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New Poem – TAKE HEART

Take down those crusty paintings
Refined heART upon the wall
Take down those crusty paintings
In office, house and hall

Take stock of our priorities
Remember why we live
Take stock of our priorities
And what we have to give

Take heART the world is waking up
Peace and justice will soon reign
Take heART the world is waking up
To the class war game

Take over our courts and parliaments
Put new heART upon the walls
Take over our courts and parliaments
Until this Oligarchy falls

enD

 

Amazing Idea about Lotto funding regional rehab & mental health facilities

Been having a really hard time of it, Monday morning was horrific as you will see from my YouTube channel and what I was chalking on the street.  When I go through these severe traumas (suicidal episodes alone because I am refused entitlements under law), which are as significant as your best friend trying to kill you, I often become highly creative.  That is one of the only advantages of my CPTSD, this creativity not only inspires my poetry and art it inspires me to find viable solutions to the situations those in power say they want to repair in our dysfunctional society.

Anyway, I make phone calls, that’s my thing, police must hate me cause I sure they get a few calls when I lose it at people who become insulting and patronising – note I do not threaten harm I just become insulting and swearing, ie I go tourettes (it is a recognised aspect of my disability now – it distresses and harms me too).  Anyway I phoned Lotto about their current advertising campaign about everybody caring for each other and pointed out this was not true in the darklands I live rotting on welfare thanks to ACC etc.  I became distraught, it didn’t go well, but the girl said someone would phone me back.

I got a lovely phone call from a young woman and they going to look at the advertising, considering the state of housing, violence, crime and suicide at the moment, based on my comments.  I also asked her how I could have a voice and tell her my ideas about refocusing charity on to people in need.  Look up ANY DICTIONARY – MINE IS THE OXFORD I GOT WHILE STUDYING LAW AT VICTORIA IN 2001.  Providing for people in need was the dictionary definition until our Orwellian government changed the law to change the meaning.  Which included extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  All for the middle class and rich, while people in real need of the necessities of life, like safety, a safe stable affordable home, a dignified life, valuable jobs, food (without begging for it) became more and more persecuted and impoverished.

This is what fuels our violence, self-harm, addiction and suicide statistics and I challenge anybody to a debate on that topic.  This is what makes wealthy immigrants able to buy land in New Zealand while those PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED locals cannot.  This is what creates homelessness, domestic violence and trauma in the local population.  There are very bad people involved in our government that do this purposely because of their extremist neo-liberal beliefs.

Since I spoke to her the ideas have been rushing through my head as to how it would all work.  Being built over a short time by each community, using resources diverted from commercial business and local businesses and volunteers that just want to help.  With Lotto leading the way it could be co-ordinated I know it could.  Once people got the concept.

Am referring everybody to my solutions page, please share with everybody you know.  Print out my information and take it to your local MP.  Send it to the Minister, send it to the Lotteries Grants Board and say you support my ideas.

I envisage the money from Lotto might only  need to be diverted for a limited period of time (the America’s Cup team might have to forego their millions in charity money for a while).  This would be something you could really call HOPE for 100,000s disabled and poor New Zealand victims of crime.  Homes created for these people, which is required under law, will mean other houses are left vacant for working families AND THE COSTS OF RENT WILL COME DOWN.  The I Am Hope campaign is nothing more than an insult to those who have been purposely disenfranchised and persecuted by neo-liberal extremism.  Please educate yourself about neo-liberalism, Chris Hedges and Prof David Harvey a good place to start.

The more I think about it the more excited I get, how could anybody argue with my reasoning and the benefits to our communities in so many ways.  Do we continue to lead the world in domestic/flatmate violence, youth suicide, self-harm and homelessness or do we actually show what it means to be a New Zealander, a Pakeha and Maori.  More than that to be a citizen of this planet and adhere to constitutional laws and United Nations treaties/contracts we have signed, to reject neo-liberalism as a failed economic and social experiment.

I can picture it all coming together in my head, I’ve always been very good at seeing the big picture and as I have far more of the picture as to where the problems are with THE MARKET,   charity, the law, mental health, health and government this makes me very valuable.  I reakon we could lead the world in rehabilitation of victims of crime, teach other countries what to do, including extricating themselves from the grips of cruel immoral elitist neo-liberalism.  IT IS NOT OUR CULTURE AND I WILL NEVER ACCEPT IT EVER.

If I can pull this off and convince Lotteries Grants Board, woah the positive impacts are going to be massive.  It would help those perverting the charity system at the moment, like Trust House, to save face a little, if they turned their attention to my ideas and housing – not buying more pubs.  It would stop the plethora of really really bad, offensive, unprofessional, inappropriate MAN UP – stopping (creating) violence businesses – groan.

I can picture big warehouse type facilities where houses are being built by teams of people with all types of disabilities.   Surrounded by cranes and hoists, teams of people being supervised by professionals and volunteers (like at the mens sheds). Houses would be for people with all types of economic social and cultural NEEDS and disabilities.  Must be sustainably made.  This is after the banks (giving free loans for business who participate) and private companies muck in and help build the facilities I envisage.  Once these places were set up I know we could pump out 100,000s of houses in a matter of months if the entire country got involved.  Including university students.  Got to use the fit and healthy too.  Not so much big equipment, wouldn’t be safe with so many people on site.  (Have you ever seen Mormons put up one of their churches over a few days, its cool to watch.)  An initial national combined effort, that would create the resources and infrastructure to be sustainable – COMPLETELY WITHIN THE BUDGETS and resources we currently have available.

It is imperative however we ensure (as required by international and NZ law) the cultural rights of Pakeha and Maori who want to own sufficient land to support themselves in times of hardship.  I am a firm believer in the quarter acre section for those who have been bought up in those environments.  If we grew our own vegetables and shared them, we could send more overseas.  At the moment our foreign trade in food (eg dairy, kai moana and meat) is happening at the expense of the poorest in our society, THIS MUST NOT HAPPEN, for scientific reasons.  Te Tangata Te Tangata Te Tangata – It is triggering those affected most basic instincts of survival of the fittest and tribalism – it is uncivilised and our laws were designed to stop that.

Under Libertarian beliefs they supposed to be using charity to support people in need, how did that get perverted into supporting sports, arts and business projects, cycle trails for tourists, etc.  It was the Charities Act  http://www.legislation.govt.nz/act/public/2005/0039/latest/DLM344368.html  (Note: arts for people who suffer trauma is a recognised medical therapy, extravagant arts projects like the giant screw installed across from Trust House at the roundabout in Masterton, is an insulting offensive $350,000 abomination.)

Surprise surprise, those in power went mad and started using charity to advance the rich and persecute then exploit us peasants.  Like that hasn’t happened many of times since the beginning of recorded history.  The most disturbing part now is HOW HAVE INTELLECTUALS AND JUSTICE SYSTEM LET IT GET THIS BAD, it is beyond me how an intelligent society with laws and universities who do record history let this happen.  It is terrifying to me, that someone as insignificant, powerless and disabled as me is the one saying WOAH this isn’t right and this has to stop.

Lets hope my 17 years of dogged determination, research and knowledge pays off.  Knowledge is power they reakon.  And what does not destroy you makes you stronger.  Two sayings I have on my wall.   The years of knowledge I now have and the times I have almost been destroyed by criminal neglect/negligence inciting suicide – I must be the most powerful person on the planet.

I want those who being hurt like I do and feel like I do to remember NON-VIOLENCE is the only way to defeat those in power who incite this HATE.  To all those who don’t understand what incites violence, suicide and crime I AM SURE you will understand what I am suggesting is definitely going to provide HOPE – real HOPE – real SUPPORT – real PEACE in our society.  Not just talking and marketing that changes nothing, as we have seen for the past 30 years, groan.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all – Pakeha and Maori – lets make this work – lets show the world it can work.  Capitalism and Democracy I mean, not the opposite of that, neo-liberalism – definitely not neo-liberalism – definitely definitely not.

Medical Council complaint, proof of New Zealand government corruption & cruelty

3 May 2019

 

Medical Council of NZ

PO Box 10509

The Terrace

WELLINGTON

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

This letter is to form part of my complaint about Justin Barry-Walsh and others using psychological abuse/torture in an attempt to drive me to suicide.

 

I am not sure how to talk about the background to this as it is very traumatising for me, I have communication impairments and need someone to insure I relate all the relevant information needed for the Medical Council to make a decision. Can you please help me work out how to do this, I am not sure myself, whether phone or face to face. I have no support to do this from anybody else.

 

This is in regard to being in court for my legal and valid protests about police violence, being illegally denied health care, punitive use of the justice system, government corruption, gross injustices in mental health and housing sector, etc. Legal Aid refused me legal aid, even when the judge said they were required to provide it so I had a lawyer.

 

On 1 May I heard from Nelda Day court officer that the second psych assessment would be 24 May, THE DAY AFTER I was due in court. The date of 23 May was made four weeks ago, the Forensic Service was required to provide a suitably qualified culturally appropriate ‘impartial’ psych assessment as requested by Judge Morris before the next court date – not the day after. The 23rd was chosen because I have a long term relationship of sorts with Judge Morris and she is determined to do whatever she can to get me the health care and justice I am entitled to under law – so I don’t end up in court repeatedly for my ongoing protests. She was going to be there on 23 May, she may not be there 10 days later.

