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GSL Contractors & Carolyn Fifield – HATE starts HERE

From: Jayne R
Sent: Friday, 20 September 2019 8:40 AM
To: enquiries@gsl.nz <enquiries@gsl.nz>
Subject: Important information for the owners and managers of GSL

Dear Sir/Madam,

It was disappointing  Carolyn Fifield refused to accept any responsibility whatsoever for the extremely fascist racist cruel elitist neo-liberal and bigoted comment she made to me on facebook recently.  I have phoned to speak to her as she promotes on the internet how she works for your organisation and is obviously a reflection of the elitist hatred rampant in our neo-liberal controlled society.  Calling me a junky because I am poor – anyway the comment she made was so offensive and distressing I got a screen shot and it is attached.   I just wanted to make sure the owners of GSL are aware Carolyn Fifield is such a publicly toxic bigot.

In fact I am an advocate and activist in the area of disability and care of sexual abuse victims (or more correctly ACC illegally denying impoverished terrorised sexual abuse victims the extensive treatment care rehab and homes THEY ARE ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ AND INTERNATIONAL LAW.  I am 54 years old and currently being denied ACC care so I can return to work after winning TWO ACC reviews NINE years ago.  There are reports saying I am intelligent, don’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional – which are all true.   Except I can’t be that intelligent because I have tried unsuccessfully for nine years to have my care reinstated to no avail and because I am poor cannot get a lawyer (which is illegal) – advocates tell me my case is too complicated and they can’t do anything.

I do not do drugs, I drink little alcohol, me and other victims of sexual abuse like me are the victims of the people Carolyn was ranting on about.  Although she doesn’t seem to understand those women are forced to stay with their abusers because the government stopped building state housing 35 years ago for disabled and poor people (many of whom had violent and dysfunctional upbringings).  They also sold off most of the state housing and then introduced 100,000s wealthy immigrants to New Zealand, knowing those immigrants would drive disabled and poor locals (of all ‘colours’) out of their homes and into dangerous situations.  Also extremely racist and bigoted businesses preferred wealthy immigrants who hadn’t been forced into crime and violence after neo-liberals drove 100,000s decent well paid manufacturing jobs to poor countries (like China – that is now a rich powerful country because of it).

It is obvious from your website that you reject all New Zealanders who have been forced to commit crimes to survive over the past 30yrs.  So not only did neo-liberals force people into these situations with massive cuts to welfare – at the same time as they were the ones making everybody unemployed.  National made WINZ/MSD the most terrifying, degrading and abusive process they possibly could.  Paula Bennett who had everything handed to her on a plate, with a state home as a single mother and her free education as a DPB mum – took all that away from ME and women like me.  Especially those of us who were victims of serious sexual and violent crimes – I spent many years begging and pleading with her and others in the National party to have my care reinstated as required by law.  They had me terrorised by police and denied ALL HEALTH CARE instead.

I live in the darklands of this neo-liberal nightmare of hell, it is very dangerous here, people are very poor, you have to work out who the junkies are before they rob you blind, most people have serious mental health issues and hurt people like me.  Steal from me, terrorise me, bring dangerous people to my home, are lazy, can’t look after themselves, take advantage of me, attempt suicide etc.  That describes a string of ‘flatmates’ I have been forced to live with so I can survive.  Currently with all the disability money I am allowed I get $490 and my rent is $320, my elderly mother helps me keep my car going.  My food budget is $35 a week once my power and internet are paid for.  I try to put away $20 a week for emergencies.  Anyway I don’t want to tell you how terrifying and degrading being this poor for years is.

Everybody lives in terror of homelessness in the darklands, everybody lives in terror of dangerous gang members, addicts and mentally ill people.   People like me who are educated advocates and activists in the area of abusive mental health services, neo-liberal terrorism, poverty, suicide homelessness etc also live in terror of violent police, corrupted/bigoted mental health staff, continual threats of having all my invalids benefit removed and of course not being able to access the health care I need and am entitled to in order to return to work.  IF I DON’T WORK I CAN’T LIVE, IF I DON’T WORK I AM GOING TO BE RAPED AND HARMED AGAIN, IF I DON’T WORK I can’t go to funerals, participate in family events, belong to a club, go to any cultural event that costs ANYTHING – that includes gold coin donations.  I can’t go out for coffee or a meal, which is why all my working friends have ostracised me – plus of course they have a lot of new immigrants from the city and overseas to talk to now – they can ditch their local friends that are suffering – they don’t want to see that.

I felt I needed to write this email to the people who own and control GSL, who I am sure think like Carolyn.  I have been studying human behaviour towards disabled abuse victims for many years now – mainly to understand why people like myself were being treated like human garbage for asking for help they were entitled to by law.  I read lots of legislation, I read and understand the Human Rights ACt, Bill of Rights Act, ACC law, constitutional law – along with this I read signed ratified treaties the NZ government has made with the United Nations on Economic Social and Cultural Rights, Human Rights, Disabled Rights and civil rights, along with the definition of torture (which me and others who know our rights and what we are entitled to are being subjected to).  I know what the auditor-general is supposed to do, the attorney general and the solicitor general (they are corrupt and don’t), I know what Health & Disability Commission, Human Rights Commission, Ombudsman, Medical Council, State Services Commission, Parliamentary Services, Police, Law Society, Legal Aid, Police Conduct Authority, etc etc are supposed to do (they are corrupt and don’t).  This is why we have such high rates of suicide, violence and human rights abuses going on, this is why our country advances rich people and persecutes/exploits poor people – it is ILLEGAL but they still do it.

It is interesting how the government propaganda about suicide prevention isn’t working with people like Carolyn don’t you think.  Her comment that I am suicidal (it is part of the Complex PTSD I have to live with due to the rape and criminal neglect afterwards) because I’m some junkie in an imaginary world she has made up to justify her bigotry.   My children are now 24 and 25, as of last week both of my daughters, who only have boyfriends, own their houses and are in good, well paying jobs and good at what they do – they are intelligent, practical and kind – like their mother.  Their father left many years ago but is still in touch with them and adores them – although they tell me is annoying and very bossy.  After I was raped I started learning what was happening to me and why I couldn’t cope – I love knowledge and do my best to know a lot of things about a lot of things.  As a result of this knowledge I did my best not to pass my suffering on to them – it took every bit of my intelligence and skill I had to do that.  I suffered much more as a result but I did what was best for my children.

