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Complaint about judges comments #metoo “It’s a red tape war & I’m a red tape whore.”

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Sent this complaint this morning, couldn’t get it off  my mind, so best to do it and get it sent, letter one of my best I reakon.  It’s a red tape war and I’m a red tape whore (c) ReFuSe

26 May 2019

 

Office of the Judicial Conduct Commissioner

PO Box 2661

WELLINGTON

Judicialconduct@jcc.govt.nz

 

Dear Sir/Madam,

 

It is with the deepest regret and despair I write this complaint after 17 years attempting to get the health care, welfare, housing and justice I am entitled to as a disabled victim of crime in New Zealand. A United Nations Human Rights inspector I met at Te Papa told me to keep making formal complaints so there is a paper trail to follow. Although I am quite sure this valid complaint will fail and I will never get the justice and protection required as a disabled Civil Society Actor – defined by the UN Civil Society Handbook.

 

Years of study, valid complaints of injustice and experience have shown all laws established after the 1984 takeover by radicalised American neo-liberal economic terrorists in New Zealand are designed to defeat justice for the ‘purposely impoverished and persecuted then exploited poor local population’. Commissions are poor man’s justice – ie no justice at all – in fact I find them more proof of widespread government corruption and injustice in a sector.

 

This complaint is justified, as are the other complaints I have made, all ignored of course. Sadly I found myself, after one year studying law at Victoria University 2001, in a 17 year battle for justice for myself and other purposely impoverished, persecuted, criminally neglected victims of crime and trauma. Mostly with ACC, however in fighting for those things I am entitled to under ACC law I was exposed to the extent of neo-liberal/Libertarian corruption and HATE in our society. HATE that grows every day while our most basic constitutional laws are violated (please refer to the Imperial Laws Application Act 1988) – while multiple UN international laws (signed ratified treaties) are also violated.

 

This complaint has its legal origins in Westminster Statute the 1st – common right be done to all rich as poor and the Magna Carta – no person shall be destroyed and every person shall have access to right and justice. I wrote a poem for the 800 year anniversary of the Magna Carta, it can be viewed online at http://jrmurphypoet.com/2015/06/800-years-a-poem-to-commemorate-the-magna-carta-2015/ I was also sent a copy of the speech by grossly corrupt Attorney-General Christopher Finlayson performed at a government comedy event to celebrate it.

 

I feel quite sorry for Judge Barbara Morris having to be the scapegoat for a judiciary who profit from illegally denying people with mental health issues professional health care and necessities of life (eg safe stable affordable housing).

 

WHAT HAPPENED

 

On Thursday 23 May I was in court again trying to get a lawyer after waiting almost 18 months since my first valid protest against illegal police violence in January 2018. Judge Morris knows me quite well after nine years LEGALLY protesting against ACC illegally removing my entitlements and refusing to reinstatement them after winning TWO ACC reviews in 2010/11.

 

Judge Morris made an extremely inappropriate comment about me receiving counselling for the trauma ‘the rapist’ had caused. Firstly she is well aware from my protests that it is far more than counselling I am protesting about. It was established many years ago by health professionals and ACC that COUNSELLING is not sufficient treatment, care or rehabilitation in my particular sensitive claim. There are multiple reports that say this, along with documents I had sent to the judge prior to the hearing. As I am not allowed a lawyer I have been forced to do what I can to defend myself, even when it is extremely harmful and almost impossible to do it, due to impairments related to my disability – Complex PTSD. Part of my CPTSD involves being highly suicidal, CPTSD has a 60% mortality rate due to suicide – inciting someone to suicide is illegal.

 

Part of my CPTSD includes compounding trauma, so when I start bringing up all the deeply distressing injustices I have been subjected to through the justice system I start to become traumatised, have to self-harm etc so I don’t commit suicide (like I have to do multiple times writing this). It is a living nightmare many people in New Zealand are now forced to live with following introduction of neo-liberalism. Wairarapa, where I live, has the highest rate of self-harm in New Zealand, also highest rate of suicide, compulsory treatment orders and prescriptions for psychotropic drugs. I would imagine it also has the most extreme forms of inequality and elitism in New Zealand as well – they must be training rich children to hurt poor people at the multiple private schools here. The elitist hatred is quite obvious to the youth of our region, my children went through the public education system here and told me what they knew about the kids from private schools. It is even more obvious in our community through corrupt elitist neo-liberal organisations such as Trust House and the way ‘community leaders’ advance the rich and persecute the poor.

 

When I was interviewed by a lawyer from the Mental Health Inquiry last year she identified the worst elitism they had so far experienced, after meetings with local community and health leaders earlier in the day. She asked me why I thought it was happening and I told her about the private schools, bias media, inequality between richest and poorest and lack of housing (ie provision for disabled and poor of this region).

 

Elitism is illegal according to NZ Constitutional laws, I continue to wonder why the courts, lawyers and judges allow it. Although statistics about the punishment of beneficiaries (doing what they have to in order to survive and support their children) compared to the punishment of wealthy tax fraudsters tells the true story, also punishments for rapists/criminals who have wealthy powerful family connections).

 

Although the rape, sodomy and not guilty verdict (even when the rapist admitted in court to the jury of 10 white haired old men, one old woman with a blue rinse and one young woman who looked IHC) were what entitled me to ACC, my life-threatening CPTSD is a result of criminal neglect following the crime. I am/was a strong sensible person, bad stuff happens, I know that, I would have recovered from what happened to me if I had received the professional treatment care rehabilitation, safe housing and justice as required under ACC law – and multiple other laws I have read. I can read and comprehend what I read, my mental health issues since the event don’t make me a liar or stupid. In fact based on my extensive knowledge of traumatic stress disorders I would suggest years of severe neglect makes you more intelligent – fighting for your life does that.

 

Many people have been trying to force counselling onto me when the ACC rehabilitation plan illegally removed in 2009 involved around 12 hours a week with a multi-disciplinary team of health professionals and instructed/supported members of the community. I had an Occupational Therapist 2 hrs a week, Psychologist 1 hour, psycho-social rehab at a gym 6 hours, 3 hours a week with a mental health worker and 1 hour a month with a Buddhist massage therapist. I was six months into a 2 ½ year rehabilitation plan when it was illegally removed by ACC GP Peter Jansen. I have seen counsellors through ACC, they were ineffective, most of them would cry once they heard my current living situation, which they obviously could do nothing about, even though they knew it was extremely detrimental to the healing process for victims of crime (ie there are too many serious current traumas to deal with before they can deal with the rape trauma.)

 

Judge Morris should be completely focused on legalities of what is happening to me and how I am presenting in person and with the information I provide her. Her opinion as to my health needs, which she has voiced previously in a closed court based on the experiences of her beloved daughter, is not appropriate. I am a 54 year old women with children and responsibilities of running a household without support from my wealthy parents/family. (Note: my children have left home but of course still need me. My daughter had a life-changing car accident last week – sadly I was not able to be near her as I can’t afford the petrol to get to Whakatane where she now lives.) Being poor insures I am further marginalised, if I had the $10,000 in unpaid Independence Allowance ACC are currently withholding I would have been able to go and see her.

 

Last year lawyers at Masterton Court attempted to force me into something they referred to as a PINC court. Apparently Judge Morris was instrumental in setting this up for PEOPLE IN NEED (People In Need Court). I vehemently refused asserting I was no criminal, my actions in response to gross violations of my rights were completely legal. Also attempting to put me under the grossly corrupt/illegal Mental Health Act 1992 (at the height of National party neo-liberal corruption) to force me to take medication to control me was not going to happen if I could stop it. I am well aware of United Nations international law about my rights to refuse ‘medical treatment’ and why it was implemented after NAZI legalised experimenting on those they chose to persecute – namely disabled who couldn’t work at maximum productivity, govt rape victims, people with brown skin, homeless gypsies, homosexuals and jews.

 

It is interesting to note during consultations for the UN human rights process in New Zealand last year how 95% of the people participating were there about gross violations of human rights against people with mental health issues – particularly abuse victims. People who were not MENTALLY ILL, people who were MENTALLY INJURED as defined by ACC legislation. A normal brain and a normal person experiencing overwhelming trauma – overwhelming trauma that requires a safe place to heal/recover. With neo-liberalism requiring the privatisation and handing over of EVERYTHING TO ‘THE MARKET’, particularly state housing (which is a legal responsibility of the government under international and NZ law) the government stopped providing state housing and sold off everything they possibly could. In the Wairarapa they sold all state housing to either those people in the homes (if they could come up with the money for a deposit) or the ‘pub/gambling charity’ Trust House.

 

There is no need to say what I think of the grossly corrupted, deeply degrading and fraudulent charity industry after 30 years of neo-liberal economic religious beliefs and American Trump advisor Peter Thiel bragging how NZ is a Libertarian utopia – but I will anyway.

 

As you can see from this complaint it is a small/yet extremely significant moment in the gross injustices I experience in the justice, health and welfare systems since 2002. Currently I am excluded from all health services, I have no GP, no health care even when reports say I am very unwell, am disabled and been on invalids benefit for many years. I am not even allowed to phone Healthline I discovered recently, which is quite terrifying and I am sure related to formal complaints I have made about Compass Health board member, government contracted Bell Gully lawyer Simon Watt. Judge Barbara Morris knows about my allegations against Simon Watt, this is part of the information I have given to her in the past few months.

 

Judge Morris also knows I cannot get a lawyer and Forensic Mental Health assessors with conflicts of interest are being used to pervert the course of justice in my case. I currently have a complaint with the medical council about the last assessment and the three inappropriate assessors who agreed to assess me when Medical Council rules plainly state they should withdraw. I won’t go into that as I am becoming very distraught and had to self-harm again.

 

I am quite sure this complaint will be ignored, based on the past 17 years of valid complaints and rejections but if there is any remote chance ‘justice for the poor’ is returning to our legal system then I ask you to uphold my complaint. It seems strange a judge who has publicly identified that mentally ill and poor people are unjustly ending up in the court system and tried to do something about it is the one complained about – one of those neo-liberal abominations I often talk about in my work as a Civil Society Actor. If I had health care so I could return to ‘traditional paid work’ I wouldn’t have time to do as much as I do, wouldn’t you think those in power over me would do something to help me. Perhaps it is part of neo-liberalism for the government to violate the law in order to create jobs and profits for the justice industry and others.

 

Why ACC etc refuse me services was highlighted following the Christchurch Mosque shootings and the need for $millions in charity to support victims. Muslim victims of violent crimes getting help with money, housing, etc while local terrorised population get – counselling. We are No 1 in the world for domestic/flatmate violence, have been for many years due to illegal removal of state housing and people forced into unsafe unstable unaffordable living situations. I have expressed my resentment to Muslim groups involved about all the money and support they are getting. So far rich people have donated $11million, which is being held by government agency Victim Support. Once distributed to the victims of the mosque shootings, I imagine no more than 500 people directly affected that would be $22,000 each – enough for a deposit on a house (so long as they are not permanently disabled as people on welfare ARE NOT ALLOWED TO BORROW MONEY TO LIVE IN THEIR OWN HOME – a violation of disability legislation).

 

I hope with all my heart my complaint is acknowledge and addressed and in doing so will not only change my situation but the situation for approximately 1 million impoverished disabled victims who currently experience 80% of the crime in New Zealand. Sadly Jacinda Ardern deceitfully used these statistics in her propaganda marketing after the mosque shootings as an excuse for complaints in the news from mosque shooting victims.

 

Kia kaha and aroha to the poor and powerless.

Sincerely

JR

Civil Society Actor

HUMAN SEWAGE

 

 

Wairarapa Police The Devil’s Right Arm

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In response to being assaulted with handcuffs by police last week.  I will be writing this on back of wallpaper and stapling up in Masterton and chalking around the streets.  Have asked for a meeting with the local new police inspector here and anybody else of a pay grade that can get an investigation into ACC etc under criminal negligence.

Handcuffs are not a weapon

Police are not there to harm

Freedom of speech is a right under law

Local police now the Devil’s right arm!

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Why is there graffiti about police violence against women in Wairarapa

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Someone I don’t know that well told me about some chalking in Masterton about police violence towards women and I told her it was me.  Then I told her what happened and why I had done it, so even though I have mentioned it before on this website I will tell you again.  I also want those who are interested in what happened to me to know local media have REFUSED to say anything about it and have censored what has happened for years.

I did that graffiti in CHALK PEN on vacant shops in Masterton because a police officer violently assaulted me for a non-violent protest about discrimination and injustices I am being subjected to for asking for the professional health care i am entitled to under ACC and mental health services.

I have protested about the issues of professional health care for mentally injured abuse victims for many years.  Since I was raped, couldn’t get the help I knew I desperately needed and read the ACC legislation and other health, disability and human rights laws.

In all the times I have been arrested up until July 2016 I HAD NEVER BEEN ASSAULTED AND THREATENED – yes police might have been a bit rough with me and nasty ones could be mean – but NOTHING LIKE WHAT HAPPENED OUTSIDE CARTERTON POLICE STATION.  That was a full on violent assault and the next 3 hours with police was horrendous, I am still traumatised thinking about it.

So police assaulted me, I have medical evidence and CCTV footage to prove it that never made it to court because it was bought up during my charges for wilful trespass (which I won) and graffiti (which I was convicted of).  I am appealing this conviction.

I complained about the assault to police the next day and to IPCA soon afer, I was told they would deal with it after my case went to court for the graffiti protest and other wilful trespass charges for other NON-VIOLENT protests.  I was using art I had done in retaliation for police working for ACC in charging me with MISUSE OF A TELEPHONE FOR PHONING THEM SCREAMING TO HAVE MY CARE REINSTATED from 2009 – I had won two reviews and was very unwell.

I was never told until the court case came up – which took 18 mths & three times in court to even hear, our court system is sooooooooo bad – that the assault complaint would be dealt with there.  How could they do this, I had assaumed a case of assault would be done separately and investigated thoughly – IT IS NOT!  So the officers lied in court, the judge believed them and not my lawyer or me – he crust old judge and one of those judges who had been dragged in to try and cope with our GROSSLY OVERSTRETCHED, TO THE POINT OF ILLEGAL, court system our govt had created.

So the judge found the two officers justified in their assault – their version of the assault and what happened – not the truth.

I was so angry and so upset – if they could get away with assaulting me like that, then it would only get worse if I kept protesting.  ONe of the officers told me that, he said if I kept doing it I WOULD SEE HOW BAD POLICE COULD BE – I am passionate about my activism over abusive mental health care, I know what I do is important and if I could get professional care applied to me and other abuse victims I could save so much unnecessary suffering, violence, addiction and suicide.  It is illegal to terrorise an Civil Society Activists like me in New Zealand – in any commonwealth country – in any country that belongs to the United Nations.  I know my rights very well.

I stewed on it for a couple of months then knew I had to do something as my mental health was getting even worse.  When all the news came out about Harvey Weinstein sexually abusing women and the latest thing with Russell McVeagh lawyers I felt empowered enough to carry out my plan – terrified as I was of being assaulted even worse by Wairarapa police.

My plan was to destroy or make police take down the White Ribbon banner encouraging women to speak out about violence by men in their foyer – the foyer I had sat in extremely traumatised rocking backwards and forwards begging to go home – where every person who came past I recoiled from, especially the officer who had threatened me – after they had violently assaulted degraded and discriminated against me.

So I came up with throwning red paint over it as the easiest way – and it was.  So I went there, threw red paint on the banner, left a piece of my art on the counter and left the building, nobody had come out so used my can of white chalk spray and did a swastika on end of it.  Left there and headed for Lower Hutt where I chalked Judge JP Butler and swastika on teh building and then went to Wellington police station where I handed myself in.

The Wellington police were so nice, they were not very impressed with what I was telling them about the assault and what had happened through the courts etc.  I told them Wellington police had NEVER hurt me like that and I knew what those two officers had done was illegal.  They made me talk about it though and I hadn’t realised they would do that – it still makes me really unwell upset and traumatised and I’ve never been able to talk to a mental health professional about it – because ACC and mental health are still refusing me services.

i do the chalking on the buildings in my community to be heard – because local and national media refuse to tell my story, refuse to say what is happening to me and why.  I don’t understand why they are covering up what is happening to a person who is a NON- VIOLENT and challenging protester – protesting about mental health services for abuse victims etc.

So that is most of the story from the person who chalked about police violence – that is the truth, there is more to it after years of protesting and being harmed, refer to rest of my website if you want to know and of course my poetry – that says it in an even more real and feeling way.

Leaders of New Zealand and those who uphold law and justice are a huge disappointment.  They say one thing and do exactly the opposite then use media to cover it up or trivialise what is going on.

New Zealand used to be such a cool place – I know it was never perfect – but what is happening now is grossly immoral, corrupt and violates even our own terrorism laws, it violates laws against psychological torture as well and of course human rights and other laws. And the most disturbing thing is those organisations like Health & Disability commission, Human Rights Commission and Ombudsman ARE THE WORST OFFENDERS!!!!!!!!

🙁  And I said I didn’t want to cry but how can I not – every National party voter wanted this, and every Labour party voter condoned it in their party as well.  They created this environment of dog eat dog and created proverty then hurt the poor until we can make money out of them through psychotropic drugs, justice industry and even social services/psychology industry.  They did all this to replace the jobs in manufacturing OUR OWN GOVERNMENT drove out of New Zealand since the 1980s.

Kia kaha and aroha to us all.

Seamus Boyer Blow Fly Editor Wairarapa News condoning violence against women

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I’m really upset about my situation at the moment, WINZ threatening to cut my disability benefit because I can’t see a doctor because I can’t get any mental health services to help me.  I’ve been on invalids for years and still I am forced to go through this nightmare year after year – at the same time as ACC and MH refusing me professional health care I am entitled to by law.  As well as being unable to get a lawyer to force them to do what the law says and get the police to stop terrorising me for legally protesting about this gross injustice.

So I went chalking today on windows of empty shops around Masterton – I then phoned Wairarapa News to tell them what I had done.  I got Seamus Boyer and his behaviour was really really strange, really derogatory, patronising and really strange.  A classic example of this GASLIGHTING behaviour of people in abusive power relationships.

So I called, said who I was, said I had been chalking about police violence and suicide – just so he knew and could report it.  So he launched into speaking over me, saying we’ve talked about this Jayne, (which we havn’t – he’s talked about it but he wouldn’t listen to anything I said or what was happening to me).  I don’t intend to say anything about what you are doing, you’re not listening Jayne, I don’t intend to change my mind.

When I said but we havn’t talked about anything, he repeats we’ve talked about this, I’m ending this call, I’m not interested in anything you have to say Jayne.  Really really creepy.  HE doesn’t know anything about me, he has never talked to me about any of this, except to disagree with anything I have told him about what is happening in Wairarapa.  He is a classic example of a radicalised person, just like Germans were like prior to WWII, listening to everything those in power were saying and in complete denial about the suffering and harm they were inflicting against vulnerable minority groups.

Sadly I lost it & swore at him before he hung up – I am devastated and distraught because it is yet more confirmation of how red-neck and right-wing extremist Wairarapa news media are.  That is why we are No 1 for suicide in this region, no 1 for compulstory treatment orders, No 1 for use of psychotropic drugs on disabled people, No 1 for homelessness (most disabled poor been driven from this region already).  It is a mass psychosis with these people in power – exactly what happens in abusive power relationships – classic GASLIGHTING of women.

Seamus Boyer IS RESPONSIBLE for the suffering and suicides of dozens of Wairarapa people, because he covers up the gross miscarriage of justice happening to me and so many disabled poor people in this region.  It is deeply disturbing just how creepy these people are.  So don’t believe anything you see in Wairarapa News – or Times Age, they are even more OLD BOYS NETWORK.

He doesn’t want to know what has happened to me at the hands of police, ACC, mental health and my community because he can’t live in denial if he hears what is going on.  He doesn’t want to know what I do as a Civil Society actor, making submissions to Select Committees and United Nations Human Rights committees.

Some serious KARMA coming to that man and all those he protects. ewwwwww

NZ Govt drive people to SUICIDE on purpose

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I want to say so much on this page, I want to scream and yell that 99% of the garbage you read about suicide is just that – garbage.  Neo-liberal garbage, when all over the world one of the first things neo-liberals do when they take over a country is shut down mental health services and make sure these disabled people are homeless.  This of course causes all sorts of harm in society, which in turn creates jobs in the security and justice industries.

If people were getting health care they are entitled to then why am I terrorised by police – under authority from #suicideprevention ‘EXPERTS’ advice??????  Why am I being denied mental health care I am entitled to – why have media censored and refused to publish what is happening to me all these years???????

Why am I in court for Misuse of a Telephone – which ACC demanded – for screaming for help when I was really unwell.  They then dropped the charges but six weeks later did a new set of charges?  Which I was really upset about, responded by using chalk pen on police station window and was consequently violently assaulted for it.

Why have I been fighting for 15 years since I was raped to get the health care I am entitled to under ACC and multiple other laws?  Why are so  many laws that protect vulnerable disabled powerless people against abuses of power being violated and the agencies supposed to protect us are NOT DOING IT.  Which is why I protest a lot at Human Rights Commission, etc.  Both who had police sent to my home yet again to terrorise me and serve me a trespass notice for putting up art in their offices.

The reason suicide prevention is so bad is its suggestions are mostly from family members – family members who obviously DON’T KNOW how to help someone who is suicidal – so why do they get all the say in suicide prevention.  AND I KNOW THERE ARE GOOD FAMILIES WHO REALLY CARE BUT FROM MY EXPERT ANALYSIS I WOULD SUGGEST 80% of families are shit – are the cause of the person being suicidal, are going through shit – are overworking and under-living due to necessity, or overworking and ignoring their family members due to greed and so many nice things to buy or overseas trips to go on.

Listening to Labour and National spouting rhetoric about  mental health triggers me badly after years of the same lies – lies – lies and more lies.

Now we’ve got some other tossers running a suicide-prevention charity – this is run by UNIONS and workers in mental health – the majority of whom are abusers & covering up abuse by colleagues and management.

I have done EVERYTHING legally possible to make formal complaints about abusive and unprofessional mental health care – I am ignored – all of it ignored.  The people ensuring this nightmare of hell for me and soooooo many others are from two camps.  Those who hate disabled poor people and think they are a waste of oxygen – lots of suicidal people get told that – especially by health workers (doctors are great at it).  The other camp are the do-gooders, they just don’t believe living environments, poverty, discrimination and health care is that bad in New Zealand that it drives people to suicide.  They still believe we should bring in refugees from other countries – when we have 10,000s terrorised refugees in this country – just because they don’t see the war in the darklands – means it doesn’t exist.  NZ media play a huge part in cover up just how bad mental health services and our country has become.

Still reading MAx Harris’ book The New Zealand Project – meet him recently & we talk on twitter.  He’s right with most of what he is saying, the thing he gets wrong is neo-liberalism was actually illegal. – its the basis of our most basic laws.  Like I keep saying, Westminister Statute the First and Magna Carta – they also violate multiple criminal laws – when you don’t carry out a contractual or legal contract and that results in harm to someone then you are a criminal.  That’s what ACC do, that’s why our government do, they know what they do because I write to lots of them.

I hate elections, its when all the really revolting haters in our media come out and get even more abusive towards poor people.  Whenever I watch international media talking about neo-liberalism in other countries I can’t believe it – what’s happening in NZ is happening everywhere these terrorist scum go.  And what makes me most upset is New Zealand has been the country LEADING the neo-liberal and globalist charge more than any other.  We are the most stupid, we are the most corrupt, we hate our disabled and poor the most, we have least compassion, we have the most corrupt/ignorant/naïve justice agencies, we drive children to suicide and then govt blame communities.  We have communities saying they care about suicide and yet terrorise people like me who are suicidal and speaking out before we die.

I know this doesn’t sound good, but I’m feeling really bad today and have yet been disappointed by Ministry of Health and legal system.  Apparently when they exposed that I wasn’t in fact getting services as police had been told, that I would have access to care – but that was weeks ago and nothing has happened – nothing will happen I am sure.

The thoughts of self harm are really bad, I was doing so well until a week before the court case, then everything got much worse.  I feel OK but my behaviour is bad, smoking continuously which I hate, the thoughts of self-harm are really vivid, knives slicing up my arm – I have to contend with randomly all day.  Little control over my eating, every minute of the day I try not to eat, my weight has skyrocketed.  I know I’ve got diabetes I feel sick all the time now – I can’t see a doctor – because I don’t have one.  The one I did have was abusive and believed what mental health and ACC had said – the same people who told police I didn’t want care and lots of people had tried to help me.
Bulimia is bad, my incontinence is bad (was supposed to have tests 3 years ago but no mental health worker to go with me – so no tests – just humiliation and degradation of pissing myself regularly.

I get some good health professional supporting everything I am saying and asking for, then I get local health workers doing exactly the opposite and getting police to terrorise me on top of that.  Turn up in the middle of the night for a welfare check – knowing you are unwell.  Violently arresting you 8.30pm Xmas Eve for phoning health line because I was sick with flu and distraught that I had to move again and was getting no services.  I was so traumatised by that arrest I have nightmares about it – the degrading behaviour of officers and mental health services – well – like I said there should be criminal charges laid.

then of course you could talk about years of police telling their wives and families I was a nutter and not to let their kids at my house.  I have two well adjusted daughters 22 & 23, EVERYBODY says what a credit they are to me, they both work – they didn’t turn out like that by accident – no matter what people say.  Because I had studied enough to know my disorder (Complex PTSD) and the damage it can do to future generations I protected them from my dysfunction and best I could.

So many people I meet agree with what I say about mental health, ACC & justice services – so many are abused women who then get their children taken off them because they ask for help.

I can’t go on, what’s the point, I’ve said what I have for years, nobody listens, the wrong people get the power and they do even worse to terrorise suicidal people.  Every one of those people responsible for the abusive suicide prevention terror refuses to meet with me, refuses to listen to anything I say about what ACTUALLY happens in the real world with their ignorant bigoted policies.

For years I have protested around Parliament, sung, recited poetry and begged for help – I was ignored – because apparently you are not allowed to get angry.  If you are being persecuted to get a voice you have to be passive and quiet – not allowed to be angry, not allowed to expose the most vile govt corruption and abuse.

NEW ZEALAND IS THE NEO-LIBERAL SHIT HOLE OF THE SOUTH PACIFIC.  Neo-liberals drove 10,000s of people overseas to find work, ripped families apart, for what?  So they could make rich people rich and make money out of the disabled and poor they terrorised for their religious beliefs – because neo-liberalism is now being called a religion – and if you think about the hatred that spews out of the mouths of the richest and those who hate poor – then you know its true.

Those haters of poor – like Bill English – who called everybody on long-term welfare, addicted to it are the cause of the suffering and suicide in NZ.

 

 

New Zealand No 1 for homelessness in OECD

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Its weird in New Zealand how it takes international organisations to highlight some of the worst social problems – while our government, media and National party voting leaders throughout our communities DENY what is going on with everything they have.

Actually its quite deranged – its why I get the abuse, insults and being discredited that I do from those in authority here.  Why no local mayor will respond to my requests for a meeting about mental health, poverty homelessness etc – yet they are often on the front page of local newspapers welcoming new people here.  In complete denial these new rich people are driving out disabled poor locals.

I never thought of Wairarapa as some sort of red-neck cauldron of hatred against poor and love of rich – but it truly is.  The kids used to call it death valley when they were teenagers – they knew – it was for them of course, after neo-liberals drove all the manufacturing jobs overseas in the 80s and 90s, they also drove most of the young out of the region and to Australia.  I know a few people who ended up in Aussie and are so much happier – mostly with how they are treated by their bosses.

Been doing a lot on twitter at the moment, conversations from all over the world, lately the UK – people can’t believe how bad it is here – they have been brainwashed into believing New Zealand is this amazing beautiful place with pristine environment, lovely people and little crime – LOL.  NZ is great at marketing of course – that’s it – after years of exploiting our environment and degrading the poorest and most vulnerable we have some of the most polluted waterways in the world, we have the highest rate of suicide and homelessness in the OECD, highest rates of family violence (due to people being terrified, stressed and forced to live in dangerous situations).

All my years of protesting in Wellington – our capital city – telling people in power (especially in our judiciary) just how bad things are for me and so many others.  I certainly don’t get the abuse from people in suits I used to get when I started 7 years ago – don’t have any health care or a safe home ot live in either – go figure.

Being charged for Misuse of a Telephone for screaming for my ACC care to be reinstated after winning two reviews, and for graffiti with a chalk pen and wilful trespass must be getting under the skin of the police by now.  Those in power in the police are so corrupt and so much part of this radicalised neo-liberal terrorism by rich of poor, I do wonder if they truly realise what they are doing.  I reakon this election is certainly hitting home to those in justice, just how they have failed New Zealands poor – who they no know are being persecuted by rich – the oldest hatred in developed world – the reason we have laws was to stop rich and powerful persecuting poor and powerless.

Still praying my health care will be restored as my physical health is deteriorating, especially with my huge increase in weight – makes me feel like shit – I try not to let it.  My mental health swings from hope to complete despair, I can see how people are driven to bi-polar, along with living in a world that says it cares for you but really it HATES you.

In New Zealand our government and leaders HATE disabled and poor people so much they deny them somewhere safe to live – where we were once heralded as the most progressive and egalitarian country in the world – now we are EXACTLY THE OPPOSITE.  The rich here have got so much richer and the hatred they continue to inflict on those THEY MADE UNEMPLOYED AND THEY DENY HEALTH CARE, WELFARE AND HUMAN RIGHTS entitlements to is so disturbing.

That’s why I get terrorised by police and many others like I do, that’s why I am denied health care I am entitled to and yet those denying it tell police and community I JUST DON’T WANT HELP.

After my protest at Min of Health couple of weeks ago I am in discussions with a senior medical officer, a nice man, A NORMAL PERSON with manners and who acts like a professional, so hopefully that will get me some care – he’s working on it.  I’m trying not to get my hopes up as when they are dashed – like they always have been in the past – the suicidal nightmare in my head is BAD, REALLY BAD – dont’ think I’ll survive it if this fails.

Am still thinking about documentary I saw by Naomi Klein called The Shock Doctorine, the truth of how completely vile the super rich and our governments truly are is comforting for me.  All these years me and so many other New Zealanders – including my dad (who is dead now) have known something was very very wrong with our government and how they were controlling our economy/lives – all of us placated and told it wasn’t true, that government weren’t doing that to us at all.  That government had to do this to us, had to sell off all our public owned assets, had to privatise everything, had to exploit our environment until it was polluted and our kids got sick swimming in the rivers.  We were all so naive and so brainwashed, especially by those we knew who were doing OK and those in our news media.  Watching TV 1 adverts for how great their news is, how honest and local it is, how it tells the truth and covers all the angles – when I’m sitting here knowing they censor everything I know say and do and what is happening to me for legally protesting.

Watching the deceit and marketing coming from our media about suicide is the hardest thing to watch – knowing they are pushing suicidal people into services that are going to degrade, abuse and persecute them even more.  On Wednesday last week, stupid me, yet again phoned media begging them to tell my story and everything that was happening in Wairarapa – why we were NO 1 in NZ for suicide.  Had this woman from Newshub (Radio Live, TV 3 etc) (sure I’ve spoken to the revolting bitch before) on the phone encouraging me to talk, to start with I said I wouldn’t because she would call the police.  She assured me several times she wouldn’t and she would tell my story, but of course she didn’t, she phoned police who then spent the next 3 hours terrorising and threatening me.  This is how corrupt New Zealand media are – especially when it comes to the suffering of abuse victims who can’t get care they entitled to and become suicidal.  These media people love it, love terrorising people, love driving people to suicide and creating more news for themselves – its truly sick, but that’s what radicalised neo-liberals do.

I ended up taking a new friend of mine with me to the police station because after two stupid phone calls from police I knew they would end up at my house and it wouldn’t go well.  Lucky she was with me, cause they revolting cow (who has hidden complaints in the past) on the desk got one of the policemen who assaulted me to come out.  I said I didn’t want to see or speak to him, he came out anyway, it didn’t go well, I challenged him on his threatening violence against me for legally protesting and lying about Hoera assaulting me – he just stood there.  Then I started swearing, so time to leave.  You have to go and see them if someone has phoned you about mental health because that is what the government do in order to terrorise you.  The government don’t like people who suicide, it makes them look bad and their horrendous neo-liberal ideologies they inflict on us are proven to be the persecution of poor they truly are.

All the phone numbers at the end of every news item about suicide or self-harm that I know goes absolutely nowhere – yes there is someone there telling you they’re listening but they don’t do anything.  If your situation is too much for them those poor young people with psychology degrees who can’t get jobs anywhere else just hang up on you.  Wonder how many people they hang up on every day, how many times they phone police to come round and terrorise the person.

It is terrifying when police first start being involved when your mental health gets to the extreme after years of medical neglect and ongoing trauma.  You can’t understand why you would be treated like a criminal for asking for help – especially for me, when I had read ACC law and many documents on health care I was supposed to get BUT IT WASN’T AVAILABLE.

I WISH …………………………………………..  I think everybody who reads this blog will know what I wish for.

Kia kaha to us all

Wairarapa No 1 for Suicide in NZ and I know why

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I been thinking about the biggest reason for Wairarapa driving so many to suicide and its the HEALTH AND DISABILITY COMMISSION.  Me and many other people I know have made complaints to them but you are never believed – because the discrimination and persecution of suicidal people is across all PLAYERS in their sick game, they just back each other up.

It is a fact Health and Disability Commission DO NOT get involved in any ‘ACCESS’ to services issues.  Phone and ask them if you want proof.  Tell them you or someone you know can’t get access to mental health services and they will tell you they can’t get involved.

In the Wairarapa I have been blacklisted by all those PLAYERS, as they are closely aligned and have regular meetings where they gossip about people challenging their incompetence, negligence and discrimination.  Over the past week protesting in Masterton I have met several people who are in the same situation – so although some people might get care – there are groups of people purposely denied services.

The head of the DHB and CEO tell board members that all complaints are dealt with by the Health and Disability Commission so they need not worry – but of course this is a lie.

I have made so many complaints to the DHB they blocked me from emailing years ago, I was telling the truth of course, but because Andrew Curtis-Cody is an intelligent psychopath who is an expert in manipulating people I was never believed.

I spent four years with a Health & Disability Advocate Louise Grant trying to get services, sending letters back and forth to Andrew Curtis-Cody, everything failed, I was refused care.  Louise agreed with me that I was being treated very badly and not professionally but under the government rules she is not allowed to take matters any further.  If the health professional refuses to admit what they have done then she can do nothing.  She is also NOT ALLOWED to forward the complaint to the Health and Disability Commission – so I had my HDC advocate completely supporting how badly I was being treated but the Commission refusing to get involved or find in my favour in any of the disputes (about 5 I think).

On one of my many police incarcerations for MY OWN WELFARE (all of which I was taken home distraught with no services) I had mental health staff around the ankles in the police station begging them for services, I was told to get up and not embarrass myself – that I knew there was no services and I shouldn’t go on like that.  So when I see that disgusting PR person Anna Cardno saying people should contact suicide services I am extremely angry – because I know there are no services – not for the likes of me anyway – and a group of other people who know their rights and ask for help.

The hatred of suicidal people is across the entire spectrum of PLAYERS in this region (it is an industry here).  Many police are the first line of vitriol, insults and discrimination – they love stripping you naked just to degrade you even further – mental health services love it too.  Most Police are violent and treat you like a violent criminal, you are handcuffed which really hurts – I suggest people on the Board ask to try some handcuffs to prove how much they hurt – especially when officers put them on really tight to punish you.

THE OTHER VERY IMPORTANT REASON IS THE HIGHEST RATE IN NZ FOR COMPULSORY TREATMENT ORDERS AND FORCED MEDICATING.

The vast majority of mental health workers in this region (that includes all those working in violence, addiction, suicide and mental health and especially Wairarapa doctors) are lazy incompetent unprofessional bigots.  They load people up on medication so they will sleep all day, they load people up on medication so they don’t have to ensure they have a safe place to live, enough food to eat and the basic necessities of life.  This medicating of people who become suicidal is of course directly related to the take-over of mental health care by corrupt immoral super rich drug companies.  Companies who people like Paul Collins and Isbister have shares in, more drugged up people more profit for them.

A counsellor once told me 20% of families are awesome with suicidal and abused people and will help them overcome their suffering.  80% are not – and many of this group will be the reason the person is suicidal – not that anybody wants to admit that and I am usually extremely abused for saying it – but I will anyway.  Then there are the families who just don’t know what to do, they rely on health professionals for information and yet are expected to heal the suicidal person themselves.  I compare it to a family being expected to perform an extensive operation on someone they love when they are not surgeons.

The government dumping of social problems like suicide, addiction and violence back on the communities who are victims of their horrendous abusive neo-liberal terrorist policies makes me sick to my stomach.  That so many people aren’t aware what is happening makes me very sad, I try and tell people, have for years but nobody will listen – nobody who votes National or Act or leads our communities wants to admit what is really going on.

WHAT NEEDS TO HAPPEN

WE NEED A POLICE INVESTIGATION AND PUBLIC INQUIRY INTO MENTAL HEALTH AND RELATED SERVICES IN THE WAIRARAPA.  We need an anonymous 0800 number set up so people who have been terrorised, degraded and abused by mental health PLAYERS can phone and be heard, have their complaints taken seriously.  Once the Wairarapa DHB and NZ find out what how bad the co-ordinated systemic abuse and discrimination is here I know people will be found criminally negligent under law.

So many appalling doctors, so many nasty police, so many mentally deranged people working in powerful positions in mental health services inflicting serious harm instead of helping those who beg for help.

Following this investigation professional rehabilitation services and facilities should be set up to provide professional care to suicidal, mentally injured and ill people.  This must address the serious housing issues and lack of APPROPRIATE residential care in the Wairarapa.  Neo-liberals always go on about jobs, we could be a centre for care of traumatised people, instead we drive these people out of the region because Wairarapa don’t like dealing with any RUBBISH they have.

THERE MUST NOT BE ANY MORE CONSULTATION WITH THE WIDER COMMUNITY

The government is using these consultations to pick out those suggestions they know will degrade and persecute suicidal people even more – not help them.  I had an excellent counsellor in Masterton who told me the situation here is appalling for so many people – especially women.  Why aren’t these health professionals being listened to?  Why are they trying to keep people alive when they know their situation is completely hopeless and NOBODY could deal with what some people in our society deal with – especially those with histories of abuse.

When will the Whare Tapa Wha model be implemented, when will professional rehabilitation models be implemented and funded so they actually work?  When will all the promises government talks about actually transfer into professional health care and welfare?

NO 1 FOR SUICIDE

Because I am currently up on seven police charges (having been acquitted of 7 last year and had charges dropped on six others), misuse of a telephone for begging for help I am entitled to and not getting, 3 for graffiti for using a chalk pen to protest about discrimination on Carterton police station window, High Court and Appeal Court in Wellington, plus 3 of wilful trespass for speaking truth to power and protesting in/outside buildings who directly responsible for my situation.

I know I have repeated some things here, sorry about that, I just need to get these things out of my head because I can’t believe this is what is happening to me and so many others.  I just want the abuse, discrimination and blatant unprofessional incompetent treatment of suicidal people to stop.

 

Wairarapa Now No 1 in NZ for SUICIDE thanks to the following people

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From: Jayne
Sent: Monday, 19 June 2017 4:48 a.m.
To: donna.howard@police.govt.nz
Subject: Wairarapa now No. 1 In New Zealand thanks to your efforts

Donna,

How proud you must be that Wairarapa is now No. 1 in New Zealand FOR SUICIDE.

Makes me highly suicidal reading this in the newspaper and knowing just what I have done over the past decade to fight for professional health care I am entitled to from ACC and mental health services.  To know the entire mental health system from doctors, NGOs, community leaders, police to head of mental health are all part of this nightmare of hell I protest about.

How proud you and your staff must be for the part you play in taking Wairarapa to No. 1.  For being part of persecuting me for begging for help I am entitled to, by prosecuting me for Misuse of a Telephone and graffiti and wilful trespass for legally protesting in a non-violent way because I’m not getting it and neither are hundreds of other people in this region.  For the worst of your officers, who have done their best to terrorise, discredit and degrade me and so  many others – the ones you refuse to let me confront about it.

How proud you must be that everything I am saying is true about not being able to get mental health services and yet you refuse to protect me by using your power under Crimes Act to stop it.

How many more funerals will I have to attend and sad people will I have to comfort who have had people they love suicide?  All the time knowing how I become so suicidal at times I sit on the side of my bed rocking backwards and forwards stopping myself from walking to the knife draw and ending it because I KNOW THERE IS NO HOPE OF HEALTH CARE OR JUSTICE I AM ENTITLED TO UNDER NZ LAW.

I will be sending a similar email to the multiple people and agencies I have told about abusive mental health care in Wairarapa (mostly due to psychopath Andrew Curtis-Cody) who have done absolutely nothing.  It will include:

Carterton Medical Centre, Dr Hunefelt

Masterton Medical, Dr Rob & the Dr Helman

Greytown Medical Centre

Health & Disability Commission

Nationwide Advocacy Services for HDC

Human Rights Commission

Human Rights Tribunal

Auditor-General

MP Alastair Scott & the previous National MP

MP Ron Marks

MP Georgina Beyer

MP Marama Fox

Wairarapa Labour party

Wariarapa National party

Wairarapa Green party

NZ First party

Multiple lawyers

Te Hauora

Pathways

Wairarapa DHB – who had me prosecuted for wilful trespass for legally protesting

Wairarapa DHB members for past decade, who have phoned and abused me for telling the truth, cause they refused to accept it

SF Wairarapa

Ombudsman’s office

Wairarapa Times Age

Wairarapa News

Wairarapa radio stations

Gary McPhee – Carterton mayor

John Booth – Carterton mayor

Adrienne Staples – Sth Wairarapa mayor

Lyn Patterson – Masterton Mayor

Bob Francis – Masterton mayor

Previous Inspector of Masterton Police

Police Headquarters – Mike Bush

Ministry of Health – John Crawshaw & Mr Enfield

All Ministers of Health for past 14 years

All Ministers of mental health for past 14 years

Gillian Moulton, DHB complaints

King Street Artworks – for trespassing me for writing poetry about how bad mental health services are

etc etc etc

I can’t name any more I’m starting to get triggered as I recall all the revolting rejections and abuse I have received for telling the truth about what is going on in this revolting region.  So much of this caused by the attempted gentrification and driving out of disabled poor abuse victims and mentally ill by removing so much housing by rich powerful elites (eg Trust House).

I am human sewage the DHB decided so, Bob Francis said do nothing, pretend we do not know.  Google my song Human Sewage – I can’t sing it now without breaking down since Sgt Hoera assaulted me – but that is of no consequence to you or those who control you is it!

I will be posting this email to my website as well – just so you know and please read other postings www.jrmurphypoet.com.  Did you watch Sunday programme last night – police painted as good guys of course – unlike the nasty element in Wairarapa police.

I hate you!

Jayne Routhan

Civil Society Actor

PERSECUTED WHISTLEBLOWER

HUMAN SEWAGE LIVING IN THE DARKLANDS

 

Wairarapa Suicide Prevention Campaign – LIES and MARKETING

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Abuse, discrimination, psychological torture is just a phone call away at Wairarapa DHBs SUICIDE SHOW.

Anybody reading this DO NOT BELIEVE anything you see in our news media about how great mental health services are and how much help there is that is written by anybody within our DHB or current mental health providers – THEY LIE.  They’ve been saying the same thing for years and things only get worse because what I am saying is TRUE and what they are saying is A LIE.  (There is a small group of people who do get services, the least mentally ill/suicidal 50% and the top 3% while those of us in the 50-97% group GET SHAFTED, DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, HARMED, ABUSED, DISCREDITED AND TREATED LIKE HUMAN SEWAGE.

Someone has just shown me the Wairarapa News and my suicidality is off the scale after reading that pile of lies – after all the years I have begged for help and been refused.  Even police are told by mental health services that “lots of people have tried to help you Jayne, you just don’t want help.”  THAT IS NOT TRUE!!!!  But then that lie was started by Salvation Army staff ……… and that’s another story 🙁  Wish I could show you my police file, they stopped putting all the times they were called out for welfare visits in it because it would embarrass the government.  My only criminal conviction is Wilful Trespass of Law Society for going there and refusing to leave until I got a lawyer to make them provide me professional health care I’m entitled to and stop the persecution for legally protesting.

Those phone numbers go nowhere, except to the drug abuse, discrimination and torture I describe above.  I’ve never been committed thank God, I know what awaits me after 15 years of begging for help after I was raped, the person was found not guilty and ACC started their psychological torture rather than providing the EXTENSIVE treatment and rehabilitation I was entitled to under the LAW – THAT I CAN READ. 10 years of protesting all over social media & getting story after story of the horrendous things that happen in the BIN.  Was told long time ago to NEVER EVER let them commit you Jayne, people who have will and intellect are the biggest target for mental health workers and professionals – only thing they want to do is BREAK YOU.  Nothing I have ever seen since being on this HIGHWAY OF HELL has suggested anything else than mental health services are abusive – especially to those who know the help they are entitled to and desperately need.  Then of course there was the NINE forced moves from homes due to landlords selling up to make a buck, or the violence of a flatmate, or poverty, or an abusive landlord.

A woman I know was put in Arohata for three months last year for being suicidal – I tried to help her but had to be very careful as suicidal people can drain me and make me even more suicidal – not to mention the ongoing untreated bulimia, inability to see a doctor to deal with my kidney problems, diabetes, etc, ticking, phobias, suicidality due to medical neglect and unsafe unstable housing, etc.

Andrew Curtis-Cody head of mental health, as I have said many times before is a mentally disturbed psychopath who is not appropriately qualified and the DHB love him because he abuses, degrades and rejects people to save money for them.

DHB had me dragged through court for months on wilful trespass charges  for legally protesting at Masterton hospital.  At the time my doctor was at Masterton Medical and I couldn’t even see her – though what was the point, when I couldn’t get ACC or mental health services I was entitled to BECAUSE MY MENTAL HEALTH she abused me and dumped me.  i DON’T WANT TO GO ON, I CAN’T STOP CRYING ——————  I almost threw myself in front of a car crossing the road to go to court – I was forced to represent myself and won – it was an horrendous experience.  Ask anybody at Masterton court about me – they are ashamed at way I’m being treated.

I was told by Michael Bott, Human Rights Lawyer,  I was entitled to compensation from DHB for what they did dragging me through court – the letter I received from the CEO was insulting, vicious and took absolutely no responsibility for what they did to me.  I couldn’t follow it up because I didn’t have any money, but Michael did get me off 7 other charges for legally protesting and then there were the six other times police dragged me through court and dropped charges just before trial.  Was arrested with a broken leg in a wheelchair outside Bowen House/Parliament in Wellington for protesting about that.

If you could see the CONTRACT Dr Hunefelt at Carterton Medical forced me to sign, you would understand – it says I am not allowed to say I’m suicidal – THAT IS MY DOCTOR!!!!!!!!!  I can’t even see her any more, I’m terrified of her, when I talked about mental health care she just ignored what I was saying and changed the subject – mental health and ACC had told her I was a time waster, attention seeker and they were never going to give me the services I was entitled to and had in 2009.  I can’t see another doctor either, I’ve had so many bad ones, who just reject and abuse you when they know there is no help for you – they turn on you.

I have won two ACC reviews in 2010 to have my rehabilitation reinstated from 2009, ACC tell me it will be reinstated then REFUSE TO DO IT AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO.  I can’t get a lawyer – ………………………………………………..

That article on suicide prevention will drive even more people to suicide because like me they all know how abusive services are.  After years of research and assessment of the situation I can assure you it is our cruel immoral government who are doing this – they sold out our mental health system to INTERNATIONAL DRUG COMPANIES – PLEASE READ MY SUICIDE PREVENTION SUBMISSION.

As for local media, I wrote Journalists are Maggots years ago to show my disgust in the lies they tell about mental health services and how services have been degraded to the point of marketing and those things they do provide are grossly inadequate, or abusive, AND DEFINITELY DON’T FOLLOW PROFESSIONAL REHABILTATION MODELS.

I have been blocked from emailing complaints to Wairarapa and Hutt Valley DHB for years – I asked Ron Mark to forward a complaint last year but he refused.  I could write a letter I suppose but I would self-harm and begging for help from these abusive, criminally negligent people, as I have done for over a decade.

They dragged me through court for protesting and local police were only too happy to oblige.

NOW I’M UP ON SEVEN CHARGES for screaming for health care I am entitled to – BECAUSE THE MEDICAL NEGLECT HAS MADE ME SUICIDAL – Misuse of a Telephone, 3 for graffiti on court buildings (USING A CHALK PEN) and police station for not being able to get police to prosecute ACC and mental health for illegally denying me care and a safe place to live – for harming me under Sections 150A 151 155 157 of Crimes Act.  Then listening to ACC and prosecuting me for misuse of a telephone, phoning them in the middle fo the night, I only allowed to phone their answerphone.  Two years ago my ACC case manager phoned and promised me my care would be reinstated – SHE LIED.  Been promised so many times – psychological torture is illegal in New Zealand.

……………………………….  Read my blog, that will tell you what is really going on.  Me and so many others know who bad it is but our media and leaders continue to deny what is going on.

Wairarapa community is of course reaping what it sows after 20 years of driving disabled, suicidal and poor out with no social housing and abusive mental health services.  While at the same time spending gross amounts of money on extravagant sports, arts and business promotion projects.  Trust House is full of National party voters & neo-liberal Labour people who completely agree with government not providing housing to disabled poor.

I have written many times and am in continuous contact with Wairarapa News and Wairarapa Times-Age through TWITTER, referring them to this website and telling them the truth of how bad it is for me and so many others – I AM DISCREDITED, DEGRADED AND IGNORED.

How many more people have to die before they listen to the FACTS I present – only reason I don’t act on the horrendous suicidal thoughts in my head that have me often rocking backwards and forwards on the side of my bed telling myself not to go to the knife draw and kill myself – is because I know that is what our cruel neo-liberal government want, that is what mental health and ACC want, that is what the leaders of our community want.  All this propaganda in the paper about how they care is just that propaganda!!!!!!!!!!!!  One day I hope all of you who never been suicidal get to experience the absolutely torture and terror of being suicidal of years on end is.  Along with all the you’ll be right, time waster, nutter, attention seeker, bludger comments you’ll get from your family, ‘friends’, journalists, politicians, & community leaders you’ll get.

I’m trespassed from King Street Artworks for writing poetry and doing art about how bad mental health services are.  I was trespassed for being upset about having my ‘political’ works censored from their annual exhibition because THEY WOULD LOSE THEIR FUNDING IF I WAS ALLOWED TO EXHIBIT IT.  You know a community is in serious decline when they persecute and censor their artists.  Please read through my books of poetry, that will show you what is truly happening in this neo-liberal nightmare of a country.

I make complaints to Health and Disability Commission, Human Rights, HDC Advocacy Services etc etc etc – all ignored.  Apparently you can’t believe anything a ‘MENTALLY ILL’ person says.  I actually have a traumatic stress disorders called Compounding Complex PTSD.  ACC call this a mental injury and have extensive rehabilitation and services they ILLEGALLY DENY people.  My mental injury does not make me stupid or a liar – in fact I have several reports saying I am intelligent, do not have a personality disorder and am not delusional.  That I had to get a report done for the courts saying I wasn’t delusional about the horrendous suffering and neglect I was being subjected to by ACC and mental health has to tell you something about how cruel immoral and corrupt our government are (National and Labour no different but the way).

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Trust House Terrorists – Heart of the Darklands

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This poem that could see me / homeless in the street
For standing up to neo-liberals / crushing poor beneath their feet

They wrap themselves in charity / to cover what they do
Take from the poor, give to the rich / persecute us, not you

Rich and powerful love to build / monuments to their greed
Extravagant sports and arts supporters / and crumbs for those in need

When there’s a housing crisis / they buy a pub or two
Give more to corporate welfare / help fund a giant screw

A hockey turf, a rugby ground / a running track and more
Build a home for businesses / while people knock at their door

Trust House terrorists surround themselves / with the luxuries of life
They’ve never lived for years on end / under the neo-liberal knife

My heart bleeds for the things I see / that nobody will admit
Those that say we should trust / leaders who are not fit

You’ve been radicalised, you’re ignorant / propaganda tells you what to think
While after 30 yrs of this hell / those suffering are on the brink

Disabled poor and abused / cry themselves to sleep
Hoping they will die soon / knowing God their soul will keep

There is no hope in this tragic place / no safety net, not here
Death Valley, Wairarapa / heart of the darklands and of fear

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