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MOJ corruption being illegally denied legal aid, correspondence

On 22 October I sacked my lawyer citing irreconcilable differences after he insulted me and discriminated against me multiple times.  The final straw were two conversations where he asked me repeatedly what health care I wanted, firstly not allowing me to answer, then when I started to explain my ACC rehab plan from 2009 he told me it was meaningless.  He then started repeating the same thing about what care I wanted over and over again, one of the times he did it very slowly.  There is something seriously wrong with the man and I refuse to deal with him, also given my severe stress disorder I no longer trusted him.  He also called me things that were sexually derogatory in nature and extremely offensive to any woman my age.

I sent WGNCriminallegalAid all the correspondence  between me and the lawyer to prove my case as I have had serious issues with in the past.  Although I emailed the complaint they have refused to send me the legal aid decision electronically, they sent it by mail so I have had to type it out to post it here.   Firstly my response to their decision letter.  then you can see their decision letter which will shock you.

Last time they refused me legal aid for this current case that is now almost two years old, I was not quick enough – because I was so unwell and did not know what to do that I missed the 10 day deadline.  This time the letter dated 5 November arrived at my home on 10 November so I only have 5 days to get it done.   These complaints are very distressing – mostly because I know I will be ignored but also because of the gross injustice I am being subjected to just for wanting my ACC care reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago.

11 November 2019

WGNCriminalLegalAid@justice.govt.nz

I disagree with the decision to withdraw legal aid and not provide another lawyer and want it reviewed by someone who isn’t corrupt for the following reasons.

  1. The first lawyer you gave me didn’t work in the Wairarapa region, it was only two days before court and I contacted him, he had never heard of me. He told me then he didn’t work in the Wairarapa and hadn’t for years. Legal Aid Services already know this from previous complaints that were ignored.
  2. The second lawyer was Jock Blathwayt and at the time there was a conflict of interest and Jock agreed it wasn’t appropriate for him to be my lawyer.  Legal Aid Services knew this and still prevented me from getting a lawyer for over a year, illegally.
  3. Preventing me from getting a lawyer not only seriously traumatised me and caused me humiliation and harm, it also delayed my case and perverted justice. Which has resulted in me being charged with 25 different minor spurious crimes since.
  4. The relationship with the lawyer broke down as my valid complaint and request to have my case reassigned proves. Which you are unjustly and cruelly ignoring. This is a valid reason to be given a new lawyer according to laws you quote.
  5. It would be an injustice for a purposely impoverished disabled Civil Society Actor in area of suicide, abusive mental health, sexual abuse care, homelessness, civil/human rights and inequality, to be denied a lawyer. Especially when I live in the district with highest rate of suicide and self-harm in New Zealand.

 

As Jock Blathwayt and I are no longer in this legally conflicting situation, if you want to reassign Jock that is fine with me. It is not me who the problem here, it is corrupted Legal Aid Services and the appalling disrespectful behaviour of your staff and lawyers like Alisdair Ross who specialise in denigrating victims of abuse with mental health issues.

 

Still horrified you stated in your letter that the first lawyer was forced to withdraw or dismissed by me when you know from previous complaints he didn’t work in Wairarapa.

 

Sincerely

Jayne R

Civil Society Activist

HUMAN SEWAGE

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On behalf of the Legal Services Commissioner

5 November 2019

Ms J R

address

Carterton

(for enquiries: Kathryn Ross 0800 253 425)

Legal aid no: (which I won’t give you
Lawyer :   (which I will give you if you want me to)

Your Case:   Fail to answer bail: other acts/statues; Wilful Damage, Other charges < 6 mths x2

 

Dear Ms J R

About your legal aid

 

On behalf of the Commissioner, we write in response to your numerous emails requesting us to reassign this matter from Alisdair Ross to a new lawyer. We have considered your request and now respond as follows:

  1. We will not assign you a new lawyer, and we have decided to withdraw aid, because it is no longer in the interests of justice for you to receive it (s 29(a)(ii) of the Legal services Act 2011 – “the Act”)
  2. We refer to the Commissioner’s “Granting Decisions – Guidelines”, which set out the grounds for reassigning or terminating aid. The relevant part of the guidelines reads:
  • It is expected that reassignment and terminations of assignment will occur infrequently.
  • To request termination of an assignment the lead provider (lawyer) and/or aided person must submit a written request to the legal aid office, which sets out the reasons termination is sought,
  • The aided person can request a change of provider once: a second reassignment may be only in exceptional circumstances. Grounds for reassignment are:
  • Conflict of interest.
  • The provider has insufficient time available.
  • — not relevant
  • —- not relevant
  • A genuine breakdown in professional relationship such that the case is unable to be advanced.
  • ——- not relevant
  1. To date, you have had 2 lawyers assigned to act for you in these matters. We do not accept it would be in the interests of justice for a third lawyer to be assigned to represent you, or for aid to continue, for these reasons:

2.1       The 2 lawyers who have represented you are competent and experienced. They have been dismissed by you, or been forced to withdraw, for reasons which have no bearing on their competence or skill.

2.2       The Commissioner’s policy on applicants (such as yourself) requesting a change of lawyer is clear. You have previously been made aware of this policy.

2.3       Exceptional circumstances do not exist here which justify us granting you another lawyer. Any breakdown in professional relationship in this case has been caused by your behaviour towards previous lawyers.

2.4       This is not the first matter in which you have caused your relationship with lawyers to break down. We refer, for example, to legal aid file 18866786 which concerned a wilful damage charge you faced last year.   (Note from me: I had a great lawyer, Suzie Barnes, we lost the case and the two officers who violently assaulted me and threatened me with worse lied in court – but Suzie was still a good lawyer, just way out of her depth. Especially when ACC lawyers Meredith Connell threatened a judicial review that would taken months if she kept asking for the REAL NAME (they give false names) of my ACC case manager to be subpoenaed as a witness to prove she contacted me by phone and promised me my care would be reinstated. When Suzie asked for CEO of ACC instead, the big guns really came out. Suzie is not part of a huge legal company like Meredith Connell, she could not defend me. There were also other perversions of justice. As a result of losing this case I threw red washable poster paint on the white ribbon banner inside Masterton police station that said SPEAK OUT AGAINST VIOLENCE TOWARDS WOMEN and left a piece of art as well.

2.5       We refer to Cant v R (2013) NZCA 513, Pitiroi v Police (CRI-2012-463-38), and Pointon v Police (2013) NZHC 2352. These cases establish the fact a defendant is not legally represented does not necessarily mount to a miscarriage of justice, or a breach of the New Zealand Bill of Rights Act (BORA).  (NOTE: I could not find these cases on any legal database.)

2.6       You have had ample opportunity and been given the right (more than once), to receive legal assistance without cost, as provided by s 24(f) of BORA. However the Supreme Court noted in R v Condon (2006) NZSC 62: “…. If the accused…. Is rightly refused legal aid….. there will have been no breach of the s 24 (BORA) rights.”  (NOTE: Found this case and it doesn’t apply to my case at all.)

2.7       Here, it is reiterated, you have been given reasonable opportunity of legal representation twice. It cannot be argued unfairness accrues to you, based on this ground.

2.8       We have no confidence, if we assigned you a third lawyer, your behaviour towards that lawyer would be different from your behaviour towards your previous lawyers. (NOTE: What behaviour, last few lawyers been OK, just not Alisdair Ross.)

3.10     S 3 of the Act imposes a duty on the Commissioner to deliver legal aid efficiently and effectively. Given the above circumstances, it would be neither efficient nor effective for us to assign a third lawyer to act for you, or for aid to continue.