 

I was advised the assessor was going to be Dr David Chaplow, ex Director of mental health and one of the people I have spent the past 17 yrs complaining/protesting about.   The first assessor was not who the court staff were told it would be, it was a very gay sounding man called Peter who only 18 months before wrote a report saying I didn’t want services – which was a horrendous lie.   Then I got Dr Barry-Walsh who I thought to be trustworthy, but obviously wasn’t from his report. Now they want Dr Chaplow, when I had requested Mason Drury or ANYBODY he recommended who knew Whare Tapa Wha and assessed on a culturally appropriate basis, ie as a Pakeha New Zealander. The judge supported this in her formal request to Forensic Services, it was ignored.

 

Finding out the court had organised the psych assessment for the day after I was due in court made me very angry and I challenged court staff about this.   I was told to contact Forensic Services as they were the ones who organised it, there was nothing they could do. Giving consideration to my extremely poor mental health what they were doing was psychological torture, vindictive, punitive use of the justice system and criminal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act. It is also a perversion of justice which is a crime and subject to 7 years jail if convicted and of course many other human rights and disability rights laws.  I looked on the website and tried to phone head of Forensic Services Dr Emery-Palmer http://www.mhaids.health.nz/about-us/directors-of-area-mental-health-services/ given the seriousness of what was happening.

 

I went through to a call centre, the person asked me who I was because psychiatrists did not talk with patients who phoned, I told her I was not a patient. She phoned through to Dr Emery-Palmer and returned to me saying the doctor had said I was a patient and not to put me through. I reiterated I was not a patient and tried to explain the situation, the woman hung up on me.

 

As a writer I have a pretty good grasp of the English language and just to make sure looked up the word patient.   I am definitely not a patient by definition of the word, I am not registered with any health provider (am not allowed to register, the waiting list is 600 people long – mostly wealthy immigrants), I have not received any services from mental health for many years – no matter how many times I begged for professional health care I was entitled to. I have not received anything from public mental health services, except some counselling 25 years ago and the odd bit of social work (which is not health care). I did have some interaction with an Occupational Therapist in 2009 but when ACC illegally withdrew my actual professional rehabilitation the OT couldn’t cope and rejected me also. I had been working with a very professional and amazing OT Glenda vandervenLong at the time who was funded by ACC. The interaction with Hugh Gaywood-Eyre OT was more a therapeutic interaction, there was no ‘health care’ involved.

 

The last interaction I had with Hugh was at Masterton police station, I was on the floor with my arms around the ankles of the social worker sitting beside him begging for health care. Hugh told me to get up and stop embarrassing myself, that I knew as well as him there were no longer services in mental health. He left the service not long after that, I knew him through a club I belonged to for a while, we have discussed what happened, he left MH services as he couldn’t cope with how badly they treated people.

 

Being a patient would require some sort of regular interaction with the same person, I can’t recall that happening for a very long time. It distresses me greatly that other people appear to get professional health care and I do not. I have never understood why and people treat me like I’m a liar and delusional when I tell them what is happening to me, because it doesn’t happen to them. Hopefully the Medical Council and police can work out what has been happening to me. The only possible reason I can think of is my public protests and formal complaints, it is illegal to harm or disadvantage someone who makes a complaint.

 

With everything the media and government say about mental health services and the horrendous ‘suicide promotion’ propaganda we are all subjected to day after day, my mental health is denigrated even further by my experience of EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE to what is expected.

 

It appears to me Dr Emery-Palmer may be part of this appalling abusive behaviour by Forensic Services, I truly believe only a police investigation would be able to explain what is happening and how many it is happening to. I know from the laws I read it is not allowed to happen to me or anybody else.

 

Mental health services have more power over people and the opportunity for more abuses of power than police. What is happening to me might explain New Zealand’s world leading suicide, self-harm, domestic violence and eating disorder rates. Perhaps I am part of a targeted group of disabled people who are prevented from accessing professional health care, using professional health and rehabilitation models and whose valid complaints are illegally rejected.

 

Please make this stop, please, I have never hurt anybody, I barely drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t steal, I don’t rip people off, I don’t bludge off people, I don’t gossip, I don’t gamble, I am not a sexual deviant or pervert of any sort. I am an honest good person just wanting health care I need and am entitled to so I can return to work for wages, so I can live with dignity and in safety without having to beg for food. My house is tidy and clean, my gardens are done, I share jars of jam & pickle I make with others, most of it goes to waste (when I get given fruit or produce people don’t want). I don’t want to live like this as an outcast of society, I am intelligent, I have reports that say it, I have a report from Justin Barry-Walsh 6 years ago that said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional. That is still true, unfortunately I don’t know if Justin is as sound minded.

 

I am 54 years old, why are they doing this to me, I am going to be destitute the rest of my life if they don’t help me, there is no point in living if this is what my life is going to be like.   Please I want to meet my grandchildren, please I don’t want to be despised by my family and the community, please I havn’t done anything wrong and I don’t understand why this is happening to me when every law and report I read says exactly the opposite should be happening. Please if I don’t work I know I will be raped, harmed and exploited again, please help me, this is what is happening in the ‘darklands’ where I live every day. Its very hard to avoid junkies and being told repeatedly to interact with very self-righteous wealthy Christians is extremely offensive. The times I have gone to churches for support I have ended up being the one supporting them, working for them for nothing, often doing things for people who were getting health services and had safe stable homes to live in.

 

Did I tell you about them cancelling an x-ray the doctor at A & E said I needed, so I went there and was told there was no appointment?   Did I tell you about mental health staff gossiping to people in the community about what a bad person I was (who then came and told me). If I was a patient of mental health services then I would be able to make formal complaints about this gossip and the horrendous violations of my most basic rights, I am not so I can’t.   How can somebody be a PATIENT of a health system that completely rejects them?   They treat sex offenders and abusive thieving junkies better than they treat their victims, I know that for sure.

 

What is happening to me is a criminal act and a deliberate perversion of justice

 

 

Yours sincerely

 

 

JR

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Complaint about Masterton Hospital’s abusive health processes A & E

This is a complaint about services at Masterton Hospital A & E, I am writing them on my blog and sending the link and a copy to the PATIENT EXPERIENCE (laugh out loud) person at the Wairarapa DHB, who always refuses to address any complaints,  This is not about the A & E doctor and nurses I dealt with on Monday 1 April when I presented with my badly grazed hand full of footpath grit I couldn’t get out myself, they were kind and professional.

This is about what happened on Wednesday 3 April when I went back to have the x-rays the doctor at A & E ordered only to discover the request had been removed and I was severely traumatised by the series of events that followed.  What should have taken 20mins to get an x-ray took 2 hours due to the negligence and unprofessional behaviour of unknown medical staff who cancelled the X-ray.

As part of the impairments I must deal with regarding my Complex PTSD, when stressed my flight and freeze response is set to extreme, so it is very difficult when that feeling you don’t want to be somewhere comes on, because your homing beacon goes off and the feeling to run away is overwhelming.  I missed out fight response because I can usually deal with that now, but I do believe it makes the other two much worse.

On Monday I fell over, I hurt my hand, I tried to get the stones under my skin out, but they were lodged and the pain was excruciating, I had no Panadol or alcohol to dull it.  The only way to get them out was the hospital A & E, I currently do not have a doctor and the Carterton Medical Centre is extremely hostile towards me, also I am not registered I would have to pay $75 to see a nurse – maybe more.  I don’t have $75, I live terrorised and poor on invalids benefit in a rental I can’t afford.

It was a huge decision for me because the last few times I have been at A & E were extremely traumatising.  There is a TV screen at A & E that constantly says not to go there if you can go to your GP, which makes me feel really really bad.  It says other things that are very upsetting about suicide and violence, about how there is support when I know what they offer is worse than no support at all.

The last time I was there for myself was when the police violently assaulted me with handcuffs and caused permanent damage to my right wrist.  I can’t talk any more about that as it is triggering me again.  Because my injury was again my right wrist I became triggered by continuous flashbacks to my hospital visit after the last two acts of unwarranted criminal violence towards me.  Both I made complaints about, both ignored, two officers even lied in court about what happened.  And my visits to A & E were both traumatic because SOME staff were unprofessional, did not know how to accommodate impairments related to my disability and made the experience worse.

Even now I am starting to became distressed about what happened and I really don’t want to write this because I HATE BEING UPSET AND CRYING, but I know I have to and I know I am not going to have to write it again.

I had to wait less than an hour, the receptionist didn’t like it but allowed me to stay to have the wound on my palm dealt with.  I was doing all I could to not be triggered by the flashbacks I started to have and being surrounded with government propaganda of police and threats to be removed if you become abusive.  As I now have a tourettes type response with triggered it is very distressing that might happen and staff wouldn’t understand and have me removed or police called – I am terrified of most police.

