after that, made my life so much more difficult. I started screaming and swearing at him when I realised who it was. Jason the security guard was excellent and made sure another meeting was arranged. Little did I know Justin was just another part of the corrupted appalling mental health system that discredited, rejected and terrorised people like me.
PTSD and compounding Complex PTSD are different, the first one is a normal reaction to an extreme stressor and slowly heals. What goes wrong is when the person with PTSD has another or many more traumas or their life becomes extremely stressful and overwhelming. You need safe stable affordable places to heal in your community, they are no longer there.
Pile on top of that degrading unjust terrifying welfare after 30 yrs of austerity and discrimination in the community.
The sexual assault was the catalyst for developing CPTSD, the criminal medical neglect, unsafe unstable housing afterwards and being put in positions of harm is what has made things worse and not allowed me to heal.
My relationship with Wairarapa Mental Health is appalling and I have not disengaged, they have rejected me. King Street Artworks trespassed me for being upset about my art being censored because it criticised mental health services and the government. I was really unwell, they wanted me to meet them in a coffee shop, that is an insult and would have been deeply humiliating for me. I was managing my disability and I have the phone records from a previous DHB OT to prove it.
I have made numerous complaints about them, all ignored. I spent four years with a Nationwide Advocate trying to ENGAGE with mental health I was refused over and over again. My contact with them has been appalling, I know the standard and type of rehabilitation I am entitled to and I will not be disrespected or degraded by people I have to deal with. It is not my fault I am an intelligent informed strong person and can’t be around people who are not, I have no respect for what they say.
They gossip in the community about me and there is nothing I can do because they are not my health providers. Most police don’t like mental health services, as they are the ones dealing with the aftermath of rejection. I have made valid complaints to the Privacy Commissioner which were also ignored and they were allowed to continue discrediting me and defaming me in the community. That incites my traumatic responses, that is why we have laws against it.
I had to leave this complaint for several days, been trying to return to it but my brain doesn’t want to, my bulimia has become really bad, sadly I don’t throw up enough to lose weight – I just get fatter and more disgusting. Because I am coming back to this complaint I may repeat things which I apologise for. I have to finish this complaint, having spent some time on facebook recently the government corruption and propaganda I am seeing in the area of mental health, disability and human rights is overwhelming and criminal.
I am not even sure where I left off and I can’t work it out so I will start at Paragraph 14 – I can’t bear to read what I have written above. I wish I was dead soooooo much, to know how corrupt our government, leaders and corporations are, to know they want people to commit suicide, violence, etc so they can exploit them and make money out of them, why would anybody who knows the truth want to live. Especially knowing an entire industry had been set up and brainwashed to believe it is my fault I am unwell, rather than those who required under law to provide me health care, welfare and justice.
Paragraph 14 is one of the worst, yes decent people do show concern for my welfare as they have seen my mental health deteriorate because I am being illegally denied ACC, professional health care and a safe stable affordable home to live in. They try and get me services, except mental health and ACC providers refuse, nothing those people who are or me can do about it. This report by Justin proves what is happening, that Justin blames me for the corrupt abusive negligent system he heads and runs in accordance with his extremist neo-liberal terrorist beliefs is the reason he should be censured and prevented from ever working in a position of power over vulnerable terrorised people ever again.
I phone people because I wrote to them for years and they did nothing, I wrote to everybody I did everything required under every complaints process there is in this grossly corrupted neo-liberal controlled country. In those calls I tell the truth and beg for health care I know I am entitled to and the justice I know I am entitled to. I am very unwell, not sure what dysregulated is, being persecuted and denied health services after watching 1000s of hours of dysfunctional TV and media marketing that says there are services is extremely disturbing.
I’ve been waiting nine years for ACC to reinstate my care after winning TWO reviews/court cases. Yes I am unwell, angry and screaming for help everybody tells me is there – but is not provided to me, I am not sure if this is just me and because of legal protests, or nobody gets it. Perhaps nobody is receiving the care they are entitled to under law, because I see a huge amount of dysfunctional trauma victims in the darklands where I live.
