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Complaint against Wairarapa police trying to drive me to suicide!

6 November 2019

New Zealand Police

IPCA – independent haters of human sewage like me

It is with terror and self-harm that I am writing yet another complaint I know will be ignored, as every other complaint I have ever made has been and things have only got worse with regard to my treatment by Wairarapa police. I am so traumatised by what happened I desperately needed to talk to someone about my complaint so I phoned the number for Police HQ I got some other non-urgent number. They told me they were putting me through to a police complaints line, but they put me through to the main police line and I didn’t realise.

I phoned them about 4pm and would like that recorded interview accessed and listened to. Except for the bit at the end when I found out it wasn’t a dedicated line for police complaints and I had been on the main line taking up time, also that the person wasn’t going to send the complaint she had written to IPCA as well as local police – not that I trust either after the years of psychological and physical abuse I have been subjected to for my justified legal protests about abusive mental health services and others.

 

Last time I complained I am sure the person sent it to IPCA as well, I was expecting that to happen, I got upset with the woman on the phone, because she said it wasn’t procedure.

 

I don’t want to do this, I don’t want to do this, I don’t want to do this – you are never ever going to do anything – making these complaints is worse than what they are doing to me – because you never stop it, no matter how many complaints I make you never ever stop them.

 

I’m not sure how this is going to turn out so I apologise in advance if it is all over the place, has spelling and grammatical errors, I won’t be able to go through and check it when I am finished I will be so distressed.

 

A warrant was issued for my arrest Friday 1 November after me breaking my bail conditions accidently regarding seeing   ?????  in front of my parked car putting money in the meter and I lost it and starting singing at him.

 

I was told by email, although I am sure a police car came down my street to make sure I was at my home. The officer didn’t come in but the email I received from Jennifer Hansen said there was a car available to pick me from Carterton and take me to Masterton. I refused as I was looking after my daughter’s dog for the week and as police had already said they would oppose my bail I couldn’t go in as there was nobody else to care for the dog. I said I would come in Monday morning. Hansen told me to be there early in the morning. The email is available if you want proof.

 

On Saturday I wrote a five page letter about what happened, long hand as I have no way of printing out typed documents at the moment. It was to the Presiding Judge and a copy for duty lawyer as I knew my mental health was really bad and ability to communicate was more impaired than it had ever been. This is what I call ‘managing impairments related to my disability’, which is how I was taught to approach things when I studied disability at Massey a few years ago.

 

As I had been incarcerated the entire day previously and ended up flipping out at the judge because of it, I didn’t hurry to get to the police station to hand myself in. I dropped off the letters, was assured the judge and lawyer would get them then returned to my car, parked along the street back of Masterton police station. I intended to get some chalk from the boot and go chalking some poetry on the street outside court and police station. It helps me deal with the disempowered way I am treated.

 

When I was coming back past the back of the police station two police officers followed me and arrested me, took me back to the station and processed me. But even from when I was walking in I started not being able to speak/communicate properly, I was obviously very unwell and very distressed by what was happening. When I was put into the cell I sat on the bed for about 5 mins but I was still freaking out really badly and started to rock backwards and forwards.   Then all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball in the corner of the cell on the floor so I did.

 

Foetal position with my hands over my face – WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME DO THIS – WHY DO YOU MAKE ME MAKE COMPLAINTS AND THEN DO NOTHING AND THINGS ONLY GET WORSE. I don’t want to remember what happened, it makes me want to kill myself I feel so despairing – all this just because I want my ACC reinstated after winning two reviews nine years ago.

 

Any officer that came near me I couldn’t respond to, I just cowered in the corner even more. I was there for hours. Then two officers came in and started to ask me questions, I was frozen. A male officer, who I didn’t see because my eyes were closed & my hands over my face asked me if I was awake, I couldn’t respond, he touched me and I flinched. He then said something about DHB phone call and I knew I couldn’t cope emotionally about what he was about to say so I put my fingers in my ears as strongly as I could. Putting my fingers in my ears is a common automatic response for me when I am psychologically overwhelmed.

 

I still couldn’t calm myself so I started involuntarily banging my head against the wall where I was sitting, which helped, I kept doing this for a long time. I peaked out from my position & couldn’t see anybody in the room so I stopped and relaxed a little. I couldn’t cry which was a really weird feeling as I was very distressed. I was numb.

 

I never responded to any officers the entire time I was there. I did eventually get up off the floor and walked around a bit but if I heard the buzzer of the door I immediately walked into the corner with my head away from the door and put my hands over my face. I was in the cells a long time police had other customers, men who came and went. I looked out of my cell and they waved out to me but I couldn’t speak – this is not like me I am usually ok at verbalising and last time I was in there all day I was singing and self-harming for most of it.   I hit myself repeatedly and do other things to self-harm, I don’t cut myself – too scared. Anything to make the pain I feel at what happening to me not be so overwhelming.

 

I finally got out of the cell and two older officers that have terrorised and insulted me were there – Cunningham and Basher. I was cowering from them, I felt safer with the man in black clothes attending to me. I was moved to the court cell, which I am afraid of after a really bad experience there last year coming over in a transport vehicle having been arrested in Wellington when protesting at Human Rights Commission. I was so cold, the vehicle was so cold and the cell was so cold and I was left there for so long. Going back in there triggers me further. I had managed to be able to communicate a little more and starting singing. I was there for ages too, I saw the duty lawyer who refused to read the letter and started asking me questions. I started answering them but quickly became angry and upset and ended up screaming at her so was removed. This is similar to what happened when they kept me in the cells all day the last time. I was trying to manage my disorder so I didn’t scream at anybody, that is why I wrote the letter but she wouldn’t read it.

 

I finally saw the judge, almost last person for the day, I had sat in the cell for hours listening to all the names being called, waiting for my name. For years the court had been accommodating my disorder and knowing how stressed and unwell I get put me up as early as possible so I could leave and go home.