The people you talk about want the best for their children too, they are just caught up in poverty and social dysfunction so much they can’t escape from it.  I have very few friends at all and seldom go out in order to stay safe from poor and rich dangerous people.  Getting insulted and abused by someone in the community who knows I don’t work and doesn’t believe what I say about not getting health care I need to work is as harmful to me as a physical beating (in fact worse – the policeman who inflicted the worst physical assault on me I am not as afraid of as the policeman who came right up to my face and told me YOU WILL SEE HOW BAD POLICE CAN BE if you don’t shut up).  I would show them the psychiatric reports but it seems extreme to have to do that to stop people’s bigotry.  I could send a copy to Carolyn if she wants proof, I could send her a copy of the two ACC reviews I won in 2010 as well if she wants.  Does she want a copy of my bank statements to see what I spend my money on as well?

There are 1 in 5 people in New Zealand – 20% of the population that experience 80% of the crime according to police statistics and police officers at HQ in Wellington I have got to know over the years of protesting about mentally injured suicidal abuse victims being treated like criminals and denied ACC health care etc.  Most of those people are women who are forced to live with dangerous violent men – do you honestly think any woman with children would stay where it wasn’t safe IF THEY HAD ANY CHOICE???????????????   Because they don’t police are called continuously to different addresses, I have a lot to do with the police I talk to them about these issues – because they are at the coal face.  They know what I know about the social problems, they just don’t realise our government are purposely causing 80% of it with neo-liberal austerity against the poor by the rich.

Carolyn’s vitriolic hatred and bigotry highlighted perfectly how ignorant and full of hate towards terrorised poor people THOSE WHO HAVE EASY AFFLUENT LIVES WITH EVERYTHING THEY COULD POSSIBLY NEED are.   Below you will see one of the many youtube videos available explaining the damage neo-liberal extremism has done, also look up anything that refers to ANOMIE, which is what we essentially have in NZ now.  I find Chris Hedges, Mark Blyth, David Harvey, Lee Camp, Bryan Bruce, etc very interesting and accurate in their analysis of world neo-liberal terrorism of poor by richest.  I suggest you learn more of the truth, rather than relying on New Zealands grossly corrupted media – NZ news has absolutely no relevance to what is happening to me and others in the darklands and any attempt to fix it with the violence and suicide promotion industry.  Ahhh neo-liberals they know how to profit from everything, including persecution and human rights abuses of the poor THEY PURPOSELY CREATED – to make us a low wage economy.

Please get Carolyn to contact me, it is imperative she understands the vast majority of poor people in our community are people with genuine need and disabilities, whether psychological or physical.   Men suffer most with physical injuries and ailments because they are expected to continue to work no matter how much pain they are in – that is often a reason they become violent because they can’t feed their families and they are hurting trying to.  My father was a general carrier and contractor, that is how I grew up, I know what happened to him in the 1980s when his work dried up after the council was privatised (the new contractor bought all the council equipment for low prices – when the council had just replaced everything the year before).  So the new company in town had new equipment, all the council contracts as well as could compete with my father for other work.

I hope this email goes some way to addressing the HATE ignorance and bigotry Carolyn and those like her feel towards all poor people rotting on welfare.  To make that comment on the social media page of a MEMBER OF PARLIAMENT who is extremely ignorant bigoted and full of hatred towards people like myself (who get lumped in with dangerous people) was very disturbing to me.  Especially when I have encountered other such abuse and discovered the person doing it was a troll for a wealthy health organisation – that relies on government funding for its research and survival.  Because the nature of the abuse I was subjected to and reliance of your company on continued mass immigration of wealthy who can afford to build homes, also government contracts etc I made a formal complaint to the State Services Commission so they can investigate Carolyn’s link with the National Party.  Next month they will start making public those who get govt contracts – it has been kept secret until now – I am sure that will expose extensive corruption in the process, just from small contractors I know being deprived of govt contracts that were given to politically aligned friends and family.

This email and the disgusting offensive comment by Carolyn will be going on social media – perhaps if Carolyn had called me back when I asked and GSL had dealt with the situation properly – instead of telling me private facebook communications by staff were nothing to do with them, things might have been different.   All these years as a disabled advocate I am just sick and tired of people like Carolyn saying such revolting things and refusing to take any responsibility whatsoever for her ignorance, bigotry and HATE.

I just tried to upload the screen shot of Carolyns comments and my computer won’t do it – this is new.  Someone is trying to stop me exposing what is happening as recently my computer stopped recognising my printer so I can’t print anything either.  Below is a transcript of the facebook exchange on Paul Goldsmiths’ facebook page – it should still be there if you want to check for yourself around 14 September.

 

Heading was – “National will build on an economy that builds on infrastructure kiwis need.”

My comment was:  Why?  You didn’t do it for the 10 yrs you were in govt????   In fact you bought in 100,000s immigrants and ILLEGALLY drove disabled and poor locals from their homes into dangerous situations, causing rape, violence, child abuse, addiction and of course your favourite SUICIDE.

Carolyn Fifield responded:  JR Murphy really…… National was involved in huge infrastructure programmes that provided jobs, skills and expertise to NZers rather than the Labour beneficiaries who chose to live off the tax payer.  Guess what the immigrants come and do the jobs you choose not to do and they are still coming in excess of 100,000s each year….. Jacinda has just changed how she reports this to you and to cover her government lies.  Meth addiction is ILLEGAL and those beneficiaries who chose to raise their families in Meth addicted homes breach their tenancy agreements CHOOSE THEIR FUTURE AND THAT OF THEIR POOR CHILDREN.  Blaming others for your illegal activity, then choosing rape, violence, child abuse, addiction and of course your favourite SUICIDE is the result of your poor choices in life catching up with you….. love how the poor and illeducated blame everything on others.

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Having a legal brain I will point out the LIE National are telling about infrastructure kiwis NEED.   Infrastructure is required by NZ and international law to provide housing health care and justice.   Roading is not a requirement under law – making bigger roads for the huge increase in immigrants is a want – not a need.  Making bigger universities (eg Victoria) that only rich people can access or poor people who want to be in debt for decades (and forced to go overseas to get enough money to pay it back – if they do at all) is a want not a NEED.  Not sure about the expertise??  That involved bringing in 10,000s affluent educated foreigners to drive even more NZers from their homes and the good well paid jobs.  Why didn’t Nats just use them to train the locals, then send them back to where they came from.