 

2.S 31(2) of the Act requires us to give you a reasonable opportunity to make submissions about why aid should not be withdrawn. Accordingly we will give you 10 working days from the date of this letter to make these submissions which, once received, will be considered by us.  (NOTE:  So if they weren’t forced by law to listen to reasons for not withdrawing legal aid then they would just ignore me anyway.  Oh boy do these people hate poor people!)

 

We have written to your lawyer about this decision.

 

If you wish to discuss this further, talk to your lawyer or contact Kathryn Ross on 0800 2 LEGAL AID (0800 253 425) or by email WGNCriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz

Yours sincerely   (lol shd have been faithfully – no sincerity in this letter)

Kathryn Ross

Grants Officer

Reconsideration rights

 

If you disagree with the decision made you may apply for a reconsideration using the reconsideration form on our website or calling Kathryn Ross………..

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(I phoned and was told just to send an email).

This is the first time I have read the document properly and I found a whole heap of other BS I never saw before.  Like my lawyer last year Susie Barnes was a good lawyer, just way out of her depth and resources.  The lawyer I have had in the past have been OK, they all got me off vast majority of my charges – I only been convicted of 3 things – Wilful trespass of Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer – graffiti a few years ago and wilful damage last year.  I have been charged with DOZENS OF CRIMES, MULTIPLE TIMES – most of the charges never even ended up in court because police would drop the charges after three months, just before it got to a serious court sitting.   Gee I wonder why!

I had to represent myself – I was capable of it then – against DHB wilfil trespass charges for a legal protest I did and I won – the case was so bad and their witness the security guard had never been told about BORA and the rights of people to protest on public property.  I asked for compensation for being put through that court case unnecessarily – I was insulted, degraded and ridiculed by the CEO at the time for even asking.

Anyway, must get back to Criminal Legal Aid and add to my complaint above – I HAVE A LOT MORE TO FKN SAY NOW.  WTF are these people on??   Lawyers don’t like me for my protests about wanting me and other mentally injured suicidal abuse victims – mostly women – to get the professional ACC treatment care rehabilitation and homes we are entitled to under NZ law.   Mmmmm the legal profession – terrorising a victim of sexual abuse who asking for health care they entitled to – now why would they possibly do that – ewwwwww.  Do you think Kathryn Ross might be these abusers in the system’s madam – just like that woman did for Geoffrey Epstein.  Ewwwww

Below are more emails I have sent to Wellington Criminal Legal Aid, I post them to show people what goes on, validate if its happening to them and to give people knowledge of how they might approach something similar.

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From: Jayne R
Sent: Tuesday, 12 November 2019 5:37 PM
To: wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz <wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz>
Subject: I have more to add to my complaint and request for a new lawyer

I have just read your decision thoroughly – I was too traumatised and unwell by what I had read earlier to do it.   I see I have until the 19 November before the 10 days is up to provide the information necessary for you to consider.  I have found several other things you have said that have me in shock, especially about lawyers, my lawyer Suzie Barnes was great, just way out of her depth.  She still says hi to me in the street and has told me how deeply distressed she is that she cannot represent me due to her lack of resources and the horrendous injustices I am up against at the hands of very powerful cruel corrupt people.  Injustices all people with mental health issues are experiencing at the moment according to the United Nations human rights reports I have seen and been involved in as a Civil Society Actor.

Please advise me urgently the names of these PREVIOUS LAWYERS where there was a breakdown of the relationship because of MY BEHAVIOUR towards them????  Please advise me what that breakdown was, you must have written record of it because I cannot recall many details after this long.  You must have information on your file about what happened with each of these lawyers that is inaccurate and I am certainly not aware of.  Did the bad ones I sacked for good reason say I was mean to them and lie about what happened – gee I wonder why they would do that?

Is this something to do with how all established lawyers accept #metoo sexual harassment and denigration of women as normal within your profession/industry, because that is what it feels like.

I think I might have sacked two really bad lawyers in the past nine years since I was forced to protest about being illegally denied ACC care, cause they were both really bad and didn’t know how to deal with my BORA related criminal charges for my NON-VIOLENT LEGAL CHALLENGES of people in power.  I’m pretty sure I got better lawyers after those two and won both cases, one of them in the Appeal Court from what I remember of the years of fighting for health care and justice I am entitled to under NZ constitutional laws and signed ratified UN treaties.  Please send me the details since you are using them to terrorise and pervert justice now – least you can do is full disclosure of these allegations and what I am up against so I can refute them.

Please advise how I look up the case law you quoted about what you are doing to me not being a violation of NZ BORA – which of course it is – I hadn’t actually thought of that, thanks for the tip.  I didn’t realise I was supposed to be a qualified lawyer with access to case law in order to defend myself against the Legal Aid COMMISSIONER.  I thought the point of disabled poor people getting legal aid and lawyers was because they didn’t know the law and particularly couldn’t access things like case law to defend themselves against very powerful abusers of power, right and justice.  I am quite sure my situation is nothing like the case law you quoted, given the inaccurate and deceitful things you have referred to in your decision.

If you know I cannot access those case law examples of why you are not violating BORA through the internet then please provide copies of them in full.

Mmmm trying to think of those lawyers I had before Suzie Barnes?   I remember one guy, who was a proud member of the National party, withdrew when I said I didn’t trust him, because I don’t trust anybody, I don’t know any badly abused and neglected abuse victim who does – I was in shock and very distressed he was allowed do that.  You’ll have to remind me of any others, people with Complex PTSD who subjected to prolonged psychological, physical and economic trauma often forget things that aren’t important.

Sounds like you’ve all been discriminating against me, gossiping and illegally sharing information about me that isn’t even true.  That must be why I have experienced such toxic hatred and bigotry from Legal Aid services – I could never understand why and what was going on.  I would imagine cruel corrupt bigots within NZ police and mental health services would also have information you would be relying on, please provide anything like that as well.  Is it any wonder at the UN Human Rights consultation process last year, the lecture theatre at Victoria of about 50 people, all but two were there about serious human rights abuses against people with mental health issues – just like me.  Which it appears you are participating in with regards to me simply getting a lawyer.

From news reports and lawyers I have spoken to it appears to be more a case of lawyers choosing to do commercial and easy law for rich people that pays well, rather than actually uphold law and protect poor and disabled people from abuses of power.

I would also point out I have a serious life-threatening stress disorder with related communication impairments, especially when subjected to discrimination, degradation, insults and bigotry, as is the life of a many disabled people with Complex PTSD – as a result of sexual violence  and criminal neglect.   I have serious, well founded, trust issues and once someone loses that trust the professional relationship can break down – YOU WOULDN’T BE ANY DIFFERENT IF IT HAPPENED TO YOU.  No rich person would have accepted what was said to me, they would have got another lawyer immediately – so why should a poor person be punished and have their legal aid illegally withheld.

So please consider my email yesterday just the beginning of my evidence – you will have received all of it by the 19 November, when you can put it all together and consider it – lol.  I expect the rest of your file in the next few days so I can check it for accuracy.

Also I would like to comment that your letter was extremely litigious considering I am a disabled lay person citizen and you are a Commission, not a court.  Perhaps my idea of transferring all commissions, tribunals etc back under our traditional legal system has more merit than I first thought.

Please provide the information requested above in the next two days so I can be sure to provide all the evidence you need, within your 10 day time limit, to make a right and just decision.

I can certainly feel the bigotry, hatred and evil of passive inaction many affluent people who work in justice, welfare and health exhibit towards disabled people like myself.