 

The judge had my letter all day, she already knew what she was going to decide. I did start to cry when I finally got in front of her and represented myself reasonably successfully as I didn’t have to say much more than the letter. Judge Morris knows my case well and knows all I want is to leave and go home. It only took 10-15 mins to see her. Police did oppose bail, which she ignored thank God. I did start crying in the court and was distressed when the Police lawyer prosecuting me brought over tissues – why do people who are hurting you for a job want to be nice to you, it really screws with my head when police and others do that.

 

When I finally got my bail forms to sign the security guard acted strangely and told the registrar lady I had been in the cells since this morning when I dropped off the letter for the judge. They looked at each other ‘knowingly’, but didn’t say anything to me about that not being OK, it was more a feeling I got over the days following. I didn’t tell the security guard, who I get on with and feel safe around, about how distressed I was in the cells because he doesn’t like it when I’m in that bad a state (in a caring way). He has seen me in that sort of mess (state of unwellness/trauma/stressed) before outside/inside court a couple of times.

 

It is deeply humiliating when I’m that terrified and traumatised I act out like that – but I try my best to think of it as part of my disability and not beat myself up even more about it. However I do often have a serious suicidal episode some time later, anything from a few days to two weeks later. As I get no services, am terrified of mental health almost as much as police and have nobody to talk to who is capable of supporting me, I go through those horrendous things alone at home.   Complex PTSD has a 60% mortality rate because of suicide and I know it is a life and death situation for me every time I go through. I still don’t know how I make it and I do know it traumatises me more because it is like experiencing your best friend trying to kill you and put you out of your misery. You so desperately want to die because you can’t get help or justice you know you need – and from what you read, you are entitled to.

 

Police know what happens, they know how suicidal I am, they know what distresses me the most, they have become very good at triggering and psychologically manipulating/terrorising me. Keeping me in the cells all day is something they know causes me to flip out, which of course makes me look bad and them justified in their actions – WHICH THEY ARE NOT!

 

I have always maintained Wairarapa police are purposely inciting me to suicide so I don’t protest about the illegal unjust things happening to me (and other people disabled by Complex PTSD) at the hands of ACC, police and other very powerful cruel corrupt immoral people. I know from my own past experience and what other Wairarapa people have told me police here are really mean to suicidal people, which I am sure contributes significantly to Wairarapa having highest rate of suicide in New Zealand & highest rate of self-harm in the OECD.

 

Also the complaints from ?????  about violating my bail conditions were full of lies about what happened. Police said I approached him, which I definitely did not. Both of us were surprised when I looked up and he was right in front of my car. Note: there are angle parks with one central metre for about 10 of them. I only opened my car door and stood there singing with one arm on car roof and one on the door, for less than 30 seconds.

 

I emailed Jennifer Hansen the next day asking for the CCTV footage because I was thinking about the security guard comment to the court registrar. It can’t have been right that I was kept there all day, especially in the extremely traumatised state I was in. Felt if a doctor or psychiatrist had seen the situation he would not have allowed police to interrogate me further about other charges. People extremely traumatised who have Complex PTSD have to be in a less distressed state to be able to even answer questions and not to be traumatised further.

 

I DON’T WANT TO WRITE THIS, WHY DO YOU MAKE ME DO THIS ALL THE TIME AND NEVER HELP ME, NEVER DO ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME, NEVER MAKE IT STOP. Those violent assaults you ignored, those two officers who lied in court, the one who threatened me with seeing how bad police could be if I kept protesting – you never did anything. The assault with handcuffs that has left me permanently damaged you never even asked her to apologise, which is why I wear my wrist brace whenever I protest or have to see police for anything.

 

When they were thoroughly searching me before they put me in the cell on Monday the two woman asked me to take it off, at which I flinched and backed into the corner of the fingerprint room – they knew why. I did take it off and show it to them. They even said they knew I didn’t like being touched – which I don’t – few, if any, persecuted abuse victims with Complex PTSD do.

 

I emailed Jennifer Hansen the next day – did I say that above? Asked for the footage, complained about being kept in the cells all day in the state I was. I also asked about what the two officers who came into the cell actually said because I couldn’t hear them with my fingers in my ears as tightly as they were & banging my head against the wall. It was two more complaints, one of them was a blatant lie by one woman saying I had threatened to get people to come and hurt her – which is a blatant lie.   It is a fundamental principle of mine that God or Karma is the one to dish out punishment – NOT ME. I would not threaten it or for anybody else to do it EVER. I do hope the bad things happening to me and other terrorised impoverished abuse victims in New Zealand happen to these people. Because I know what they do is going to hurt an innocent poor person, but that appears acceptable to our government at the moment, no matter what Jacinda Ardern says publicly.

 

Now police have got people telling lies or they are on their behalf?????   It is very distressing, nobody believes anything I say due to bigotry, hatred, false statements by health ‘professionals’ & being discredited by public mental health services, police etc. This is the experience of majority of mentally injured abuse victims and certain mentally ill people in Wairarapa that I have met – usually protesting in the street.

 

Jennifer Hansen said I will be charged with the further two charges when I go to court on 18 November. I did refute the allegations about threatening harm vehemently by email.

It might be relevant to have the letter I gave to the judge on Monday morning but it is handwritten and I have reached then end of my ability to cope and need to get this complaint sent. I can’t stop crying…………………… Please make them stop, please I am begging you, as I have begged you before, but you never did anything. Wellington police were never as bad as Wairarapa have been……………………….. I am exhausted

(It has been very difficult sharing this with everybody, because I am terrified someone will call the police ‘concerned for my welfare’  and they will just hurt me more.)

Sincerely

 

Jayne R

Civil Society Activist

HUMAN SEWAGE

PS   I hope the Red Cross and Wairarapa DHB are happy with the cruel and unjust treatment I received from police because of their complaints.  I’m sure they’d be happy if I killed myself too – just like my brother.  ANOMIE in action.