I managed to not cry and not tick for most of the time I was waiting, thank God.  Where once I could have easily dealt with such an event, with my disability I am unable to cope (without the health care ACC were supposed to reinstate in 2010, or the services mental health say they provide but just not to me).  I was seen by Dr Smith, I had to wait 45 mins for a numbing cream to work before he started to remove the skin and grit, I was also given gas.  I asked him if there was a hospital volunteer or someone who could sit with me while I waited alone in the cubicle as I was trying not to freak out and resist the urge to run away (leave the hospital), cry, rock and curl up in a ball in the corner of the room (which had happened after the first police assault and threats of worse violence when I was left alone for a long time by health staff).

They couldn’t get anybody like that so the nurse sat with me and talked for as long as she was able.  I was very grateful they had listened to my request, this is what I do to manage impairments related to my disability so I am not further traumatised/harmed (my disorder is compounding) and my life extremely stressful anyway.  When Dr Smith finished dressing the severe grazes he felt around my wrist and I winced when he touched the inside of my wrist.  This was very painful, but had remained sore to touch since the police assaulted me in August? 2018.  He suggested I have an x-ray, I told him I had one last year when I hurt it and there was nothing, he wanted me to have another anyway.  I told him I had not been able to have any follow up after the wrist injuries last year because of my stress disorder and not being able to stay in A & E, as well as having no doctor, or being able to go to a doctor.

I started to cry as I wanted to have the x-ray but I had been fighting myself for the entire time I was there so I didn’t run away, now he added on some more time my psych just couldn’t cope.  Dr Smith understood why I couldn’t stay, he understood I wanted the x-ray but had reached my coping limit, he suggested I come back for the x-ray when I was feeling better.   I cried again because he understood and offered me an option that accommodated my impairments and would allow me to get the health services I needed.  So few hospital and health staff ever do this, or even know they should.   The continuous propaganda about EVERYBODY HAS CHOICES seems to make most people callous and cruel towards people who can’t do things out of extreme fear (based on past experiences), and of course serious mental health & psychosocial issues.

Dr Smith was so nice, he did a great job, hurt me as little as he could, though it did hurt.  He reassured me several times that he would leave the x-ray request at the x-ray department and all I would need to do was come back to there, without having to go through A & E (which traumatises and triggers me).   Can someone please make sure Dr Smith sees the x-rays as I think they gave me some other person to view them and I don’t know if that person is trustworthy.

My discharge summary says under Advice to Patient.

Jayne we have cleaned and dressed the abrasions – all the sand has been washed out.
Keep the dressing on for 5-7 days – replace as needed
You can get it wet – just dry it gently.

Your urine tested positive for infection – herewith the script

You are still tender in the wrist – I have put in for an xray – attend when suits if you don’t want to today.

Come back any concerns

I had been trying to make myself go to A & E for months about my ongoing bladder/kidney infections as I havn’t seen a doctor for years due to my disability and appalling unprofessional behaviour by Carterton Medical Centre and others.  I now also can’t afford to see one as it will cost me $75 from my invalids benefit.  I have had these infections getting worse for years, corresponding with my period on a monthly basis.  I have to wear a pad every day and have humiliating experiences with wetting myself, especially when my bladder is infected.  About five years ago, while living in Wainuiomata I tried to have the worsening incontinence addressed and was supposed to go for ‘invasive’ tests.  My mental health was very bad over there due to my dangerous living situation at the time and ACC continuing to reinstate my care from 2009.  The nurse I was working with organised for the tests but when I said I needed my mental health care reinstated so I had psychosocial support to attend she was very callous and cruel.  She said if I didn’t want to go that was my choice, also there was nothing she could do about getting me the ACC or mental health care I was asking for, no  matter how many tribunal hearings I had won (I had won two).

This current infection has lasted more than three weeks so far and I manage it with parsley tea a few times a day, I can’t drink coffee or even a small amount of alcohol or it sets it off.  I had to go to the toilet to pee twice while waiting at A & E.  I desperately need to see a doctor, mental health know this, the Minister of Health and several MPs know this, Kieran McAnulty knows this, Stephen Enright at Director of mental health’s office knows this, DHB mental health services know this, Carterton Medical Centre know this, police know this, court staff know this, Simon Watt from Compass Health/Bell Gully knows this, so do Masterton Medical and Whaiora (who both said they weren’t taking more clients, which I don’t believe is true, when at MMC with my sick friend recently I watched a young man come in and sign up on the spot, he wasn’t told they weren’t taking patients – which is what emails from MMC told me).  I have made previous complaints to the DHB about not being able to access health care and being discriminated against, all are ignored.

I told the nurse about the infection and she did a urine test to confirm, Dr Smith gave me some antibiotics but I didn’t really want them because I knew this was an issue that required surgery, not continuous antibiotics.  My bladder doesn’t empty properly due to a kink in my urethra (this is an hereditary condition), I already have a pelvic sling, put in 17 years ago.  Bacteria builds up and causes infections, which move up into my right kidney and cause me pain.  My right kidney doesn’t work properly from being sick when a baby, my left kidney is 1.5 times normal size to compensate – according to ultrasound tests done before my pelvic sling operation.  I tried to have this health issue addressed years ago but failed due to ignorant cruel negligent health staff.

I went to have the xray on Wednesday, I don’t like going to the hospital because of what the DHB have done to me in the past (ie they had me arrested and dragged through court for wilful trespass for doing a legal protest about abusive negligent mental health staff) and because of my flashbacks to police violence I have had to go there to get treatment.  I had prepared myself, I was relatively calm (although a good friend of mine is very sick at the moment and I have been having to support her, spent hours with her at A & E the Monday before my accident and every day since – she refused to stay in hospital like they wanted – she also has a stress disorder).  I have also become very isolated and terrified of being around people as I am subjected to a lot of discrimination and have little money to go out due to the grinding stressful terrifying poverty I am being subjected to.  I never drink much alcohol, I go out to socialise with people, I can sing and used to go to karaoke every week but I don’t do that any more after several horrible bigotry events at the venue.

I got to the x-ray department, I said Dr Smith has left an x-ray request for me.  I had to get money out of my very small savings account ($55) to pay for the petrol to get there.   I am too terrified and unwell to catch public transport in Wairarapa, most people in this region are horrible to people like myself, it is very sad and completely ignored by our community leaders.  The woman at the desk said there wasn’t a request and I became very upset, being told there is health care and being refused it at the cliff face is the story of my life since I was hurt in a crime in 2002.

She was very nice and said she would sort it out when I told her what Dr Smith had said.  The sorting out was horrendous for me, I was forced to go back into the A & E department and wait to be seen again, which took a long time, I was very unwell and traumatised, rocking, ticking, crying, almost curled up in a ball at times.  The posters and TV screen were subjecting me to constant flashbacks and it was all I could do not to run out of the building.  Then one of the advertisements on the DHB controlled TV THAT CANNOT BE SWITCHED OFF BY STAFF came up as Speak out about violence towards women.  The same words on the banner in the Masterton police station I threw red washable poster paint on in January 2018 in response to police lying and getting away with violently assaulting me and threatening me with ‘as bad as police could be’ – eg Louise Nicholas I assumed.  The same banner I am currently in court for, that I still can’t get a lawyer for and have strangely and illegally been denied legal aid.

I became distraught when I saw that on the screen, I asked the receptionist to turn it off, begged her to turn it off.  She came and turned off TV that was on some TV show off, I told her it was the other one that was triggering me, she said she couldn’t turn that one off.  That screen was also showing advertisements for how great mental health services were and to go to your doctor, all things I know are not true.  Anybody who has read George Orwell’s book 1984 would be horrified – I was horrified, they were even advertising the private hospital as better than public hospital waiting times – ie driving privatisation by illegally causing unnecessary suffering and death.

Under the Official Information Act can I please have a copy of all the advertisements that were playing in the morning on Wednesday 3 April in the A & E department at Masterton Hospital.

Several nurses came to see me, through my distress I told them Dr Smith had requested the x-rays.  Nobody would tell me why they had been cancelled, nobody would tell me who cancelled them, because I know Dr Smith wouldn’t have, he was quite adamant I was to have the xray and I would be seen at the department when I could make myself go there.

I want to know who cancelled the xray and why they would do that knowing I was going to come in, they had verified all my contact details with all their forms on the Monday, they could have phoned or text me to say not to come.  They also would have had to give me an explanation why  Dr Smith had changed his mind, which I bet they didn’t have.  The person who cancelled the xray was a cruel ignorant spiteful person who violated my rights as a disabled person by refusing to accommodate impairments related to my disability.  Impairments Dr Smith had recognised and dealt with so professionally and SOMEONE had removed which will make it even more difficult to go to A & E or the hospital.  My Complex PTSD is compounding, so trauma on trauma just makes me more unwell and being denied mental health, ACC and other necessaries of life by our cruel corrupted neo-liberal controlled health system is killing me.

Note I have not taken the antibiotics and Dr Smith said I should keep the script if my bladder infection gets so bad I can’t stand it and parsley tea doesn’t work.  I havn’t picked up the script for paracetamol either and don’t have any in the house, because it would be $5 through the chemist.  I don’t have spare money for things like that, plus I self-harm and going through pain unnecessarily is part of my disorder.  Its to do with being suicidal, knowing there is absolutely no hope for my future and wanting to die – you don’t want to care for yourself if there is no reason to live.