It is a well known fact the government needed to bring in huge amounts of immigrants because the local population were deeply impoverished and all the resources and money concentrated in the hands of the wealthy – as described in the video below.   They brought in wealthy foreigners to buy up resources and delay NZ going bankrupt.  That is why our debt is $100billion ish – mostly increased by National Party.  I could go on but I won’t.

I sent GSL and Carolyn a youtube video about neo-liberalism and what it does – so they would understand where I am at and what they are doing – which is rise of the extremist alt right.

Charity funding by Trust House are the proceeds of neo-liberal crimes

I couldn’t help myself this morning I phoned Trust House and the English neo-liberal imperialist elite who runs it Alan Pollard and told him what I thought of him after reading the front page of the Times Age on Saturday.   I pointed out the 4.4milion dollars being taken from the poorest most vulnerable people (from ‘market rate’ rentals) and given to middle class and rich people for sport, elitist art projects and business promotion was a neo-liberal abomination.

That his lie about it creating wellbeing in the community was proven to be false because Wairarapa is NO 1 in NZ for suicide and NO 1 in the OECD for self-harm and eating disorders.  That there was nowhere safe to live for the disabled and poorest people, that he caused domestic violence, suicide etc.

It was like talking to head of the gestapo, he was arrogant, full of hatred and insulting, all he could say was. “Does that make you feel better?” and “You should see a doctor.”   I assured him it did not make me feel better to talk to someone as cruel, greedy, radicalised and corrupt as him but I needed him to know me and thousands of other people hated Trust House and what they were doing.  Also that he would have already known I have not been allowed to see a doctor for over four years now.  Now I realise he knows it is wealthy elitist doctors terrorising poor people like me.  From everything that has happened with Wairarapa medical centres, Medical Council, DHB, Forensic mental health etc – it is the only explanation.  It should make me feel scared but I just feel sad, the people who do this must be having a really difficult time justifying their behaviour now everybody knows how bad neo-liberalism is.

He put me on to speaker phone at some point so I am assuming he had some other elitist neo-liberal terrorist murderer in the room with him.

I suggested once the neo-liberals were driven out that those who caused the most damage to society would be arrested and charged under the Terrorism Suppression Act.  That he would be deported back to England where he came from and never allowed to set foot in this country or any other ever again as a KNOWN TERRORIST.  Although I know this will not happen with the current crop of neo-liberal terrorists in government.   You just never know – when we have people in GOVERNMENT AND JUDICIARY WHO ARE NOT CORRUPT then we will see those who have harmed us made the criminals and their victims released from their prisons.

Check out the laws neo-liberal extremists in power are violating on my other pages.   Please read the Terrorism Suppression Act which makes it illegal to deprive large sectors of society the resources to live and be productive.  Although they had intended it to be for ‘cyber-attacks’ and terrorists from the countries those in power didn’t like – it definitely applies to neo-liberals from other countries who now live here and radicalise others.   The extent of the propaganda and brainwashing of society through media is probably the worst, advertising and tv shows funded by neo-liberal business terrorists.  I’m currently up on charges by a housing fascist who promotes themselves on that horrendous perverted programme RENTERS.  Where they go around with a film crew being perverts and putting tenants personal possessions (like model train collections) on public TV and repeat it over and over again for years.

If you don’t believe in the bible, knowing what it says during end of days about churches and ‘good people’ going bad might change your mind.

I intend to contact every one of the organisations who have taken money from Trust House and make sure they know this money is from proceeds from one of the most despicable crimes in our history – rich Maori and Pakeha together in persecution of all poor people.  It is uncivilised and deceit of epic proportions – due to the extensive communication networks humans now have – extensive opportunities for propaganda to control THE MASSES.

PLEASE NOTE: I AM A SUPPORTER OF SMALL AND MEDIUM SIZED BUSINESSES – NOT neo-liberal capitalists, franchises, corporations, big business both local and international as they are ANTI-SMALL BUSINESS  (inhuman) – are in fact anti-capitalist as Adam Smith’s idea relied on controlling big business and monopolies.   That is why we have a Commerce Commission, that is why the media talk about monopolies being bad – but of course they allow them through the neo-liberalisation of NZ and its destroying all of us.

Labour are again conning people to get into small businesses – not because they will be successful – they know 80% of them will not.  What they want is for the people going into business to use every last cent they have and can borrow on those things people need WHEN STARTING A BUSINESS – eg marketing, business advice etc etc.    If the idea starts making money a corporation will come in and drive the local out of business, as they have done 100,000s times over the past 35 years of neo-liberal terrorism.

Phoning Alan Pollard didn’t make me feel any better – but I will be doing things that will make me feel better very soon.   If I can overcome the extreme, gut wrenching fear I have of what police and our grossly corrupt mental health services could do to me.

Unless people who know what is going on start going to see their MPs in large numbers and start protesting in the street THIS IS ONLY GOING TO GET WORSE!!!!!!!  New Zealand is being controlled by imperialists from England (USA, China, India & Sth Africa) – they bought in an imperialist to take over at the Human Rights Commission – SO NEW ZEALANDERS WERE DEPRIVED OF THEIR HUMAN RIGHTS!  Otherwise the government would have put a New Zealand human rights lawyer in the job – WOULDN’T THEY.

Make sure you go to Jacinda Ardern’s Linked In profile and see where she has trained and worked.  She was never an elected Member of Parliament, she was sent to London for several years, she trained under marketing ‘mindfulness’ guru Sanyin Siang in America.  She gets on with the French president because he comes from the same training ground.   The way elites use the fact someone is a WOMEN to make people think they are going to be less cruel and corrupt than a man is very effective.    Prof Philip Zimbardo will tell you from his extensive research there are just as many ‘evil’ women as ‘evil’ men.   From my personal experience women are worse – especially in regards to poor women- they hate them, they feel threatened by them, they want to deny they exist, they ENJOY controlling them and are even better than men at psychological torture.

If you have read this and want to do something – then write a letter to the Board and CEO of Trust House and tell them they should be spending ALL THEIR MONEY on cutting rents for poorest people – particularly disabled victims of crime.  Also building houses in the community for people IN NEED – which is what the meaning of charity is – giving to people in need.   NOT greedy wants of  SPORTS PEOPLE,  ELITIST ARTISTS AND BUSINESS PEOPLE.