Here’s some really clever GLOBALIST neo-liberal propaganda by Rod Oram

My computer now won’t print anything so I can’t print out the story, make notes and do a youtube video about it.   Here is a very clever neo-liberal globalist who avoids the word neo-liberalism and gives us the BS about we need a constitution in the commonwealth.  We need to follow the Commonwealth Charter, Declaration of Democracy and Rule of fkn law – is what we need to do!  That will not happen until poor people like myself who most oppressed and terrorised by neo-liberals in power, have access to lawyers and our court system.

I know a lot about NZs constitutional documents – I participated in the Constitution Conversation they had several years ago, it was an embarrassment of wealthy powerful people talking BS, who knew nothing about those in poverty.   I went along and contributed where I could as a poor person – the people had absolutely no idea what I was talking about they were so sheltered.

OUR GOVERNMENT AND JUDICIARY ARE CORRUPT – THAT IS WHY OUR CURRENT CONSTITUTIONAL DOCUMENTS ARE NOT UPHELD IN COURT.   In fact my dodgy lawyer at the moment REFUSES TO USE constitutional documents like the Imperial Laws Application Act to defend my case.   He refuses to respond to any of my emails, he refuses to put in writing when he discriminates against me and refuses to listen to my instruction, etc etc.

I will tell you more soon

I need to go for a walk now and clear my heard after the trauma my brother put me through yesterday my heart is still broken and hurting.  Its raining, that should be nice, I like walking in the rain.   Part of my childhood growing up in Hokitika.

https://www.newsroom.co.nz/2019/09/15/805510/constitution-save-us-chaos#

 

Labour party called police to come terrorise me – a sexual abuse victim begging for her ACC care?

Just had the police call me for a WELFARE VISIT – wtf – apparently someone called them concerned for my welfare – WTF.  That I was going to self-harm, well of course I self-harm, that’s what people do WHO CAN’T GET SERVICES and living in the darklands – its part of my disorder everybody knows that and thinks its a great joke.

Am terrified, after reading those deceitful/offensive psych reports and how I’m labelled as insane for knowing what is happening to me and why it is NOT MY FAULT.   This is terrifying, I was right about Labour – because me being who I am phoned them and left a polite message on their answerphone asking why they were prosecuting me for wilful trespass FOR A PIECE OF ART on their Masterton office.   I got the call from police only 15 mins later – OMG – I can’t stop crying (I have got to stop crying, they do this to me on purpose to terrorise me I have to remember that.)

The cop was ——— (polite, young, confused and brainwashed to the hilt), telling me I didn’t want their help.   I just started crying and got really upset.   Asked him to stop police continually prosecuting me for my art and legal protests.  Asked him why police weren’t investigating and prosecuting ACC and mental health under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act for them refusing me care I was entitled to after winning two court cases nine years ago and everything they said was available over and over again for years.  Asked him who phoned – he refused to say – asked him who they worked for, which I know by law I am allowed to know, he refused to say.   Lots more I can’t say because I’m so upset.  Check out my youtube channel for more.

This is because I am upset with Jacinda ARderns lies about the arts in New Zealand and the sexual abuse saga at the moment.

Can’t talk more too angry and have to leave the house in case police turn up.  Told the guy on the phone I’m terrified of police and mental health for good reason.   He was threatening to send mental health services around – WTF – those fucking lying murderers can’t wait to get me under compulsory treatment order so they can lock me up and drug me up – so I shut up about the damage neo-liberal economic terrorism is having on us – so I shut up about abusive experimental unprofessional ‘drug company’ based mental health services.

Our govt and corporations purposely drive poor people to suicide, crime, anxiety and violence so they can create jobs and businesses out of us.   The people most affected by the stress of inhuman living situations are those who victims of crime, abuse victims who according to police statistics are subjected to 80% of the crime in NZ.   The sexual abuse saga playing out with one of their own young female members proves very powerful MEN in the Labour party instinctively discredit, trivialise and dismiss women.  Exactly what they do to victims of sexual abuse who are poor and need more extensive health care and rehab than the current EXTREMELY UNPROFESSIONAL RESTRICTIONS they have ACC imposing ILLEGALLY!!!!

Grrrr

Otago University in New Zealand – centre of neo-liberal propaganda!!!!

Below is a news item I just saw on Microsoft News service in New Zealand – you know if they have it on their website (WHICH I CANNOT REMOVE FROM MY HOME PAGE when I open a new tab).   Below are some issues I want you to consider:

  1.   Since when does NZ have a CENTRE FOR PEACE AND CONFLICT???????  Your taxes pay for that and neo-liberals created it in order to terrorise those people who HAVE EVERY REASON NOT TO TRUST ANYBODY IN THIS HELL HOLE FOR THE POOR AND UTOPIA FOR RICH PIGS.
  2. A survey of 1000 people out of 5million – how did they survey them????   Did those people have home phone lines, or internet access – which poor people often do not have.
  3. Its interesting how this elitist university person goes on about trust – as a disabled victim of our government and subjected to 80% of the crime in NZ I have no trust in anybody.  Why would I, you can’t trust anybody when you live rotting in poverty, denied ALL HEALTH CARE and justice.
  4. It is a well known fact 20% of the NZ population experience 80% of the crime – ALL OF THESE MILLION PEOPLE live in poverty, majority of these people are terrorised abused women.  NZ has the highest rate of domestic/flatmate violence IN THE OECD – that is because our govt are corrupt and do not provide state housing for disabled people AS REQUIRED BY LAW.
  5. Was this information put up as news by our corrupted neo-liberal media for propaganda purposes????   To make people think there is nothing to worry about, to make tourists think there is nothing to worry about.
  6. I live in the darklands of this neo-liberal nightmare, I can assure those people who have easy good lives – you have a lot to worry about cause the poorest most destitute and persecuted people in this hell hole are going to come for the rich.

I read a lot of news reports and the worst, most bias and elitist neo-liberal propaganda comes from Otago University.  That is the centre for child abuse, for persecution of poor families, for hate, for persecution of victims of crime and criminal negligence by govt/ACC/mental health.  ACC centre for REMOTE CLAIMANTS – ie people illegally denied treatment care rehab and homes they entitled to under ACC law – is based on Dunedin/Otago.  If I phone any ACC number from my phone it automatically goes to an answerphone that is NEVER EVER RESPONDED TO.