I would also like to note from being with my friend at A & E the Monday before and my visit, that the time until we are seen by a nurse is different to that put on the Discharge Summary.  Also both of us said we were smokers and it says we don’t smoke, what’s that about?  Funding perhaps?  I don’t drink, I don’t do drugs, I do hardly anything I used to before I was hurt and my life is extremely stressful so sometimes I smoke.  I wish I didn’t but self-harming to cope is really really horrible & smoking is less and of course social.  The friends I have now have disabilities, can seldom get work and all smoke, dying slowly at least will end our lives early.  Living poor in New Zealand is a living nightmare after 30 years of illegal austerity, advancing of rich and persecuting of poor to profit rich.  I’m sure DHB Chair Paul Collins knows exactly what I am talking about, he has been instrumental in driving Wairarapa to No 1 in NZ for suicide, No 1 for compulsory treatment orders and psychotropic drug prescriptions, No 1 in NZ and the world for self-harm and youth suicide, etc etc.

 

 

The Amazing & Kind Jacinda Ardern is a marketing phony

Was so disappointed with the budget- even worse than I thought it would be, wish I had money to get to Wellington I would be chalking every day! Grrrrrr  Singing, reciting poetry and protesting.  these filthy neo-liberal Labour scum – I knew they were bad but this is worse than I even imagined????  Where the fuck did the 1800 police come from???? I never heard that mentioned once coming up to the elections, I heard lots of promises about mental health services that they desperate not to provide.

What planet are these people on, they are continuing to grossly violate international treaties on the way you treat disabled and poor people.  They are allowing a grossly unjust and abusive economic system replace constitutional law.  The people who believe in it are radicalised extremists – they infect our media, our political institutions, our business world, our banking sector.  They leech off us peasants and then blame us when they screw up.

No reprieve from punitive welfare requirements, no reprieve from housing crisis.  It just gets worse and those in power continue to trivialise it and perpetrate it.  Karma coming, end of days I reakon from where I’m sitting, not long now before armageddon? or whatever it is going to be.  They promise all those greedy scum will be gone, so hopefully.

This can only be a good thing as people will realise this government weren’t going to save them and they have to get out on the streets and start fighting for their rights!

2nd night in Wellington police cells in New Zealand

Been avoiding writing this, don’t want to recall what happened it hurts too much, but I know I have to, then I won’t have to look at it again if I don’t want to – better out than in.

My arrest and night in Wellington police cells was going fine until the last three hours, then it all turned to shit because I was transported in a very cold NEW van into cold court cell, further delays and an arsehole guard looking after me.  People with stress disorders (in stressful situations) must be treated the same as people in shock, first thing you do is keep them warm, being cold adds to trauma/stress.  That is what should be on my court transfer papers not that I make vague threats of self-harm – WTF.  The design of that NEW transport staff were gloating about is absolute crap and harmful to those inside the boxes.

Start from the beginning

As I didn’t turn up for court on Monday, as I had been turned down by the OT for health services and still didn’t have a lawyer I knew there would be a warrant out for my arrest.  Chickened out doing a protest in Masterton so I would get arrested, too scared of police here.  Went over to Wellington chalking and then started on my mission.

Headed for Supreme Court to do some chalking about justice and how I completely blamed the judiciary for discrimination against mentally ill people and allowing government to criminalise and persecute them, deny them professional health care.  Then headed up to Treasury building and left a message for Treasury wankers – photos on my facebook page.  Held them to account for the appalling mental health stats as well – did a few swastikas and called them murderers as well – I know they hate it.  Then headed for Human Rights Commission, from which I am trespassed.

Nutted off at this old guy in reception and a group of people having a meeting about some bullshit.  I was in total fire breathing dragon mode, told them exactly what I thought of them and their responsibility for mental health crisis, suicide, NZ being No 1 for child suicide, self-harm in women and family violence.  Left before police arrived heading for my next target – didn’t make it 🙂

Have photos on my facebook page /jrmurphypoetmusician did a couple of videos of the chalking a few photos at the Human Rights Commission.  Its like lala land up there, those people are completely out of touch with reality and refusing to accept the seriousness of what has gone on in mental health due to an economic theory taking over from constitutional, health and justice rights.

Was arrested on Lambton Quay with my large naked torso painting a couple of cardboard signs and my big over shoulder satchel with chalk pens paper etc in it.  Was funny knowing they were coming, saw them to my left, I was heading towards Willis Street across from Midland Park.  They put on their lights, quickly did a u turn and jumped out of their car to aprehend me lol.  Told them to calm down I knew I was going to be arrested, that’s why I had come to Wellington – strange to them of course.  I was picked up on warrant for breach of bail for not attending court.  Not for nutting off at the dick head at the HRC and breaching a trespass order.  WAs prepared for it to happen though.

Tried to talk them out of handcuffs but couldn’t, managed to get them put on in front of me which is so much less oppressive/scary/vulnerable than behind your back.  She also did it really loosely on my right wrist cause told her I get arthritis in it.

Male officer told me handcuffs were for theirs and my safety – lol – brainwashed.  Not in my situation they’re not – its one thing I hope the UN can look at having a restriction on police using handcuffs, particularly in a public place.  They were OK, just following the book and treating me like any criminal who had a warrant out for their arrest.

Got back to the station and got processed, almost everybody was nice, were surprised to see me back.  The woman I had a run in with last time came and talked to me a few times, said she was pretty stressed with work etc last time I was there and sort of apologised, we made peace – that’s the main thing.

Didn’t sleep all night but was able to read a book, which I couldn’t last time because my stress levels were too high.  I can’t hold the story in my head when very stressed, even this time there were a few times I had to re-read paragraphs because I hadn’t absorbed what I just read.  Its a horrible part of Complex PTSD and a lot of people don’t understand it, can make you feel really stupid and like you going mad.  I worked out over years, it comes and goes depending on my stress levels.

I was OK with going through the police process I had gone over it in my head many times.  Had all the same guards as last time just in a different order, they were really cheerful and nice.  Told them I was in a much better state than last time and just wanted to get through the process and get things sorted out.  Last time I was self-harming and really distressed, this time I was really chilled out.

Had a guy come into the cells about 6pm who banged and yelled most of the night, then started up again in the morning – when I get stressed too, cause you don’t know what time is and all the guards disappear to organise transfers etc.  Handover is at around 7am.  So in the morning he sets off sprinkler in his cell and flooded something else by the sounds of it, lol, all the male prisoners were put in the female section – was weird seeing the guys – cause you never do.  They have it set up so people can’t see each other – I’m all good with that, few of them looked dodgy as.  They handcuffed him and put him in the Female Day cell that I can see from my special window/mental health cell.  Gave him the thumbs up for what he’d done, I was bored too.

As 11pm shift came on I asked if I could go in the bigger cell to prepare myself for going in the van in the morning, like I had spoken to Stuart about – when I made a comment about my first visit and how they could improve it.  He was a pommy guy with a bald head, manipulative power tripper.  So a group of them are outside my cell and he makes a comment about me being a Human Rights activist in a mocking tone then tells me he will think about the change of cell and tell me in the morning – he didn’t.  I worried about it all night, because had a bad feeling I would have a meltdown in the morning – which I did and are really horrible.  He purposely denied my request and kept me guessing to exert his authority and disempower me – and it would have had even more impact if I didn’t understand psychology of abusive power relationships.  so I’ll be making a complaint to police about it.  That is the sort of person who SHOULD NEVER BE in a position of power over others.

Got to have a shower at around 4.30am and had an early breakfast, 3 weetbix milk sugar & a milo.  Should have asked for something to take with me, didn’t realise how long it would be until I had food again – and I have diabetes issues if I don’t eat reguarly – especially having been up all night, when your body needs extra food.  I learnt that years ago, if you want to stay up all night at a party you have to keep eating throughout the night, its your body running out of fuel that makes you tired.

Reluctant to get in the van in the morning, they just turn up to take you, it freaks you out, I need to know what is going to happen to mentally prepare – fuck them!!!!

Van to Lower Hutt was really cold, 2 metal boxes in back of a van, 4 men sitting close together in one side and 2 women in the other.  First time I’ve had someone to talk to during transport, she was a regular visitor, knew the system well, but we avoided why we there.

We change to the NEW truck for trip over Rimutakas, it has about 10 metal boxes with individual windows – the staff were gloating that it belonged to Wairarapa and Hutt were jealous they didn’t have anything that flash.  Obviously they  have never spent any time in the back – I have got to get something done about the design or they going to have lots more people flipping out like me.

I refused to get in this van, he had to take my arm, but I did’nt resist past that, these metal boxes are only as big as your body and solid except for small windows.  Killer on your back, when you get jolted over bumps, there no padding its just a stainless steel bench about 1m square – FREEZING COLD AGAIN.  Not only cold thick metal there was a blast of cool air blowing down from directly above that you couldn’t get away from, it either went on top of your head or if you sat hard up against back it went onto your body and legs, which felt even colder.