Imagine if we were able to use all the charity resources in this country for PEOPLE IN NEED, even for five years.  We would have housing for everybody who needed it – not affluent immigrants because they should have stayed in their own country.  Refugees are different as they are poor and should have access to state/social housing – although I noted in any discussions about the large number of refugees the government are sending to Masterton soon the opposition is because they are poor.   Rich immigrants from the city or overseas are welcome here – in fact local mayors have street parties to welcome them!

You also have to remember when THE LICENCING TRUST WAS STARTED years ago we lived in a socialist society, so the government provided for people in need.   They took the proceeds from alcohol, which people didn’t approve of back then, and used it to do good things in the community.   When neo-liberal terrorists took over New Zealand – based on Libertarian belief that all disabled and poor people should be supported ONLY BY CHARITY – it changed the Licensing Trust into something it was never meant to be.   It was never meant to price gouge poor people in housing so it could dish out money to middle class and rich greedy people for things that WERE NOT NEEDS – were wants!

IF YOU APPLY FOR CHARITY MONEY FROM TRUST HOUSE – THEN YOU ARE TAKING THE PROCEEDS OF CRIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  YOU ARE BEING FUNDED BY THE POOREST PEOPLE IN THE COMMUNITY.

 

UK article on austerity by private school extremists explains Wairarapa HATRED

The following article explains why such extreme levels of violence and hatred against me for my valid and legal NON-VIOLENT protests.   Wairarapa is full of private schools and of course hatred of poor people here is absolute.  That is why they sold off ALL STATE HOUSING in the region and removed the state housing statistics from all public record – they wanted to drive disabled and poor from the region and/or exploit/persecute those left as much as they possibly could.

I was interviewed independently by the Mental Health Inquiry legal staff, the woman told me the reason we were No 1 in NZ for suicide etc was due to elitism.   That community leaders, mental health services, police and welfare agencies would continue to deprive people like myself of professional mental health services and necessities of life BECAUSE THEY thought of people with mental health issues as ‘the poor’.  They were the rich and they would either lock them up, drug them up and of course exploit them to create jobs – jobs for other ‘poor’ losers.  That why mental health system so bad, there so many mentally ill people with serious issues in it!

It is very sad – I never knew the levels of hate by those in positions of power here were all based on how much money a person had.

It is also very sad that the current Governor General lives here and John Hayes, ex member of parliament, ex United Nations worker and person who started United Nations Association of New Zealand also lives here.   He abused me several times for protesting about persecution of disabled impoverished abuse victims in Wairarapa.

The local newspaper Wairarapa Times-Age is owned and dedicated to wealthy, private school educated elites, everything is from their perspective.   The way they now insult, exploit and terrorise those disabled victims of crime and suicidal people is the reason we No 1 for suicide.   That is why they demand police oppress and terrorise me for asking for health care and basic necessities of life.  What goes wrong of course is I am only asking for ACC care I entitled to after winning two court cases nine years ago – so I can heal and return to work, so I can live a normal life.  I am naïve, I never really understood hate of certain people was related to how much money they had – I don’t think those who do it realise either.   I know a few rich people, they say hello and treat me OK when I am with them – but they will often talk of other poor and disabled people unkindly – not associating me with them.

The one thing the article and EVERYBODY who talks about homeless doesn’t talk about – is the  number of ‘mostly women’ FORCED TO LIVE IN DANGEROUS SITUATIONS due to housing crisis and illegal lack of state housing for them.   NZ is No 1 in the OECD for domestic/flatmate violence and Wairarapa is No 1 in the world for women self-harming.  Shame local POLICE AND DECENT PEOPLE HERE aren’t PUTTING THESE TWO SOCIAL ISSUES TOGETHER YET, I am sure they are in denial and don’t want to admit it.   Another reason to hurt me, I confront them with that fact, especially judges, mental health and people in power – especially people in charities, groan, they are the worst.   Its the emotional payment they get for ‘helping’ people, but that sort of charity denigrates their impoverished disabled victims.  They should be demanding govt do the right thing so there aren’t so many social problems and people in need, not playing into the hands of Libertarian neo-liberal extremists.

https://www.rt.com/op-ed/444375-uk-un-extreme-poverty/

Immigrants coming to NZ to avoid participating in global issues & democracy

The other day I was chalking an empty shop in Carterton and two people around 60 stopped to talk.  They had immigrated to New Zealand 20 years ago, they were quite proud of the fact they left England to get away from the problems there and didn’t want anything to do with participating in New Zealand democracy/politics.

Why make New Zealand your home then refuse to participate in civic affairs, what sort of New Zealander is that – not one that GAF about where they live, that’s for sure.   Makes me wonder how many other foreigners come here and do the same thing, trying to hide from and avoid the complete breakdown of neo-liberal controlled countries.   You SHOULD NOT BE ALLOWED TO LIVE HERE IF YOU AVOID YOUR CIVIC RESPONSIBILITIES!

You should also have to give up your foreign passport if you want to live or own property in New Zealand – I am not allowed to live in any other country, why should these globalist leeches be allowed to have two countries????

This also reminds me of that horrendous English woman who runs Citizens Advice Bureau show on local radio and TV.  Lying to everybody, pretending everything is great in New Zealand, pretending we have justice and our government isn’t corrupt.  Pretending landlords are all so honest and good people, while tenants are not.   And that ignorance and rejection of local people who are suffering, like we are the human sewage of society and everything happening to us is our own fault.   They still won’t interact with me and they are still filled with older people who mostly affluent bigoted English, Sth African and New Zealanders, ewwwwww.

If intelligent people refuse to respond to the truth of what this country and ‘community’ have become then the only outcome is violence and hate.   Lets hope I’ve had my fair share and it starts raining down of the middle class and rich – after all they are the ones who deserve it the most with the arrogance, ignorance and feigned concern by making people like me beggars.   I KNOW WHAT I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ AND INTERNATIONAL LAW – making me and others beg for it will be the downfall of those who created this Libertarian nightmare of hell!

Kieran McAnulty is Faulty – poem

Kieran McAnulty of corruption is guilty
Neo-liberal extremist, authoritarian & racist

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, cruel global terrorist

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist, Mental Health is his fist

Kieran McAnulty of corruption is guilty
Neo-liberal extremist, handing power to richest

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, a counsellor won’t fix this

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist profits from war on the poorest

HATE starts HERE !!