I DO NOT MAKE THREATS AND NEVER HAVE MADE THREATS EVER. I am a deeply spiritual person and believe wholeheartedly in non-violence in the face of persecution by government and economic criminals. Justin is suggesting I would hurt someone myself, I never would, I don’t need to (and being angry at someone who insults me is NOT VIOLENCE AND NOT A CRIME). I am now so unwell I do go tourettes and the most insulting things come out of my mouth, but are always related to wanting people to go through what I have gone through so they understand how corrupt and cruel the government are and how abusive mental health services are. Then I start swearing, every swear word I know. I am pretty sure I have described this to someone recently and I have put it earlier in this report so I won’t continue.
Yes I have protested at MOH, I wrote an amazing poem and was so unwell – I protest most when I am highly suicidal and very unwell as staying at home and doing nothing I would definitely kill myself. All trespass notices I have been served are illegal and only so those harming me and others didn’t have to address the suffering and harm they were causing. People in their offices in Wellington get to drive people to violence and suicide, deny them professional health care and the necessaries of life, because they never meet these people it is easier for them to persecute us. One of the reasons ACC find it so easy to reinstate my care and $10,000 they owe me is because they refuse to meet me face to face. That is why the meetings Tina Hemi and Richard Fry at WINZ went nowhere, because ACC refused to meet with me. Why would they do that, police were prepared to, WINZ were there, mental health were there, but ACC refused to be there and illegally used members of parliament and ministers to stop the meeting. Susie Barnes a previous lawyer of mine was going to be there too, she was given as some sort of excuse why the meeting never went ahead. Susie wasn’t representing me in any way, because I have no money to afford a lawyer, she was there concerned by the fact someone like me was being treated so badly and ACC, police etc were so corrupt and illegally denying me health care and justice. Susie refused to attend without me there so people at the very highest levels in WINZ and government (including Members of Parliament) got involved and shut everything down. Richard Fry acted extremely strange when I phoned him trying to find out what the delay was in having the meeting. I started crying and he said THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO FOR YOU and hung up. That is exactly what Justin Barry-Walsh said when I phoned and emailed him before I knew what was in his deeply disturbing report. A copy of the communication between me and Justin is attached.
Paragraph 15, the people who are required to provide mental health services were concerned I was suicidal – no they weren’t, if they were they would have provided services. These communications do blame those who are denying me care, of course they do, because these people are not doing what the law, professional health models and their marketing says they do. I have been assessed recently in Nov/December 2017 – I was refused services saying I told the assessor I didn’t want them. I have described what happened with that deranged psychologist and the bigoted psychiatrist before, and can’t do it again, its makes me feel really really really really bad/terrified/degraded/worthless/suicidal.
Stephen Enright never discussed ACC with me, all he talked about was public mental health services and how they were there and I was lying about not receiving them. I did everything Colin Hamlin – now retired – told me to do, he told me it would result in me getting professional health care I was entitled to. When it didn’t he blamed me, when it was not my fault. I thought for sure what I had told the last assessors from Upper Hutt mental health services (Peter and some revolting woman) would result in me getting care. When it didn’t I was again devastated and angry – AS ANYBODY FIGHTING FOR THEIR LIFE AND THE RIGHT TO WORK WOULD BE.
We are told if we are suicidal to phone mental health, that’s what I do, it results in more rejection and psychological torture, but I still do it – most people I know stopped because they know they will get nothing. Currently I am told I am not allowed to phone the government suicide hotline 1737, I am also not allowed to phone Healthline, no matter what it is for – I have no way of finding out why I have been denied this essential health services, they will not tell me. Simon Watt from Bell Gully and chief legal advisor to the government on provision of health services has advised ALL PRIVATE HEALTH PROVIDERS they are not subject to Official Information Act and Privacy Act requests so they refuse to provide me.