Don’t believe me about how corrupt NZ universities are then check out Chris Hedges and others now criticising them all around the world.  They are the ones who spread neo-liberal economics and brainwashed millions of students into believing it was the only possible economic model.  Why do you think heads of universities in NZ are paid the most obscene salaries in this country.  Just like head of Police, ACC etc.   Fact is the most corrupt neo-liberal terrorists in NZ get the most money – the new (Adrian Orr) Reserve Bank Gov has been one of the most highest paid public servants in NZ – he is the most corrupt as well.   He’s presiding over a global economic collapse and all us peasant going to pay soon – the poorest and those in rentals will pay the most of course!

Universities are supposed to be full of the most intelligent people in our country (lots of neo-liberal elitist foreigners in there now).   They are the ones the government relies on for information – they are the ones who have made NZ No 1 in the OECD for youth suicide, domestic/flatmate violence, women self-harm, eating disorders and of course homelessness.   The following CENTRE FOR PEACE knows how many NZers (mostly local people of all ethnic backgrounds who were born here) are subjected to violence and crime.  They know it is caused by poverty and people not having their most basic human needs met for safety, shelter and food security.

Here is the news item – I would contact this ‘Centre’ and this university lecturer but I know there is absolutely no point.  I do this all the time when I see BS from Otago University – nothing changes.  These people in our universities are THE MOST ELITIST bigoted murderers in our country.  All they do is work out ways to create jobs and profits to exploit terrorised impoverished victims of crime.  And by the looks of this article to make sure majority of NZ citizens live ignorant and happy with their lives.

https://www.newshub.co.nz/home/new-zealand/2019/08/no-drop-in-new-zealanders-trust-after-christchurch-shootings-study-shows.html

Medical Council complaint, proof of New Zealand government corruption & cruelty

3 May 2019

 

Medical Council of NZ

PO Box 10509

The Terrace

WELLINGTON

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

This letter is to form part of my complaint about Justin Barry-Walsh and others using psychological abuse/torture in an attempt to drive me to suicide.

 

I am not sure how to talk about the background to this as it is very traumatising for me, I have communication impairments and need someone to insure I relate all the relevant information needed for the Medical Council to make a decision. Can you please help me work out how to do this, I am not sure myself, whether phone or face to face. I have no support to do this from anybody else.

 

This is in regard to being in court for my legal and valid protests about police violence, being illegally denied health care, punitive use of the justice system, government corruption, gross injustices in mental health and housing sector, etc. Legal Aid refused me legal aid, even when the judge said they were required to provide it so I had a lawyer.

 

On 1 May I heard from Nelda Day court officer that the second psych assessment would be 24 May, THE DAY AFTER I was due in court. The date of 23 May was made four weeks ago, the Forensic Service was required to provide a suitably qualified culturally appropriate ‘impartial’ psych assessment as requested by Judge Morris before the next court date – not the day after. The 23rd was chosen because I have a long term relationship of sorts with Judge Morris and she is determined to do whatever she can to get me the health care and justice I am entitled to under law – so I don’t end up in court repeatedly for my ongoing protests. She was going to be there on 23 May, she may not be there 10 days later.

 

I was advised the assessor was going to be Dr David Chaplow, ex Director of mental health and one of the people I have spent the past 17 yrs complaining/protesting about.   The first assessor was not who the court staff were told it would be, it was a very gay sounding man called Peter who only 18 months before wrote a report saying I didn’t want services – which was a horrendous lie.   Then I got Dr Barry-Walsh who I thought to be trustworthy, but obviously wasn’t from his report. Now they want Dr Chaplow, when I had requested Mason Drury or ANYBODY he recommended who knew Whare Tapa Wha and assessed on a culturally appropriate basis, ie as a Pakeha New Zealander. The judge supported this in her formal request to Forensic Services, it was ignored.

 

Finding out the court had organised the psych assessment for the day after I was due in court made me very angry and I challenged court staff about this.   I was told to contact Forensic Services as they were the ones who organised it, there was nothing they could do. Giving consideration to my extremely poor mental health what they were doing was psychological torture, vindictive, punitive use of the justice system and criminal under Sections 150A and 151 of the Crimes Act. It is also a perversion of justice which is a crime and subject to 7 years jail if convicted and of course many other human rights and disability rights laws.  I looked on the website and tried to phone head of Forensic Services Dr Emery-Palmer http://www.mhaids.health.nz/about-us/directors-of-area-mental-health-services/ given the seriousness of what was happening.

 

I went through to a call centre, the person asked me who I was because psychiatrists did not talk with patients who phoned, I told her I was not a patient. She phoned through to Dr Emery-Palmer and returned to me saying the doctor had said I was a patient and not to put me through. I reiterated I was not a patient and tried to explain the situation, the woman hung up on me.

 

As a writer I have a pretty good grasp of the English language and just to make sure looked up the word patient.   I am definitely not a patient by definition of the word, I am not registered with any health provider (am not allowed to register, the waiting list is 600 people long – mostly wealthy immigrants), I have not received any services from mental health for many years – no matter how many times I begged for professional health care I was entitled to. I have not received anything from public mental health services, except some counselling 25 years ago and the odd bit of social work (which is not health care). I did have some interaction with an Occupational Therapist in 2009 but when ACC illegally withdrew my actual professional rehabilitation the OT couldn’t cope and rejected me also. I had been working with a very professional and amazing OT Glenda vandervenLong at the time who was funded by ACC. The interaction with Hugh Gaywood-Eyre OT was more a therapeutic interaction, there was no ‘health care’ involved.

 

The last interaction I had with Hugh was at Masterton police station, I was on the floor with my arms around the ankles of the social worker sitting beside him begging for health care. Hugh told me to get up and stop embarrassing myself, that I knew as well as him there were no longer services in mental health. He left the service not long after that, I knew him through a club I belonged to for a while, we have discussed what happened, he left MH services as he couldn’t cope with how badly they treated people.