Someone yelled out to guards to turn the fans off at about Upper Hutt, guards told him they were for ventilation, I chimed in that I wanted them off too, I was fkn freezing.

I got colder and colder – sooooo bad for my stress disorder – people under extreme stress are supposed to be kept warm.  Got angrier and angrier too.  When I got to Masterton refused to move – couldn’t move – I don’t know, but didn’t get out of van for about 5mins – they didn’t know what to do.  When I finally did because I thought they were going to get more physical two women were standing at end of truck.  I angrily asked WHAT ARE YOU – they were detectives, one of them said how she had heard about me in a nice enough voice –  I have got lots of supporters in the police – my response as I went past was a vicious GET FUCKED.  Was angry at the police for putting me through this shit, through all of this shit letting ACC manipulate them and refusing to investigate my complaints about them.

Was put in women’s holding cell at Masterton Court – it was fkn freezing as well, blasting cool air and a vent that went directly outside I could see through.  We had arrived about 10.30am from what I can gather, I wasn’t feeling very well coming over but was so fkn angry ignored it.  Got there was so cold put x2 on my ReFuSe tag I left two weeks ago.  They wouldn’t give me my shoes, eventually they gave me a museli bar at around 12pm – I had breakfast at 5am – they were told I had diabetes issues, it should be on my transfer notes I have to be offered food at regular intervals, they know the time I don’t – WTF.  Grrrr  That’s what those notes are fucking for – not a pile of disgusting offensive bigotry.

I sang Why Am I Arrested, Human Sewage and I wish I was dead with all loud drumming required on the walls – which went through the whole building I now know tehehehehe.  Some young people in other cells made comment about me ‘that protester’, also came to look at me through the window when one of them was wandering around.  Said something about me being Crazy – not me the crazy one dumarse – sometimes young people grrrrrrrr.

After singing revolting old white guy guard came to tell me I was embarrassing myself – trying to degrade me – oppressive and wanting to make me feel even more marginalised.  Again, lucky I know these sorts of tactics and can shake off most of their shit – but always a bit that sticks and makes you feel like shit.  Those are the comments that go on a loop in your head when you sink down into the well/darkness and consider all the good reasons you should kill youself.  I’m sure I’ll have to deal with that in the next few weeks – I’m sure there will be fallout from Thursday’s meltdown.

Then the arsehole said I was up next, ie first after lunch,  They called out 4 names before I STARTED LOOPING OUT – I was so distressed and so cold started losing it, started ticking by banging my whole body back against the door making a really loud noise, felt sooo good, calms me, its like a heartbeat and because its so violent on your whole body you can’t think of the anything else and it calms down the ‘panic attack’ you about to have – that happened later when outside.  Telling someone something is going to happen and then it not happening is another psychological torture method and what the guard in Wellington did.  An abuse and perversion of power – it is very common but should not be tolerated in people working in police etc. (Have found out since guards were pissed off with delays too, it was court staff who delayed my appearance – same court staff I gave shit to recently for not providing CCTV footage.)

Guard came along trying to get me to stop, turned the fan on full blast so I was even colder, turned the light on and off several times.  I was freaking out because of what had been happening and him lying to me, then he didn’t know what to do when I started freaking out more than he expected and the judge knows about it, cause the whole building can hear me.  If I’m causing that much fuss, then he has failed his job and EVERYBODY knows it.

I knew bus back to Carterton was at 1pm and it was 12, I got out at 1pm, with no time to walk to the bus stop 10 mins away.

My old public defence lawyer Susie turned up, which was a welcome sight as I was in full freak out mode pacing around the cell.  She spoke to the judge when i was up, told judge not-guilty and case now set down for 25 June.  They kept saying the police don’t oppose bail – because this is the third time I havn’t turned up for court and violated my bail conditions.  Of course police don’t oppose bail – that might be a bit much considering they put me here – they wouldn’t want to be reminded of what they have done grrrrrrr.  Police prosecutor in court looked ashamed, wouldn’t look at me.

After Susie spoke I made sure I had my say, without following any rules – except trying not to swear, it was pretty obvious I was really pissed off and really freaked out.  Not many people get to address the judge like I do but there was NO WAY I was leaving that courtroom without her knowing about Geneva Healthcare refusing me OT services and still not having a lawyer – which Susie told her anyway.  It was Judge Morris, I Know her and she knows my situation quite well, was still all I could do not to swear at her for allowing this to go on for years.  Like I said, I have never hurt anyone, they hurt me.

I reakon they left me until last so there weren’t many people in the gallery, they don’t like the public seeing me go through the system because I have no respect for the judge or the process and give them shit – using their own laws.  Quoted Magna Carta several times and reminded her I said two weeks ago when I saw here I wasn’t voluntarily participating in teh justice process until I had health care I need and lawyer I need.

They know at court making me wait stresses me out – they’ve accommodated this aspect of my disability before – why not now, when I’m in an even more stressful situation do they now ignore it?  They could have changed the order, they knew I was going to arrive the night before. grrrr, will be bringing this all up in my complaints to police AGAIN – that they will never listen to but I have to do because nobody else does grrrrrrrrr.

Told court staff to go get my painting and bag etc because I would not be going to the police station to pick them up like last time – I don’t want to see those motherfuckers at the moment – especially that dark headed bitch on reception.

Waited in the bail room, at least slightly warmer, but I was chilled to the bone.  NEK MINIT started crying uncontrollably, that heartbroken cry where you can’t even close your mouth and you dribble onto the ground in front of you as you sit there rocking, wailing, in such emotional pain.  Your heart smashed to pieces by what you are being put through for asking for health care and justice you entitled to, for throwing paint on a white ribbon banner after being assaulted and threatened by police  – plus knowing just how cruel and corrupt your government and so many others are.

Was let out, almost ran out of the court, got outside took two steps, stood there shaking, thinking – I had missed the bus, I was now extremely upset and would have to go to the park, find something sharp and spend the next few hours self-harming until next bus to Carterton.  Didn’t have anyone I could call to pick me up.

I became completely overwhelmed, my arms gave way & I dropped my paintings signs & bag just as my legs gave way from under me and I ended up on the footpath curled up in a ball on my side.  I managed to sit up and started rocking and wailing/crying loudly – in a way that would make my broken heart feel some sort of relief from what had just happened to me.  I wasn’t there long and a woman came along and one of the guards from court came out.  They were both very nice, the woman was from Te Hauora, I been screwed over by them several times, so I was scared of her, but when she offered me a ride home I had to ignore that and say yes – I had to get home – my homing beacon was on full strength and causes me huge stress if I don’t listen to it.  I wanted to be where nobody could see me melting down, it is so humiliating when it happens – it has only been this bad four other times in 15 years.

I couldn’t keep my mouth shut with the woman, I tried, I didn’t want to tell her anything, but all my biggest fears and worries were just tumbling out of my mouth, just like the anger does when I go ‘tourettes’.  I kept saying sorry, it was OK, it didn’t matter, I just wanted to go home etc.  She asked all the usual questions about a doctor etc, told her I don’t have a doctor and why – that I havnt’ seen one for over 2 years (1 for WINZ form last year doesn’t count).  Think she was pretty horrified at how unwell and unsupported I was, told her a little about not trusting Te Hauora.  I didn’t’ have any bread or milk at home, was crying about how poor I was and how tired I was of being poor and there of course was not point in living in this shit hole country. etc etc.  She gave me $20 I refused – I HATE CHARITY – she demanded I take it, I HATE PEOPLE WHO DEMAND I TAKE CHARITY, and from an organisation that has ensured I was taken advantage of and traumatised by a flatmate under their care, denied me care themselves and let me down when I was really unwell.  A friend in the community who worked for Te Hauora for a short time told me what they thought of me, that lots of people had tried to help me, I just didn’t want help.  FUCKING SCUMBAG FUCKING LYING PIECES OF FUCKING GARBAGE.  Same people I have made complaints about that were covered up and not dealt with you mean.  They a big part of the bigoted rumour mill round here.

I’m sure the only reason I had that horrendous meltdown is the cold, it was like being tortured.  It has left me feeling tearful and very very fragile, I don’t want to go out anywhere –  I can’t anyway I”m so broke.  I’m hoping I don’t get a backlash in a few days, sometimes that can happen and I get highly suicidal and all the oppressive degrading things staff did/said will come back to haunt me.

At least Susie and even Judge Morris acknowleged that I had been punished and suffered in custody – which is why of course I wasn’t prosecuted for breaching bail ($2,000 fine & 1 yr in prison is what they threaten on bail form for violations).  Given I had sent them an email Thursday last week saying I was both mentally incapable due to my disorder and refused to attend, asking them not to make me into a criminal – they did anyway.