Currently I am trying to get a copy of everything MOH, WINZ, parliamentary services and MOJ have on file about me, that I don’t know about. I have seen some of what the police have and its highly offensive and shows extreme bigotry and hatred. Copies are attached, I shows these to Justin, he said nothing and did not ask for a copy of them. I have also made valid complaints about these things to the Privacy Commissioner that were also ignored. Discrediting me using mental health labels and reports like this appalling injustice Justin has produced is extremely cruel, corrupt, illegal and terrorist behaviour. Just because I have a mental health issue, doesn’t make me a liar or overly sensitive – there is no woman on this planet that would have been able to go through what I have and survive without suicide or homicide. I believe there are very corrupt cruel and violent people who know what is happening to me and others and takes advantage of it to create jobs and profits for justice/injustice sector, security sector, charity sector etc. Neo-liberals want disabled mentally injured abused women children and men to remain dysfunctional, that is the only explanation why they are refusing me care for so many years, then call me fixated for protesting about what was happening to me and others.
The only difficulties in engaging with me is I am now terrified of ALL health workers, so am extremely fragile and unwell when I do deal with any person. I am extremely submissive and find it extremely difficult to speak to start with, it isn’t until people start insulting and patronising me I get defensive and upset. Of course I do this, I have been told for years there are services, even won a court case and when I try to access these professional services and justice they are denied. There is nothing I can do about this I have discovered over the past nine years, that is because I cannot get a suitably qualified or resources lawyer to fight our extremely powerful corrupt neo-liberal government. My last lawyer Susie Barnes tried against govt/ACC corporate lawyers Meredith Connell and failed and refuses to provide me any further legal services because she knows she cannot go up against.
Stephen Enright always assures me I can get health services, when I tell him I can’t. He wanted to prove to me he could get me into my local doctor by phoning them, he couldn’t. This is the fault of a practice manager called Sandy who has control over the 600 person waiting list for registering at the Carterton Medical Centre. I was told recently Sandy chooses who gets to the top of the list and who doesn’t. I asked to be put on the list, I phoned yesterday to find out where on the list I am after two months, as my kidneys are playing up again and I have yet another bladder infection, I was told Sandy decides who gets accepted and who doesn’t. Sandy is a revolting woman and advised by Simon Watt at Bell Gully, I have started formal complaints to the Law Society about him for corruption, criminal negligence and fraud. If I had money and a lawyer I would take a private criminal case against Sandy and Simon Watt.
Since I didn’t get the health care I am entitled to and other New Zealanders get I have been angry and hostile – OF COURSE I HAVE, ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULD BE!
Paragraph 16 THERE HAS NEVER EVER BEEN ANY PROPOSED TREATMENT PLANS OFFERED BY PUBLIC MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES – EVER. It is a tragic aspect to my difficulties that I don’t accept treatment that is never discussed with me and I am assuming this is because it doesn’t follow professional rehabilitation or treatment models. They know I went to university and studied health rehabilitation and disability, they know I know the law and will only accept the professional models of health care I know I am entitled to and need. This is very inconvenient to their experimental neo-liberal economic commodification of mental health and purposeful harming of the most vulnerable in society to exploit and profit from those they persecute and impoverish for their extremist economic religious beliefs.
There is no PERCEIVED FAILING, there is an extreme failing in their experimental American neo-liberal drug model of mental health services, begun in the 1980s and still today subject to COMMISSIONS OF INQUIRY demanded by millions of naïve and devastated New Zealanders. Changes the government are now proposing are extremely disturbing as increasing an unprofessional abusive NARROW OFFER OF ‘TREATMENT’ to seriously ill suicidal disabled mentally injured abuse/trauma victims is going to make things much worse. It is going to insure there is a steady stream of suicidal people for the workforce cruel corrupt neo-liberal economic terrorists have created. For our media it will insure a steady stream of violence, suffering, injustice, suicide, injustice and money from our ‘clickbait’ elitist corrupted neo-liberal media. All of who censor what is happening to me and refuse to tell me why.
People who refuse me health care and justice I am entitled to under law and after winning two ACC reviews nine years ago, do find my justifiable response to their criminal negligence and medical/legal neglect intolerable. That is what intolerant people are like when they persecute targeted vulnerable vilified terrorised discredited minority groups.
