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Kieran McAnulty is Faulty – poem

Kieran McAnulty of corruption is guilty
Neo-liberal extremist, authoritarian & racist

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, cruel global terrorist

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist, Mental Health is his fist

Kieran McAnulty of corruption is guilty
Neo-liberal extremist, handing power to richest

Kieran McAnulty is the one who is faulty
Neo-liberal extremist, a counsellor won’t fix this

Kieran McAnulty ignores and insults me
Neo-liberal extremist profits from war on the poorest

HATE starts HERE !!

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Saw what this corrupt liar said on his facebook page about suicide and mental health services, that I know are going to make things even worse.  Half the NZ local population driven to suicide and these Labourites just love to create jobs from the suffering American neo-liberal economic extremism causes.  Grrrrrrrr.

NOTE:  My comment calling him RACIST – I truly believe Maori/Pakeha are a modern RACE of people, a race with combined cultures,  which would be understandable when the Treaty of Waitangi signed by Maori leaders and the monarchy made us all one people over 150years ago.  All over the neo-liberal western world immigrants, for whatever reason, are driving disabled and poor locals from their homes, livelihoods, they are displacing the most vulnerable and weakest members of the local population.  Governments are doing this and purposely (illegally) ignoring and censoring the impacts of this.

The MP who promised before he was elected (over two elections) to help me get mental health care ACC supposed to reinstate nine years ago & the $10,000 in Independence allowance they brag about withholding from me.   So angry, had to write this poem  and will be putting it up everywhere to cope – pen is mightier than the sword they reakon.   His facebook page is full of his neo-liberal Labour (USA version of democrats ewwww) mates making comments about how great he is, its sickening.

Half the NZ population (2.5 million of us, 99% born in NZ)  being driven to suicide due to poverty, fear and HATE caused by AMERICAN neo-liberal economic extremism.  Profiting and creating jobs from the economic suffering our own government is creating is about as depraved AND ILLEGAL as you can get I reakon.   Counsellors and social workers doing our governments DIRTY WORK, listening to the suffering of the poorest WHEN THEY SHOULD BE GOING TO HIM DIRECTLY AND PARTICIPATING IN OUR DEMOCRACY – TAKING TO THE STREETS – LIKE POOREST IN EVERY OTHER COUNTRY IS!!

Its Kieran and your politicians you need to be talking to, not some poorly trained/brainwashed unemployable self-righteous ignorant young person.  Who doesn’t know what NZ was like BEFORE neo-liberals took it over – and that’s exactly the way those abusers in power like it.

Do your own research, ask Kieran why counsellors ARE NOT considered health workers and yet Social Workers were made health workers only a few years ago.  It helps them UPLIFT children from families and although sometimes this is justified, the abuses of power and complete failure of the complaints system means many decent people now being terrorised.   My knowledge of how bad ACC and system is for victims of crime/rape and abuse makes me rage at this generalisation and denigration of mental health services – when these people need and are entitled to extensive PROFESSIONAL support.

What they are doing is purely experimental in the area of suicide and mental health.  THERE Is ABSOLUTELY NO medical evidence to suggest very unwell suicidal people in inhuman living situations (caused mostly by housing crisis) will benefit from phone ‘counselling’.  YET ANOTHER THING OUR CORRUPT GOVERNMENT DO TO VIOLATE OUR HUMAN RIGHTS – experiment on people!!

Mental health services neo-liberal Labour govt want are going to deprive the most unwell and deserving victims of crime the extensive treatment care rehabilitation and homes they are entitled to under ACC and many other laws.  Instead people who commit violent and sexual crimes, who are addicts and dangerous are going to GET EVEN MORE HELP.  Along with affluent spoilt brat children who can’t get their own way as adults and use unfounded threats of suicide to get it.   World has gone mad – if I didn’t believe in the bible before, what I’m seeing around me sure looks like end of days to me.  LETS HOPE SO!

 

Corrupt New Zealand Police vs disabled suicidal UN Civil Society Activist

Thought I’d post some emails between me and police at the moment, they follow the general behaviour by cruel corrupt neo-liberal controlled police I have been subjected to over many years now.  Just for asking for health care from ACC (required by law to provide professional treatment care rehabilitation and safe housing to VICTIMS OF CRIME) after winning two court cases nine years ago.