One thing pissed me off about Te Hauora lady, she spent at least 5mins telling me to take medication for my anxiety – WTF.  Terrorised women are being put on medications to deal with teh inhuman and unsafe living situations they are being forced to endure by the government.  Its sick, deeply deeply disturbing, immoral, unethical, unprofessional and ILLEGAL.  I also explained I was a rescuer and helped lost souls pass over to the light, I was told by spirit not to take medication or it would affect my ability to protect myself spiritually.  She didn’t say anything after that – Maori understand spirituality a lot better than Pakeha thank God.  They have a lot more respect for spiritual people as well – most Pakeha ridicule us – sad considering our entire legal system is based on christian principles of fairness justice and us being all the same before God irrelevant of our wealth and status on earth.

I’m having a chill out day today, my daughter is taking me out for brunch for mother’s day which will be nice.  Will try and stay in the present and not feel bad about the fact I can’t afford to take myself out for brunch or anybody else.  I will barely be able to afford to buy my daughter a present, its her birthday soon – my life would have been so different if I had health care and help I needed to return to work after I was raped.  Fkn scumbag government, fkn terrorist murderers 🙁

My back is hurting, so trying to not do anything more to strain that after the trip over Rimutakas in truck, feels like a lower disc wants to move and I know what that means – not being able to sit down at all, only being able to walk around slowly or lay down and in agony for days.  Its happened before.  Obviously justice transport not designed for older people with aches pains & injuries.

People ask me why do I do this to myself, I can assure you it is actually helping me, it is very hard being really unwell at home on my own, its far more stressful than protesting and getting arrested.  I get food I don’t have to pay for, hot drinks, to talk to interesting different people who understand more about failings of mental health system than anybody else – police.

Some police are OK & actually respect what I am trying to do with my mental health advocacy work –  trying to get a better journey through teh system for people who have traumatic stress disorders.  I can assure everybody I DO NOT TRUST THE POLICE and nobody reading this should either – their are some real nasty pieces of work amongst them & most/all of the others will cover it up.  As nice as some are there are others who are fkn aresholes and they all sit back and allow shit to happen. Wouldn’t even be surprised if the cold transport was for my benefit – I would assume the new truck would have had heating.  Police trying all those psychological torture tactics perhaps – when constable French said you’ll see how bad police can be, is this what he meant?

 

Budget Policy Statement 2018 – New Zealand

SUBMISSION BY JR Civil Society Actor, on NZ GOVT BUDGET POLICY STATEMENT 2018

 

Yet another submission to government that I know will not be considered because it does not fit the neo-liberal agenda and demands immediate action on the terrorism of an entire sector of society after 30years of this illegal, immoral and irrational economic model.

 

It has been my contention for many years it is government PRIORITES that had become illegal/immoral by violating our most basic laws of Westminister Statute 1st – Common right be done to all rich as poor, and Magna Carta – no person shall be destroyed and every person shall have access to right and justice. They also violate Commonwealth Charter, NZ Bill of Rights, ACC legislation, disability, human & civil rights laws and multiple SIGNED United Nations declarations. Then of course there is the violation of Christianity -which our laws are based on and every sociology and psychology rule about causes of violence & social dysfunction.

 

Government kindness was

Never an OPTION

And

Cruelty was always

ILLEGAL

 

It is obvious people in power have started to realise those of us impoverished and persecuted by this economic terrorism aren’t going to take any more of it and our appalling statistics in child suicide, homelessness, addiction, violence, corporate greed, inequality etc is proof. I am sure there will be many others like me demanding to get gross injustices we have experienced addressed and compensated in a Court of New Zealand. I am sure this is why you are so focused on CHILD POVERTY and not dealing with the damage the past 30 yrs of adult poverty has caused – which our mental health stats reflect (and international drug companies profit from/along with justice system). You don’t want to deal with all those abuse victims who driven mad due to lack of services they entitled to – which included safe homes to live in and decent jobs if they older. You don’t want to deal with those of us demanding compensation for the torture and suffering we have been through – demanding justice.

You have mentioned child poverty 14 times in this one document, every one of those was an insult to the parents of these children who are obviously living in poverty as well. Of course elites like to pretend these parents are all losers, drink and drug and don’t care about their kids – which is NOT TRUE. Although many of the parents that are dysfunctional in this way are abuse victims themselves and never got the help they are entitled to and needed under ACC/disability laws/disability strategy/professional rehabilitation models to heal from their trauma and STOP the cycle. I know this for a fact because I live this grossly unjust nightmare – where media and government continuously say they don’t know what to do yet allow ACC to deny disabled mentally injured abuse victims our entitlements. I have spent the past 15 years since I was raped understanding the violence industry, law, human rights etc – I’ve been rotting on welfare, I have the time and I work very long hours and weeks without a break.

 

You refer to the Governments Budget Responsibility Rules, which I am sure National party have been violating for the past eight years, that makes me nervous, cause it indicates you are going to continue to give BUDGET constraints, as an excuse to deny disabled people safe stable homes to live in NOW! (People in Carterton who know how bad housing crisis is here was asking why aren’t govt bringing in the army, prefab homes like they had in Christchurch?)

 

Addressing housing and infrastructure crisis over years, while continuing with extreme levels of immigration is grossly irresponsible and illegal under Imperial Laws. Immigrants are driving New Zealanders out of their homes, businesses and jobs – you have made that legal and any sociologist will tell you it creates racism and violence. Humans have been fighting off invaders that take their most basic resources since BEGINNING OF HUMANS. Having this sort of environment will be triggering the basic instincts of all those affected – another reason people are becoming violent, cruel, addicted and committing suicide.

 

I’m not a social deficit and mental health infrastructure was purposely destroyed by Annette King and the Labour party, people thrown into the community without professional care & safe stable homes to live in. Everybody knows this, it is common knowledge, it is also common knowledge many mentally ill people caused significant harm and ended up in our justice system instead. I know for a fact as psych hospitals emptied, prisons filled and our judiciary were completely complicit with this gross miscarriage of justice against an entire sector of society. I have seen it myself watching court for just over an hour, 12 cases, four of them identified as mental health, four more I identified as mental health (ie violence as a result of Complex PTSD and severe stress) and four more deserved to be there.

 

I find it extremely threatening that government would want to invest more in police, when they are the ones who currently leading the way in persecution of mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill. Why would you need more investment in police if you are going to help poorest people get safe stable homes and jobs? Or are you in complete denial at the inhuman environment people are being forced to live in – a living and social environment that satisfies Maslows Heirachy of Needs model (a model I satisfy on no levels – which is why I have been unable to recover from the sexual abuse and neglect trauma) which is why I am highly suicidal, self-harm, bulimic, attachment disorder, tick, have Complex PTSD and live rotting on welfare when I am an intelligent person treated like human sewage.

 

I have seen a new department start about evidence based policing, you managed to get something like this going in the first 100 days but you can’t address the 1000s of us who make complaints about police that are ignored. I have written to several Ministers telling them about ongoing police intimidation and violence – my own MP Kieran McNaulty emailed me recently and told me there was nothing he would or could do about it. Many of my activist friends in area of ABUSE have heard the same thing from those in the government they were relying on for justice and compensation. (NOTE: compensation that would see them at the same economic level of their peers, which they were unable to realise due to impacts of their abuse and criminal neglect.)

 

ECONOMIC AND FISCAL OUTLOOK

 

The admission in such an important and formal document that some New Zealanders have not received the benefits of economic growth using neo-liberal theories is an admission previous govts have violated the Westminister Statute 1st and Magna Carta. I am sure many in the legal profession would be aware that when a poor peasant has these rights to protection and safety illegally removed by rich powerful people THEY NO LONGER HAVE TO FOLLOW ANY LAW – the contract between rich and poor that created our justice system has been violated. Our ancestors were quite aware of human behaviour and knew allowing rich unbridled power over poor only ever resulted in suffering and violence, hence the increase in violence in our society, people with nothing to lose. Who now get more of their basic needs met in jail than in the community – although I do think this was designed like this purposely to support a corrupted cruel immoral and criminal penal system & create jobs (where many had been driven out of the country to China and poorer countries with few human rights).

 

It terrifies me with the focus on FAMILIES as it purposely limits any support for some of the most terrorised and persecuted members of society after 30yrs of neo-liberal terrorist policies, disabled people without children or whose children have left home. (NOTE, neo-liberal policies are terrorist acts as I have read the Terrorism Suppression Act and you are not allowed to impoverish large sectors of society for a belief system.)

 

Government acceptance and happiness with a 4% unemployment rate is grossly unjust neo-liberalism at its worst. In one breath you are saying you want to increase trade and employment, while in the next you are saying you’re happy with 4% unemployment. It is obvious if free trade was going to FIX unemployment in New Zealand it would have happened after the Chinese FTA. I find it interesting the number of unemployed is about the same number as disabled people and it is true from my experience, those who can’t get work most often have disabilities.

 

In recent OPINIONATED news from NZ Initiative (ie Business Round Table terrorists) the appalling statistics of people with injuries/illness/disabilities who now don’t work compared to pre-neoliberalism was offset by comment by AAAP members, a group of social activists. There was no discussion with disability advocacy groups, Workbridge or WINZ employment consultants as to the facts of what happening.   NZ Initiative implied these disabled people worked through their impairments but now they are too lazy too. I have attended many meetings by many different organisations and the fact is employers refuse to employ disabled people due to cost and OSH requirements.