As part of my work as a Civil Society Acivist I participated in the UN Human Rights five yearly report from New Zealand. At the meeting I attended to start it off at Victoria University in a room of around 50 people, 48 were there regarding human rights abuses by the government against mentally ill people. I know there were only two people highlighting other human rights abuses against other disabled people. There were no people there complaining about racism, and yet since Christchurch terrorist attack thousands of muslims etc have said they are subjected to it continuously.
Justin Barry-Walsh has confirmed ACC are responsible for providing further treatment but havn’t for the past nine years I have been begging for it to be reinstated as required. As a result of this confirmation by a senior psychiatrist that ACC are indeed responsible for my health care his statement can be used to prove ACC are in fact torturing me, purposely causing me harm and exposing me to harmful situations, denying me professional health care they have no right to deny me. Under law ACC is a health funder not a health provider that is why they are not subject to Health and Disability Commission censure. And because HDC are corrupt they refuse to deal with any criminal negligent, corrupt, perverted health professional ACC currently employ – that includes Anne Walsh and Peter Jansen. If I had money and a lawyer I would start criminal proceedings against both of these health professionals.
Progress isn’t stymied between me and ACC, ACC illegally removed and deprive me of the health care I am entitled to under ACC and other legislation, constitutionals laws and international laws. I beg for professional health care, somewhere safe to live and the Independence Allowance they are withholding from me. ACC illegally refuse to provide it for the past 17, and more cruelly nine years since they took away the beginnings of a professional rehabilitation plan against the advice of all health providers and community I was working with.
Justin states my disorder is the same, which is true, however there has been a definitely noticeable deterioration of my behaviour and ability to cope in response to the past six years of medical neglect, criminal negligence and being put in positions of harm in the community. Of being subjected to discrimination and bigotry by some members of the police, health system, justice system and media is the truth of life for members of our society targeted for persecution by neo-liberal extremists. (Note: I am using English to describe these people, I am a writer, I know my language, I know the meaning of words and I know what is happening to me and others.) What I say is not an opinion, it is FACT based on personal experience and my extensive lay-expert knowledge of traumatic stress disorders and government controlled systems. If I am not sure of a fact I will call it an opinion, please refer to my facebook page www.facebook.com/jrmurphypoetmusician or my website www.jrmurphypoet.com also my youtube channel at JR Murphy Poet. I gave Justin these social media sites to refer to, I don’t believe he did from his incredibly unprofessional bias deceitful report.
Justin also ILLEGALLY and UNPROFESSIONALLY did not refer to any of my family, friends, court staff, past lawyers, police officers, security staff etc to establish the deterioration of my mental health. I told him myself about the deterioration and how I have become extremely isolated and alienated from my family, community and friends. NOT MY FAULT, MOST OF THEM CAN’T HANDLE THE SITUATION I AM IN AND HOW SUICIDAL I AM BECAUSE OF IT so they reject me, just like everybody does. With the constant government propaganda about there being services (which are only there for the mildly mentally ill going through trauma with PTSD, not for seriously suicidal unwell people). I am constantly abused by people who are lead to believe there are services. Just like they are lead to believe all people on Community Services Card only pay $18.50 to go to a doctor when I am forced to pay $75 – from a welfare payment that is below the poverty line.
I was not high functioning before my initial overwhelming rape trauma, I was functioning like all single woman with children have to in our cruel neo-liberal society. I was functioning normally and yes I had a stress event when the business the government told us we had to start – because there was no other work – was unprofitable, too stressful for our new family and wasted our money so we had even less to survive on.
I DO NOT HAVE AN ENDURING CHANGE IN MY PERSONALITY and I am extremely angry this has been said in a document like this. If I had received the professional treatment care rehabilitation, justice and welfare I was entitled to under New Zealand law – which would have included a state house to live in for life with my two children – which is my CULTURAL RIGHT according to 150 years of New Zealand history – then I would have healed from the mental injury and moved on. That I was left in a dangerous situation, deprived those things I am entitled to under law, (human laws and laws of the bible) is why I have had to live in this extreme compounding Complex PTSD state. That appears to be a change of personality when it is just living under inhuman extremely stressful living situations created by neo-liberal economic terrorism of our government and leaders.