Sincerely
Jayne R
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: Jayne R
Sent: Tuesday, 12 November 2019 6:40 PM
To: wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz <wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz>
Subject: Sorry this wasn’t the case the numbers and names didn’t all match up

I can’t find Cant v R or Pointon v police or Pitiroi v police so far, please provide a link or copies of these cases.

I did find R v Condon – which has no relevance to my case whatsoever.   My wanting to sack Alisdair Ross is to do with ongoing behaviour I didn’t like but put up with, but definitely could no longer cope with after his extremely bizarre bigoted insulting behaviour of recent phone conversations about me getting my ACC care reinstated and what that involved.  Also about him making sexually inappropriate derogatory comments calling me a Cougar – ewwwww – which I had not done anything about, except tell him how bad it made me feel – which he did not acknowledge or apologise for.  I felt it necessary to mention it after the phone calls as it was relevant and I should have made a formal complaint about it but was too scared I would end up with no lawyer and after the appalling treatment I had received from Legal Aid Services and Law Society in the past knew they would just abuse me for it.  #metoo and kia kaha to all those innocent young women in the misogynist world of law.

EVERYBODY had been telling me for ages my criminal case had nothing to do with ACC illegally withholding health care and I even have a criminally corrupt psychiatric report to say I was delusional for even thinking my criminal case and civil rights abuses by ACC and others were related.  So the discussion Alisdair and I were having wasn’t even related to my criminal case, it was related to what health care I needed, entitled to by law and wanted from ACC.  Apparently ACC had a list of OTs to choose from and as soon as I made the decision my care would be reinstated after waiting nine years and winning two reviews.   As they have said this at least three times before over past nine years and failed to do it I would only believe something like that unless it happened.  ACC telling a lawyer (or ACC reviewer) they will do something doesn’t mean it will happen, ACC have told lots of people my care would be reinstated but it never did.   Also I have been in regular contact with ACC begging for my care to be reinstated, they have never sent me a list of OTs to choose from.  The one they guaranteed would reinstate my care last year refused to do it WITHOUT REASON – I made complaints, they were ignored.

My situation makes the Condon case irrelevant and that you quoted it, you corrupt!  If you want to get really legal about it.  I don’t blame the lawyer from withdrawing, I would have as well, this was a business deal gone wrong, nothing to do with politics or civil, disabled, human, economic social and cultural rights and violations of criminal law by police, ACC, Forensic Mental Health, DHB, etc WHICH MY CASE IS ABOUT.   Thank you so much for the information though, its really interesting.  I was at law school before I was raped and my life destroyed by ACC and those supposed to care for, rehabilitate and protect mentally injured victims of crime.  It took me until 35 yrs old to work out what I wanted to be and it was all taken from me.  I now live destitute and still fighting for ACC entitlements so I can heal, return to work and be able to live with dignity and in safety, now I am 54 I am not allowed a student loan.  I also live with a $7,000 student debt from trying to get the qualifications to follow my talent and my passion.

Sincerely
Jayne R
CSA
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: Jayne R
Sent: Tuesday, 12 November 2019 7:08 PM
To: wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz <wgncriminallegalaid@justice.govt.nz>
Subject: I have searched the following database I found with no results, do these cases you refer to even exist?

Below is the database I searched with all the information you gave me about the case law you were relying on – they all came up NO SEARCH RESULTS.

I would have thought with all those numbers and details at least something would have come up.  Do these cases even exist, are you that corrupt you make these things up to mislead and further oppress disabled oppressed #metoo victims of crime?  I know there is a huge amount of evidence being presented by victims against Crown Law perverting justice in the current inquiry into abuse and torture in government institutions.  Quoting Crown Law case in regards to a sexual abuse victim, fighting for treatment care rehabilitation and home they are entitled to in order to recover and return to as normal a life as possible under ACC and other laws, seems to me an even more evil crime against victims.   What do you think?

I am due in court again on 18 November I will make sure to provide this information to the judge

Yours sincerely
Jayne R
CSA
HUMAN SEWAGE
P.S.  Using Yours sincerely  on Kathryn Ross’ decision is deeply disturbing, faithfully is the correct salutation.  That you sincerely just vomited such a vicious, hate filled, unprofessional, immoral, uncivilised, vindictive, unjust, punitive, oppressive, deceitful, ignorant response all over me would explain the gross constitutional rights abuses I am subjected to.  It seems understandable that police will violently assault me & threaten me with worse and ACC & public mental health services will prevent me from accessing services I am entitled to, why wouldn’t they – nobody is going to do anything about it.

Complaint against Wairarapa police trying to drive me to suicide!

6 November 2019

New Zealand Police

IPCA – independent haters of human sewage like me

It is with terror and self-harm that I am writing yet another complaint I know will be ignored, as every other complaint I have ever made has been and things have only got worse with regard to my treatment by Wairarapa police. I am so traumatised by what happened I desperately needed to talk to someone about my complaint so I phoned the number for Police HQ I got some other non-urgent number. They told me they were putting me through to a police complaints line, but they put me through to the main police line and I didn’t realise.

I phoned them about 4pm and would like that recorded interview accessed and listened to. Except for the bit at the end when I found out it wasn’t a dedicated line for police complaints and I had been on the main line taking up time, also that the person wasn’t going to send the complaint she had written to IPCA as well as local police – not that I trust either after the years of psychological and physical abuse I have been subjected to for my justified legal protests about abusive mental health services and others.

 

Last time I complained I am sure the person sent it to IPCA as well, I was expecting that to happen, I got upset with the woman on the phone, because she said it wasn’t procedure.

 

I don’t want to do this, I don’t want to do this, I don’t want to do this – you are never ever going to do anything – making these complaints is worse than what they are doing to me – because you never stop it, no matter how many complaints I make you never ever stop them.

 

I’m not sure how this is going to turn out so I apologise in advance if it is all over the place, has spelling and grammatical errors, I won’t be able to go through and check it when I am finished I will be so distressed.

 

A warrant was issued for my arrest Friday 1 November after me breaking my bail conditions accidently regarding seeing   ?????  in front of my parked car putting money in the meter and I lost it and starting singing at him.

 

I was told by email, although I am sure a police car came down my street to make sure I was at my home. The officer didn’t come in but the email I received from Jennifer Hansen said there was a car available to pick me from Carterton and take me to Masterton. I refused as I was looking after my daughter’s dog for the week and as police had already said they would oppose my bail I couldn’t go in as there was nobody else to care for the dog. I said I would come in Monday morning. Hansen told me to be there early in the morning. The email is available if you want proof.

 

On Saturday I wrote a five page letter about what happened, long hand as I have no way of printing out typed documents at the moment. It was to the Presiding Judge and a copy for duty lawyer as I knew my mental health was really bad and ability to communicate was more impaired than it had ever been. This is what I call ‘managing impairments related to my disability’, which is how I was taught to approach things when I studied disability at Massey a few years ago.

 

As I had been incarcerated the entire day previously and ended up flipping out at the judge because of it, I didn’t hurry to get to the police station to hand myself in. I dropped off the letters, was assured the judge and lawyer would get them then returned to my car, parked along the street back of Masterton police station. I intended to get some chalk from the boot and go chalking some poetry on the street outside court and police station. It helps me deal with the disempowered way I am treated.

 

When I was coming back past the back of the police station two police officers followed me and arrested me, took me back to the station and processed me. But even from when I was walking in I started not being able to speak/communicate properly, I was obviously very unwell and very distressed by what was happening. When I was put into the cell I sat on the bed for about 5 mins but I was still freaking out really badly and started to rock backwards and forwards.   Then all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball in the corner of the cell on the floor so I did.