 

It makes me very sad to think the massive increase in productivity in New Zealand was mostly due to disabled people being dumped from the workforce. I have never met a disabled person that isn’t desperate to work – at something they are capable of doing without suffering and being bored into suicide (like they do in China). I have studied health disability and rehabilitation at Massey University, the book Person to Person outlined the plight of disabled people over decades – we are the ones last to be employed and first to be fired.

 

Any employer will hire something who can work faster than another – that is why orchardists prefer to hire healthy strong Fijians on their orchards rather than less able New Zealand workers. With the mass immigration government are continuing (at their peril) it is quite obvious disabled people will continue to be denied work, safe stable homes and a dignified standard of living.

 

The obsession with education in neo-liberal countries has got to stop, we cannot all be what we want and trying to perpetrate that illusion is one of the reasons we have such a high rate of youth suicide. Someone has to clean toilets and make 100s latte’s every day for years. If we were all lifted out of poverty by education then who would do this type of work.

 

That the government are going to stop bringing in low skilled workers and continue to import highly skilled wealthy people is a NEO-LIBERAL ABOMINATION. So what you are saying are New Zealanders, especially our young are going to be doing the menial, low paid, low skilled, boring work, while foreigners are going to get the good, interesting, well paid jobs. This appalling aspect of neo-liberalism HAS destroyed the entire fabric of our society and violated so many cultural and criminal laws it still astounds me it is allowed to continue. Of course I am resentful when a foreigner moves to Carterton with a good job I could have done if given the opportunity – if my kids had been given the opportunity. Of course I am prone to Xenophobia – ie hating all immigrants and seeing them as a threat to my survival – because they are – its not their fault of course, its our corrupt, cruel and incompetent governments fault. Same people who hold themselves up as knights and dames with high moral fibre. Watching the hypocrisy and these gross injustices every day is the main reason I want to die every day as well – as I have no hope while this is not acknowledged and rectified IMMEDIATELY – not in four years!

 

Treasury are corrupt – I know that for a fact and their forecasts that migration will drop from 72,400 to a long-run average of 15,000 by 2021 is absolutely ridiculous and not based on any FACT whatsoever. The world’s population is growing at an alarming rate, millions of people displaced by war, lack of water/resources etc requires those places like New Zealand that can sustain humans are going to fill up faster. Also many people are trying to escape the violence of other neo-liberal controlled countries more progressed than ours, like USA – Americans are high on immigration list. Sadly they are bringing with them their vindictive, self-righteous and cruel cultural beliefs about advancing rich, profiting from everything possible, including those they put in jail – the American prison system is the most corrupt, cruel and grossly unjust in the world today according to multiple documentaries coming out about it.

 

I did not see one mention of the appalling state of justice system for disabled/mentally ill and poor people who are now having their Magna Carta rights violated – as I am – I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me from civil rights violations, ACC illegally withholding my entitlements and harm by police etc FOR YEARS. Apparently civil legal aid lawyers are almost impossible to find, human rights is considered civil law, which I find extremely disturbing considering the level of violence and suffering people like me are subjected to. Only those in the legal system would understand just how bad it is – because our bias media mostly refuse to address or report on it. While Justice Winkleman makes speeches about how poor citizens up against powerful government institutions are having their rights to justice violated. She writes about it and speaks about it – but this gross miscarriage of justice goes on unchecked. I have written to her several times – I am not even given the respect of a reply and the Secretary for Justice just trivialises or discredits anything I say about gross violations of law.

 

When considering what priorities the government should have over the next term I would suggest beginning at those points where people’s rights are being violated are the most important. I know for a fact disabled people must have access to social housing in a society like New Zealand. All resources currently devoted to infrastructure or commercial construction should be moved to urban development IMMEDIATELY. (Personally I think a percentage of private construction resources should be diverted as well.) If the government did this then the immigration issue would not be as socially damaging as it is now. It is people losing resources to rich foreigners that is causing the hatred and racism. No person should be allowed in this country unless they have somewhere to live AND NO NEW ZEALANDER SHOULD BE KICKED OUT OF THEIR HOME by an immigrant.

 

Imagine the social repair to our society that would happen if we were allowed to help each other. With all disabled people in state provided housing (that could be with state loans) it would free up property for others who need it, it would bring down rental costs dramatically (which I know rich people, neo-liberals and National party right DO NOT WANT). It would take the profit out of property and stabilise the accommodation market. Of course it would cause a huge financial crash which would have to be managed by banking regulation – but then it is banking deregulation behind so much suffering, waste, greed and pollution of our entire planet. Money that was created from thin air in the form of a loan to someone who did not work for any of it. (This is why ANZ bank now funds so much elitist sport, cause they have most of the money – it overwhelmes me to think how much money banks take out of our economy in the form of interest – how much suffering they create.)

 

For 30 years taxes to the rich have been reduced while taxes to the poor continually increase. When the government said they weren’t going to reinstate higher taxes to the rich I was horrified.   They have all the money, they have taken all the money, they are the ones using to harm people as well, they gloat about their wealth everywhere in our media, they are grossly wasteful while others are forced to be frugal to the point they can’t participate in society or fulfil cultural beliefs (eg can’t go home for Xmas, can’t go on holiday cause can’t afford it).

 

Every time you go on about child poverty and delivering more money to families with children I cry. Every impoverished and disabled parent is humiliated and denigrated with this patronising insulting elitist ‘propaganda’ – it is the parents who are poor, not the children. The propaganda about poor people is rife and based on no scientific understanding of what causes poverty and family violence. New Zealand has extreme rates of family violence in New Zealand because of the radical application of neo-liberal theories – academics have spoken about NZ going from one of the most protected and controlled countries in the world to THE MOST unprotected and free economies. A fact that saw 100,000s families broken forever as people were forced to move to Australia and other countries to find work – while the rich got richer and the disabled poor who couldn’t leave were persecuted (yes I have a dictionary and know what the word means and it is appropriate to use).

 

When I was a disabled single mum with children, after being hurt in a violent sexual crime, I was much better off than a disabled single woman with nowhere safe and stable to live, forced to go flatting with people who exploited, victimised and terrorised me (as well as attempting suicide and them and me getting no help). As my children came of the age to leave home it was horrendous for me and them – I had lost my own home after I was raped and couldn’t return to work or my law studies – as ACC refused to provide entitlements.

 

Knowing I am a destitute disabled woman living on welfare in this hell hole of a country, is why I continuously battle suicide, as I have absolutely no hope for the future. The government even put out advertising saying if people didn’t save for their retirement they wouldn’t have enough food to eat – did anybody think they were showing these advertisements to disabled people who had no way of saving for the future – they don’t get enough to live with dignity now.

 

Also families being better off by $66 a week – is completely insignificant in the scheme of raises in rent and other costs that can’t be avoided, including the extreme cost of food – $5.50 for 500g butter, $25/kilo for fish – cause we have to compete with rest of world & what they will pay. Then of course there are the costs we now face of education, health and justice – all introduced by neo-liberals to cut taxes to the rich and impoverish the poor.

 

I know about disability, I know about laws related to disabled people and their rights, I have read the disability strategy I know for a fact disabled people’s rights to participate in society are not upheld, neither are their rights to housing and WORK. Please refer to my website SOLUTIONS page about what should be happening in the area of rehabilitation for mentally injured abuse victims. www.jrmurphypoet.com

 

Please refer to my regional rehabilitation centres idea and regional mental health facilities – we must heal those who have been damaged by the past 30years of neo-liberal terrorism because WE ARE NOT going to be ignored. Germany recognised their human rights violations and what they had done to Disabled, gypsies and Jews, they gave compensation – what has happened in New Zealand is very similar (except many were driven to suicide & profited from in jails) and those who been harmed will demand this injustice is addressed and rectified – I demand it.

 

Government should have NO DEBT WHATSOEVER they should be in credit and loaning it others. The idea that any group could run up debt by cutting taxes to the rich then forcing poor top pay massive amounts of interest to foreign banks is extremely corrupt, incompetent, negligent and immoral. No council should have private debt either, user pays is part of neo-liberalism and DOES NOT WORK. Places like Masterton spent $millions of rates on doing up sports grounds, parks, business centres etc – while illegally not doing anything about things like sewerage infrastructure (eg Masterton mayor Bob Francis).

 

HOME OWNERSHIP IS A CULTURAL RIGHT that is currently being violated. This began during Gov Grey era 1900s, as I have done history research on Grey and Small Farms Settlement at Greytown. Grey knew then what landlords were capable of, after seeing what had happened to tenant farmers in Ireland during potato famin. He wanted peasants to have opportunity to own/work land. Personally I prefer the Maori model of land ownership, as caretaker of land and I do not believe any corporation of foreigner should EVER own land in this country. Making peasants tenants is a neo-liberal terrorist ideology that, like I said, is a violation of our cultural rights. The current level of foreign takeover of our resources HAS GOT TO STOP – and the lies that this is imperative for New Zealand to survive HAS GOT TO STOP AS WELL.

 

I disagree with the priorities in the 100 day plan, as a mentally injured/ill suicidal abuse victim, rotting on welfare in unsafe unstable private housing with no health care and having my human and civil rights violated NOTHING in that package has helped me IN ANY WAY.