Paragraph 17……”These difficulties have been amplified by her subsequent contact with helping services and others, her loss of income and an interaction with her previous personality that appears to have been one that included holding a strong sense of justice.” That sentence doesn’t even make sense, what Pakeha or human being doesn’t have a strong sense of justice when they are being treated unjustly to the point their lives are destroyed and they are driven to suicide? I was at law school when I was raped, I do have a strong sense of justice the judge I appear in front of does too, so do the lawyers I meet, those in the Human Rights Commission, United Nations etc. They have a strong sense of justice too, this comment is so strange it definitely points to some sort of psychopathy, radicalisation, denial or delusion in what his role is as a leader of ‘Forensic’ Psychiatry in New Zealand.
Even the new neo-liberal term ‘forensic’ psychiatry doesn’t even apply to me, that refers to people who have committed crimes as a result of their psychiatric disorder. I have never committed a crime, my protests have always been legal in a commonwealth democracy, I speak truth to power, I tell the truth, I hold people who harm me and others to account – THAT IS NOT A CRIME, THAT IS JUST A FACT. That is also not a political position, it is a fact based on Rule of Law and government produced documents regarding disability, mental health, human rights, civil rights etc.
What is happening to me aren’t entrenched ‘difficulties’ that are something to do with my dysfunctional brain. What is happening to me is a result of medical neglect, criminal negligence, corruption and being forced into inhuman living situations, along with the application of abusive extremist neo-liberal economic austerity against poor disabled people (mostly with mental health issues) by rich healthy people.
Paragraph 17 I am sensitive to being patronised, thought of in a derogatory way and being disrespected. These ARE NOT things I perceive, these are things I experience. These are what trigger my worsening behaviour and prolong the absolute living nightmare of being suicidal and being denied health care etc you are entitled to.
All I have begged for in engagement, I am refused it and I respond with hostility, terror and overwhelming toxic rage – this is normal for a person in my situation. Ask any person who has had a family member commit suicide after being rejected repeatedly from mental health services. That is why the PUBLIC demanded an inquiry into mental health services and the fact mental health services are so bad is in our news every week. As an civil society activist in the area of mental health I keep well informed through local and international news reports. I also follow several health services and receive email newsletters etc from people like the Medical Council, Psychologist and Psychiatrist professional organisations etc. I read reports, I write reports, I read upcoming laws, I make submissions to select committees – all ignored of course because the reality doesn’t fit the spectacle.
UNFITNESS TO STAND TRIAL
I AM NOT UNFIT TO STAND TRIAL – I AM UNFIT TO REPRESENT MYSELF which Legal Aid Services are demanding I do. That is why the judge asked for another assessment, to get me health care I am entitled to and the suitably qualified and resources laywer I am entitled to.
….a discrete psychiatric illness????????? I am trying to think what you would call a ‘physical illness’ that was purely created by being persecuted by other people. Here Justin fails to explain the difference between physical and mental injury, fails to explain the prolonged worsening state I am in relates to me being denied health care and other necessaries of life I am entitled to.
Justin is a psychiatrist who makes a vague suggestion I have Complex PTSD (I definitely do not have the very normal and common PTSD) then in the next sentence says I undoubtedly have a serious mental health issues as a result of trauma and subsequent events. This entire paragraph is deeply disturbing to read and would be to any decent NORMAL person. But then people who become mental health workers aren’t NORMAL people, are they. My difficulties create severe depressed mood, no hope for the future and suicidal ideation ALL OF THE TIME. I’m just a lot better at pretending in front of people now – most of the time – except when it explodes out of me when I’m triggered by ignorance, bigotry and HATE or violence.
Why has Justin discussed me being put in compulsory care????? He was there to advise the court if I could represent myself or not. I am not allowed in compulsory care, that is done purposely, because I would cause havoc with staff and patients. They couldn’t possibly have someone in there telling people their rights and the truth. They also couldn’t possibly have me under mental health act because I would then get a free lawyer that might actually help me. Because I am denied care under public mental health I also cannot get a lawyer all people under mental health act get. I am assuming most of them are not good people, considering the number of dangerous people in our community and good people locked up.