 

Foetal position with my hands over my face – WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME DO THIS – WHY DO YOU MAKE ME MAKE COMPLAINTS AND THEN DO NOTHING AND THINGS ONLY GET WORSE. I don’t want to remember what happened, it makes me want to kill myself I feel so despairing – all this just because I want my ACC reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago.

 

Any officer that came near me I couldn’t respond to, I just cowered in the corner even more. I was there for hours. Then two officers came in and started to ask me questions, I was frozen. A male officer, who I didn’t see because my eyes were closed & my hands over my face asked me if I was awake, I couldn’t respond, he touched me and I flinched. He then said something about DHB phone call and I knew I couldn’t cope emotionally about what he was about to say so I put my fingers in my ears as strongly as I could. Putting my fingers in my ears is a common automatic response for me when I am psychologically overwhelmed.

 

I still couldn’t calm myself so I started involuntarily banging my head against the wall where I was sitting, which helped, I kept doing this for a long time. I peaked out from my position & couldn’t see anybody in the room so I stopped and relaxed a little. I couldn’t cry which was a really weird feeling as I was very distressed. I was numb.

 

I never responded to any officers the entire time I was there. I did eventually get up off the floor and walked around a bit but if I heard the buzzer of the door I immediately walked into the corner with my head away from the door and put my hands over my face. I was in the cells a long time police had other customers, men who came and went. I looked out of my cell and they waved out to me but I couldn’t speak – this is not like me I am usually ok at verbalising and last time I was in there all day I was singing and self-harming for most of it.   I hit myself repeatedly and do other things to self-harm, I don’t cut myself – too scared. Anything to make the pain I feel at what happening to me not be so overwhelming.

 

I finally got out of the cell and two older officers that have terrorised and insulted me were there – Cunningham and Basher. I was cowering from them, I felt safer with the man in black clothes attending to me. I was moved to the court cell, which I am afraid of after a really bad experience there last year coming over in a transport vehicle having been arrested in Wellington when protesting at Human Rights Commission. I was so cold, the vehicle was so cold and the cell was so cold and I was left there for so long. Going back in there triggers me further. I had managed to be able to communicate a little more and starting singing. I was there for ages too, I saw the duty lawyer who refused to read the letter and started asking me questions. I started answering them but quickly became angry and upset and ended up screaming at her so was removed. This is similar to what happened when they kept me in the cells all day the last time. I was trying to manage my disorder so I didn’t scream at anybody, that is why I wrote the letter but she wouldn’t read it.

 

I finally saw the judge, almost last person for the day, I had sat in the cell for hours listening to all the names being called, waiting for my name. For years the court had been accommodating my disorder and knowing how stressed and unwell I get put me up as early as possible so I could leave and go home.

 

The judge had my letter all day, she already knew what she was going to decide. I did start to cry when I finally got in front of her and represented myself reasonably successfully as I didn’t have to say much more than the letter. Judge Morris knows my case well and knows all I want is to leave and go home. It only took 10-15 mins to see her. Police did oppose bail, which she ignored thank God. I did start crying in the court and was distressed when the Police lawyer prosecuting me brought over tissues – why do people who are hurting you for a job want to be nice to you, it really screws with my head when police and others do that.

 

When I finally got my bail forms to sign the security guard acted strangely and told the registrar lady I had been in the cells since this morning when I dropped off the letter for the judge. They looked at each other ‘knowingly’, but didn’t say anything to me about that not being OK, it was more a feeling I got over the days following. I didn’t tell the security guard, who I get on with and feel safe around, about how distressed I was in the cells because he doesn’t like it when I’m in that bad a state (in a caring way). He has seen me in that sort of mess (state of unwellness/trauma/stressed) before outside/inside court a couple of times.

 

It is deeply humiliating when I’m that terrified and traumatised I act out like that – but I try my best to think of it as part of my disability and not beat myself up even more about it. However I do often have a serious suicidal episode some time later, anything from a few days to two weeks later. As I get no services, am terrified of mental health almost as much as police and have nobody to talk to who is capable of supporting me, I go through those horrendous things alone at home.   Complex PTSD has a 60% mortality rate because of suicide and I know it is a life and death situation for me every time I go through. I still don’t know how I make it and I do know it traumatises me more because it is like experiencing your best friend trying to kill you and put you out of your misery. You so desperately want to die because you can’t get help or justice you know you need – and from what you read, you are entitled to.

 

Police know what happens, they know how suicidal I am, they know what distresses me the most, they have become very good at triggering and psychologically manipulating/terrorising me. Keeping me in the cells all day is something they know causes me to flip out, which of course makes me look bad and them justified in their actions – WHICH THEY ARE NOT!

 

I have always maintained Wairarapa police are purposely inciting me to suicide so I don’t protest about the illegal unjust things happening to me (and other people disabled by Complex PTSD) at the hands of ACC, police and other very powerful cruel corrupt immoral people. I know from my own past experience and what other Wairarapa people have told me police here are really mean to suicidal people, which I am sure contributes significantly to Wairarapa having highest rate of suicide in New Zealand & highest rate of self-harm in the OECD.

 

Also the complaints from ?????  about violating my bail conditions were full of lies about what happened. Police said I approached him, which I definitely did not. Both of us were surprised when I looked up and he was right in front of my car. Note: there are angle parks with one central metre for about 10 of them. I only opened my car door and stood there singing with one arm on car roof and one on the door, for less than 30 seconds.

 

I emailed Jennifer Hansen the next day asking for the CCTV footage because I was thinking about the security guard comment to the court registrar. It can’t have been right that I was kept there all day, especially in the extremely traumatised state I was in. Felt if a doctor or psychiatrist had seen the situation he would not have allowed police to interrogate me further about other charges. People extremely traumatised who have Complex PTSD have to be in a less distressed state to be able to even answer questions and not to be traumatised further.

 

I DON’T WANT TO WRITE THIS, WHY DO YOU MAKE ME DO THIS ALL THE TIME AND NEVER HELP ME, NEVER DO ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME, NEVER MAKE IT STOP. Those violent assaults you ignored, those two officers who lied in court, the one who threatened me with seeing how bad police could be if I kept protesting – you never did anything. The assault with handcuffs that has left me permanently damaged you never even asked her to apologise, which is why I wear my wrist brace whenever I protest or have to see police for anything.

 

When they were thoroughly searching me before they put me in the cell on Monday the two woman asked me to take it off, at which I flinched and backed into the corner of the fingerprint room – they knew why. I did take it off and show it to them. They even said they knew I didn’t like being touched – which I don’t – few, if any, persecuted abuse victims with Complex PTSD do.

 

I emailed Jennifer Hansen the next day – did I say that above? Asked for the footage, complained about being kept in the cells all day in the state I was. I also asked about what the two officers who came into the cell actually said because I couldn’t hear them with my fingers in my ears as tightly as they were & banging my head against the wall. It was two more complaints, one of them was a blatant lie by one woman saying I had threatened to get people to come and hurt her – which is a blatant lie.   It is a fundamental principle of mine that God or Karma is the one to dish out punishment – NOT ME. I would not threaten it or for anybody else to do it EVER. I do hope the bad things happening to me and other terrorised impoverished abuse victims in New Zealand happen to these people. Because I know what they do is going to hurt an innocent poor person, but that appears acceptable to our government at the moment, no matter what Jacinda Ardern says publicly.

 

Now police have got people telling lies or they are on their behalf?????   It is very distressing, nobody believes anything I say due to bigotry, hatred, false statements by health ‘professionals’ & being discredited by public mental health services, police etc. This is the experience of majority of mentally injured abuse victims and certain mentally ill people in Wairarapa that I have met – usually protesting in the street.