 

Being a patient would require some sort of regular interaction with the same person, I can’t recall that happening for a very long time. It distresses me greatly that other people appear to get professional health care and I do not. I have never understood why and people treat me like I’m a liar and delusional when I tell them what is happening to me, because it doesn’t happen to them. Hopefully the Medical Council and police can work out what has been happening to me. The only possible reason I can think of is my public protests and formal complaints, it is illegal to harm or disadvantage someone who makes a complaint.

 

With everything the media and government say about mental health services and the horrendous ‘suicide promotion’ propaganda we are all subjected to day after day, my mental health is denigrated even further by my experience of EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE to what is expected.

 

It appears to me Dr Emery-Palmer may be part of this appalling abusive behaviour by Forensic Services, I truly believe only a police investigation would be able to explain what is happening and how many it is happening to. I know from the laws I read it is not allowed to happen to me or anybody else.

 

Mental health services have more power over people and the opportunity for more abuses of power than police. What is happening to me might explain New Zealand’s world leading suicide, self-harm, domestic violence and eating disorder rates. Perhaps I am part of a targeted group of disabled people who are prevented from accessing professional health care, using professional health and rehabilitation models and whose valid complaints are illegally rejected.

 

Please make this stop, please, I have never hurt anybody, I barely drink, I don’t do drugs, I don’t steal, I don’t rip people off, I don’t bludge off people, I don’t gossip, I don’t gamble, I am not a sexual deviant or pervert of any sort. I am an honest good person just wanting health care I need and am entitled to so I can return to work for wages, so I can live with dignity and in safety without having to beg for food. My house is tidy and clean, my gardens are done, I share jars of jam & pickle I make with others, most of it goes to waste (when I get given fruit or produce people don’t want). I don’t want to live like this as an outcast of society, I am intelligent, I have reports that say it, I have a report from Justin Barry-Walsh 6 years ago that said I was intelligent, didn’t have a personality disorder and am not delusional. That is still true, unfortunately I don’t know if Justin is as sound minded.

 

I am 54 years old, why are they doing this to me, I am going to be destitute the rest of my life if they don’t help me, there is no point in living if this is what my life is going to be like.   Please I want to meet my grandchildren, please I don’t want to be despised by my family and the community, please I havn’t done anything wrong and I don’t understand why this is happening to me when every law and report I read says exactly the opposite should be happening. Please if I don’t work I know I will be raped, harmed and exploited again, please help me, this is what is happening in the ‘darklands’ where I live every day. Its very hard to avoid junkies and being told repeatedly to interact with very self-righteous wealthy Christians is extremely offensive. The times I have gone to churches for support I have ended up being the one supporting them, working for them for nothing, often doing things for people who were getting health services and had safe stable homes to live in.

 

Did I tell you about them cancelling an x-ray the doctor at A & E said I needed, so I went there and was told there was no appointment?   Did I tell you about mental health staff gossiping to people in the community about what a bad person I was (who then came and told me). If I was a patient of mental health services then I would be able to make formal complaints about this gossip and the horrendous violations of my most basic rights, I am not so I can’t.   How can somebody be a PATIENT of a health system that completely rejects them?   They treat sex offenders and abusive thieving junkies better than they treat their victims, I know that for sure.

 

What is happening to me is a criminal act and a deliberate perversion of justice

 

 

Yours sincerely

 

 

JR

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

Wairarapa Police The Devil’s Right Arm

In response to being assaulted with handcuffs by police last week.  I will be writing this on back of wallpaper and stapling up in Masterton and chalking around the streets.  Have asked for a meeting with the local new police inspector here and anybody else of a pay grade that can get an investigation into ACC etc under criminal negligence.

Handcuffs are not a weapon

Police are not there to harm

Freedom of speech is a right under law

Local police now the Devil’s right arm!

ReFuSe

Budget Policy Statement 2018 – New Zealand

SUBMISSION BY JR Civil Society Actor, on NZ GOVT BUDGET POLICY STATEMENT 2018

 

Yet another submission to government that I know will not be considered because it does not fit the neo-liberal agenda and demands immediate action on the terrorism of an entire sector of society after 30years of this illegal, immoral and irrational economic model.

 

It has been my contention for many years it is government PRIORITES that had become illegal/immoral by violating our most basic laws of Westminister Statute 1st – Common right be done to all rich as poor, and Magna Carta – no person shall be destroyed and every person shall have access to right and justice. They also violate Commonwealth Charter, NZ Bill of Rights, ACC legislation, disability, human & civil rights laws and multiple SIGNED United Nations declarations. Then of course there is the violation of Christianity -which our laws are based on and every sociology and psychology rule about causes of violence & social dysfunction.

 

Government kindness was

Never an OPTION

And

Cruelty was always

ILLEGAL

 

It is obvious people in power have started to realise those of us impoverished and persecuted by this economic terrorism aren’t going to take any more of it and our appalling statistics in child suicide, homelessness, addiction, violence, corporate greed, inequality etc is proof. I am sure there will be many others like me demanding to get gross injustices we have experienced addressed and compensated in a Court of New Zealand. I am sure this is why you are so focused on CHILD POVERTY and not dealing with the damage the past 30 yrs of adult poverty has caused – which our mental health stats reflect (and international drug companies profit from/along with justice system). You don’t want to deal with all those abuse victims who driven mad due to lack of services they entitled to – which included safe homes to live in and decent jobs if they older. You don’t want to deal with those of us demanding compensation for the torture and suffering we have been through – demanding justice.