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Saw what this corrupt liar said on his facebook page about suicide and mental health services, that I know are going to make things even worse.  Half the NZ local population driven to suicide and these Labourites just love to create jobs from the suffering American neo-liberal economic extremism causes.  Grrrrrrrr.

NOTE:  My comment calling him RACIST – I truly believe Maori/Pakeha are a modern RACE of people, a race with combined cultures,  which would be understandable when the Treaty of Waitangi signed by Maori leaders and the monarchy made us all one people over 150years ago.  All over the neo-liberal western world immigrants, for whatever reason, are driving disabled and poor locals from their homes, livelihoods, they are displacing the most vulnerable and weakest members of the local population.  Governments are doing this and purposely (illegally) ignoring and censoring the impacts of this.

The MP who promised before he was elected (over two elections) to help me get mental health care ACC supposed to reinstate nine years ago & the $10,000 in Independence allowance they brag about withholding from me.   So angry, had to write this poem  and will be putting it up everywhere to cope – pen is mightier than the sword they reakon.   His facebook page is full of his neo-liberal Labour (USA version of democrats ewwww) mates making comments about how great he is, its sickening.

Half the NZ population (2.5 million of us, 99% born in NZ)  being driven to suicide due to poverty, fear and HATE caused by AMERICAN neo-liberal economic extremism.  Profiting and creating jobs from the economic suffering our own government is creating is about as depraved AND ILLEGAL as you can get I reakon.   Counsellors and social workers doing our governments DIRTY WORK, listening to the suffering of the poorest WHEN THEY SHOULD BE GOING TO HIM DIRECTLY AND PARTICIPATING IN OUR DEMOCRACY – TAKING TO THE STREETS – LIKE POOREST IN EVERY OTHER COUNTRY IS!!

Its Kieran and your politicians you need to be talking to, not some poorly trained/brainwashed unemployable self-righteous ignorant young person.  Who doesn’t know what NZ was like BEFORE neo-liberals took it over – and that’s exactly the way those abusers in power like it.

Do your own research, ask Kieran why counsellors ARE NOT considered health workers and yet Social Workers were made health workers only a few years ago.  It helps them UPLIFT children from families and although sometimes this is justified, the abuses of power and complete failure of the complaints system means many decent people now being terrorised.   My knowledge of how bad ACC and system is for victims of crime/rape and abuse makes me rage at this generalisation and denigration of mental health services – when these people need and are entitled to extensive PROFESSIONAL support.

What they are doing is purely experimental in the area of suicide and mental health.  THERE Is ABSOLUTELY NO medical evidence to suggest very unwell suicidal people in inhuman living situations (caused mostly by housing crisis) will benefit from phone ‘counselling’.  YET ANOTHER THING OUR CORRUPT GOVERNMENT DO TO VIOLATE OUR HUMAN RIGHTS – experiment on people!!

Mental health services neo-liberal Labour govt want are going to deprive the most unwell and deserving victims of crime the extensive treatment care rehabilitation and homes they are entitled to under ACC and many other laws.  Instead people who commit violent and sexual crimes, who are addicts and dangerous are going to GET EVEN MORE HELP.  Along with affluent spoilt brat children who can’t get their own way as adults and use unfounded threats of suicide to get it.   World has gone mad – if I didn’t believe in the bible before, what I’m seeing around me sure looks like end of days to me.  LETS HOPE SO!

 

Corrupt New Zealand Police vs disabled suicidal UN Civil Society Activist

Thought I’d post some emails between me and police at the moment, they follow the general behaviour by cruel corrupt neo-liberal controlled police I have been subjected to over many years now.  Just for asking for health care from ACC (required by law to provide professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe housing to VICTIMS OF CRIME) after winning two court cases nine years ago.

I did everything I possibly could to get Legal Aid and a lawyer, they ignored me.  The Forensic Mental Health assessments I told her were by people who were not legally supposed to be assessing me because of conflicts of interest – all three of them.  Someone associated with Mason Durie was supposed to be, not these neo-liberal terrorist murderers who have made NZ No 1 in the world for driving women to self-harm, youth to suicide and No 5 for suicide in general.  Forensic Mental Health services and Directorate of mental health ARE CORRUPT, THEY KILL PEOPLE, THEY ARE THE ONES DENYING SERVICES AND HARMING PEOPLE.  Its not necessarily those at the cliff face, they often do their best – its the people at the top who are corrupt – the ones getting obscene amounts of money.  I know this is true, I deal with these murderers!
Here is the first email making a formal complaint to police, I should have remained cynical and not got my hopes up 🙁

From: Jayne Routhan
Sent: Tuesday, 14 May 2019 10:19 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Report Forensic Mental Health Services perverting course of justice

Hi,
I know you won’t do anything about this but UN staff told me to make sure I do things in writing and get copies.  I know my file says I’m a nutter and only protest about not having my ACC care reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago because I am a nutter.  Its not true of course, but then what is any more, when you know how corrupt and cruel people in govt, police, health, law etc are because of what is happening to you its overwhelming.
Forensic Mental Health services have perverted the course of justice, they have sent three different psychiatric assessors all with conflicts of interest.   Medical Council rules for health professionals providing third party reports, including for the court, requires assessors to remove themselves from an assessment if they have a conflict of interest.  Which Peter, Justin Barry-Walsh and David Chaplow all have.   Also making the assessment the day after I am due in court on 23 May in order to delay proceedings and I’m guessing so Judge Morris is out of the way is criminal.
Attached are my complaints to Medical Council, but I know the law and I know whoever is sending the people above, rather than someone recommended by Mason Durie is perverting the course of justice.   It has been almost 18months since I threw washable red poster paint over the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station.  In protest at being violently assaulted and threatened with worse by local police for a NON-VIOLENT completely justifyable CHALK protest about being prosecuted for the second time for Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC very unwell screaming for my care to be reinstated, after waiting eight years since I won the reviews.
This is a valid report of a crime, please advise if you are not going to act on it – rather than doing nothing so there is nothing in writing to prove you are ignoring serious constitutional crimes against a disabled Civil Society Activist – who has never hurt anybody – who just asking for health care she is entitled to and desperately needs so she can return to work, can live with dignity, not want to kill herself, be safe and have a normal life like you.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: HANSEN, Jennifer <Jennifer.Hansen@police.govt.nz>
Sent: Tuesday, 28 May 2019 8:26 AM
To: JR
Subject: Complaint

Hi Jayne,

As discussed with you I spoke with both prosecutions and court staff.