 

Jennifer Hansen said I will be charged with the further two charges when I go to court on 18 November. I did refute the allegations about threatening harm vehemently by email.

It might be relevant to have the letter I gave to the judge on Monday morning but it is handwritten and I have reached then end of my ability to cope and need to get this complaint sent. I can’t stop crying…………………… Please make them stop, please I am begging you, as I have begged you before, but you never did anything. Wellington police were never as bad as Wairarapa have been……………………….. I am exhausted

(It has been very difficult sharing this with everybody, because I am terrified someone will call the police ‘concerned for my welfare’  and they will just hurt me more.)

Sincerely

 

Jayne R

Civil Society Activist

HUMAN SEWAGE

PS   I hope the Red Cross and Wairarapa DHB are happy with the cruel and unjust treatment I received from police because of their complaints.  I’m sure they’d be happy if I killed myself too – just like my brother.  ANOMIE in action.

Maori model of land ownership & custodians adopted in New Zealand

Wrote that headline to get your attention and I was guided to, make it sound real.  Tell a new story of what is possible, what it would look like and how it would operate, along with the benefits to peace, justice and harmony in our small country.

Land distribution is a serious issue, the market model has failed in this basic social need and must be brought back under control of the State.  I propose as a world leading sustainable social strategy where we completely abandon the ownership model in respect to land and adopt the Maori model of being caretakers of it.

This would affect foreign ownership and ownership for private interests rather than the interests of peace, good health and harmony in our society.   Te Tangata Te Tangata Te Tangata must be adhered to and bought under our collection of Constitutional laws, which I believe support this concept through Imperial laws like Westminster Statute the 1st and Magna Carta.  Also multiple United Nations signed and ratified treaties (I know are not being adhered to) along with the Commonwealth Charter and Declaration of Democracy, which is embodied in Rule of Law being adhered to.

Our National Anthem talks about defending ourselves against dissension, envy and hate, take away the things causing the rise in such destructive expressions of inequality and elitism, like resolving land/resource distribution issues.  The 35 year neo-liberal experiment results are out folks, greed, pollution, violence, crime, drug addiction, suicide, poverty amidst obscene wealth and extravagance, along with brainwashing marketing us into consumers and worse.  We don’t need to do years of research into how to fix it, we know how to fix it – those in power just choose not to in the best interests of powerful global and local elites, not society as a whole.

This concept could address the issue of rises in food prices because wealthy foreigners can afford our food and we cannot – this cannot happen any longer.  We cannot feed the local pigs better than we feed local people.  Again a failure of the free market that needs to be addressed to bring fairness and right back into New Zealand society.

Supermarkets need to be dismantled, they too have abused their market monopolies,  No more selling meat, café food, vegetables, deli items, bakery items and alcohol.

Sorry dreaming away – what the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve, according to writer Nepoleon Hill.  George Monbiot talks about giving people a new story, to replace the current story that isn’t working.  They don’t want to hear the problems just the solutions.  Write a list of demands to address the housing, suicide, poverty, decent employment, violence, crime, health care crises within three years.

 

The Working Dead Zombies of the Economy – NEO-LIBERAL PROPAGANDA 101

I saw the news item below thinking how finally the media are saying something about 35 years of destroying our culture and decent society with their neo-liberal  REFORMS.  But once I started reading it realised it was just about wanting people to want government to cut taxes.  Nothing about getting rid of this 24/7 economy they have created WHICH IS KILLING US, DRIVING MORE TO SUICIDE THAN ANY OTHER COUNTRY IN THE WORLD.

The bit about going to other countries to find out how to fix it made me want to be sick.  We know what to fkn do, we were doing it until greedy corrupt business people decided they wanted to change it and make more money for themselves and destroy US PEASANT TENANTS AND WORKERS!  When the jealous greedy powerful people around the globe decided to rape our resources and our workers – drive our children to suicide, cause women to be raped and beaten with domestic/flatmate violence due to our leading the world in homelessness and unstable housing.  On top of that drive women to self-harm and eating disorders.

I have a book called Death of Economics (Ormrod) from 1980s, an American talks about New Zealand being the country that went from one of the most protected economies on the planet to one of the most open.   Said he didn’t know how governments would get away with something like that, they wouldn’t get elected again anywhere else.  But neo-liberal elites did the greatest brainwashing con job on us- through media and universities, driving neo-liberalism down kids throats like there WAS NO ALTERNATIVE.  I’ve done a paper in economics a few years ago at Victoria, the entire learning programme was about rote learning BS that didn’t even make sense but if you didn’t learn it the way they wanted YOU WOULD FAIL EVERYTHING AND NEVER GET A DECENT JOB.  Grrrrrr  It was our universities that turned bosses into arseholes obsessed with getting money out of people any way they could.

There are some very powerful people in and associated with this country that knew exactly what they were doing when they did these REFORMS and they knew exactly the outcome as well.  EVen the way they called them reforms without saying neo-liberalism or Austrian economic model.  The meaning of reform is improvement, 35 years later we know the only improvement was in how much wealth, land and money the richest people had.

They knew they were going to terrorise and destroy people THEY DIDNT’ GAF,  They knew they drove 100,000s NZers from this country desperate for work and decent bosses – destroyed families.   I was reading something recently that said small countries are exploited – ie environment and workers,  by big countries in an open global market – WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT IS HAPPENING.  Rich pig business people destroyed us and our culture, driving people to suicide and violence etc they just worked out how to create more jobs and profits out of it – with a big smile on their faces.

And don’t even start me on the charity, not-for-profit industry and how that has caused so much harm as people like me are rejected because I am intelligent and proud.  While addicts who will do anything for a fix to feel OK suck up to the legal and illegal DRUG PUSHERS.  I noted how the Samoan lady working huge hours had her husband at home with the kids while she did all the work.  And look at the amount they were getting back from Working for Families $100s of dollars.  And these FAMILIES who get WFF are some of the worst bigots and haters I face because I’m rotting on disability and don’t work.

Knowing all this and what is happening to me through police, courts and mental health it is quite obvious our government are grossly corrupt and they know it.  Shutting me down and driving me to suicide makes them not feel so guilty and/or stupid.

More to write on this but won’t right now, I got to get in my garden, my brain and body need it.

https://www.stuff.co.nz/business/116804041/the-working-dead-zombies-of-the-economy?fbclid=IwAR0EACdb0zm8R7bgaJqaynmY1oDN0X9TY0r_Qx6hBjNNzpyDOLY3YU6C__A

Check out discussion on my Youtube video, it explains lots

Link at below

You havn’t been listening to me – you are obsessed with this idea that we are individuals and don’t need other people – which is grossly untrue.  I’ve met three GOOD health professionals in 17 years, all of them were completely committed to supporting the person to heal in the way they needed to.  That is what Occupational Therapy is all about.  And I will again say THERE IS NO HEALING WHILE THE PERSON IS LIVING IN FEAR WITHOUT THE BASIC NECESSITIES OF LIFE LIKE SHELTER AND FOOD SECURITY.  Which currently is 20% of the NZ population 1 million people – mostly women and youth.   Gee and NZ has highest OECD stats in youth suicide and women self-harming – go figure.

Also, what might apply to a man DOES NOT APPLY TO A WOMAN, especially in the domain of trauma.  Men have to be self-reliant in more ways, although they still need ‘brothers’ – women are different we are NATURALLY reliant on men for safety and others for talking our problems through.  I don’t have a man for protection and my female friends are themselves so traumatised they can’t handle me talking about my fear of police and compulsory incarceration under mental health act FOR TELLING THE FKN TRUTH AND ASKING FOR HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO.