Public mental health services are never going to allow me into their services when the suicidality becomes overwhelming if they write reports saying I don’t want services – are they. If they spend years denying and refusing me services – I have enclosed years of attempts by Nationwide Advocacy Services to get me services that were refused over and over again. HDC refused to address these issues, I have made many complaints.
I have begged to go into public mental health facilities, Dr Alan Doris has recommended it, years ago, I have never been allowed, except of course under a compulsory treatment order which would take away all my rights to any cultural and personal control over what services were offered and how I was treated. Its either go there by force so we can forcibly drug you, or don’t go there at all. I would imagine no mental health workers likes dealing with people who aren’t on huge amounts of experimental psychotropic drugs to keep them calm.
Justin Barry-Walsh is not allowed to force me to take any drug that violates my spiritual, ethical and cultural beliefs and the right to manifest those beliefs in a civilised commonwealth society. I believe it is my refusal to take experimental psychotropic drugs – mostly made in American and recommended by the American Medical Association DSM documents – behind the 17 years of being denied health care, welfare and justice I am entitled to under ACC and other laws I have mentioned. I can find no other explanation for their appalling behaviour and this appalling psychiatric assessment. Unless of course neo-liberal terrorism of poor by rich is causing huge corruption throughout our entire government etc. and people are expected to reject, terrorise and discriminate against me. Hopefully a complaint to the International Criminal Court will be accepted and I can get justice outside New Zealand.
This report by Justin is the proof I need and after I read it I emailed him and thanked him for expressing so completely the corruption and criminal negligence in mental health sector/industry.
Paragraph 19 …. However she runs into difficulties in several areas. She has conflated her civil rights issues as she sees them with the criminal charges..” I’m up on charges for protesting, for pushing the boundaries but not breaking the law. I have been charged with minor crimes of trespass etc by police over 20 times, they have managed to get 2 convictions over that time – both unjust but I could not get a lawyer to appeal them – because I can’t get legal representation WHICH IS ILLEGAL!!!!!!!!! I am not up on charges for harming someone because I was unwell, I am up on charges for justifiably protesting and my now tourettes type response to ignorance and bigotry I am subjected to. Justin is not a lawyer, whoever suggested I was wrongly conflating the two issues is either grossly incompetent or grossly corrupt. In my opinion they are both.
What I see as an injustice over lack of provision of care – is an injustice over refusal by ACC to reinstate care after winning two reviews in 2010 and 11. I have repeatedly made complaints of harm caused by ACC and others to police under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act, they are unjustly ignored. Now Justin has named police in this report as an organisation discrediting/insulting me and TARGETING me for my legal protests about being denied health care this report will be useful in my complaints about the serious harm senior police officers and the Minister of Police and Justice have caused me.
His comments about my perception I have been denied essential health care I am entitled to – I have been grievously wronged – what sort of quackery and corruption is Justin involved in? How could he write this absolutely ridiculous contradictory unprofessional report and think he would get away with it? Maybe there are so few terrorised, persecuted mentally ill people who are strong enough or intelligent enough to think they can even go up against a grossly corrupted psychiatrist. It has taken every part of my willpower to get to this point, nearly finished, at the worst parts of the report where I am so distressed about what is in it and what impact that will have on me being able to live with dignity and work again. So far all this report has done is prolong my court case another few months – these delays are part of the neo-liberal terrorist economic health and justice strategy to drive people from services – hoping they will die before they get them.
Paragraph 18 “…. Although there is legitimacy in her views (yes there are) they may be considered to be disproportionate and the disproportionate aspect of that is driven by her mental health problems which may be considered a mental impairment.” MY PROTESTS ARE DEFINITELY NOT DISPROPORTIONATE TO THE WAY I AM BEING PERSECUTED, DENIED HEALTH CARE AND JUSTICE. I have heard cruel bigoted police officers say my mental health issues are why I protest and use every democratic and justice avenue available to me to get that health care. Not only for myself, also for the hundreds of people I see in the community very like me who cannot fight against neo-liberal corruption and persecution of people with mental health issues as a result of overwhelming trauma and criminal neglect.