With regards to Legal Aid, you were advised in July last year that your application had been denied and had 15 days to respond. I am told you can reapply but do not know what the outcome of that application would be. I recall you saying that you find filling out forms difficult or stressful so please let me know if I can assist with this.

With regards to the medical assessments ordered, these are ordered by Forensic Services. They decide on the date, time and the person to complete the assessment. The court do not have a say in this.

I’m sorry but as it stands I do not see this matter as being a perversion of the course of justice.

Regards,

Jen Hansen

Senior Sergeant JHAA93

Response Manager, Wairarapa Police

jennifer.hansen@police.govt.nz

021909085

 

NOTE:  It is well documented in my health information I am not able to fill out forms, I was never allowed a lawyer to help me in the past 18 months since I threw red paint on the White Ribbon Banner in Masterton police station for police violently assaulting me, lying in court able it and IPCA doing nothing.  In fact the court process I was in when the police lied was a perversion of justice when my lawyer at the time was harassed by ACC lawyers Meredith Connell.  But I can’t get a lawyer to appeal the conviction and I am now so unwell I can’t do it myself – as I have in the past.

I contacted Legal Aid Services many times, I was abused for saying I had a disability, I was insulted and abused for begging for a lawyer.  If I didn’t have a lawyer and I definitely don’t have an advocate – only rich people get advocates, they cost money and I don’t have any money because I don’t have the health care I am entitled to so I can return to work.  I even wrote a formal complaint to the Legal Aid Board saying I couldn’t get Legal Aid – those people refusing me legal aid rejected it and refused to give it to them.

I was in the Masterton police station ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED within 20 mins of Jennifer offering to help with the form, my car petrol light was flashing all the way home from Masterton.   I had flashback after flashback in the foyer from the excessive violence and psychological abuse I had been subjected to by Masterton police both in the cells and in the foyer.  Jennifer knew this, she watched it happening and me verbalising what was going on, she completely ignored it.  HATE STARTS WITH EX-SILVER FERN JENNIFER HANSEN, ewwwww.  Bet she only got that job for one reason, ewwwwww, she’s good looking and fit, not saying she screwed her way to the top, just saying she got that job because she is completely obedient to authority and hates all people disabled and poor people.

Starting to get overwhelmed posting this, have so many emails that could prove what they are doing to me, but as soon as I start going through them my stress disorder goes off the scale and I start wanting to self-harm and suicide.  God or Jesus or holy spirit or any spiritual entity who cares about suffering of innocent people please send me someone, please send help, please I am begging you, there is nobody else who will help me, I have nobody to turn to, everybody lies about what is going on.

 

Sent: Monday, 3 June 2019 5:43 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Can’t stop crying

Woke up this morning, delayed reaction to your hate and corruption, all I can think about is you and what you are doing to me.  Its stupid of me really, to expect justice, honesty and integrity – I should know by now NZ senior police aren’t like that under the rule of neo-liberal terrorists.

Its stupid of me really to want to kill myself because of what you have said and done, to be rejected over and over again when I beg for help I am supposed to have so I can return to work.

Wonder how many other people you do it to???  Do you all get together and laugh about me?  Try to work out more ways to terrorise me and drive me to suicide to shut me up – or of course what neo-liberals want and have me locked up in a psych hospital or prison???  I have never hurt anybody, I don’t understand why I can’t have health care I am supposed to have so I can return to work – they set it up so people can’t live on welfare, they rant on about everybody working, yet they have refused me health care for nine years after winning two court cases?????  I don’t understand why you are letting them do this to me when it is a crime????

Watched a documentary on a country in Sth America somewhere, where neo-liberals were paying violent gangs to drive the impoverished local population from their land.  A leader of one of the biggest gangs told the journalist how they had been approached but refused – others in the gang left and took up their offer.  The reason the gang boss gave for turning down the $millions was this proverb:
“Tears of the poor will catch up with you one day.”
So many local people living in despair after 30 years of American neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.  So many local people FORCED to live off begging and charity to survive.  You were an elite athlete, you must have lived off charity money, how did it make you feel?  Or is that acceptable to neo-liberals and its only if you’re a victim of crime who can’t work full time that you supposed to feel like worthless human sewage.
Actually, my heart has been broken about you rejecting my serious and valid complaints of crimes against me since I came in for you to fill out those forms.  Its like you took Thor’s hammer to my chest and heart, with all your might you swung it and hit me as far as you possibly could from you.  Its part of this ANOMIE thing everybody is talking about now, the complete breakdown of society due to the breakdown of social bonds that is a direct result of neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.
Why are you doing this to me, what did I ever do to you?  How can you even think it is your job to reject and hurt me, when it is your job to uphold the law for rich and poor.  That is why police swear and  oath to the Queen, or has the monarchy issued some statement of hatred and degrading inadequate charity to poor.  If she has and if the government and the police expect human sewage like me to beg for food and shelter every week THEN WHY DON’T YOU ALL JUST SAY THAT – WHY DON’T YOU PUT THAT IN THE NEWS – so at least rich people don’t HATE poor people for the situation they are in.   If middle class and rich working people, family and friends included, knew human sewage like me was expected to be unemployed and beg for food then they wouldn’t abuse or reject me for it – would they.
I don’t understand I really don’t, I thought I lived in a country that followed the law????   I don’t understand, all the marketing I see about police says you are good people, when I know you are not.   I don’t understand why I am not allowed my ACC care reinstated so I can return to work and at least be able to afford to live????   I don’t understand, I keep thinking I understand and then I sink into a place of utter hopelessness and despair, because I really don’t understand why you personally would do this to me – I never hurt you, I never hurt anybody – THEY HURT ME.
So many tears, so many years, so much despair & those in power don’t care.
I’m sorry I would rather die than beg – that’s why young people kill themselves you know – they are proud and don’t want to beg.  They know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading someone, I know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading me.
To know how corrupt our government are and how corrupt the police are regarding persecuting disabled mentally injured victims of crime is beyond my ability to cope.  I’m trying to express it through my art, working every day, mostly in tears, sometimes with courage and hope, but mostly with despair and crying.  Feels like I will never stop crying knowing how cruel people are because they believe in religion – neo-liberalism has been classified as a religion.
More police coming on board but less access to them, now we’re not allowed to phone the police station – that’s a neo-liberal corruption tactic by the way.  They do it with ACC, WINZ and so many other organisations put there to help people – help neo-liberals call socialism so they can say they don’t have to do it – even though its still law – we don’t live by rule of law anymore those do we Jennifer.  That’s what rejecting my complaints of crime are about, along with prosecuting me for minor charges for my legal justified protests.  I can’t stop crying, I have to go…. I have no hope, I wish I was dead.
HUMAN SEWAGE