Mental health workers are bunch of self-righteous power tripping either psychopaths or co-dependents – mostly idiot Christians and deeply depressed people with revolting personalities that nobody would be friends with so they get into that line of work for the ego boost.  That is why I have so many problems with mental health services who genuinely HATE me and discredit me in the community cause I criticise them for making my region No 1 in NZ for suicide.  I’m intelligent, I understand my disorder, I know the law and rehab, I know how they are supposed to behave and when they do it wrong, I know the science, I know politics.  I can see straight through an abuser or a co-dependent CLINGON.

I agree with your sentiment but you’re just not understanding what we are both suggesting is essentially the same thing, I just know more of the jargon.  I studied Health 101 and rehab at Massey University for a year by correspondence.   When told to read a chapter I read the book plus I got out every book I could on trauma and studied that far beyond 1st year level.  I learnt their jargon, I learnt their models – that’s where I discovered Mason Durie and Whare Tapa Wha.   I become highly suicidal at the end and could not continue my area of study – BECAUSE I KNEW THEY WERE NOT APPLYING ANY OF THESE THINGS IN THE AREA OF HEALTH FOR MENTALLY INJURED ABUSE/TRAUMA/NEGLECT VICTIMS – it made me more unwell knowing this.  Although the jargon I learnt taught me how to interact with them using their language and proves without doubt in the area of Complex PTSD they are persecuting people purposely – we are the new Jew.

Was researching new Suicide Prevention maggot in Wairarapa, he has made completely inaccurate statements for years that mentally ill people are not violent or dangerous – WTF.   One of the symptoms of Complex PTSD is violence according to all scientific literature I have ever read!!!  Govt and police and MH know it as well.  They study same books/information I do.  This ignorant bigot started his new job by putting even more propaganda in the local free newspaper and other media – the same organisations that dont’ work for 80% of us because they are filled with issue ridden psychopaths and co-dependents, as I said before.  Combine that with the regular meetings they all have with mayors, local ‘social’ business leaders, MH services and police of course – so they all think the same BS – and I know my name comes up regularly.

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Wairarapa Police monitoring my social media – how are you today?

Did you see my chalking outside Masterton Police station yesterday – I took a video, its on my youtube channel link below.   Said I’m being bullied and there’s no-one to tell.  What about you?  ReFuSe corrupt authority.

I’m going to be involved in that inquiry and tell Debbie Francis what I have seen and heard in regards to my case.

Royal Society of New Zealand run by FREEMASON PERVERT Andrew Cleland

Wrote to Royal Society ages ago, heard nothing until this one line reply.  Then went searching for who this disgusting creep Andrew Cleland was and discovered HE’S A FREEMASON.  Don’t think they call themselves that any more but they really bad people – engineers – been controlling and manipulating TRADES for years.  Making sure only certain people got to be trained and had to be certified etc etc, in order to deprive huge numbers of people power, income and skills to build shelter and accumulate wealth 100s of years they have been doing it.

They’ve taken back control through HEALTH AND SAFETY legislation, building regulations etc and of course create even more jobs for their CULT?

Phoned Mr Cleland and told him what I thought of him of course he hung up.  I asked to be part of any discussion him and his bunch of elitist MURDERERS had so they could witness what they do to someone like me – they couldn’t handle it.  HAD TO REJECT ME AND AS REQUIRED BY THEIR CULT, DO THAT IN AS FEW WORDS AS POSSIBLE.

Their building in Wellington is black and PERFECT FOR GRAFFITI – I’m thinking a CHALK swastika to show what filthy fascist loving people they are would be completely appropriate in this situation!!!!  These people supposed to be the most intelligent in this country – YEAH RIGHT!!!!


From: Jayne R
Sent: Wednesday, 23 October 2019 9:41 AM
To: Andrew Cleland <Andrew.Cleland@royalsociety.org.nz>
Subject: Obviously the Royal Society is grossly corrupt – thank you for the confirmation

You are deeply disturbed sick people Andrew and a one line response proves it.  I’ve had those before from corrupt elitist perverted murderers in government.  You don’t regret anything – you love it – you love women and children being abused and killing themselves or being driven to violence and crime, you make money out of it don’t you Andrew.

Can’t even look me in the eye can you Andrew, none of you can, that is how deeply disturbed wealthy elites have become in our country controlled by neo-liberal terrorists.  Not long now and the government will be overthrown and people like me will regain some power – I will make sure personally the Royal Society of Sexual perverts and pedophiles is shut down and a thorough police investigation done so the worst of you can be prosecuted and imprisoned.   I would imagine once those people you illegally put in prison find out what you are and who you are YOU WILL GET THE BEATINGS AND VIOLENCE YOU DESERVE for the karma you have created from allowing 100,000s poor abused women, children and men to be persecuted and oppressed.

More proof for me the Epstein sexual abuse cult is just tip of the ROYAL iceberg.  I watch sexual abuse cases all around the world, I know what happening in England and how involved Royalty are in it.  Ewwwww, not long now and having the word royal anything as your name will be a sign you are part of the abuse and criminal neglect of sexual abuse victims.   You disgusting perverted, men and women I bet.

For those of you who re also filthy sex offender Catholics who hate abused women children and men (like Bill English and his wife) asking for justice and health care they are entitled to under law – you have been tested and you failed, God going to deal with you heretics.  Not long now!

You people make my skin crawl.  MURDERERS AND OPPRESSORS – Hitler would be so proud!

Sincerely
Jayne R
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: Andrew Cleland <Andrew.Cleland@royalsociety.org.nz>
Sent: Tuesday, 22 October 2019 3:00 PM
To: Jayne R
Subject: RE: I have heard ABSOLUTELY NOTHING from you

Dear Jayne

I acknowledge receipt of your correspondence. My team have now considered the matters you have raised.  I regret to inform you the Society is unable to assist you in the ways you have requested.

Yours sincerely,

Dr Andrew Cleland FRSNZ
Chief Executive

 

DDI +64 4 470 5757
M +64 21 311 879
T +64 4 472 7421

Royal Society Te Apārangi

11 Turnbull Street, Thorndon, Wellington 6011
PO Box 598, Wellington 6140, New Zealand
ROYALSOCIETY.ORG.NZ

New Zealand Police advised of lawyer & mental health services perverting justice


From: Jayne R
Sent: Friday, 18 October 2019 11:41 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer <Jennifer.Hansen@police.govt.nz>
Subject: Another person perverting course of justice

Here is another complaint about my current lawyer perverting justice as well Jennifer.  Maybe if you and corrupt senior police who have illegally, cruelly and corruptly refused to protect me and uphold my valid complaints against ACC and others govt/health sector criminals, this wouldn’t be still happening to me and 100,000s other disabled mentally injured vulnerable abuse victims living in poverty.
POLICE ARE PEACEKEEPERS NOT SOLDIERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!   They aren’t there to ‘keep nz safe’  they are there to insure law is upheld so people like me aren’t harmed!  They are there to keep the peace between rich and poor more than any other organisation – WHY AREN’T YOU JENNIFER!!!!!!!!!   Did you watch the Prof Zimbardo video about why you are acting the way you do and you can stop at any time you want you know – your passive inaction is evil and you know it.  You’re a woman, why are you harming #metoo?
I’ve put a copy of this email on my website – have you all seen it????  Just thought I’d send a special copy to you, knowing how much you think of your staff and like to know what is going on.   I’ll be putting a copy of this email on there too and talking about it on my youtube channel!  First you have to expose corruption and cruelty before you can address it!
Sincerely
Jayne R
CSA
HUMA SEWAGE

From: Jayne R
Sent: Friday, 18 October 2019 10:22 AM
To: Alisdair Ross <shwedagon@xtra.co.nz>
Subject: As you don’t comprehend anything I say I’ll put it in writing – Please put the details of what you told me yesterday in writing also

Alisdair,
Firstly I want everything you told me yesterday in writing, about your ILLEGAL conversations with Forensic Mental Health and ACC and conversations with Judge Morris where I was not present.   You did not get my written authority to discuss anything with ACC, you didn’t turn up remember.   Your contact with Forensic Mental Health is…………………

Extensive corruption in mental health & legal sectors targeting people with Complex PTSD

Got a phone call from my lawyer yesterday, he continues to refuse to put anything in writing.  This was my reply, details how bad things are in THE VIOLENCE AND PERSECUTION OF THE POOR INDUSTRY.