 

The idea of yet another inquiry into mental health, when we all know what the problems are is insulting to my intelligence and 15 years of fighting for the treatment care rehabilitation and justice I am entitled to under the law – both under National and Labour governments. We don’t need to restart the Mental Health Commission we need to provide professional care using professional health and rehabilitation models – we need to follow the law and science, not the experimental and harmful system we currently have.

 

We do need an inquiry into corruption by drug companies in the area of mental health and the forced drugging of mentally injured abuse victims (who being refused professional care) and mentally ill. The drugging of people terrorised by poverty, housing and food insecurity. I know Mark Unsworth is an ex-drug company executive and I believe was sent here and set up his PR business in 1993 just to ensure drug companies made profit from those the government was about to impoverish and terrorise PURPOSELY.

 

I’m sorry I can’t go on, I have become really unwell and can’t stop crying, the injustices me and so many other neglected disabled mentally injured abuse victims are being subjected to by government and our communities overwhelms me.

 

I am unable to proof read what I have written either, so I hope it is OK, please ignore spelling and grammar mistakes. I am sure I have not covered everything I want to say but I do always hope I will one day get a voice with those who have power in government to change the gross injustice happening to me and many other women children and men.

 

Kia kaha and Aroha to us all

 

JR

Civil Society Actor

 

19 January 2018

I DEMAND Donna Howard NZ POLICE deal with police assault – TODAY – #16DAYSOFACTION2017

I will take the focus off NZ police violence against me and others during my current protests if Insp Donna Howard DEALS WITH what happened, I get justice & to meet with the two officers.

THESE ARE MY COMPLETELY JUSTIFIED DEMANDS

The officer who assaulted me gets counselling, a written warning and a record of it on his file.

The officer who threatened me with future increased  violence, gets a written warning and has it recorded on his file.

They have to meet with me in a safe place so I can tell them what they did to me and how it affected my life.

I demand an apology and assurance there will be no future violence towards me if I have any future dealings with police in my Civil Society activism work.

I wish I could slap their faces for what they did – BUT I DON’T HIT MEN AS A RULE!

A sczophrenic man once told me DON’T TRUST VIOLENCE – and I don’t – shame the police and New Zealand government don’t hold the same high standards – like those ones in the bible they swear an oath to as an agent of The Queen.

I will put my focus about violence towards women back on the shoulders of New Zealands leaders – exactly where it belongs.

I have a traumatic stress disorder that is compounding if I DON’T or can’t deal with stressful situations in my life it makes my  mental health much worse.  Getting an apology and assurance of no future violence from those two officers IS DEALING WITH IT – while it remains un-dealt with it causes me significant stress and harm – that fuels my suicidality, self-harm, bulimia etc.

Please make it stop – that’s all I’m asking, please take at least one serious stress and worry out of my life.  Please make me stop thinking every time I hear a car in my street it is police coming to get me.  Please stop me from being too scared to protest about abusive mental health services, poverty and injustice.

As a woman I am deeply disappointed in the conduct of Insp Donna Howard, IPCA and New Zealand’s most senior police officers who have allowed this to continue – while promoting White Ribbon propaganda.  It breaks my heart every time I see a piece of marketing about violence towards women & then it makes me really really angry!

Then I can stuff down all the fear I feel and go out in the community and tie a whole lot of white ribbons outside the police station, or chalk a fence or the footpath, or put up a sign I have painted, or put a poem on youtube……

Health & Disability Commission – Terrorists of NZs disabled poor

Am currently formally retrieving information from multiple agencies for my upcoming court case, those who have refused to resolve or do anything about government health agencies refusing me professional treatment and rehabilitation or ensuring necessaries of life – ie a safe stable home to live in.

Thought I’d post the email I sent them today – HDC have already tried once to not provide the information by saying I hadn’t explained myself clearly – which I had.  Its one of the techniques they use to stop disabled people from progressing serious complaints – so watch out if you do use HDC, they will do anything they can to stop the process and make you feel stupid.

Sent: Sunday, 5 February 2017 9:53 a.m.
To: Margee Do
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Do,

Due to impairments related to my disorder I cannot go over the years of rejections Health & Disability Commission subjected me to, when I knew my rights, was being persecuted and denied professional health and rehabilitation models/services by multiple agencies.  However can I please have a letter from the Commissioner stating which organisations I complained about on what dates and that NONE of my complaints were ever resolved.

My HDC advocate from Nationwide HDS is sending me everything she did over the past decade to try and get me professional services without success and it will advance my legal case to have Health and Disability Commission confirm they refused to believe any of my valid and serious complaints even when Nationwide were unable to resolve them and was fully supportive of how badly I was being treated – but could do nothing without your backup.

I am also getting complaints I made to Human Right Commission, Tribunal, ACC, Salvation Army, Oasis Network, King Street Artworks, Wairarapa DHB, Ombudsman and Auditor-General that failed to uphold my rights or accept what was happening to me was a criminal violation of my human rights to professional health care.

It makes me unwell when I think those health care agencies supposed to help me persecute me instead and deny me care I am entitled to under law – but it makes me even more unwell when I know how corrupt cruel immoral and criminally negligent those who supposed to protect me from this are.  All those poor disabled abuse victims and mentally ill people in this country you are torturing (as defined by the Torture Suppression Act), who are living in misery, draining or harming those around them who also can’t cope, killing themselves or killing others – that is your fault, you people are murderers, cruel violent murderers.

My latest formal complaint is to the Privacy Commissioner, a second one about a mental health advocacy worker from Oasis.  Who told a woman I have just got to know that she couldn’t help me I was too unwell – I only wanted two things, for her to talk to police and get them to backoff (this was when things were bad and I was having nightmares they were coming to get me), she told me I should stop protesting/exercising my rights if I wanted this.  I also asked her to find and arrange for me to learn Maori weaving and Tukutuku and it ended up with her abusing me saying I was demanding too much of her.  The first complaint I made about her last year for violating my privacy and going to DHB mental health services when she said she wouldn’t and knew how I felt about them – she did and responded to me with an abusive text – was discredited and unresolved by Oasis etc.

You must know how many people like me you are rejecting (cause I hear horror story after horror story about dealings with your agency – everybody I know has given up and stopped making complaints of harm) how can you sleep at night knowing the suffering and death you cause in our society?

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent: Monday, 30 January 2017 11:38 a.m.
Subject: Re: OIA Request

Dear Ms Routhan

Thank you for your clarification. We will respond to your request in due course.

Sincerely

Margee Do ‐Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability CommissionerPO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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(HAVE YOU NOTICED HOW HDC ARE TRYING TO USE THE LAW TO STOP PEOPLE MAKING PUBLIC WHAT THEY DO – OUR CORRUPT GOVT MADE THEM DO THAT – THEY WILL NEVER EVER SILENCE ME – AND IF THEY WANT TO TAKE ME TO COURT FOR MAKING THIS PUBLIC – BRING IT ON!)

To:        Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        30/01/2017 10:52 a.m.
Subject:        Re: OIA Request


Dear Ms Do,

Don’t know how I could be clearer on this matter, are you trying to avoid sending it – do you hope, due to my disability, that I won’t pursue this because that is the usual behaviour I get from agencies trying to hide something horrendous they have done to disabled people.

I want every piece of information and every complaint I have sent to your organisation since 2002, since I was raped and discovered ACC and the NZ government were persecuting and discriminating against mentally injured abused men women and children disabled by their abuse – along with every mentally ill person in New Zealand.  Denying them professional care, professional health and rehabilitation models, ensuring they became more unwell so drug companies could make more money and driving many to crime so they filled up the justice system.

One day the world is going to know what you people have done condoning this violent, torture, persecution of NZs most vulnerable people on the order of radicalised neo-liberal terrorists.

Jayne 


From: Margee Do <Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz>
Sent:
Monday, 30 January 2017 8:53 a.m.
To:
 
Subject:
OIA Request

 
Dear Ms Routhan

I am dealing with the request for information you have sent to this office on 9 January 2017, please can you kindly clarify the scope of your request. You have your requested for:


      copy of my information
–        all the formal complaints

Did you just want a copy of the complaints you have sent to this Office?

We would appreciate your clarification on this matter on or before 1 Feb 2017.

Many thanks


Margee Do ‐
Legal Team Administrator
Office of the Health and Disability Commissioner

PO Box 11934, Wellington 6142Level 11, TechnologyOne House, Wellington 6011
Ph: (04) 494 7900
Email: Margee.Do@hdc.org.nz


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From:        
Jayne Routhan <jrouthan@hotmail.co.nz>
To:        
Health & Disability Commission <hdc@hdc.org.nz>
Date:        
19/01/2017 10:18 a.m.
Subject:        
Privacy Act request for a copy of my file


Dear Sir/Madam,

Under the Privacy Act can you please send me a copy of my information and all the formal complaints I have made to the Health and Disability Commission since approximately 2002 – they are required for a criminal case.  Can you please advise if I will receive this information in the next 20 working days as required by law.

Thank you

JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE
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