Open Letter to WINZ Masterton manager Michelle & Jacinda Ardern & royal family

Dear Michelle & those who control her,

It the next morning after what happened yesterday, I am still incredibly fragile and on the verge of tears, my eyes are swollen I cried so much yesterday.  I can’t believe how inhuman cruel and callous you were, what is it about a desperate destitute terrified persecuted suicidal abuse victim that turns you into this???   The only word I can find to describe your appalling cruelty is EVIL.

You are going to give me an extra $7 when my rent is going up $40.   I know people living in motels for $150 a night and WINZ pay their rent – why won’t you pay mine???????   They don’t have to pay it back either – or do they????  Its the government who required to provide housing to disabled people, under the law, they havn’t and they show no signs of doing it so more people suffer, suicide, harm and are harmed.  WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US MICHELLE – YOU ARE THE MANAGER OF WINZ MASTERTON – YOU MUST KNOW WHY THE GOVERNMENT CONTINUE WITH THESE SUICIDE CAUSING HATRED AGAINST DISABLED AND POOR FORCED TO ROT ON WELFARE.

When I phoned you I had been unable to get myself out of bed all morning, I had been trying to cope with the huge increase in my rent, trying to forget it was going to happen, trying to forget that things were about to get much much worse when I already couldn’t cope.   Having that sexual pervert contact me though the accommodation sign I put up at the supermarket made me even more frightened.

You do understand my behaviour is related to extreme overwhelming fear after years of medical neglect, criminal negligence, violence and discrimination by ACC, police, MOH, MSD and others.   I am not mentally ill, there is nothing dysfunctional about how my brain is reacting, it is completely normal to be terrorised to the point of Complex PTSD after this many years of persecution by neo-liberal extremist economic religious beliefs being implemented.  The way people who WERE PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED were treated after 100,000s became unemployed with this new economic religion was criminal.  I still hope and pray one day those who did it and changed welfare laws especially to be cruel and degrading to those who WERE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO WORK will be prosecuted in a criminal court – and of course humiliated in public.

I have a mental injury, not a mental illness and as it sounds my brain is completely normal just my environment causing the damage and ongoing dysfunction – that is what neo-liberals want and get after 30 years, it insures people are kept terrified and they can create jobs and profits for drug companies, lawyers, security industry etc.

Why would you insult me on the phone like that when I was experiencing such overwhelming despair – Tina Hemi would never ever have insulted me like you did.  Obviously you have never been around someone suicidal and HATE them like most people do, like our government do, like neo-liberals do.   Why can’t you listen to the despair you create, I would imagine every single person who has the misfortune of having to deal with WINZ cries themselves to sleep many many times, your organisation is so degrading and demeaning.  Although rich people who turning 65 love it, especially if they are still working at high paid jobs.

How do you reconcile that with the suffering and economic violence you commit against disabled poor people like myself?   That old rich people in good jobs are going to get welfare when they turn 65, I would imagine you would do that so would be in complete agreement with it.  After all they wouldn’t have made you manager if you weren’t doing what neo-liberals in power wanted you to – and do it with conviction – you are certainly good at that.

If you are not going to hear my desperate screams for health care, justice and decent work, then who is, someone on the street perhaps?  A self-righteous Christian perhaps that wants to hug and insult you, telling you its only temporary and things will get better if you are a good person.   I am a good person Michelle, I understand the rape was just something bad that happened, but what the government, ACC, my family and ‘friends’ did to me after was worse than being raped.  What you are doing to me now is worse than being raped, the trauma I felt after yesterday is like getting over a rape or an attempted murder.

That’s what being as suicidal as I was yesterday is like, being the victim of your best friend trying to kill you, you made that feeling so much worse.  I have to sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards trying not to go to the knife drawer and end it, it is a living nightmare, torment and of course psychological torture.  You did that to me Michelle, I am not mentally ill for what happened – I walk around trying to pretend everything is OK and going to be OK, then it just all comes out and I can’t hold it back.  You would see this a lot with the people you terrorise, degrade and persecute, I would imagine the more intelligent and harmed by violence they are the worse it is.

Someone told me you have a lot fewer people forced to come in begging for food and money to live, that must make it so much easier for you, not having to look these people in the eye.  But then as manager you would seldom see the consequences of your cruelty, easier to keep doing it when you don’t have to face it.  That is what I have found over the years of protesting about being denied professional health care, rehabilitation and state house I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.  Books on abuses of power and cruelty are filled with it.

Check out the Milgram Experiment on youtube or the Stanford Prison experiment – you are the  person flicking the switch to kill people because someone in authority over you says, someone in a white coat says I am mentally disturbed and not to listen to me – but you know that’s not true, don’t you Michelle.   You are the violent guard enjoying his power over others, I am the prisoner they keep putting in the cupboard.

Please explain to me why the meeting Tina & Richard at WINZ were trying to organise between ACC, police, mental health, WINZ and myself was cancelled?   Don’t I at least have the right to know what happened and what was said, under the OIA and Privacy ACt I am entitled to a copy of my file, please provide that.  I would imagine the government is so corrupt they have avoided keeping emails or only done illegal things to harm me by phone, could you please write down WHY this meeting failed.   Please tell me why its OK I don’t have a doctor, why I don’t have professional health care when I won two court cases in 2010/11.  Please tell me why, please help me understand why I am being treated so cruelly when I am so unwell and all I want to do is go back to work and be safe in my own home.