From: Jayne R
Sent: Friday, 18 October 2019 10:22 AM
To: Alisdair Ross <shwedagon@xtra.co.nz>
Subject: As you don’t comprehend anything I say I’ll put it in writing – Please put the details of what you told me yesterday in writing also

Alisdair,

Firstly I want everything you told me yesterday in writing, about your ILLEGAL conversations with Forensic Mental Health and ACC and conversations with Judge Morris where I was not present.   You did not get my written authority to discuss anything with ACC, you didn’t turn up remember.   Your contact with Forensic Mental Health is deeply disturbing and illegal behaviour under the Privacy Act as you definitely had no authority to contact them.  Your repeating over and over again what good people they were and how they wanted to help when I have been screaming for services for over a decade and am in court currently on 23 police charges for protesting about THAT FACT (or the past nine years of being continually dragged through court for my legal protests that I was not getting health care and justice I entitled to.

You repeatedly asking me what I wanted for mental health care (reinstatement of my ACC care from 2009) and telling me those people at mental health are trying to help me is also extremely insulting.  You must have asked me what I wanted 10 times,  when I told you some of the things you asked the question again, like I hadn’t even spoken.  At one point you slowed right down and said the same words really slowly like I was some sort of imbecile – it was offensive and extremely disrespectful.  Which is why you triggered me, you are really good at it to the point I think you enjoy it and do it purposely.  My previous lawyer Susie Barnes would never have triggered me like that, or kept doing it when I said to stop.   I believe you are grossly corrupt Alisdair and have a hidden agenda working for some elite group of psychiatric and legal terrorists targeting poor abuse/trauma victims with Complex PTSD like myself.  As you already know Legal Aid will refuse me a lawyer if I sack you and I am still to unwell to represent myself so I have no choice but continue working with corrupt fascist bigot and elitist terrorist.

For past nine years those corrupt deceitful criminals at mental health have asked me the same question about what I wanted and then never done what they promised MANY MANY TIMES.  This is psychological torture that has destroyed my life and my relationships – that I doubt will ever be repaired because of what they have done!  DESTROYED MY FAMILY and doing their best to DESTROY ME!!!!!

Obviously these incompetent ignorant bigots in Forensic Mental Health want me to tell them how to fix it for me and 100,000s people with Complex PTSD.  As a result of interpersonal violence, combined with the inhuman living situations our government now expect disabled mentally injured people (mostly women) to survive and HEAL in – let alone thrive.  Although I am sure you all know this isn’t going to happen while govt bring 3,000 immigrants a week into New Zealand to drive disabled and poor locals from their homes, health care and justice.   I see in a news item today unemployment is past 10% for poorest and youngest New Zealanders, so rich educated immigrants are taking jobs from locals and homes.  It also talks about how much poorer people rotting on invalids benefit are than they have ever been because of huge increases in rent which I am subjected to in a private rental.  You are sick sick people Alisdair, those are your peers doing this aren’t they Alisdair.

MY CARE IS SUPPOSED TO CONSIST OF:

Firstly it is to be professional and based on an internationally recognised rehabilitation model and ACC legislation.  I REFUSE TO HAVE A SOCIAL WORKER IN ANY TYPE OF THERAPEUTIC ROLE, I’ve been watching the sort of harm they do with people I know.  Everything Kumar says in his book Multidisciplinary Approach to Rehabilitation, which was the academic information I was taught while studying rehabilitation at Massey several years ago, that ACC and others do not apply.

I will not participate in any unprofessional experimental therapeutic work that I know does not work for people with CPTSD.  Experimenting on people is illegal under BORA and Human Rights treaties.

My care – as with any person who has a serious life-threatening debilitating disorder – will be overseen by a psychiatrist that follows/applies the work of Mason Durie and his Whare Tapa Wha model.  I would like Mason or Dr Alan Doris (who escaped to Australia) to recommend that person so I don’t get another arrogant, corrupt, incompetent, imperialist, ignorant, elitist bigot.

BEcause of the extreme trauma ACC caused removing all my care illegally in 2009, six months into a 2 1/2 yr rehab plan, I demand a contract be signed that my care will not be withdrawn without the agreement of at least two of my closest health providers, without this it will take many months (if at all) for me to trust what is happening and participate fully in therapy out of terror of another withdrawal that will this time kill me through suicide.

I had an OT two hours a week who helped me work out where the barriers were and what I could do to overcome the now multiple phobias I have to cope with.  My previous OT was the conduit between me and the services I needed, instructing the workers at the gym I was attending about my behaviour, liasing with any education or other organisation I became part of (if that is appropriate).  I have seen multiple programmes in prisons described in news reports that are currently not available for victims like myself.  Personally I would rather not commit a serious enough crime to end up in prison so I can access these therapy’s, eg theatre.  I also think it deeply flawed to be providing therapy to people once they have harmed people or committed crimes and not before.  Although I understand why because I attended the Victoria University, Gabrielle Maxwell organised on the Costs of Crime and how to funnel funding and services into these ‘criminals’.

I had previously a mental health worker for 3 hours a week, I need at least 15 hours a week and for that to be increased DEPENDING ON WHAT HAPPENS WITH THE OCCUPATIONAL THERAPIST AND PSYCHIATRIST.   You don’t seem to understand a therapeutic relationship, the idea is we work TOGETHER to reinstate me as much as possible to my previous level of functioning before the rape.  Where I was a business franchise owner and law student with two children.  I don’t have my children at home any longer which is no less stress for me as I am now living extremely isolated with more serious psycho-social issues following years of criminal neglect by ACC and mental health and discrimination in the community.

I must work, I must be able to rejoin the workforce OR I AM GOING TO DIE!   Nobody can safely or with inherent dignity live on welfare in this neo-liberal nightmare country as it is now constructed under neo-liberal terrorist economics.  As the Newshub report I read this morning outlines – I note this is the first time in 35 years any mainstream New Zealand news service has showed evidence of poverty worsening for those receiving welfare benefits.   It was disturbing to see elderly on benefits (some still working at good jobs and receiving old age pension) have had increases in their welfare benefits while disabled and poor were impoverished further.

Currently my talents lie in the arts, that is part of the stress disorder that you become highly creative when you are extreme stressed with life and death situations constantly – which I am when the suicidality wells up.  I need help with applying for funding and educating myself as to how best to profit from my work SO I CAN PAY FOR MY OWN HOUSE AND MY OWN FOOD AND PEOPLE DON’T DESPISE AND DEMEAN ME FOR HAVING TO BEG.   I am now phobic about asking for things from people after past 17 years of dealing with ACC, justice system and mental health, this prevents me from being able to market, publish, perform and profit from my talent/my work.