I did everything I possibly could to get Legal Aid and a lawyer, they ignored me.  The Forensic Mental Health assessments I told her were by people who were not legally supposed to be assessing me because of conflicts of interest – all three of them.  Someone associated with Mason Durie was supposed to be, not these neo-liberal terrorist murderers who have made NZ No 1 in the world for driving women to self-harm, youth to suicide and No 5 for suicide in general.  Forensic Mental Health services and Directorate of mental health ARE CORRUPT, THEY KILL PEOPLE, THEY ARE THE ONES DENYING SERVICES AND HARMING PEOPLE.  Its not necessarily those at the cliff face, they often do their best – its the people at the top who are corrupt – the ones getting obscene amounts of money.  I know this is true, I deal with these murderers!
Here is the first email making a formal complaint to police, I should have remained cynical and not got my hopes up 🙁

From: Jayne Routhan
Sent: Tuesday, 14 May 2019 10:19 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Report Forensic Mental Health Services perverting course of justice

Hi,
I know you won’t do anything about this but UN staff told me to make sure I do things in writing and get copies.  I know my file says I’m a nutter and only protest about not having my ACC care reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago because I am a nutter.  Its not true of course, but then what is any more, when you know how corrupt and cruel people in govt, police, health, law etc are because of what is happening to you its overwhelming.
Forensic Mental Health services have perverted the course of justice, they have sent three different psychiatric assessors all with conflicts of interest.   Medical Council rules for health professionals providing third party reports, including for the court, requires assessors to remove themselves from an assessment if they have a conflict of interest.  Which Peter, Justin Barry-Walsh and David Chaplow all have.   Also making the assessment the day after I am due in court on 23 May in order to delay proceedings and I’m guessing so Judge Morris is out of the way is criminal.
Attached are my complaints to Medical Council, but I know the law and I know whoever is sending the people above, rather than someone recommended by Mason Durie is perverting the course of justice.   It has been almost 18months since I threw washable red poster paint over the white ribbon banner in Masterton police station.  In protest at being violently assaulted and threatened with worse by local police for a NON-VIOLENT completely justifyable CHALK protest about being prosecuted for the second time for Misuse of a Telephone for phoning ACC very unwell screaming for my care to be reinstated, after waiting eight years since I won the reviews.
This is a valid report of a crime, please advise if you are not going to act on it – rather than doing nothing so there is nothing in writing to prove you are ignoring serious constitutional crimes against a disabled Civil Society Activist – who has never hurt anybody – who just asking for health care she is entitled to and desperately needs so she can return to work, can live with dignity, not want to kill herself, be safe and have a normal life like you.
Sincerely
JR
Civil Society Activist
HUMAN SEWAGE

From: HANSEN, Jennifer <Jennifer.Hansen@police.govt.nz>
Sent: Tuesday, 28 May 2019 8:26 AM
To: JR
Subject: Complaint

Hi Jayne,

As discussed with you I spoke with both prosecutions and court staff.

With regards to Legal Aid, you were advised in July last year that your application had been denied and had 15 days to respond. I am told you can reapply but do not know what the outcome of that application would be. I recall you saying that you find filling out forms difficult or stressful so please let me know if I can assist with this.

With regards to the medical assessments ordered, these are ordered by Forensic Services. They decide on the date, time and the person to complete the assessment. The court do not have a say in this.

I’m sorry but as it stands I do not see this matter as being a perversion of the course of justice.

Regards,

Jen Hansen

Senior Sergeant JHAA93

Response Manager, Wairarapa Police

jennifer.hansen@police.govt.nz

021909085

 

NOTE:  It is well documented in my health information I am not able to fill out forms, I was never allowed a lawyer to help me in the past 18 months since I threw red paint on the White Ribbon Banner in Masterton police station for police violently assaulting me, lying in court able it and IPCA doing nothing.  In fact the court process I was in when the police lied was a perversion of justice when my lawyer at the time was harassed by ACC lawyers Meredith Connell.  But I can’t get a lawyer to appeal the conviction and I am now so unwell I can’t do it myself – as I have in the past.

I contacted Legal Aid Services many times, I was abused for saying I had a disability, I was insulted and abused for begging for a lawyer.  If I didn’t have a lawyer and I definitely don’t have an advocate – only rich people get advocates, they cost money and I don’t have any money because I don’t have the health care I am entitled to so I can return to work.  I even wrote a formal complaint to the Legal Aid Board saying I couldn’t get Legal Aid – those people refusing me legal aid rejected it and refused to give it to them.