The current charges involve me throwing red paint on the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station. That IS NOT a disproportionate response to being violently assaulted and threatened with rape (ie I would see how bad police could be if I talked about the assault), watching those officers lie in court and then have a gross miscarriage of justice during proceedings. Proceedings for graffiti for chalking a swastika on the front of Carterton police station after being charged for the second time for misuse of a telephone for phoning ACC remote claimants answerphone and screaming to have my care and money reinstated when I was extremely unwell. On the verge of psychotic, usually late at night, about to kill myself, I phoned them instead. They dropped similar charges six weeks before, then did them again. There is much more backstory to this, but I cannot go into it. I would like to the opportunity to tell my whole story and this complaint won’t do that. It involves High Court Security violently assaulting me for wanting to attend a public court trial of three mentally ill men taking the DHBs and Attorney General to court. It failed, it would have been successful if the human rights lawyer had accepted my case. I had been begging Tony Ellis for years to take my case, he refused, he doesn’t like women who have never committed a crime. He is only interested in mentally ill people who have physically hurt other people in my opinion.
My decision making is based on 15 years of study in the area of traumatic stress disorders, human rights, disabled rights, civil rights and being at the knife edge of abusive mental health services in New Zealand.
I am not highly anxious, I am TERRIFIED, ask any police officer about my behaviour and what resemblance it has to the 10,000s abused women and children they respond to every year in a country No 1 in the world for domestic/flatmate violence. This response only comes in certain situations and they are stressful, they would be stressful to any person – to someone with Complex PTSD living in an inhuman harmful living situation created by the government they are extreme and overwhelming. WHICH IS WHY I CANNOT RESPRESENT MYSELF AND NEED A SUITABLY RESOURCES AND EXPERIENCED LAWYER.
Of course I can give instruction to counsel, my extreme behaviour in the assessment is related to my extreme fear of Justin and all people involved in mental health services and justice. I thought Justin was a good person based on the limited amount I knew about his last assessment. After this assessment I now know he is corrupt, incompetent and criminally negligent.
I can give instruction to counsel, sadly many unintelligent lawyers don’t understand constitutional and civil rights laws. In my opinion the only human rights lawyers skilled enough and resources enough to represent me all work for the government and will refuse to do it based on a conflict of interest – which I have encountered in dozens of lawyer I have approached over the years. I wonder why the government needs such experts in human rights, in order to violate the human rights of people like me perhaps. People like Simon Watt, Mai Chen, Palmer, John Millar, etc.
I am currently not represented because Legal Aid services refuse me legal aid and have not been able to employ a suitably qualified and resourced lawyer. Susie Barnes will confirm this. They have been using Michael Bott as some sort of legal representation for the court, he is not appropriate due to his strong ties to the Labour Party. He was a candidate for Labour in at least two elections – that is how I first met him. Also if he had done what I wanted years ago when he got me off some charges on a technicality rather than imperial and constitutional laws – then I wouldn’t be in court today still contending this and I might have had my care reinstated and be back working rather than living in terror, impoverished and marginalised.
I don’t’ know if Justin lied or was told a lie but I was quite capable of working with appointed counsel. The first counsel Legal Aid appointed didn’t work in the Wairarapa and I only found out the day before court. The second counsel had a conflict of interest that involved a gang member I knew, but did not want to know or want in my life. The judge has the details of why and agreed with my decision, she had to clear the court so I could talk in private for fear of my safety and life in a public court peppered with relatives and associates of this man.
Again Justin goes on about points of law he knows absolutely nothing about, his report was supposed to be about whether I could physically represent myself not if my case was valid or not – that is up to a judge to decide – all injustices are up to the judge to decide. Given our district court judges deal with the failure of neo-liberalism every day and know what is happening it is not surprised Judge Morris is doing everything she can to get me health care I am entitled to and justice I am entitled to. So I can recover, work, be safe and continue on with my life – which Justin, his bosses, our government, senior police and other neo-liberals are doing their best to stop. I STILL DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY, only an extensive police investigation or ICC investigation would establish why, I think I know why but my conclusions are too horrific to accept – even for me.