All WINZ and government talk about is how people should work, I want to work more than anything, please help me be able to do that, please I am begging you.  At the moment I am so unwell terrorised being in a social situation wouldn’t be possible.  But my art and creativity is off the scale with the amount of stress and trauma I am being subjected to, why can’t we use that?   I not only do art about how bad my life is and how bad neo-liberal terrorism is, I do other stuff, lots of stuff, plays especially which could be world famous and perfect for tourists.   Stories about birds and races around  The Pinnacles, Palliser bay Sweeper,  Cook Strait, Harbour Hairpin, Wainui hill, Mount Aorangi, it goes over and over in my head.  I can see it as a play done by children in schools, a play done by professional actors at skate parks and other venues and of course a movie on the scale of Avatar.   The race route probably goes over James Cameron’s property, not that a worthless piece of garbage like me would ever get the opportunity to develop a story/myth etc like that.   One that includes Maori legend and disabled people/birds etc.

Please I have so many ideas for jobs, especially the amount of industrial waste I am seeing come from the building industry, its deeply disturbing and would be an excellent way of trying to earn my own money.  Sadly after the last police assault they damaged my wrist permanently this time and as it requires a lot of working with my hands I couldn’t do it for very long, but I’m sure there would be other disabled people I know DESPERATE FOR WORK who would.  So many of them expected to volunteer for free – volunteering should be for people who DON’T WANT TO WORK, not for people who do!  Exploiting disabled people by making them feel guilty if they don’t volunteer is disgusting – these people are so desperate.

I have been in several businesses in the past, I know what I am capable of now and I know I could not run a business, I NEED HELP AND HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO SO I CAN HEAL AND RETURN TO WORK.   That is all I have ever wanted, I thought that is what you wanted to, that’s what all the marketing and cruel demands to apply for 100s of jobs is about isn’t it.

Please be assured what you are doing for the government is driving people to violence and suicide, that is immoral and cruel.  Until recently NAZI were being put on trial and put in jail even in their 90s because of crimes during their reign of terror – only for those targeted for persecution and blame, not the bulk of the population.  The similarities about what I have read about pre-WWII Germany and what our govt are currently doing to targeted minorty group I am part of is terrifying.   How you cannot see this, when you are one of the GENERALS in this neo-liberal/NAZI persecution and exploitation of poor by insane wealthy elities is beyond me.  Hoefully this letter will get through to you and you will turn on those in the white jackets and not perpetrate the cruelty you are.

You text me with a $50 food grant on my card – I’m sorry I can’t use it and I find it extremely offensive you would do that after yesterday – I didn’t beg you for food did I?????  You remind me of some rich ignorant selfish neglectful parent who doesn’t want to spend any time with their child and just gives them THINGS to shut them up.  Causes a lot of teenage suicide in rich families.    I can’t use the food grant because I would have to go to a supermarket when I am really really fragile and offend the minimum wage checkout operator.  You obviously completely reject the idea that young people and most older women who required to work in these low paid jobs are resentful of people that LOOK OK and don’t work, getting food for free through the government/through their taxes.

You told me the last time I was forced to beg for food that there was no food grant money left for human sewage like me – now all of a sudden you come up with it – only to make yourself feel better about what you are doing to me.  Did the police suggest it perhaps, you phoned them to come intimidate me cause you know what they did to me and how terrified I am of them.  Thankfully they know not to engage with me unless they really have to – that’s because most police officers are disgusted in what is happening to me, but like you do their jobs without question.

I’m sure with having corrupt abusive Forensic Mental Health staff in your building they’ve illegally filled you in on all the lies they tell about me refusing mental health care.  I HAVE NEVER EVER REFUSED PROFESSIONAL MENTAL HEALTH CARE, they have refused me multiple times, then say to others I don’t want care.   Why do you think I am so screwed up, its because they lie and I can do nothing to stop the lies either.   I will be posting my 37 page complaint to medical council and privacy commissioner re Dr Justin Barry-Walsh in next few days.  It was interesting how when he is supposed to consult with my family, friends and others I suggest, he instead went to mental health services, police and lawyers that have never represented me.   I asked told him he could contact Tina, as she has known me for so long and understands the deterioration in my mental health over the years.

I am very sad you hurt Tina for helping me, very very sad and deeply disturbed.   Hopefully if I ever get a legal inquiry into how badly I have been treated, what people in teh system have done to try and help me and been disadvantaged for will be addressed.  Hopefully they will get compensation and recognition of the bullying and cruel tactics they were subjected to by their bosses LIKE YOU.

Did I tell you I can’t use the card because I feel so degraded and worthless when I do, I would rather eat my own feces at the moment.  Wish I could go to the food bank, I just can’t, those people are as degrading as WINZ, except they can go home and gossip about those people they gave food to – because they were losers who didn’t want to work!

I wish I didn’t HATE you but I do, I really really HATE you and everybody doing this to me – all of it illegal.  After 17 years of study I know my rights, I know what is happening to me and I know why, I also know it is illegal uncivilised and cruel.  Unlike majority of people who live in the darklands of this neo-liberal hell hole I spend almost all my waking hours trying to get help so I can work and educating myself as to why I can’t get what the law says, keeping myself informed of local and world events.  I seldom watch TV, can’t stand the advertising and propaganda, have you seen the neo-liberal propaganda ASB Bank is vomiting all over us at the moment.  How we are all one people no matter how many different nationalities.

Its extremely disturbing propaganda, putting so many cultures together who are driving disabled and poor locals out of their homes, jobs, health care, etc and our govt and business leaders committing cultural genocide against PAKEHA, ewwwwww.

Please ask yourself why you HATE me and persecute me, I never hurt you, I never stole your money, I never took food from your fridge and cupboard, I never insulted or patronised you, I never hurt any of your children or your family, I never drove you out of your home, I never made your life a living nightmare – I don’t even know you – so why do you do it to me??????  Is that why you couldn’t handle my phone call and answerphone messages, because I put the blame directly onto you as a human being and woman?   You want to pretend you’re just doing your job and hurting/terrorising disabled people like myself is your job.

I cant go on, I’ve started crying again, my heart is broken, what a evil cruel country I live in.

My heart is low
My head is bowed
From the depths the hell does rise
I can hardly move
Nothing will sooth
My broken heart no longer flies

I can see no future
Now a tortured creature
Looking out from blackened eyes
So much rejection
Like an injection
Of the suicidal size

Our society
Don’t want to see
How the system is full of lies
The market torture wheel
Doesn’t care or feel
They’re paid to ignore your cries

The money men
Shake hands and then
Hide their crimes behind skirts and ties

enD

This is dedicated to you Michelle, to you Jacinda and to you William (or more correctly to your mum who is a distant relative of mine).