You have mentioned child poverty 14 times in this one document, every one of those was an insult to the parents of these children who are obviously living in poverty as well. Of course elites like to pretend these parents are all losers, drink and drug and don’t care about their kids – which is NOT TRUE. Although many of the parents that are dysfunctional in this way are abuse victims themselves and never got the help they are entitled to and needed under ACC/disability laws/disability strategy/professional rehabilitation models to heal from their trauma and STOP the cycle. I know this for a fact because I live this grossly unjust nightmare – where media and government continuously say they don’t know what to do yet allow ACC to deny disabled mentally injured abuse victims our entitlements. I have spent the past 15 years since I was raped understanding the violence industry, law, human rights etc – I’ve been rotting on welfare, I have the time and I work very long hours and weeks without a break.

 

You refer to the Governments Budget Responsibility Rules, which I am sure National party have been violating for the past eight years, that makes me nervous, cause it indicates you are going to continue to give BUDGET constraints, as an excuse to deny disabled people safe stable homes to live in NOW! (People in Carterton who know how bad housing crisis is here was asking why aren’t govt bringing in the army, prefab homes like they had in Christchurch?)

 

Addressing housing and infrastructure crisis over years, while continuing with extreme levels of immigration is grossly irresponsible and illegal under Imperial Laws. Immigrants are driving New Zealanders out of their homes, businesses and jobs – you have made that legal and any sociologist will tell you it creates racism and violence. Humans have been fighting off invaders that take their most basic resources since BEGINNING OF HUMANS. Having this sort of environment will be triggering the basic instincts of all those affected – another reason people are becoming violent, cruel, addicted and committing suicide.

 

I’m not a social deficit and mental health infrastructure was purposely destroyed by Annette King and the Labour party, people thrown into the community without professional care & safe stable homes to live in. Everybody knows this, it is common knowledge, it is also common knowledge many mentally ill people caused significant harm and ended up in our justice system instead. I know for a fact as psych hospitals emptied, prisons filled and our judiciary were completely complicit with this gross miscarriage of justice against an entire sector of society. I have seen it myself watching court for just over an hour, 12 cases, four of them identified as mental health, four more I identified as mental health (ie violence as a result of Complex PTSD and severe stress) and four more deserved to be there.

 

I find it extremely threatening that government would want to invest more in police, when they are the ones who currently leading the way in persecution of mentally injured abuse victims and mentally ill. Why would you need more investment in police if you are going to help poorest people get safe stable homes and jobs? Or are you in complete denial at the inhuman environment people are being forced to live in – a living and social environment that satisfies Maslows Heirachy of Needs model (a model I satisfy on no levels – which is why I have been unable to recover from the sexual abuse and neglect trauma) which is why I am highly suicidal, self-harm, bulimic, attachment disorder, tick, have Complex PTSD and live rotting on welfare when I am an intelligent person treated like human sewage.

 

I have seen a new department start about evidence based policing, you managed to get something like this going in the first 100 days but you can’t address the 1000s of us who make complaints about police that are ignored. I have written to several Ministers telling them about ongoing police intimidation and violence – my own MP Kieran McNaulty emailed me recently and told me there was nothing he would or could do about it. Many of my activist friends in area of ABUSE have heard the same thing from those in the government they were relying on for justice and compensation. (NOTE: compensation that would see them at the same economic level of their peers, which they were unable to realise due to impacts of their abuse and criminal neglect.)

 

ECONOMIC AND FISCAL OUTLOOK

 

The admission in such an important and formal document that some New Zealanders have not received the benefits of economic growth using neo-liberal theories is an admission previous govts have violated the Westminister Statute 1st and Magna Carta. I am sure many in the legal profession would be aware that when a poor peasant has these rights to protection and safety illegally removed by rich powerful people THEY NO LONGER HAVE TO FOLLOW ANY LAW – the contract between rich and poor that created our justice system has been violated. Our ancestors were quite aware of human behaviour and knew allowing rich unbridled power over poor only ever resulted in suffering and violence, hence the increase in violence in our society, people with nothing to lose. Who now get more of their basic needs met in jail than in the community – although I do think this was designed like this purposely to support a corrupted cruel immoral and criminal penal system & create jobs (where many had been driven out of the country to China and poorer countries with few human rights).

 

It terrifies me with the focus on FAMILIES as it purposely limits any support for some of the most terrorised and persecuted members of society after 30yrs of neo-liberal terrorist policies, disabled people without children or whose children have left home. (NOTE, neo-liberal policies are terrorist acts as I have read the Terrorism Suppression Act and you are not allowed to impoverish large sectors of society for a belief system.)

 

Government acceptance and happiness with a 4% unemployment rate is grossly unjust neo-liberalism at its worst. In one breath you are saying you want to increase trade and employment, while in the next you are saying you’re happy with 4% unemployment. It is obvious if free trade was going to FIX unemployment in New Zealand it would have happened after the Chinese FTA. I find it interesting the number of unemployed is about the same number as disabled people and it is true from my experience, those who can’t get work most often have disabilities.

 

In recent OPINIONATED news from NZ Initiative (ie Business Round Table terrorists) the appalling statistics of people with injuries/illness/disabilities who now don’t work compared to pre-neoliberalism was offset by comment by AAAP members, a group of social activists. There was no discussion with disability advocacy groups, Workbridge or WINZ employment consultants as to the facts of what happening.   NZ Initiative implied these disabled people worked through their impairments but now they are too lazy too. I have attended many meetings by many different organisations and the fact is employers refuse to employ disabled people due to cost and OSH requirements.

 

It makes me very sad to think the massive increase in productivity in New Zealand was mostly due to disabled people being dumped from the workforce. I have never met a disabled person that isn’t desperate to work – at something they are capable of doing without suffering and being bored into suicide (like they do in China). I have studied health disability and rehabilitation at Massey University, the book Person to Person outlined the plight of disabled people over decades – we are the ones last to be employed and first to be fired.

 

Any employer will hire something who can work faster than another – that is why orchardists prefer to hire healthy strong Fijians on their orchards rather than less able New Zealand workers. With the mass immigration government are continuing (at their peril) it is quite obvious disabled people will continue to be denied work, safe stable homes and a dignified standard of living.

 

The obsession with education in neo-liberal countries has got to stop, we cannot all be what we want and trying to perpetrate that illusion is one of the reasons we have such a high rate of youth suicide. Someone has to clean toilets and make 100s latte’s every day for years. If we were all lifted out of poverty by education then who would do this type of work.

 

That the government are going to stop bringing in low skilled workers and continue to import highly skilled wealthy people is a NEO-LIBERAL ABOMINATION. So what you are saying are New Zealanders, especially our young are going to be doing the menial, low paid, low skilled, boring work, while foreigners are going to get the good, interesting, well paid jobs. This appalling aspect of neo-liberalism HAS destroyed the entire fabric of our society and violated so many cultural and criminal laws it still astounds me it is allowed to continue. Of course I am resentful when a foreigner moves to Carterton with a good job I could have done if given the opportunity – if my kids had been given the opportunity. Of course I am prone to Xenophobia – ie hating all immigrants and seeing them as a threat to my survival – because they are – its not their fault of course, its our corrupt, cruel and incompetent governments fault. Same people who hold themselves up as knights and dames with high moral fibre. Watching the hypocrisy and these gross injustices every day is the main reason I want to die every day as well – as I have no hope while this is not acknowledged and rectified IMMEDIATELY – not in four years!

 

Treasury are corrupt – I know that for a fact and their forecasts that migration will drop from 72,400 to a long-run average of 15,000 by 2021 is absolutely ridiculous and not based on any FACT whatsoever. The world’s population is growing at an alarming rate, millions of people displaced by war, lack of water/resources etc requires those places like New Zealand that can sustain humans are going to fill up faster. Also many people are trying to escape the violence of other neo-liberal controlled countries more progressed than ours, like USA – Americans are high on immigration list. Sadly they are bringing with them their vindictive, self-righteous and cruel cultural beliefs about advancing rich, profiting from everything possible, including those they put in jail – the American prison system is the most corrupt, cruel and grossly unjust in the world today according to multiple documentaries coming out about it.

 

I did not see one mention of the appalling state of justice system for disabled/mentally ill and poor people who are now having their Magna Carta rights violated – as I am – I have been unable to get a lawyer to protect me from civil rights violations, ACC illegally withholding my entitlements and harm by police etc FOR YEARS. Apparently civil legal aid lawyers are almost impossible to find, human rights is considered civil law, which I find extremely disturbing considering the level of violence and suffering people like me are subjected to. Only those in the legal system would understand just how bad it is – because our bias media mostly refuse to address or report on it. While Justice Winkleman makes speeches about how poor citizens up against powerful government institutions are having their rights to justice violated. She writes about it and speaks about it – but this gross miscarriage of justice goes on unchecked. I have written to her several times – I am not even given the respect of a reply and the Secretary for Justice just trivialises or discredits anything I say about gross violations of law.

 

When considering what priorities the government should have over the next term I would suggest beginning at those points where people’s rights are being violated are the most important. I know for a fact disabled people must have access to social housing in a society like New Zealand. All resources currently devoted to infrastructure or commercial construction should be moved to urban development IMMEDIATELY. (Personally I think a percentage of private construction resources should be diverted as well.) If the government did this then the immigration issue would not be as socially damaging as it is now. It is people losing resources to rich foreigners that is causing the hatred and racism. No person should be allowed in this country unless they have somewhere to live AND NO NEW ZEALANDER SHOULD BE KICKED OUT OF THEIR HOME by an immigrant.

 

Imagine the social repair to our society that would happen if we were allowed to help each other. With all disabled people in state provided housing (that could be with state loans) it would free up property for others who need it, it would bring down rental costs dramatically (which I know rich people, neo-liberals and National party right DO NOT WANT). It would take the profit out of property and stabilise the accommodation market. Of course it would cause a huge financial crash which would have to be managed by banking regulation – but then it is banking deregulation behind so much suffering, waste, greed and pollution of our entire planet. Money that was created from thin air in the form of a loan to someone who did not work for any of it. (This is why ANZ bank now funds so much elitist sport, cause they have most of the money – it overwhelmes me to think how much money banks take out of our economy in the form of interest – how much suffering they create.)

 

For 30 years taxes to the rich have been reduced while taxes to the poor continually increase. When the government said they weren’t going to reinstate higher taxes to the rich I was horrified.   They have all the money, they have taken all the money, they are the ones using to harm people as well, they gloat about their wealth everywhere in our media, they are grossly wasteful while others are forced to be frugal to the point they can’t participate in society or fulfil cultural beliefs (eg can’t go home for Xmas, can’t go on holiday cause can’t afford it).

 

Every time you go on about child poverty and delivering more money to families with children I cry. Every impoverished and disabled parent is humiliated and denigrated with this patronising insulting elitist ‘propaganda’ – it is the parents who are poor, not the children. The propaganda about poor people is rife and based on no scientific understanding of what causes poverty and family violence. New Zealand has extreme rates of family violence in New Zealand because of the radical application of neo-liberal theories – academics have spoken about NZ going from one of the most protected and controlled countries in the world to THE MOST unprotected and free economies. A fact that saw 100,000s families broken forever as people were forced to move to Australia and other countries to find work – while the rich got richer and the disabled poor who couldn’t leave were persecuted (yes I have a dictionary and know what the word means and it is appropriate to use).

 

When I was a disabled single mum with children, after being hurt in a violent sexual crime, I was much better off than a disabled single woman with nowhere safe and stable to live, forced to go flatting with people who exploited, victimised and terrorised me (as well as attempting suicide and them and me getting no help). As my children came of the age to leave home it was horrendous for me and them – I had lost my own home after I was raped and couldn’t return to work or my law studies – as ACC refused to provide entitlements.

 

Knowing I am a destitute disabled woman living on welfare in this hell hole of a country, is why I continuously battle suicide, as I have absolutely no hope for the future. The government even put out advertising saying if people didn’t save for their retirement they wouldn’t have enough food to eat – did anybody think they were showing these advertisements to disabled people who had no way of saving for the future – they don’t get enough to live with dignity now.

 

Also families being better off by $66 a week – is completely insignificant in the scheme of raises in rent and other costs that can’t be avoided, including the extreme cost of food – $5.50 for 500g butter, $25/kilo for fish – cause we have to compete with rest of world & what they will pay. Then of course there are the costs we now face of education, health and justice – all introduced by neo-liberals to cut taxes to the rich and impoverish the poor.

 

I know about disability, I know about laws related to disabled people and their rights, I have read the disability strategy I know for a fact disabled people’s rights to participate in society are not upheld, neither are their rights to housing and WORK. Please refer to my website SOLUTIONS page about what should be happening in the area of rehabilitation for mentally injured abuse victims. www.jrmurphypoet.com

 

Please refer to my regional rehabilitation centres idea and regional mental health facilities – we must heal those who have been damaged by the past 30years of neo-liberal terrorism because WE ARE NOT going to be ignored. Germany recognised their human rights violations and what they had done to Disabled, gypsies and Jews, they gave compensation – what has happened in New Zealand is very similar (except many were driven to suicide & profited from in jails) and those who been harmed will demand this injustice is addressed and rectified – I demand it.

 

Government should have NO DEBT WHATSOEVER they should be in credit and loaning it others. The idea that any group could run up debt by cutting taxes to the rich then forcing poor top pay massive amounts of interest to foreign banks is extremely corrupt, incompetent, negligent and immoral. No council should have private debt either, user pays is part of neo-liberalism and DOES NOT WORK. Places like Masterton spent $millions of rates on doing up sports grounds, parks, business centres etc – while illegally not doing anything about things like sewerage infrastructure (eg Masterton mayor Bob Francis).

 

HOME OWNERSHIP IS A CULTURAL RIGHT that is currently being violated. This began during Gov Grey era 1900s, as I have done history research on Grey and Small Farms Settlement at Greytown. Grey knew then what landlords were capable of, after seeing what had happened to tenant farmers in Ireland during potato famin. He wanted peasants to have opportunity to own/work land. Personally I prefer the Maori model of land ownership, as caretaker of land and I do not believe any corporation of foreigner should EVER own land in this country. Making peasants tenants is a neo-liberal terrorist ideology that, like I said, is a violation of our cultural rights. The current level of foreign takeover of our resources HAS GOT TO STOP – and the lies that this is imperative for New Zealand to survive HAS GOT TO STOP AS WELL.

 

I disagree with the priorities in the 100 day plan, as a mentally injured/ill suicidal abuse victim, rotting on welfare in unsafe unstable private housing with no health care and having my human and civil rights violated NOTHING in that package has helped me IN ANY WAY.

 

The idea of yet another inquiry into mental health, when we all know what the problems are is insulting to my intelligence and 15 years of fighting for the treatment care rehabilitation and justice I am entitled to under the law – both under National and Labour governments. We don’t need to restart the Mental Health Commission we need to provide professional care using professional health and rehabilitation models – we need to follow the law and science, not the experimental and harmful system we currently have.

 

We do need an inquiry into corruption by drug companies in the area of mental health and the forced drugging of mentally injured abuse victims (who being refused professional care) and mentally ill. The drugging of people terrorised by poverty, housing and food insecurity. I know Mark Unsworth is an ex-drug company executive and I believe was sent here and set up his PR business in 1993 just to ensure drug companies made profit from those the government was about to impoverish and terrorise PURPOSELY.

 

I’m sorry I can’t go on, I have become really unwell and can’t stop crying, the injustices me and so many other neglected disabled mentally injured abuse victims are being subjected to by government and our communities overwhelms me.

 

I am unable to proof read what I have written either, so I hope it is OK, please ignore spelling and grammar mistakes. I am sure I have not covered everything I want to say but I do always hope I will one day get a voice with those who have power in government to change the gross injustice happening to me and many other women children and men.

 

Kia kaha and Aroha to us all

 

JR

Civil Society Actor

 

19 January 2018

I DEMAND Donna Howard NZ POLICE deal with police assault – TODAY – #16DAYSOFACTION2017

I will take the focus off NZ police violence against me and others during my current protests if Insp Donna Howard DEALS WITH what happened, I get justice & to meet with the two officers.

THESE ARE MY COMPLETELY JUSTIFIED DEMANDS

The officer who assaulted me gets counselling, a written warning and a record of it on his file.

The officer who threatened me with future increased  violence, gets a written warning and has it recorded on his file.

They have to meet with me in a safe place so I can tell them what they did to me and how it affected my life.

I demand an apology and assurance there will be no future violence towards me if I have any future dealings with police in my Civil Society activism work.

I wish I could slap their faces for what they did – BUT I DON’T HIT MEN AS A RULE!

A sczophrenic man once told me DON’T TRUST VIOLENCE – and I don’t – shame the police and New Zealand government don’t hold the same high standards – like those ones in the bible they swear an oath to as an agent of The Queen.

I will put my focus about violence towards women back on the shoulders of New Zealands leaders – exactly where it belongs.

I have a traumatic stress disorder that is compounding if I DON’T or can’t deal with stressful situations in my life it makes my  mental health much worse.  Getting an apology and assurance of no future violence from those two officers IS DEALING WITH IT – while it remains un-dealt with it causes me significant stress and harm – that fuels my suicidality, self-harm, bulimia etc.

Please make it stop – that’s all I’m asking, please take at least one serious stress and worry out of my life.  Please make me stop thinking every time I hear a car in my street it is police coming to get me.  Please stop me from being too scared to protest about abusive mental health services, poverty and injustice.

As a woman I am deeply disappointed in the conduct of Insp Donna Howard, IPCA and New Zealand’s most senior police officers who have allowed this to continue – while promoting White Ribbon propaganda.  It breaks my heart every time I see a piece of marketing about violence towards women & then it makes me really really angry!

Then I can stuff down all the fear I feel and go out in the community and tie a whole lot of white ribbons outside the police station, or chalk a fence or the footpath, or put up a sign I have painted, or put a poem on youtube……