MY COURT CASE IS INTIMATELY RELATED TO MY DRIVE FOR JUSTICE AND TO RECEIVE PROFESSIONAL HEALTH CARE. That he has made this statement as though it is something derogatory and NOT NORMAL to expect is deeply disturbing unprofessional, extremely bias behaviour.
Paragraph 19 My ability to attend court, I didn’t go into why I havn’t been able to due to extreme fear created phobias and how I have managed my disability so I can, using police for support (except they violently assaulted me with handcuffs instead). I can’t go into it now but I want to, I have to finish this I am nearly at the end and very unwell. Court security and operational staff understand, people like Jason and Nelda, they would have been able to advise Justin of these impairments and the solutions. Justin refused to contact them, I told him to contact them, he contacted all those he works with and for – the very people illegally and cruelly denying me health care and justice. My case manager Tina Hemi understands, my previous lawyer Susie Barnes understands, I thought MOH worker Colin Hamlin did, but obviously not and I know Stephen Enright definitely did not. Occupational Therapist Glenda vanderven Long understood and so did Dr Alan Doris.
How can you be calm when you are being persecuted for asking for health care you are entitled to? I am being destroyed and denied justice, there is no person on this planet that is calm about that and can stop it. That is why our planet is in such turmoil with so many protests against violent abusive out of control neo-liberal governments.
Paragraph 21 – in my opinion he has not complied with the code of conduct for expert witnesses. It is a fact he has not complied with the code of conduct expected from the Medical Council in situations of ‘independent’ assessments for a third party. Judge Morris was horrified by the bias and conflict of interest in Justin Barry-Walsh’s report and has requested another from a more culturally appropriate, hopefully professional psychiatrist. Her and I have expressly asked no psychologists be involved, my distrust and disgust in this profession would take a book to outline. Basics of it is, our government terrorises and impoverishes at least 20% of the population then creates jobs in mental health that are people trying to brainwash people to accept being forced to live in inhuman situations without the necessities of life required to be provided by the government. THE MARKET as an upholder of truth, justice, human, civil and disabled rights is a nonsense. Governments and Westminster law was created to stop rich and powerful in THE MARKET (during industrialisation) from persecuting the poor and powerless who just wanted to live their lives freely in a safe environment, in their own community, with their family and friends.
Paragraph 22 is of course a false statement and this complaint and the accompanying documents prove that. It should be expected that someone chose by our neo-liberal controlled government would choose someone like Justin who can lie so convincingly. They will probably make him the scapegoat for their appalling corruption, crimes and cruelty. That is how health laws are progressing where those working with the disabled person have all the responsibility and liability, while their government or private MARKET bosses have none.
A good example of this would be the fact Wyatt Creech, ex National MP for Wairarapa is currently Chair of Healthcare NZ, along with his political associate Roger Sowry on the board. They own and run Gains Geneva whose health staff illegally denied me professional heatlh care last year when ACC had told me they would provide it. I am protesting about neo-liberalism introduced and forced on our population by these people, who now profit from it knowing they are driving social problems like suicide, self-harm, eating disorders, violence etc.
Justin confirms the accuracy of a statement that is so contradictory no judge would be able to make a decision on it. If this is the standard of assessment by our government’s most senior forensic psychiatrist it is quite obvious the appalling state of mental health services is directly related to this man.
I will reiterate this is not the entire story and I have much more to reveal and I want the opportunity to do that. I have never been allowed to make eye contact with those making decisions under Human Rights, privacy laws etc. I have never been allowed a lawyer to get me justice and health care, I am only ever allowed an overworked criminal lawyer who has little knowledge of human rights and no resources to fight a case as complicated and legally important as mine.
It may be minor criminal charges but what is happening here is a serious breach of NZs constitutional laws to the point of corruption, criminal negligence, medical neglect and persecution. This case should be in the High Court with a top international human rights lawyer funded by the UN as there are no NZ lawyers capable or willing to do it. What should happen and what does happen is of course different and millions of NZers suffer unnecessarily because of corruption in mental health. My case is stark proof of just how corrupt ACC, mental health and our government are in relation to providing professional treatment care rehabilitation, homes and justice to those who need and are entitled to it.
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