I was in the Masterton police station ABSOLUTELY TERRIFIED within 20 mins of Jennifer offering to help with the form, my car petrol light was flashing all the way home from Masterton.   I had flashback after flashback in the foyer from the excessive violence and psychological abuse I had been subjected to by Masterton police both in the cells and in the foyer.  Jennifer knew this, she watched it happening and me verbalising what was going on, she completely ignored it.  HATE STARTS WITH EX-SILVER FERN JENNIFER HANSEN, ewwwww.  Bet she only got that job for one reason, ewwwwww, she’s good looking and fit, not saying she screwed her way to the top, just saying she got that job because she is completely obedient to authority and hates all people disabled and poor people.

Starting to get overwhelmed posting this, have so many emails that could prove what they are doing to me, but as soon as I start going through them my stress disorder goes off the scale and I start wanting to self-harm and suicide.  God or Jesus or holy spirit or any spiritual entity who cares about suffering of innocent people please send me someone, please send help, please I am begging you, there is nobody else who will help me, I have nobody to turn to, everybody lies about what is going on.

 

Sent: Monday, 3 June 2019 5:43 AM
To: HANSEN, Jennifer
Subject: Can’t stop crying

Woke up this morning, delayed reaction to your hate and corruption, all I can think about is you and what you are doing to me.  Its stupid of me really, to expect justice, honesty and integrity – I should know by now NZ senior police aren’t like that under the rule of neo-liberal terrorists.

Its stupid of me really to want to kill myself because of what you have said and done, to be rejected over and over again when I beg for help I am supposed to have so I can return to work.

Wonder how many other people you do it to???  Do you all get together and laugh about me?  Try to work out more ways to terrorise me and drive me to suicide to shut me up – or of course what neo-liberals want and have me locked up in a psych hospital or prison???  I have never hurt anybody, I don’t understand why I can’t have health care I am supposed to have so I can return to work – they set it up so people can’t live on welfare, they rant on about everybody working, yet they have refused me health care for nine years after winning two court cases?????  I don’t understand why you are letting them do this to me when it is a crime????

Watched a documentary on a country in Sth America somewhere, where neo-liberals were paying violent gangs to drive the impoverished local population from their land.  A leader of one of the biggest gangs told the journalist how they had been approached but refused – others in the gang left and took up their offer.  The reason the gang boss gave for turning down the $millions was this proverb:
“Tears of the poor will catch up with you one day.”
So many local people living in despair after 30 years of American neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.  So many local people FORCED to live off begging and charity to survive.  You were an elite athlete, you must have lived off charity money, how did it make you feel?  Or is that acceptable to neo-liberals and its only if you’re a victim of crime who can’t work full time that you supposed to feel like worthless human sewage.
Actually, my heart has been broken about you rejecting my serious and valid complaints of crimes against me since I came in for you to fill out those forms.  Its like you took Thor’s hammer to my chest and heart, with all your might you swung it and hit me as far as you possibly could from you.  Its part of this ANOMIE thing everybody is talking about now, the complete breakdown of society due to the breakdown of social bonds that is a direct result of neo-liberals advancing the rich and persecuting the poor for profit.
Why are you doing this to me, what did I ever do to you?  How can you even think it is your job to reject and hurt me, when it is your job to uphold the law for rich and poor.  That is why police swear and  oath to the Queen, or has the monarchy issued some statement of hatred and degrading inadequate charity to poor.  If she has and if the government and the police expect human sewage like me to beg for food and shelter every week THEN WHY DON’T YOU ALL JUST SAY THAT – WHY DON’T YOU PUT THAT IN THE NEWS – so at least rich people don’t HATE poor people for the situation they are in.   If middle class and rich working people, family and friends included, knew human sewage like me was expected to be unemployed and beg for food then they wouldn’t abuse or reject me for it – would they.
I don’t understand I really don’t, I thought I lived in a country that followed the law????   I don’t understand, all the marketing I see about police says you are good people, when I know you are not.   I don’t understand why I am not allowed my ACC care reinstated so I can return to work and at least be able to afford to live????   I don’t understand, I keep thinking I understand and then I sink into a place of utter hopelessness and despair, because I really don’t understand why you personally would do this to me – I never hurt you, I never hurt anybody – THEY HURT ME.
So many tears, so many years, so much despair & those in power don’t care.
I’m sorry I would rather die than beg – that’s why young people kill themselves you know – they are proud and don’t want to beg.  They know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading someone, I know being given charity is a way of controlling and degrading me.
To know how corrupt our government are and how corrupt the police are regarding persecuting disabled mentally injured victims of crime is beyond my ability to cope.  I’m trying to express it through my art, working every day, mostly in tears, sometimes with courage and hope, but mostly with despair and crying.  Feels like I will never stop crying knowing how cruel people are because they believe in religion – neo-liberalism has been classified as a religion.
More police coming on board but less access to them, now we’re not allowed to phone the police station – that’s a neo-liberal corruption tactic by the way.  They do it with ACC, WINZ and so many other organisations put there to help people – help neo-liberals call socialism so they can say they don’t have to do it – even though its still law – we don’t live by rule of law anymore those do we Jennifer.  That’s what rejecting my complaints of crime are about, along with prosecuting me for minor charges for my legal justified protests.  I can’t stop crying, I have to go…. I have no hope, I wish I was dead.
HUMAN SEWAGE

Open Letter to WINZ Masterton manager Michelle & Jacinda Ardern & royal family

Dear Michelle & those who control her,

It the next morning after what happened yesterday, I am still incredibly fragile and on the verge of tears, my eyes are swollen I cried so much yesterday.  I can’t believe how inhuman cruel and callous you were, what is it about a desperate destitute terrified persecuted suicidal abuse victim that turns you into this???   The only word I can find to describe your appalling cruelty is EVIL.

You are going to give me an extra $7 when my rent is going up $40.   I know people living in motels for $150 a night and WINZ pay their rent – why won’t you pay mine???????   They don’t have to pay it back either – or do they????  Its the government who required to provide housing to disabled people, under the law, they havn’t and they show no signs of doing it so more people suffer, suicide, harm and are harmed.  WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO US MICHELLE – YOU ARE THE MANAGER OF WINZ MASTERTON – YOU MUST KNOW WHY THE GOVERNMENT CONTINUE WITH THESE SUICIDE CAUSING HATRED AGAINST DISABLED AND POOR FORCED TO ROT ON WELFARE.

When I phoned you I had been unable to get myself out of bed all morning, I had been trying to cope with the huge increase in my rent, trying to forget it was going to happen, trying to forget that things were about to get much much worse when I already couldn’t cope.   Having that sexual pervert contact me though the accommodation sign I put up at the supermarket made me even more frightened.

You do understand my behaviour is related to extreme overwhelming fear after years of medical neglect, criminal negligence, violence and discrimination by ACC, police, MOH, MSD and others.   I am not mentally ill, there is nothing dysfunctional about how my brain is reacting, it is completely normal to be terrorised to the point of Complex PTSD after this many years of persecution by neo-liberal extremist economic religious beliefs being implemented.  The way people who WERE PURPOSELY IMPOVERISHED were treated after 100,000s became unemployed with this new economic religion was criminal.  I still hope and pray one day those who did it and changed welfare laws especially to be cruel and degrading to those who WERE NO LONGER ALLOWED TO WORK will be prosecuted in a criminal court – and of course humiliated in public.

I have a mental injury, not a mental illness and as it sounds my brain is completely normal just my environment causing the damage and ongoing dysfunction – that is what neo-liberals want and get after 30 years, it insures people are kept terrified and they can create jobs and profits for drug companies, lawyers, security industry etc.

Why would you insult me on the phone like that when I was experiencing such overwhelming despair – Tina Hemi would never ever have insulted me like you did.  Obviously you have never been around someone suicidal and HATE them like most people do, like our government do, like neo-liberals do.   Why can’t you listen to the despair you create, I would imagine every single person who has the misfortune of having to deal with WINZ cries themselves to sleep many many times, your organisation is so degrading and demeaning.  Although rich people who turning 65 love it, especially if they are still working at high paid jobs.

How do you reconcile that with the suffering and economic violence you commit against disabled poor people like myself?   That old rich people in good jobs are going to get welfare when they turn 65, I would imagine you would do that so would be in complete agreement with it.  After all they wouldn’t have made you manager if you weren’t doing what neo-liberals in power wanted you to – and do it with conviction – you are certainly good at that.

If you are not going to hear my desperate screams for health care, justice and decent work, then who is, someone on the street perhaps?  A self-righteous Christian perhaps that wants to hug and insult you, telling you its only temporary and things will get better if you are a good person.   I am a good person Michelle, I understand the rape was just something bad that happened, but what the government, ACC, my family and ‘friends’ did to me after was worse than being raped.  What you are doing to me now is worse than being raped, the trauma I felt after yesterday is like getting over a rape or an attempted murder.

That’s what being as suicidal as I was yesterday is like, being the victim of your best friend trying to kill you, you made that feeling so much worse.  I have to sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards trying not to go to the knife drawer and end it, it is a living nightmare, torment and of course psychological torture.  You did that to me Michelle, I am not mentally ill for what happened – I walk around trying to pretend everything is OK and going to be OK, then it just all comes out and I can’t hold it back.  You would see this a lot with the people you terrorise, degrade and persecute, I would imagine the more intelligent and harmed by violence they are the worse it is.

Someone told me you have a lot fewer people forced to come in begging for food and money to live, that must make it so much easier for you, not having to look these people in the eye.  But then as manager you would seldom see the consequences of your cruelty, easier to keep doing it when you don’t have to face it.  That is what I have found over the years of protesting about being denied professional health care, rehabilitation and state house I am entitled to under ACC and other laws.  Books on abuses of power and cruelty are filled with it.

Check out the Milgram Experiment on youtube or the Stanford Prison experiment – you are the  person flicking the switch to kill people because someone in authority over you says, someone in a white coat says I am mentally disturbed and not to listen to me – but you know that’s not true, don’t you Michelle.   You are the violent guard enjoying his power over others, I am the prisoner they keep putting in the cupboard.

Please explain to me why the meeting Tina & Richard at WINZ were trying to organise between ACC, police, mental health, WINZ and myself was cancelled?   Don’t I at least have the right to know what happened and what was said, under the OIA and Privacy ACt I am entitled to a copy of my file, please provide that.  I would imagine the government is so corrupt they have avoided keeping emails or only done illegal things to harm me by phone, could you please write down WHY this meeting failed.   Please tell me why its OK I don’t have a doctor, why I don’t have professional health care when I won two court cases in 2010/11.  Please tell me why, please help me understand why I am being treated so cruelly when I am so unwell and all I want to do is go back to work and be safe in my own home.

All WINZ and government talk about is how people should work, I want to work more than anything, please help me be able to do that, please I am begging you.  At the moment I am so unwell terrorised being in a social situation wouldn’t be possible.  But my art and creativity is off the scale with the amount of stress and trauma I am being subjected to, why can’t we use that?   I not only do art about how bad my life is and how bad neo-liberal terrorism is, I do other stuff, lots of stuff, plays especially which could be world famous and perfect for tourists.   Stories about birds and races around  The Pinnacles, Palliser bay Sweeper,  Cook Strait, Harbour Hairpin, Wainui hill, Mount Aorangi, it goes over and over in my head.  I can see it as a play done by children in schools, a play done by professional actors at skate parks and other venues and of course a movie on the scale of Avatar.   The race route probably goes over James Cameron’s property, not that a worthless piece of garbage like me would ever get the opportunity to develop a story/myth etc like that.   One that includes Maori legend and disabled people/birds etc.

Please I have so many ideas for jobs, especially the amount of industrial waste I am seeing come from the building industry, its deeply disturbing and would be an excellent way of trying to earn my own money.  Sadly after the last police assault they damaged my wrist permanently this time and as it requires a lot of working with my hands I couldn’t do it for very long, but I’m sure there would be other disabled people I know DESPERATE FOR WORK who would.  So many of them expected to volunteer for free – volunteering should be for people who DON’T WANT TO WORK, not for people who do!  Exploiting disabled people by making them feel guilty if they don’t volunteer is disgusting – these people are so desperate.

I have been in several businesses in the past, I know what I am capable of now and I know I could not run a business, I NEED HELP AND HEALTH CARE I AM ENTITLED TO SO I CAN HEAL AND RETURN TO WORK.   That is all I have ever wanted, I thought that is what you wanted to, that’s what all the marketing and cruel demands to apply for 100s of jobs is about isn’t it.

Please be assured what you are doing for the government is driving people to violence and suicide, that is immoral and cruel.  Until recently NAZI were being put on trial and put in jail even in their 90s because of crimes during their reign of terror – only for those targeted for persecution and blame, not the bulk of the population.  The similarities about what I have read about pre-WWII Germany and what our govt are currently doing to targeted minorty group I am part of is terrifying.   How you cannot see this, when you are one of the GENERALS in this neo-liberal/NAZI persecution and exploitation of poor by insane wealthy elities is beyond me.  Hoefully this letter will get through to you and you will turn on those in the white jackets and not perpetrate the cruelty you are.

You text me with a $50 food grant on my card – I’m sorry I can’t use it and I find it extremely offensive you would do that after yesterday – I didn’t beg you for food did I?????  You remind me of some rich ignorant selfish neglectful parent who doesn’t want to spend any time with their child and just gives them THINGS to shut them up.  Causes a lot of teenage suicide in rich families.    I can’t use the food grant because I would have to go to a supermarket when I am really really fragile and offend the minimum wage checkout operator.  You obviously completely reject the idea that young people and most older women who required to work in these low paid jobs are resentful of people that LOOK OK and don’t work, getting food for free through the government/through their taxes.

You told me the last time I was forced to beg for food that there was no food grant money left for human sewage like me – now all of a sudden you come up with it – only to make yourself feel better about what you are doing to me.  Did the police suggest it perhaps, you phoned them to come intimidate me cause you know what they did to me and how terrified I am of them.  Thankfully they know not to engage with me unless they really have to – that’s because most police officers are disgusted in what is happening to me, but like you do their jobs without question.

I’m sure with having corrupt abusive Forensic Mental Health staff in your building they’ve illegally filled you in on all the lies they tell about me refusing mental health care.  I HAVE NEVER EVER REFUSED PROFESSIONAL MENTAL HEALTH CARE, they have refused me multiple times, then say to others I don’t want care.   Why do you think I am so screwed up, its because they lie and I can do nothing to stop the lies either.   I will be posting my 37 page complaint to medical council and privacy commissioner re Dr Justin Barry-Walsh in next few days.  It was interesting how when he is supposed to consult with my family, friends and others I suggest, he instead went to mental health services, police and lawyers that have never represented me.   I asked told him he could contact Tina, as she has known me for so long and understands the deterioration in my mental health over the years.

I am very sad you hurt Tina for helping me, very very sad and deeply disturbed.   Hopefully if I ever get a legal inquiry into how badly I have been treated, what people in teh system have done to try and help me and been disadvantaged for will be addressed.  Hopefully they will get compensation and recognition of the bullying and cruel tactics they were subjected to by their bosses LIKE YOU.

Did I tell you I can’t use the card because I feel so degraded and worthless when I do, I would rather eat my own feces at the moment.  Wish I could go to the food bank, I just can’t, those people are as degrading as WINZ, except they can go home and gossip about those people they gave food to – because they were losers who didn’t want to work!

I wish I didn’t HATE you but I do, I really really HATE you and everybody doing this to me – all of it illegal.  After 17 years of study I know my rights, I know what is happening to me and I know why, I also know it is illegal uncivilised and cruel.  Unlike majority of people who live in the darklands of this neo-liberal hell hole I spend almost all my waking hours trying to get help so I can work and educating myself as to why I can’t get what the law says, keeping myself informed of local and world events.  I seldom watch TV, can’t stand the advertising and propaganda, have you seen the neo-liberal propaganda ASB Bank is vomiting all over us at the moment.  How we are all one people no matter how many different nationalities.

Its extremely disturbing propaganda, putting so many cultures together who are driving disabled and poor locals out of their homes, jobs, health care, etc and our govt and business leaders committing cultural genocide against PAKEHA, ewwwwww.

Please ask yourself why you HATE me and persecute me, I never hurt you, I never stole your money, I never took food from your fridge and cupboard, I never insulted or patronised you, I never hurt any of your children or your family, I never drove you out of your home, I never made your life a living nightmare – I don’t even know you – so why do you do it to me??????  Is that why you couldn’t handle my phone call and answerphone messages, because I put the blame directly onto you as a human being and woman?   You want to pretend you’re just doing your job and hurting/terrorising disabled people like myself is your job.

I cant go on, I’ve started crying again, my heart is broken, what a evil cruel country I live in.

My heart is low
My head is bowed
From the depths the hell does rise
I can hardly move
Nothing will sooth
My broken heart no longer flies

I can see no future
Now a tortured creature
Looking out from blackened eyes
So much rejection
Like an injection
Of the suicidal size

Our society
Don’t want to see
How the system is full of lies
The market torture wheel
Doesn’t care or feel
They’re paid to ignore your cries

The money men
Shake hands and then
Hide their crimes behind skirts and ties

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This is dedicated to you Michelle, to you Jacinda and to you William (or more correctly to your mum who is a distant relative of mine).