Until I am healed I cannot see me being able to work at a ‘normal’ job because I am still most phobic about going for a job interview and as I know from years of experience, people will judge and reject me as being insane on just one meeting if I present in a  triggered traumatised state (as my disability is situational).  This is also hampered because of the lies mental health, police and others have spread in the community and of course my deteriorating mental health due to ACC and others.  I am discriminated against often and I challenge people with my activism which they don’t like – because it is true.  So getting a job will be almost impossible in Wairarapa and the way government agencies and members of parliament are currently terrorising me through the courts my knowledge and skills in mental health will not be taken advantage of by government – so I would never get a job for the government in any capacity – ALTHOUGH THEY DESPERATELY NEED MY HELP TO STEM THE SUICIDE EPIDEMIC they purposely created.

There will be no HOT POTATO CARE (please refer to medical evidence by world expert Karlen Lyons-Ruth), where I am given services and they are removed as soon as I show any improvement – only to let me crash and retraumatise me even more because I am not ready and KNOW IT!    I CAN ASSURE YOU THE SOONER health providers ARE OUT OF MY LIFE THE BETTER I WILL BE – RELYING ON ABUSIVE UNRELIABLE UNPROFESSIONAL HEALTH SERVICES IS WORSE THAN HAVING NO SERVICES AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Which is why we have so much suicide in New Zealand of course!

The OT or the mental health worker, (whoever is the more suitable or trusted – because I DO NOT TRUST ANY PERSON ON THIS PLANET, PARTICULARLY ANY HEALTH ‘PROFESSIONAL’ to do what they say) must be available to take me to the doctor. This is my most essential issue at the moment after being prevented from seeing a doctor due to an illegal and cruel CONTRACT Carterton Medical Centre (written by Simon Watt from Compass Health & Bell Gully) made me sign over three years ago.   The same threats of having all my health care removed by CMC have recently been extended to WINZ and also the local library when I burst into tears because of an email about being arrested AGAIN.  Apparently I am supposed to leave the building, compose myself and return.  Except it is the very act of going into these government buildings/situation and being demeaned, degraded and discriminated against that sets off the more extreme expressions/impairments/behaviours of my CPTSD – like self-harming.   Years of this sort of treatment has caused serious psychological harm, which is evident from my behaviour.

JUDSON AND WALSH’S ASSESSMENT THAT I AM PERMANENTLY IMPAIRED IS NOT ACCURATE AT ALL – that these ‘senior’ mental health professionals believe that would explain the appalling state of mental health services in New Zealand.  The idea that I am going to be like this forever is utterly ridiculous if I get the professional treatment care rehabilitation and housing I am entitled to under New Zealand law!   If I don’t get that care of course things will not improve and I will die – which I am sure is what our government, the legal profession and the health profession want to keep people employed in VIOLENCE/MENTAL HEALTH INDUSTRY.

Wanting me to provide every last detail of care IS NOT HOW REHABILITATION WORKS, that you don’t know that Alisdair could be explained – how leading psychiatrists and ACC don’t know that is incompetent, negligent and discrimination.  I would be working with an expert psychiatrist in the field of traumatic stress disorders, I guarantee you this person will know what is happening – just like OT Glenda van de ven Long did when I was working with  her.  Just like Dr Alan Doris did when I talked to him during several assessments – but was never allowed him as my psychiatrist – CORRUPTLY AND ILLEGALLY.

Part of my rehabilitation must include a full gym membership as I need the support of the staff, plus I have other physical health issues that now need to be addressed and will limit what I can do.  My previous OT facilitated my going to gym.  I need a full medical (to see a doctor more than once) as I have concerns about skin cancer, my ankle and hip as well.  I become easily overwhelmed and would not cope initially with a long consultation as I am terrified of doctors after the appalling bigoted incompetent unprofessional disrespectful treatment I have received.

I need a professional needs assessment ONCE I HAVE BECOME FAMILIAR WITH THE PEOPLE I AM WORKING WITH – and there cannot be more than three people or organisations who are expected to know my impairments and assist me in firstly managing them and then overcoming them WHICH IS ALL I HAVE EVER WANTED!!!

ACC need to provide someone to deal with the years of unopened mail caused by them REFUSING TO REINSTATE MY CARE AS REQUIRED BY TWO ACC REVIEWS IN 2010/11.   ACC need to provide a professional to insure I get the $10,000+ in independence allowance they have been illegally withholding for years and I WILL NOT BE REQUIRED TO ATTEND YET ANOTHER ASSESSMENT TO GET THAT MONEY – that was required to be reinstated in 2010 according to the Fairway Review.

I also had monthly massages in 2009 which need to be weekly, when the gym is reinstated as it balances out the activity and release of rage with calm and quiet.   Yin and yang.  This also works psycho-socially as I am touched in a good healing way, not an abusive way.  That I have to explain why I need and am entitled to these things under law, to my lawyer and top government psychiatrists is not only strange its completely inappropriate.  A rehabilitation plan is developed between health professionals and the disabled person – not during a court case for protesting about being denied the professional treatment care rehab and home I am entitled to under ACC law & many other laws and UN treaties.

The six week residental rehabilitation programme I was supposed to go on years ago, as stated by Dr Alan Doris, will need to be organised.  Given our cruel corrupt government removed all the places that were suitable this will need to be part of $millions government have pledged to increase in services/resources for people with more acute mental health issues, especially as a result of abuse.   People with CPTSD are not accommodated by public mental health services, I read a news report by the new suicide prevention officer at Wairarapa DHB who said people with mental illness were not violent.   Violence is a symptom of Complex PTSD according to Bessell van der Kolk, whose work I greatly admire.  If only we would listen to the artists to guide services/resources as he suggests in his great book Traumatic Stress Disorders.  Copies of which I showed both forensic psychiatrists assessing me.

Personally I do not allow myself to act on the violence I feel and use my activism, self-harm and other techniques so I don’t become violent.  These so far work very well and I have never been violent towards any person, however I am treated like I am violent.  I recall the first time I started protesting about not getting mental health services I was entitled to from ACC my police file says on it DANGER TO POLICE SAFETY.   I was never and have never been a danger to police safety, I believed police were there to uphold justice and the law, my brother in law was a senior police officer, I didn’t realise there are corrupt police officers who are dedicated to protecting corrupt criminal people in power and persecute honest disabled people fighting for their rights to health care and justice.

Hopefully this answers your question about WHAT HEALTH CARE I WANT, making it clear this is not the full extent of what I am entitled to and need AS I WOULD REQUIRE THE APPROPRIATE HEALTH PROFESSIONALS AND MODELS TO BE PUT IN PLACE TO INSURE AND WORK THAT OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

You said I have to meet with you, which I have no choice about, however you must organise it through Masterton District Court, it will be recorded BY ME and security guard Jason will need to be there to support me and protect you in case I can’t keep control of the overwhelming rage I feel at what you and your friends at Forensic mental health are doing to not just me – to 100,000s of desperate innocent terrorised poor abused people – mostly women.   YOU DRIVE CHILDREN TO SUICIDE AND PEOPLE TO VIOLENCE AND SELF-HARM – you people are murderers and oppressors of the worst form.  How you sleep at night knowing what you do is beyond my comprehension as a civilised decent person.

In the future please communicate with me through email so I have proof of what you are saying and as requested at the beginning of this email please advise the details of who you have been talking to and what you have been doing that you advised me of yesterday in your telephone call.

Sincerely

Jayne R
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE